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Nerdfriends!! <3 <3 W E L C O M E! Happy March! (Wow it's March already huh??) Last challenge seemed to kinda be a.... doozy, for a lot of people, self included. I've finally acknowledged that I've really been struggling over the past couple of months! So I've made this extremely basic but very important challenge to reflect that. Gonna jump right into this one because there's really not much to lay out - my only true goal this challenge cycle is to keep moving forward and updating regularly here. March is traditionally a really low month for me at any rate, but many points in my life are Gentle Chaos right now, including but not limited to: - Selling a house!, and going through said house and decluttering, moving things to storage, deciding what to keep and what not, cleaning the living shit out of it, listing it, powerwashing?? the outside?? is this really a thing to wash the brick exterior of your house???, and oh yeah hey where are we gonna go once it's sold??, etc! - Staying financially stable through all of the above! (Also; mentally stable, phew!) - Dealing with some massive work changes I'm not super psyched about but have no control over! (Something something cog in the machine~) - And segueing from that - figuring out if I want to study for and take the CPC! I think it's the next best step right now to furthering my current career and it's material I'm really interested in and also something I could see myself enjoying work-wise, but I'm really still in a massive research stage right now trying to figure out if it would be right for me, and what I'd need to do? Also can I shoulder this massive commitment right now?? Probably not??? (*quiet screech*) - Managing my emotions lately, which can range anywhere from hey I'm feeling super lonely, to hey wow I'm REALLY anxious for no reason, to oh suddenly I'm feeling like all the light has gone out of the world; sometimes all in the course of one day! H o o b o y! - Doing my best to support a very emotional partner who is dealing with a lot of the same things I am! - Plus much much more! Who KNOWS what fun and exciting things may blow my way?! Phew. I've found that making concrete challenge goals right now is just setting myself up to fail, because there is so much going on and it's all so variable that even a weekly checklist can go off the rails real quick at any given moment. SO. Stay stable. Take care of issues that arise. Do the thing. Be present. Keep lifting. Take care of yourself. You keep what you kill. I'm a huge HUGE fan of the Riddick films (yeah even the last one, well, parts of it maybe ugh); Richard B. Riddick is my personal idol and serious badass. In Chronicles, the Necromongers follow the doctrine of 'you keep what you kill', basically meaning whatever you defeat is yours to own and control. I'm looking to work through a lot of personal roadblocks and stressors over the next month, so I need to kill them and own them before they own me. These 4 weeks will be a stream of consciousness sort of deal; I guess more of a running journal than anything. I'm generally a highly optimistic and positive person, but I've had a lot on my plate lately and it's time to scale it back so I can continue to stay that way and not flame out like a dying star. My smaller goals will be variable and I'll post them as they come, and I'm gonna do my best to take 'em out and stay present. Easy? Totally. Kill it; keep it. I got this.