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I am Odinson_Rising, and I truly feel unworthy. The path is rocky and sometimes treacherous, but the challenges and obstacles in my way should provide opportunities for improvement. Should. Right now, I'm having trouble framing my challenges in that way. It's important for me to acknowledge that struggle to myself because I don't believe I'll otherwise be able to overcome it. I will overcome that struggle. Here's what I've been doing: I start with a decent breakfast, if I eat at all. Today's was 3 eggs w/ 2 sausage patties and some cinnamon stewed apples - like super chunky applesauce. So good. But I'm extra tired today, so I wander down to the hospital cafeteria for some sugar free energy drinks. Not ideal, I know, but there you go. Upon grabbing my drinks, I notice cheesecake and chocolate glazed eclairs. Me: Mine. Also Me: Wait, what? I don't really want these things. Not only are they instruments of sugary sabotage, but I'm not even hungry! I ate three eggs and two sausage patties; how much room can there possibly still be? But I want them. Oh. Well, in that case, carry on. Lets go get physically uncomfortable at work. So what happened to the 250-pounder who, despite being mostly unprepared, gutted out a Tough Mudder and stomped through the Electroshock Therapy obstacle with arms outstretched instead of running and dodging? Where's the guy who studied for, and earned the CompTIA Security+ certification without classes or a study partner? Where's the tutoring superhero who had a reputation for learning content on the fly and paraphrasing it in just the right way that it could be understood by whichever student he was helping? What happened to him? I know part of the answer to all of that. I can identify a handful of critical moments, when a decision or action changed my course, and moved me away from that guy. They moved me away from who I want to be. Now it's time to take action, make use of that knowledge, and get back to work. I need to find that guy and get him back in the mix. This is zero day. Today, I will identify a handful of goals, flesh them out, break them down into subquests where possible, and begin to formulate a plan to get from here to there. I will also take my before pictures, although I don't plan to share them, unless I find there's a pressing reason. Let's go to work.