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Something has changed within me, something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes... and leap! Okay... I'll stop with the lyrics! I realised that it's crazy that I've gone so long without a musicals themed challenge! I'm through accepting limits 'cause someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change, but 'til I try I'll never know. I care too much about what people think... I'm not going to make that my challenge, but it's something that I'm aware of. This is more about the run-up to my next competition, which is the day after the challenge finishes. I'm fluctuating between absolutely terrified and just utterly resigned. I'm training in such a different way that I think things are going really well but I don't often push myself. I suspect that I can make some progress in this comp but it's not going to be show-stoppingly awesome. Powerlifting is all about defying gravity, as it's your real competitor. I'd like to beat it a little better than last time, kthxbai. Anyway, the goal here is to just keep training, to try to stay calm, not to tell myself that there are limits but just to shut up and lift! The other part is to do my MFing accessory work. Seriously, @Jaymul, can you nag me? Perhaps, just perhaps, I'll be unlimited... As someone told me lately, "Everyone deserves a chance to fly." And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free I'm finally getting my lifting classes off the starting line. The challenge here is to get them started. Assess after each session (I'll share my thoughts on here) and gain confidence. This is ALL me and I'm terrified. I also need to register as self-employed, set up my online accountancy stuff and remember to invoice the gym for each session! Not really going to treat them as goals, but they're things I need to do at some point. Nobody in all of Oz, no wizard that there is or was, is ever going to bring me down! Two parts here... Both about being happy and doing things that make me happy. One, get back to singing. I suck now, but I spent years training as a singer and then let nasty comments bring me down. I stopped singing altogether when I got together with Grant because he basically hides when I sing. The goal here is to make time once a week to get to my piano and sing and share a short video with you guys. I'm really, really self-conscious about singing now, so I need to build some confidence back up. The second part is to make time for Grant and to spend one night a week playing games with him or going on a proper date. When it comes down to it, he's my best friend. This isn't officially part of the singing challenge, but this is a song that made me think of you guys. (Yes, I know it's not good... but it's unrehearsed and I'm ill today. )