Spezzy keeps health a priority.

[spezzy]

This challenge I need y'all more than ever. This likely should be a druid challenge, but I'm overthinking where to put it and I'm a warrior, so here I am.

 

 

My grandmother, who pretty much raised me alongside my mother, is currently in hospice and we don't really know how long or anything. She's 95 and had a good 90-93 healthy years, and is not in pain, and she's ready to go see my grandfather who passed over 50 years ago, so it's not tragic or unexpected, but I'm really not okay. I will be, but right now I'm just very heartbroken. And that's normal and okay. 

 

This challenge will be a lot of travel, grieving, and my lifting is not a priority right now.

 

And that's okay, too. 

 

But alongside this, I need to make sure that my health stays a priority. This week, I've maybe eaten 2 actual meals and I've made it to the gym once, and sleep pretty much hasn't happened at all. And she would be so extremely upset to find out I haven't been taking care of myself.

 

So this challenge is going to be simple:

1) Move every day, at least 20 minutes. This can be a walk, a yoga class, or a lifting session. Numbers don't matter. I might even drop in on some crossfit classes. I just need to move and keep up some fitness. Lifting will always be here for me to come back to.

2) Eat at least 1 full, solid meal every day, with a vegetable.

3) Meditate 3x a week. I know this has been a goal for a while, and I've failed at it, but I think it's super important right now as a part of the grieving process. 

 

And that's it. No crazy numbers, no meets, no wilks goals. Just getting through this and healing. 

 

 

[Ravis]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[CourtnieMarie]

you already talked through and hit on all the points that a supportive NFer like me would say. you're right. it's okay to be heart broken, it's okay that lifting is not a priority, and yes you're grandmother would be upset to find out you weren't taking care of yourself. go eat, sleep, and meditate <3

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

I can't imagine how difficult this is for you. When I saw that picture on FB I had no idea what it represents. I'm here for you.

[spezzy]

6 hours ago, Ravis said:

❤️❤️❤️❤️

 

<3!!!

 

[spezzy]

4 hours ago, CourtnieMarie said:

you already talked through and hit on all the points that a supportive NFer like me would say. you're right. it's okay to be heart broken, it's okay that lifting is not a priority, and yes you're grandmother would be upset to find out you weren't taking care of yourself. go eat, sleep, and meditate <3

 

<3!

 

3 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

I can't imagine how difficult this is for you. When I saw that picture on FB I had no idea what it represents. I'm here for you.

 

Yeah. That was from a few years ago, but I love how happy she looks. She's a very important lady to a lot of people. and thank you!!! <3

[spezzy]

starting now because I need to start now

 

1) We went to the gym here in Virginia, did:

Deadlifts: 325x8

 

then muscleups:

5 

3

2

1

 

then handstand walks

toes to bar

and some one arm kettlebell floor presses

 

 

today for food I had:

protein pancakes for breakfast

then broccoli, sweet potato, and chicken thighs for dinner

RxBar as a snack

 

so food has been good.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

The still on that video is one badass deadlifting pic. I love the camera shake when the weights come down.

[miss_marissa]

<3 sorry to hear about your grandmother. 

 

It sounds like you're doing all the right things to take care of yourself though. Here if you ever need to talk!

[Gemma]

(((virtual hug)))

 

Your goals are amazing. I'm sure your grandmother would be proud to know that you have grown the wisdom to take care of yourself even in grief. That is a hard thing to do. 

[spezzy]

On 12/29/2017 at 7:48 AM, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

The still on that video is one badass deadlifting pic. I love the camera shake when the weights come down.

 

haha I love that too. My main gym that doesn't happen anymore and it's sad.

[spezzy]

On 12/29/2017 at 2:49 PM, miss_marissa said:

<3 sorry to hear about your grandmother. 

 

It sounds like you're doing all the right things to take care of yourself though. Here if you ever need to talk!

 

Thank you!!! <3

[spezzy]

2 hours ago, Gemma said:

(((virtual hug)))

 

Your goals are amazing. I'm sure your grandmother would be proud to know that you have grown the wisdom to take care of yourself even in grief. That is a hard thing to do. 

 

Thank you! I think that I very much follow in her footsteps when I take care of everyone else first, and then myself, which is a conversation her and I had many times (I'd always tell her to take care of herself too!). So here's to trying to make it work, hah!

[Raxie]

So sorry about your grandmother That is a really lovely picture of the two of you.  Glad you're making sure to continue to take care of yourself during all this, though.

 

[Cataleya]

My grandmother passed away this past summer, sounds like somewhat similar situations. Had a pretty good 80-85 years of life, but my grandfather passed away almost 20 years ago now and she's been ready to go since then. Developed dementia, spent the last few years in a nursing home, and then had a stroke this past summer and just... went. Grieving was difficult because there were a variety of emotions, including happiness that she passed away and was no longer suffering, and just sadness that she spent so long without my grandfather, who she loved more than anyone or anything. But according to her belief system, she is now with him. But yes, lots of complicated and not okay feelings. If you need to talk, I'm happy to listen and/or provide insight, though our situations aren't exactly the same.

[raptron]

On 12/31/2017 at 11:15 AM, spezzy said:

 

Thank you! I think that I very much follow in her footsteps when I take care of everyone else first, and then myself, which is a conversation her and I had many times (I'd always tell her to take care of herself too!). So here's to trying to make it work, hah!

Hugs. Best of luck with this. <3 

[spezzy]

Sooo the last few days have been rough. She passed on 1/1. I'm headed back to Boston Thursday-Monday for the services. 

 

I bought programming for the next few months so I don't have to think about it at all. I'm actually really excited about the programming. So that's a start. I've also gone this week every day so far.

 

Monday was:

Work up to a heavy power clean + 5 push press: 135

Snatch pulls: 5x5 at 145

Pullups - 4x10

Back Squat - 3x6 at 205

Knee to Elbow: 4x10

 

Today was:

Bench Press 3x3 at 155

Incline Bench Press 2x10

Dips 3x8

Flyes 2x15

Waiter's walk 4x25 steps per hand

Close grip bench 2x10

 

I also decided I think I want to try to get up and make the bed and get dressed and look nice every day because that was something that was really important to her.

[Cataleya]

I'm so sorry spezzy *hugs* We are here for you.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

So sorry Spezzy. 

1 hour ago, spezzy said:

I also decided I think I want to try to get up and make the bed and get dressed and look nice every day because that was something that was really important to her.

That sounds like a wonderful way to honor her memory.

[Sloth the Enduring]

I'm sorry Spezzy.

[Tateman]

Sorry to hear. I saw you post on Instagram about it. 

[CourtnieMarie]

<3 so sorry spezzy. let us know if you need anything while you're in town. even if it's just a buddy in the gym.

[Raxie]

I'm so sorry   I think doing something a little extra in the mornings in her honor is really lovely.

[Grumble]

Remember all the happy moments and know she's with your grandfather. It doesn't help the immediate grief, but it's a small step toward finding that light. I'm sorry for your loss. It's obvious you loved each other dearly.

[miss_marissa]

Sorry for your pain. I hope you have a safe trip.