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So in my last challenge I noticed some interesting things about my habits. I have noticed whenever I over eat or drink, I do the other one. So if I would have a bad lunch at work, it was followed by drinking in the evening, or if I had a drink in the evening I would eat some shitty food and miss my calorie goals. It seems like I have a defeatist attitude for the day as soon as I mess one thing up. Now that I have identified this I am going to hopefully correct it. For this challenge I am going to attempt to continue to eat properly(2,000 calories and < 100 grams of carbs), really cut out drinking(I can think of one event this challenge where I will drink), and focus on having productive days. If I mess up at lunch or during the day, I need to suck it up and continue down doing what I need to do. Each day I will post what I did that day, what I am doing tomorrow, and what roadblocks/problems I had. I also hope to hit smaller weekly chore tasks I assign each week.

As I'm typing this now, my heart is beating faster than normal and it enrages me. Literally have been staring at the screen, trying to talk myself out of doing this but here I am typing away. Actually if it wasn't for friends and family pushing me, I wouldn't be posting this in the first place. Apparently being told "you're being selfish by not sharing it" WAY too many times by WAY too many people makes me feel guilty, and can't have that Why the fuck do I care so much? I worked too damn hard to not show it off, right? Ugggghhhh!!! So here's some perspective, back in high school and years afterward was when I weighed my heaviest. Granted I didn't start my weightloss until much later, but of course I despised getting my picture taken (like most of us) so my senior pictures are the only reference I have as far as before pictures. I FUCKING HATE LOOKING AT THEM!!!! No, seriously, if I didn't have to worry about my mother, I'd rip them all up to shreds. Sometimes seeing those pictures reminds me that I'm still that person, that FAT person. Then when looking in the mirror, I still see her, "Oh Fat Megan, there you are, how horrible it is to see you again." But alas, after years of struggling with losing the weight and medical issues, getting fed up with no results, then trying one last time, I made the lifestyle change. Reflecting now, I feel ashamed about the person I was then. How in the hell did I live life back then? And now, like I did back then, all I want to do is "cover-up" the part of my past. Forget it ever happened, block it from my mind, and move on. I never want to be that lazy ass person again. Scratch that, I WILL never be that lazy ass person again. Well, I don't want to write a novel here (not a writer anyway), so I'll get to it. Here are my before and current pictures (definitely not "after", not done by a long shot) P.S. I apologize for my language, this is a touchy subject for me Also I'm wearing my favorite T Shirt in the picture, "Fight the Dead, Fear the Living" Can't wait for October!!

I'm not sure if NF has one of these already, but I often see these kinds of threads on forums. Personally I like to see the faces behind the names, wether it is at work contacting a supplier or customer, selling something to someone on the internet, forums, etc... I'll start with a picture of myself and invite you to do the same, but feel no obligation to do so! A picture of me with my dog (that I had to leave to my parents when I left the province for work) this spring when I went home to see my parents for Easter weekend!

Hi guys! I came across this in my internet travels. I'm not sure if you've seen it already, but it was kind of neat. A photographer did a series about what various foods look like in quantites of 200 calories. Photo Set Here: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-does-200-calories-look-like.htm I particularily enjoyed the pile of super broccolli. As someone who uses it as a filling snack everyday, I have to say, "Looks about right."