Ensi Posted December 18, 2017 Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 Welcome to the 2018 battle log of a modern Pirate, Carbon Fox! I will track my challenges of 2018 here, and I aim to become a balanced and Those of you, who have been with me all year long, know that 2017 has been a pretty eye-opening year for me…! There was this whole realization that I had serious issues with my relationship with food, which helped me see that I had/have a deep-rooted belief that I am worthless and difficult to love. I’ve spent most of the year learning a whole new way of looking at myself and my life in general, and it’s been a mixed bag of emotions: I’ve been relieved to let go of some old beliefs, but grieved of letting go of familiar things at the same time, if that makes any sense. I also finished my thesis, which was mentally tolling, suffered a heartbreak + an identity crisis, had some financial worries, and got myself a second job to earn some money. Well, that’s life, and I think I can say that I have done my very best to deal with everything. And after dealing with all the challenges this year, I do feel like my quality of life has improved significantly this past year I used to think that I’m a loner and hate people, but after a few years of spending time with actual friends and lovely/supportive people + working on my negative beliefs, I now enjoy having friends around me and I understand just how supportive close friends can be. I just feel like I’m emotionally closer to people these days, and I am making a conscious effort to notice what I have in common with others instead of thinking how different or unfitting I am. I have met some wonderful people this year (hello new NF friends!), and I’d like to believe that I’m worth of receiving unconditional love and support – and that I’m capable of giving unconditional love and support, too! So, all in all, I think I'm in a much better mental place than I was at the beginning of 2017. I’m now gonna make a short recap of 2017 and write down some goals and guidelines for 2018. I’ve been struggling with goal setting this year because of my recovery (how to set goals without restricting myself?), but I recently realized that setting goals doesn’t mean that I need to control myself 24/7. I can make goals that I’m happy to follow. 2017 RECAP MENTAL HEALTH anxiety levels are waaaaay down from January 2017 eating disorder recovery. 10/10 would recommend I don’t base my worth on my diet choices or my grades or my work I like the idea of getting to know new people, and I know how to set up boundaries I enjoy spending time with people NUTRITION from diets to intuitive eating no anxiety about certain food groups (carbs are the best!!) no more labelling foods good or bad -> I’m not good or bad (I’m evil) awareness that some foods make me feel better than others more food -> not thinking about food all the time not feeling out of control around food FITNESS eating more carbs -> actual gainz!! I now believe that I can follow a programme and get stronger started working with startbodyweight.com programmes I can do push-ups! STUDIES finished my thesis completed all the courses for my master’s degree made plans to continue computer science studies WORK had a summer internship at the library odd jobs at the library during autumn got myself a second job at the laundry got a fulltime job from January to June 2018 FINANCES got student support from the social services earned money at the library a second job at the laundry ** 2018 TREASURE MAP You know what 2018 needs?MORE LOOT. I have neglected fun and relaxation, but that’s gonna change now. I’ve actually taken some steps to make space for more fun already, but now I’m taking it seriously. No, wait… I’m also terrible at rewarding myself for my efforts. I will have some special loot for completing every challenge this year to keep me excited I think all the mental health work I have done during 2017 helps me to start 2018 like no other year before! I suffered from some depression and exhaustion at the end of 2017, so I’m going to start 2018 lightly with a recovery January. Should be fun! <3 WHERE I WANT TO BE IN JUNE 2018 MENTAL HEALTH I manage my stress levels and practice positive self-talk. I believe that I’m a likable person, just as everyone else, and deserve love and attention. I take enough time for myself to have fun, and I sometimes take the day off from work and studies all together. I have taken the university's free stress management course in January and continued to apply the techniques I've learned I manage my disordered eating habits by filling my life with things that bring me joy: hobbies, art, spending time with friends, travelling, exploring my own home town, having Introvert Pampering nights, watching movies… I have finally bought myself a PlayStation 4. Ha! NUTRITION I practice intuitive eating. I enjoy food, and eat it to nourish myself. I eat mostly home-made meals. I am aware that the foods I eat can make me feel different ways, but no food makes me good or bad. I don’t think about my diet or my food choices all the time. ... but I am curious about how different foods make me feel, and I am taking some notes to find out, which foods suit me the best. I have spent the spring building myself my own food guidelines, which I follow whenever possible. FITNESS I aim for flexibility and a good sense of my body -> yoga, bodyweight exercises I started the year by taking it easier in January, treating my exhaustion with yoga and light bodyweight exercises (and push-ups, yo). From February onwards, I have continued with the progressions at startbodyweight.com. I go out for walks in the nature, and I enjoy biking trips. I do a workout from Darebee every now and then for fun! STUDIES I have applied for the master’s degree in computer science, and attended an entrance exam for bachelor’s degree in CS. This doubles my chances of getting in I have created 5 new projects for my coding portfolio during spring, and I am eager to learn about new web technologies and design trends. WORK I have gained work experience and made new connections. I have asked people for help, when I’ve needed it, but taken responsibility about my own work. I have kept my eyes open and discussed what I could do for the library with my computer science knowledge in the future. I have sold five (5) art commissions. FINANCES I have continued living sparingly, and saved a good part of my salary every month. By now, I should have enough money in my savings account to pay my rent for the next year. I am also going to find out about the possible support I could get for my second master's degree from the social services. ** ... that's about it, I think! This plan is for the first six months of 2018, and I will plan for the rest of the year later on. I'm super excited to start planning my challenges and goals - and loot! I have a feeling that it's going to be a good year And of course, I'll be rambling on NF forums all year long I'm interested to try some co-op gameplay this year...! But I will think about it a bit more later on. Thank you all for being so supportive, lovely and pervy. Let's have a wonderful year 2018! 7 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 18, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 January 1 to February 4: Challenge 1 Feb 12 to March 11: Challenge 2 March 19 to April 15: Challenge 3 April 23 to May 20: Challenge 4 May 28 to June 24: Challenge 5 July 9 - August 5: Challenge 6 August 13 to September 9: Challenge 7 September 17 to October 14: Challenge 8 October 22 to November 18: Challenge 9 November 26 to December 23: Challenge 10 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
Shello Posted December 18, 2017 Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 I love your plans for 2018. I'm certainly sticking around to watch the magic happen, but not in a creepy stalker way... Well maybe only a little. 2 Quote Race: Amazonian Ogre Princess | Class: Ranger | Profession: SuperHero | Affiliation: Doodlie and Pancake for Life Respawn Challenge Arcs: 2021 | 2022 I am not saying I am Wonder Woman. I am just saying no one has ever seen me and Wonder Woman together in the same room. Original Spawn Challenges 2014 - 2020: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12 , 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, ?? Roadmaps: 2016 | 2017 | 2018 | 2019 | 2020 Starting weight = 290.4 (2014); Current weight = 241.2; Total pounds lost: 49.2 Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 18, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 1 hour ago, LadyShello said: I love your plans for 2018. I'm certainly sticking around to watch the magic happen, but not in a creepy stalker way... Well maybe only a little. The Doodlie way, then? I will send you a package next year. Get ready. *deep breathing on the phone* 1 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
deftona Posted December 18, 2017 Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 Commenting to reserve my place here, I will read it in a sec! Quote If it's not siesta or fiesta, I'm not interested. Profile picture credit : NF's resident super artist - NinjaKitten Link to comment
Lara Posted December 18, 2017 Report Share Posted December 18, 2017 Ahoy, matey! You certainly had a packed year! And you look ambitious for the new one (or at least those first 6 months that you're letting us see). I'll be around, hoping you'll accomplish everything and more! ♪Ho ho blow the year down♫ 1 Quote Link to comment
WhiteGhost Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 10 hours ago, LadyShello said: I love your plans for 2018. I'm certainly sticking around to watch the magic happen, but not in a creepy stalker way... Well maybe only a little. I guess that means I have to be the creepy stalker one? OK then, don't mind me, I'm just going to make myself comfortable in the bushes over here with my binoculars 11 hours ago, Ensi said: I have met some wonderful people this year (hello new NF friends!), and I’d like to believe that I’m worth of receiving unconditional love and support – and that I’m capable of giving unconditional love and support, too! Absolutely worthy, and capable! I don't know you well yet, but I am looking forward to being one of your 2018 NF friends 2 Quote HUNTER OF ALL THINGS SHINY Intro Thread Challenge Log Bodyweight Exercise Library Recipe Book Shuffle Club Level 2 Ninja Strength: 13 Intelligence: 14 Wisdom: 6 Dexterity:14 Constitution: 12 Charisma: 11 Link to comment
deftona Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 I really love your plans for 2018 and i look forward to getting booty with you! 1 Quote If it's not siesta or fiesta, I'm not interested. Profile picture credit : NF's resident super artist - NinjaKitten Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 19, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 10 hours ago, zenLara said: Ahoy, matey! You certainly had a packed year! And you look ambitious for the new one (or at least those first 6 months that you're letting us see). I'll be around, hoping you'll accomplish everything and more! ♪Ho ho blow the year down♫ Thanks Lara!! It's been nice to get to know you this year I'm ambitious, for sure, but I am also going to practice stress management and have fun! 3 hours ago, WhiteGhost said: I guess that means I have to be the creepy stalker one? OK then, don't mind me, I'm just going to make myself comfortable in the bushes over here with my binoculars Absolutely worthy, and capable! I don't know you well yet, but I am looking forward to being one of your 2018 NF friends Thanks, WG!! If you need any snacks in the bush, just throw a rock through the window or something, and I'll throw you a bag of peanuts... I hope you're not allergic? #treatyostalkerright2k18 57 minutes ago, deftona said: I really love your plans for 2018 and i look forward to getting booty with you! Yay!! I actually got hips this year (that's where all the carbs went), and I'll work the booty with you in 2018 3 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
Lara Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 5 hours ago, WhiteGhost said: I guess that means I have to be the creepy stalker one? OK then, don't mind me, I'm just going to make myself comfortable in the bushes over here with my binoculars Binoculars... Aren't amateurs cute? *checks all hidden cameras at Ensi's and Deffy's are operational* 1 2 Quote Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 19, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 9 minutes ago, zenLara said: *checks all hidden cameras at Ensi's and Deffy's are operational* Let me help you check... Is the picture clear enough? Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
Lara Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 18 minutes ago, Ensi said: Let me help you check... Is the picture clear enough? Don't make me start on another gif war. Let's keep your shiny new thread clean Quote Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 19, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 4 hours ago, zenLara said: Don't make me start on another gif war. Let's keep your shiny new thread clean 1 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 I love seeing all of your awesome achievements and plans for the year! Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes Her Own Hero Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, #61, #62, #63 Link to comment
deftona Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 Binoculars... Aren't amateurs cute? *checks all hidden cameras at Ensi's and Deffy's are operational**whispers*I know you watch. That's why I stopped doing that disgusting thing I always used to do. 1 Quote If it's not siesta or fiesta, I'm not interested. Profile picture credit : NF's resident super artist - NinjaKitten Link to comment
Lara Posted December 19, 2017 Report Share Posted December 19, 2017 7 hours ago, Ensi said: 5 hours ago, deftona said: *whispers* I know you watch. That's why I stopped doing that disgusting thing I always used to do. I kind of liked it. Please, keep doing it. 1 1 Quote Link to comment
WhiteGhost Posted December 20, 2017 Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 I need to upgrade to some night vision x-ray binoculars or something. I am clearly missing out here 1 2 Quote HUNTER OF ALL THINGS SHINY Intro Thread Challenge Log Bodyweight Exercise Library Recipe Book Shuffle Club Level 2 Ninja Strength: 13 Intelligence: 14 Wisdom: 6 Dexterity:14 Constitution: 12 Charisma: 11 Link to comment
Lara Posted December 20, 2017 Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 5 hours ago, WhiteGhost said: I need to upgrade to some night vision x-ray binoculars or something. I am clearly missing out here Noob. 1 Quote Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 20, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 2 minutes ago, zenLara said: Noob. Hey, be kind! We're here to build each other up to become the best stalkers that we can be! 1 1 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
WhiteGhost Posted December 20, 2017 Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 1 hour ago, Ensi said: Hey, be kind! We're here to build each other up to become the best stalkers that we can be! Thank you! Some of us are just getting started on this whole stalker thing but with time and everyone's help, I am sure I can become a first-rate stalker that would make you all proud 1 1 Quote HUNTER OF ALL THINGS SHINY Intro Thread Challenge Log Bodyweight Exercise Library Recipe Book Shuffle Club Level 2 Ninja Strength: 13 Intelligence: 14 Wisdom: 6 Dexterity:14 Constitution: 12 Charisma: 11 Link to comment
deftona Posted December 20, 2017 Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 Thank you! Some of us are just getting started on this whole stalker thing but with time and everyone's help, I am sure I can become a first-rate stalker that would make you all proud [emoji3] Let me know just before you turn the cameras on at my place. There are a few more disgusting things it's too late to save Lara from but it's not too late for you. Quote If it's not siesta or fiesta, I'm not interested. Profile picture credit : NF's resident super artist - NinjaKitten Link to comment
Lara Posted December 20, 2017 Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 1 hour ago, WhiteGhost said: I am sure I can become a first-rate stalker that would make you all proud You still have a lot to learn about liking posts that are a month old... 1 hour ago, deftona said: Let me know just before you turn the cameras on at my place. There are a few more disgusting things it's too late to save Lara from but it's not too late for you. NONONONO! If he's a stalker, he's a stalker, he sucks it up and watches EVERYTHING. 1 2 Quote Link to comment
Ensi Posted December 20, 2017 Author Report Share Posted December 20, 2017 1 hour ago, zenLara said: NONONONO! If he's a stalker, he's a stalker, he sucks it up and watches EVERYTHING. That's more like it <3 3 Quote -:*~ Journal ~*:- Link to comment
WhiteGhost Posted December 21, 2017 Report Share Posted December 21, 2017 16 hours ago, zenLara said: You still have a lot to learn about liking posts that are a month old... I'm more if a 'real time' stalker, so as soon as something gets posted, I'm all up in there reading it. Reading months years old posts is only spare time stalking to catch up on all the posts from the beginning of time 2 Quote HUNTER OF ALL THINGS SHINY Intro Thread Challenge Log Bodyweight Exercise Library Recipe Book Shuffle Club Level 2 Ninja Strength: 13 Intelligence: 14 Wisdom: 6 Dexterity:14 Constitution: 12 Charisma: 11 Link to comment
Lara Posted March 16, 2018 Report Share Posted March 16, 2018 But... but... where are all those updates you promised on your challenge thread? Quote Link to comment
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