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Sooooo, this is kind of a reboot, well okay it's a complete reboot. I've been off the challenge boards for .... a long time (has it been a year? or even longer??) and I wish I could say I kept fit in the meanwhile but I didn't :shame:

 

I did well in many other ways, got independant in my work and love it, even though it means temporarily less income. Deepened my meditation practice and love it, both in my work as well as personally. In consequence dropped a lot of stress, tension and short temper with kids, I guess my whole family loves that :D

 

At the same time I got lazy though in terms of fitness. Budget cuts led to dropping the pole classes, I didn't kick myself to do any at home, started going to yoga classes again instead which are cheaper and closer by, but somehow didn't make it there regularly either (many excuses, but none really valid) and now I lost so much strength and gained so much weight back that I look a far cry from my profile pic :( 

 

So no more of this!!

 

If I could change shape before, I can do it again!

After all I am a fire dragon ;)

 

Will start slowly to make sure I have no excuses and build up over the coming challenges some more.

 

What is really important to me is that fitness does not prioritize over work. Simply because work means income and as much freedom I have being self-employed and working from home, as tempting it is to procrastinate on anything that doesn't have a scheduled appointment and oooof I'm REALLY easy to fall for procrastination! So in the past whenever my fitness picked up, my work slowed down and right now I simply can't afford that.

A good balance it will have to be. Ideally I'll shed some body abundance and gain some financial abundance instead ^_^

 

Will still give it my best, of course, will just have to give my best on both work and fitness. You guys will hold me accountable, please shout at me when I slack and just ask me if I'm truly giving it my all. Thank youuuuuuuuu

 

Here goes 

 

 

Shape Shifting Part 1

 

My motivation theme for this series of challenges (I might need more than one ;) ) is the world of His Dark Materials by Philip Pullman. The people there have demons each which are like a part of their soul that lives in a separate body yet close to them all the time. The demon is usually in the shape of an animal and children's demons can shift from one animal shape to another quite often and easily. As they turn to teenagers the demons then settle on one shape which they will stay in for the rest of their lives. For the series of these challenges, I'd like to become as flexible, courageous, energetic and curious again as a child. So I will aim for three shapes of demon to have part of me turn into:

 

Octopus - Strength 

If I feel a bit squishy around my middle, I might as well get strong squishy :P Octopus are awesome beasts though... strong, nimble and very adaptive. I'll have to build versatile strength for this one.

 

Daily 10 

Doing 10 chin ups from tip toe, 10 knee push ups (yes, that's how weak I've gotten :o ) and 10 knee tucks from hanging - every single day, no excuses

 

120 minutes of yoga / week 

Becoming not just strong but also nimble again, one session at a time. Yoga classes go over 90 minutes, so I have to go more than once or do some extra at home to achieve this. I know it will be so worth it!

 

Caribou - Endurance

This goal is mixing fitness and work, it's my "just keep going" goal as every step will get me lighter on my journey and closer to my work projects

 

10 000 steps per day

counting with my fitbit over course of the day; working from home I get max 3000 - 4000 steps per day, in order to get the 10 000 steps in I have to go for about an hour walk, which will have the extra benefit of fresh air and temperature resilience, yay

 

30 minutes writing per day

I've been asked by quite a few people now, if I can't write a book on meditation as they love my guided ones... and yeah I'd totally love to do that, have just never ventured out to actually do it. I get inspired and all enthusiastic and as soon as I sit down to write anything, all the doubts rush in and tell me I don't have anything worthwhile to say and the whole blablabla. The thing is I won't know if I have it in me or not, if I never write it! Have started writing notes and snippets over the last 18 months and now it's time to give it some more shape. It doesn't matter if I add more snippets in those 30 minutes or structure and assemble what is there already, as long as I spend the time focused undistracted on the project.

 

 

Eagle - Farsight

 

45 minutes or more personal meditation per day, to detach and rise to larger perspective again; the goal is to surrender into the unlimited field of the loving intelligence that creates life and co-create from there. Venturing into unknown possibilities again and again until I dare do more of that in every day life as well. This practice varies from day to day in how well I can open up for it, but in general it makes me really happy, confident and inspired, plus I do feel a strong health benefit as well. Currently I use the meditations of Dr. Joe Dispenza, very cool stuff!
 

 

Let's go conquer water, land and skies :)

 

Happy challenging everyone and thanks for having me back :cheerful:

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Welcome back to the madness! :D:D Life is nothing if not a series of reboots as you grow and change over the years, so they are never a bad thing! :lol:

 

It looks like you've got some great goals for easing back into the Awesome Fire Dragon of Awesomeness lifestyle and a great starting theme! I love the daemons from Dark Materials, they were the best magical sidekicks just because there was no limit to what they could settle into. :)

 

...Now go do some work! ;):lol:

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13 hours ago, karinajean said:

hi and welcome back! you sound great, and the challenge looks really awesome. I love the His Dark Materials series.

 

Thanks :cheerful:

They are such great stories. Listened to them years ago and got the pre-story "La belle sauvage" recently and found I had forgotten so much, I relistened to the whole trilogy again after. They always make me marvel at the mysteries of our own world here as well. Wouldn't mind having an alethiometer at times ... but then that is what I consider meditation. Training to read it every day

 

11 hours ago, UnquietBones said:

Welcome back to the madness! :D:D Life is nothing if not a series of reboots as you grow and change over the years, so they are never a bad thing! :lol:

 

It looks like you've got some great goals for easing back into the Awesome Fire Dragon of Awesomeness lifestyle and a great starting theme! I love the daemons from Dark Materials, they were the best magical sidekicks just because there was no limit to what they could settle into. :)

 

...Now go do some work! ;):lol:

 

It really is and I love fresh starts anyway, so :)

 

Thank you!! Oh is that how you spell their daemons... makes sense, thanks. I only listened to the stories as audio books so never know any of the spelling, will correct it in my first post, because also this looks way cooler :lol: Yip best magical sidekicks ever

 

This morning as I meditated one of our cats snuggled up real close as if she truly was my sidekick. Very cute. She often does that, also loves when I do yoga, so I actually do have a sidekick in physical form as well. 

 

Thanks for the cheer :cheerful:

Proud to report 90 minutes of work on meditation book, yayyy
Did it right after meditation and it went real well today.

 

Well technically it's not the actual book draft yet, because I am invited to lecture at a local spiritual bookstore on the healing power of breathing and meditation techniques in two weeks time and I was working on my concept for that. But it involves a lot of what I want to put into the book anyway, so it will help towards both goals. Am getting a bit nervous about the lecture as it approaches, but am mostly very excited, because I get to teach what I love. Now I must just work out some details still, put together an informative sheet for people to take home with keypoint reminders for the actual practise at home and try out the timing. I'd like to have it part lecture for understanding the effects and part practical experience where I guide the audience through a couple of breathing exercises and later on a 20 minute meditation. There is so much I'd like to tell people, but I mustn't cram too much in of course and there should still be time for questions at the end...

 

10 hours ago, Elastigirl said:

Welcome back!

 

Thank you :love_heart:

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1 hour ago, elizevdmerwe said:

I'm so happy you are back! I'm playing catch up on the forum, but definitely here to support you all the way! :loyal:

 

Thank youuuuuuu :love_heart:

 

I'm still catching up as well and I probably won't ever completely because it's just impossible :D too much awesomeness about

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Daily 10  - DONE

 

Chin ups from tip toe 3/2/1/2/1/1/1
Knee push ups 10

Knee tucks 10

 

Yoga - none yet 

 

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10 000 steps - DONE

went for slippery walk but a lot easier than in the gif only with drizzling rain. Which I didn't even notice much as hubby came along and we had a lovely chat on the walk. Do you guys also always have the best conversations during walks or hikes? Something about this...

 

30 minutes writing - DONE

acutally did at least 90 minutes, so yay :)

 

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Meditation - DONE

 

Did the Tuning Into New Potentials meditation guided by Dr Joe and took probably the first 20 minutes to calm down my mind and really stay present. Even though we currently get up at 5 am to do this (hubby joins me, huge yay on that!!!) and normally I am so drowsy still I don't have any trouble... anyhow after that it went well and I felt great after. 

 

Had a glass of freshly squeezed lemon, big glass of water to it, then a lovely hot tea and off I went to do the writing. How good can a day start :)

Ooooooh, I love holidays....

 

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I realize I have a lot of water in my legs currently. Seems more after walking - shouldn't that like pump it up better? I should probably know this from healing practitioner training but somehow I don't and am confused. Will watch my carb intake a bit better, and maybe go for some foot baths with salt? Can't harm either way

 

Any other ideas?

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Today I am amazed yet again at how big a range of emotions we have and how distant the other side feels when we are in one. Warning ramblings ahead, so I'll put them into a spoiler for you ;) 

Spoiler

 

Like yesterday afternoon I suddenly slipped into worry after worry and ended up in tense fear - about my health which I normally never worry about, about our finances which I am used to worrying about for most of my life, even though we have had really good times as well,... so weird. 

 

I took care to be kind to myself, went for my walk with hubby, which cheered me up as he was in really high spirits at that time. Took a nice hot bath and cooked supper for everyone. Listened to Anita Moorjani's "Dying to be me" audio book and wondered what my life would be like if I felt utterly safe and had nothing to necessarily achieve. That shifted something tangibly, I could feel. But more like an idea opening up on the horizon, not so much a tangible experience of it yet.

 

Before going to bed I trained a bit with the emWave 2 that I treated myself to a few weeks back. It's a measuring device for heart coherence developed by the Heart Math Institute and quite cool! It measures the heart rate variability which in turn tells you how coherent your heart rhythmn is. Turns out the heart has it's own brain so to say because it has neurons that work the same as the brain ones, and guess what: the heart neurons send more signals to the brain neurons than the other way round!! Isn't that interesting? So anyway, that is why I'd like to train my heart coherence, because a harmonious healthy heart rhythm will send coherent signals to the brain and then the brain sends more coordinated and healthier signals to the entire body.

 

Last night I watched a slide show of pictures and affirmations that usually help me into a state of gratitude and hopefully train me for opening up to new potentials, but my coherence was a lot lower than normal. I'd soar along fine and suddenly without conscious clue slide down to the bottom :blink:

Then I did the plain obvious and finally focused on enjoying my intake of breath and relaxing on the exhale - which is what I do in some version in each meditation I guide for others, so duh!! Finally did it for myself and lo and behold my coherence went up again :lol: silly me, doing things all tense and serious because I am "training"

 

I added another 10 minutes with just watching the emWave lights go up and down to guide my breathing pace and could feel myself relax as my coherence went up. Got thinking about something (even good things), obviously tensed up anyway and slipped again, got back to breathing focus and rose again.... this went on up and down several times but way less than in the first round. Afterwards I went to sleep a lot calmer.

 

This training is so interesting: it's like a relaxing state but still awake and when I feel happy or in love with someone or something my coherence soars superfast. As soon as I "concentrate" I crash. What I'd like to lear is how to focus on something I aim for and still stay relaxed and happy enough to be coherent, because I have a suspicion this is where a lot of my so far stumbling blocks lie.

 

It also made me realize how much I had neglected feeling my actual body and vibration while in meditation or movement or anything at all! Whoa there

So this morning as I focused on the various energy centers in meditation, I simply surrendered into them, like letting myself fall into them and just be there. Feel, be and trust life to do anything that needs to be done.

 

IT FELT SOOOOOO GOOD!!

 

Kept doing that and all the tension from yesterday started to soften. What had freaked my out yesterday afternoon so much was a shooting pain at the outer side of my right breast and about 20 years ago, when I was heading for my healing pracitioner exam and feeling quite overwhelmed and stressed out, I had some lumps there, right at the same place. The lumps went away after a homeopathic treatment and me falling pregnant. Not sure if the homeopathic treatment did the trick or the pregnancy as pregnancy softens the body in total and therefor can at times heal knotted up tissue... Anyway I'm not planning on having another baby :P as much as I love my kids and it just really freaked me out thinking I might have some knots there again. Thing is, I can't feel any from the outside, so you'd think my mind would be soothed by that, but nah, it kept going on about the shooting pain that pops up from time to time inside and kept triggering fear.

This morning when I managed to soften in meditation, I felt it again but sooooo much softer! No pain really, just a slight sensation of density or pressure, like something that makes you aware it's there, but no aggression left in it.

And as I am going into this day, it keeps feeling this way. Am quite blown away by that.

 

Also I look around and I feel all this tremendous love and appreciation 

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Like we are living so well! We have a big warm house with a swedish oven where I can watch the wood burn as it heats the house. We have plenty of food, plenty of nice clothes to wear, we live in a friendly neighborhood close to the Alps with fields and forests and lakes all around us. We are healthy, there is so much love and friendship in our lives, we have jobs we love and the most wonderful clients you could imagine,... my life is paradise!

 

What a contrast to just one day ago!

 

Thing is, I know this won't last either :lol: I might soon be annoyed again about something silly or start stressing out over this or that and I guess that's okay. It's human. It's temporary. Hopefully I won't take it too seriously though and get back up quicker and quicker.

 

Because woah, life has soooooo much to offer!!

 

Went for a little walk into town already to fetch baguettes from the baker for tonights New Years Eve at my sisters. It's astonishingly warm with us today. Birds were singing, air so mild and all quiet with most people still sleeping in, so peaceful :love-struck:

 

 

 

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Daily 10  - DONE

 

Chin ups from tip toe 3/2/2/1/1/1
Push ups 1 full/5 knee/1 full/3 knee

Knee tucks 10

 

Yoga - 10 min sun salutations (6 rounds each side)

 

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10 000 steps - DONE

lovely morning walk to bakery and sunny afternoon walk with hubby across the fields, colder than in the morning though, weird right? but this morning was unusually warm. Aaaaah holidays are so nice :)

 

30 minutes writing - nope

with cleaning the house before new years and last of laundry I had dawdled too long and didn't write on my book today -_- I could say it's okay because I wrote 3x more than planned yesterday but the point is I'd like to write every day something to make it a habit... but well it's week 0 and I got nice walks in instead.

 

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Meditation - DONE

 

Tuning Into New Potentials meditation again, which went so much better today (see ramblings behind spoiler in post before) - the bliss why I do them ^_^

 

So now I'll be off to my sister's soon to eat raclette and play games with all the families.

Wishing you all a fantastic New Years Eve!!

 

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Yay you're back!!! :D 

 

I've been wondering how you've been, and I'm so happy to see things are going well for you. :) 

 

Are you going to start playing on the pole or hoop again?

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Welcome back!

 

my husband uses the emwave thing too! His doctor actually recommended it and uses it as some sort of test in his office. 

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23 hours ago, lucky fire dragon said:

Thing is, I know this won't last either :lol: I might soon be annoyed again about something silly or start stressing out over this or that and I guess that's okay. It's human. It's temporary. Hopefully I won't take it too seriously though and get back up quicker and quicker.

I so understand how you felt! Having had a difficult year with great ups and downs I was contemplating this new year and what it might hold for us/me. I came to the rather shocking realisation that I don't wish the bad stuff away because it's directly and indirectly brought so much good into my life. Yes, we will stress through troubled times, but knowing that God is there to guide me, and that He has protected me in so many ways, brought affirmation, cleared my head, better understanding, acceptance and forgiving, I think I'm better off for having gone through some of these difficult times, rather than not. Maybe not for myself for now, but I have a better grip on some things and will hopefully be able to support hubby and the boys. Especially the boys as they still have their whole life ahead of them.

So with this, I don't mean to say that I hope you will have stressful or difficult times, but when they come, you won't be walking alone! And they will serve a purpose! Even if it is to appreciate the good things, and being thankful for all we have. I will try to be right here by your side (and we can chat on w.app ;) ). Gryffendarlings!

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7 hours ago, sylph said:

Hey, I know you! :)

 

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Yes kick off the challenge right!!!

 

Just keep the sails steady into the wind and we'll blow right through this challenge!

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On 31.12.2017 at 4:39 PM, Mad Hatter said:

Yay you're back!!! :D 

 

I've been wondering how you've been, and I'm so happy to see things are going well for you. :) 

 

Are you going to start playing on the pole or hoop again?

 

HAI There

 

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Thanks ^_^ Yes, I'd love to revive both pole and hoop but tbh it really intimidates me at the moment. I don't even know where to start... and I simply can't afford any classes right now meh

So the plan is to walk before running and do yoga before aerial, but only in preparation ;)

Well, I hopefully will keep those up too, but they simply aren't as shiny :lol:

 

On 31.12.2017 at 10:16 PM, tei_ said:

Welcome back!

 

my husband uses the emwave thing too! His doctor actually recommended it and uses it as some sort of test in his office. 

 

Thanks!

 

Wow, cool doctor he's got there! How long has he been using it now? Any experiences you're allowed to share? I'm really fascinated about the whole heart coherence thing and how it contributes to apparently both mental and physical health.

 

On 1.1.2018 at 9:31 AM, elizevdmerwe said:

I so understand how you felt! Having had a difficult year with great ups and downs I was contemplating this new year and what it might hold for us/me. I came to the rather shocking realisation that I don't wish the bad stuff away because it's directly and indirectly brought so much good into my life. Yes, we will stress through troubled times, but knowing that God is there to guide me, and that He has protected me in so many ways, brought affirmation, cleared my head, better understanding, acceptance and forgiving, I think I'm better off for having gone through some of these difficult times, rather than not. Maybe not for myself for now, but I have a better grip on some things and will hopefully be able to support hubby and the boys. Especially the boys as they still have their whole life ahead of them.

So with this, I don't mean to say that I hope you will have stressful or difficult times, but when they come, you won't be walking alone! And they will serve a purpose! Even if it is to appreciate the good things, and being thankful for all we have. I will try to be right here by your side (and we can chat on w.app ;) ). Gryffendarlings!

 

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Thank you for these words, Elize!! This is so true. It's the tough times where we have to grow beyond our previous selves that we rise to the best in us. Reading this helped me a lot now as I was saying goodbye to eldest again as she returned to Ireland for another 6 months of being au pair. She came home for the holidays after having worked there for 4 months already and as much as she loves the boys she looks after, it's still strenous at times and for some reason the mother of the boys and her don't really get along. Communication seems to be very tricky which is weird as my girl is usually so good with that. So she is giving it her all but it's still not enough at times and now she has to learn to give her best while setting boundaries and standing up for herself. I know she can do it, it's just tough to watch her having to :( 

But she too has her own pride of Gryffindarlings and that helps, of course :)

 

16 hours ago, sylph said:

Hey, I know you! :)

 

Hah, that's nice of you to remember :) Are you still flying on silks?

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9 hours ago, Mr_Willes said:

 

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Yes kick off the challenge right!!!

 

Just keep the sails steady into the wind and we'll blow right through this challenge!

 

Nice to see, I'm still familiar :D

 

Thanks, I didn't exactly kick it off that well as the first official day was utter failure, but well let's move on, shall we ;)

Have set sails afresh and am ready to fly steady 

 

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1 hour ago, annyshay said:

Hey Lucky! How was New Years?

 

Aaaaah well, it was nice!

 

really nice

 

maybe too nice

 

because January 1st saw me sleeping and sleeping and

shaking awake to go for walk and rushing to bake for guests and have hours of fun with said guests and then fall into bed real early again and guess what

yah sleep again 

 

... maybe I'm just getting old

 

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25 minutes ago, raptron said:

Look who it is! :D 

 

 

 

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15 minutes ago, lucky fire dragon said:

Thanks ^_^ Yes, I'd love to revive both pole and hoop but tbh it really intimidates me at the moment. I don't even know where to start... and I simply can't afford any classes right now meh

Well when you decide you start again, just start from the beginning. :) 

 

6 minutes ago, lucky fire dragon said:

because January 1st saw me sleeping and sleeping and

shaking awake to go for walk and rushing to bake for guests and have hours of fun with said guests and then fall into bed real early again and guess what

yah sleep again 

 

... maybe I'm just getting old

Nah you're not getting old, that's just a regular new year's day. :D That you baked is enough of an achievement!

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34 minutes ago, lucky fire dragon said:

Wow, cool doctor he's got there! How long has he been using it now? Any experiences you're allowed to share? I'm really fascinated about the whole heart coherence thing and how it contributes to apparently both mental and physical health.

Yeah, his doctor is rather non-standard :P He was using it a lot for about a year 2-ish years ago and doesn’t use it quite as much any more, but my impression is that he kind of got what he needed from it at that point!

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53 minutes ago, lucky fire dragon said:

 

Hah, that's nice of you to remember :) Are you still flying on silks?

Indeed! (though I've met my new aerial love, the rope)

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