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Friends, you may recall a morose, anxious Traaki from last challenge, committed to getting a few job applications done and maybe doing some meditation. Since last we spoke, I've: Been hit by a car on my bicycle (I'm okay, just have a badly bruised hand. It was the first time that's happened to me in over 12 years of bike commuting!) Fallen down some stairs for the worst ankle sprain of my life, [can't find a gif of Laura Dern limping] and... [Giant life news redacted until the appropriate parties are informed] Due to giant life news (update tomorrow after critical parties are informed), sh*t's about to get real. I'm not super sure on the best course of action, so here are some initial quests that are 100% subject to change: 1) Daily Writing -- I want to stay on top of my game with all these big life transitions coming up, and daily journaling helps me with that. I also want to be conscious of what I'm choosing to do during this transition and to make it as mindful and impactful as possible. 2) Take bold action. -- I am not sure what this means, but there are going to be lots of big decisions and I need to be able to make confident decisions and not endlessly waffle. Maybe it's just a mantra for the month. I also want to just tell people what's happening, which is a challenge I always have (I hate surprising people.) 3) Stay calm. -- I"m not 100% sold on some of the major life changes (they're of the "Well it all makes *sense* but is it *right* for me?" type of changes) and found myself awake at 2 am sweaty and anxious. This is *not* like me; I'm a professional grade sleeper. I'm going to leave some space for new goals, and for these goals to shift, mutate or disappear altogether. But I'd like to stay checked in here during this time of transition. In many ways I think the next six weeks are going to be a pretty hard reset on my life, possibly a respawn. We shall see. I'm feeling really frustrated by my injury and subsequent limitations on workouts. I may try to do some pushups and upper body stuff in the next couple days; right now the sprain is bad enough that even just a small wiggle or twitch is painful. I might treat meditation as a workout as long as the injury is here? It's not the same but keeping the time set aside feels like a really good idea and meditation can't hurt. Because the truth is: And it's all gonna be okay, sooner or later.