elvenengineer Posted January 17, 2018 Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 Well, this will be a different challenge for me. It should maybe be in a different section, but.... I'm still lifting, and this feels like home. And that's nice. And I miss you peoples. As many of you know, I struggle with depression, and not wanting to feel feelings has always been a thing for me. For a lot of my life I was pretty sure I didn't have any. Therapy and meds have helped, and now I feel all the things, which I'm told is good. And I have a lot of little moments now where I just think - I'm really happy right now! and that's great, and that never used to happen. But when bad things happen, those are a lot more intense as well. I wasn't even going to do a challenge this time around, but then I saw Spezzy's, and I thought that if she can do it, so can I. Even if I am starting late. So here's the thing: My uncle passed away last Friday. And not a blood related one, one that I had by choice. I loved him, and I miss him, and I am going home in a couple weeks and was SO excited to see him and others while I was there, but he was definitely one of the ones on my "MUST SEE" list. It's been a couple years since I've seen him, and now I have all the regrets that I didn't make the trip earlier, that he left before I had a change to tell him how much I appreciated his presence in my life (I've been working my way down a list), that I'll never get one more hug. And then I'm also just.... sad. -------------------------------------------------- So, a challenge. Not just whining. Self-Care: Every day, do something Future Elvie will be happy Past Elvie did. I've been working to expand my definition of self-care, and this is my favorite one. Sometimes that's lifting, sometimes it's choosing not to lift, sometimes it's paying a bill, sometimes it's doing laundry... etc. Eat a full meal with a fruit or vegetable every day. Post here every day (I found "weekly" was too vague last time, and I just kept saying that I'd do it later haha). I'll post lifty stuff here too, of course 5 1 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 17, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 Lifty stuff! Yesterday's workout: Bench: 10 at 45#, 5 at 55#, 3x6 at 65#, 2x10 at 55# Superset (x3): Waiter's Walk (25 steps with 15# dumbbell) and Hollow Rock (30 seconds each time) Crow Pose Practice: 5 minutes Stretching 4 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
Grumble Posted January 17, 2018 Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 ELVIE! We missed you too! I'm so sorry for your loss. The relatives we have by choice always seem harder to lose. The Self care challenge is tough, you're just doing it at a higher difficulty level. 1 Quote "You're going to be amazing." Fantasy Football league 2019 The Grumble Battle Log Spoiler Books: Shows: Games: God of War, Kingdom Hearts 3, Destiny 2 Level 15 Wookie Warrior Link to comment
raptron Posted January 17, 2018 Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 HELLO AND HUGS. <3 1 Quote Raptron, alot assassin 67 | 66 | 65 | 64 | 63 | 62 | 61 | 60 | 59 | 58 | 57 | 56 | 55 | 54 | 53 | 52 | 51 | 50 | 49 | 48 | 47 | 46 | 45 | 44 | 43 | 42 | 41 | 40 | 39 | 38 | 37 | 36 | 35 | 34 | 33 | 32 | 31 | 30 | 29 | 28 | 27 | 26 | 25 | 24 | 23 | 22 | 21 | 20 | 19 | 18 | 17 | 16 | 15 | 14 | 13 | 12 | 11 | 10 | 9 | 8 | 7 | 6 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 17, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 Daily Post: 1/17/2018 Self-Care: Mailed two important things I'd been procrastinating Meal with fruit at lunch - I didn't eat it all, but I ate most of it and I wasn't hungry after. Meal included three clementines. Post - here Swing dancing and zumba tonight! 3 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
RedStone Posted January 17, 2018 Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 Liked for the heart and that I love you. Here if you need <3 1 Quote ~Peace Be The Journey~ one - two - three - four - five - six - seven- eight - nine - ten - eleven - twelve - thirteen - fourteen - fifteen - sixteen - seventeen - eighteen - nineteen - twenty - twenty one - twenty two - twenty three - twenty four - twenty five - twenty six - twenty seven - twenty eight - twenty nine - thirty - thirty one - thirty two - thirty three - thirty four - thirty five - thirty six Link to comment
CourtnieMarie Posted January 17, 2018 Report Share Posted January 17, 2018 so sorry to hear of your loss <3 i think your challenge is a good one and will help you through grieving. 1 Quote Instagram | pinterest read harder challenge | Battle Log | NROLFW Challenges: 13-1 | 13-2 | 13-3 | 13-3.5 | 14-1 | 14-2 | 15-1 | 15-2 | 15-3 | 15-4 | 15-5 | 16-1 | 16-2 | 16-3 | 16-4 | 16-5 | 16-6 | 16-7 | 16-8 | 17-1 | 17-2 | 17-3 | 17-4 | 17-5 | 17-6 | 17-7 | 17-8 | 17-9 | 17-10 | 18-1 | 18-2 | 18-3 | 18-4 | 18-5 | 18-6 | 18-7 | 18-8 | 18-9 | 18-10 | 19-1 | 19-2 | 19-3 | 19-4 | 19-5 | 19-6 | 19-7 | current Link to comment
JustCallMeAmber Posted January 18, 2018 Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 My condolences on your loss. Re: your thread tags, you are most definitely a warrior. And CM is right; your goals are solid and I hope they do help you through this process. 1 Quote We will never see the best version of ourselves inside our comfort zone Link to comment
Mike Wazowski Posted January 18, 2018 Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 My condolences for your loss. So glad you're here, and thank you for the reminder and great definition for self care. 1 Quote Ballroom dancer, data nerd, calisthenics dabbler Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 18, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 11/18/2017 Self-Care: not yet Food - subway for lunch! filling and involving a vegetable Post - here! Salsa is tonight, but I think I'm going to stay home and paint the wood for my robotics' team's table. And play some video games. Which will probably be my self-care 4 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
spezzy Posted January 19, 2018 Report Share Posted January 19, 2018 On 1/17/2018 at 10:28 AM, elvenengineer said: Well, this will be a different challenge for me. It should maybe be in a different section, but.... I'm still lifting, and this feels like home. And that's nice. And I miss you peoples. As many of you know, I struggle with depression, and not wanting to feel feelings has always been a thing for me. For a lot of my life I was pretty sure I didn't have any. Therapy and meds have helped, and now I feel all the things, which I'm told is good. And I have a lot of little moments now where I just think - I'm really happy right now! and that's great, and that never used to happen. But when bad things happen, those are a lot more intense as well. I wasn't even going to do a challenge this time around, but then I saw Spezzy's, and I thought that if she can do it, so can I. Even if I am starting late. So here's the thing: My uncle passed away last Friday. And not a blood related one, one that I had by choice. I loved him, and I miss him, and I am going home in a couple weeks and was SO excited to see him and others while I was there, but he was definitely one of the ones on my "MUST SEE" list. It's been a couple years since I've seen him, and now I have all the regrets that I didn't make the trip earlier, that he left before I had a change to tell him how much I appreciated his presence in my life (I've been working my way down a list), that I'll never get one more hug. And then I'm also just.... sad. I have a lot of the same feelings, being far away. Seeing pictures of my grandmother when she was younger, from a time I didn't know her. That I never learned about her. Why not? "Maybe I could have visited more. Put more effort in." I found a postcard I had addressed but never mailed. Why couldn't I have put the effort in to get to the post office? But we can't beat ourselves up about these things. We can't change the past. What we can do is make sure that we optimize our current relationships so we don't feel regrets in the future. <3 3 Quote Current Challenge - Instagram “There's only one rule that I know of, babies—God damn it, you've got to be kind.” Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 20, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 20, 2018 11/19/2018Self care- scheduled a massage for Monday, texted two people I want to connect with when I go back to LAFood- I ate 2 decentish meals but no fruits or vegetablesPost - here from under three blankets Did not gym even though I was schedule to Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 21, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 21, 2018 11/20/2017Food - was bad about this today, had a burger and a granola bar total. Will do better tomorrow hopefully Self-care: was cognizant of my limits, did not go out dancing tonight even though that was the original plan. Lots of socializing happened earlier and I’m worn outPost- here!Went to the zoo today and saw lots of animals including 🦒[emoji210][emoji196][emoji191][emoji204][emoji247][emoji234] but sadly no [emoji882]Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk 5 1 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
Gemma Posted January 21, 2018 Report Share Posted January 21, 2018 (((HUG))) Your definition of self-care is now my new favorite. And choosing to pay attention to yourself and not socialize when you are too tired to socialize - brilliant. #totallyawarrior 1 Quote “The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure." -Joseph Campbell 2022 Challenges: Push, Core, Simple, Pooh, Timebox, NaNoWriMo 2023 Challenges: 20SOC, Travel, Battery, Song n'Dance Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 21, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 21, 2018 Since I wrote that snazzy self care definition, thought I’d check in today on if I am appreciative of the self care choice I made last night and the answer is YES. I feel so much better today, both physically and mentally. Needed some rest!I ate a full breakfast, so that’s good. Plans include laundry and paying a bill.And here I is, posting!Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk 6 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 23, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 23, 2018 1/22/2018 self-care: had a massage, paid a bill I'd been procrastinating on food - ummm I had three granola bars and a coffee today. I may go cook something real quick. Didn't realize how bad it was, whoops posting still haven't done laundry went to the gym yesterday! will post numbers maybe tomorrow, I is tired 3 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 23, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 23, 2018 Yesterday's Workout: Barbell Back Squat: 4x6 at 95# Barbell Bench Press: 4x6 at 65# Superset: Goblet Squat/Dumbell Bench Goblet Squat: 10 at 15#, 2x10 at 20# Dumbbell Bench: 3x10 at 15# ABZ 4 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 24, 2018 Author Report Share Posted January 24, 2018 1/23/2018I ate food and a vegetable today!!!!Self care was laundry and picking out my next cross stitch project Posting here Sent from a small communication device, somewhere in space 5 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
CourtnieMarie Posted January 24, 2018 Report Share Posted January 24, 2018 yay! vegetables! Quote Instagram | pinterest read harder challenge | Battle Log | NROLFW Challenges: 13-1 | 13-2 | 13-3 | 13-3.5 | 14-1 | 14-2 | 15-1 | 15-2 | 15-3 | 15-4 | 15-5 | 16-1 | 16-2 | 16-3 | 16-4 | 16-5 | 16-6 | 16-7 | 16-8 | 17-1 | 17-2 | 17-3 | 17-4 | 17-5 | 17-6 | 17-7 | 17-8 | 17-9 | 17-10 | 18-1 | 18-2 | 18-3 | 18-4 | 18-5 | 18-6 | 18-7 | 18-8 | 18-9 | 18-10 | 19-1 | 19-2 | 19-3 | 19-4 | 19-5 | 19-6 | 19-7 | current Link to comment
Grumble Posted January 24, 2018 Report Share Posted January 24, 2018 14 hours ago, elvenengineer said: a vegetable today!!!! I would recommend more than one, but that's just me. 2 Quote "You're going to be amazing." Fantasy Football league 2019 The Grumble Battle Log Spoiler Books: Shows: Games: God of War, Kingdom Hearts 3, Destiny 2 Level 15 Wookie Warrior Link to comment
RedStone Posted January 24, 2018 Report Share Posted January 24, 2018 3 hours ago, Grumble said: I would recommend more than one, but that's just me. I mean... depends... 4 Quote ~Peace Be The Journey~ one - two - three - four - five - six - seven- eight - nine - ten - eleven - twelve - thirteen - fourteen - fifteen - sixteen - seventeen - eighteen - nineteen - twenty - twenty one - twenty two - twenty three - twenty four - twenty five - twenty six - twenty seven - twenty eight - twenty nine - thirty - thirty one - thirty two - thirty three - thirty four - thirty five - thirty six Link to comment
miss_marissa Posted January 25, 2018 Report Share Posted January 25, 2018 I thought of you today. Miss you! A coworker was talking about FIRST and nationals, so I decided to pop in here. Sorry for your pain. 1 Quote Current Challenge # 39 | #38 | #37 | #36 | #35 |#34 | #33 | #32 | #31 | #30 | #29 | #28 | #27 | #26 | #25 | # 24 | #23 | #22 | #21 | #20 | #19 | #18 | #17 | #16 | #15 | #14 | #13 | #12 | #11 | #10 | #9| #8 | #7 | #6 | #5 | #4 | #3 | #2 | #1 | Battle Log Instagram | Goodreads Link to comment
Mike Wazowski Posted January 25, 2018 Report Share Posted January 25, 2018 On 1/23/2018 at 9:49 PM, elvenengineer said: 1/23/2018 I ate food and a vegetable today!!!! Self care was laundry and picking out my next cross stitch project Posting here Sent from a small communication device, somewhere in space Wins all around!! Ps love the signoff line. Quote Ballroom dancer, data nerd, calisthenics dabbler Link to comment
calanthrophy Posted January 25, 2018 Report Share Posted January 25, 2018 23 hours ago, Grumble said: I would recommend more than one, but that's just me. Two. Eat exactly two. 20 hours ago, RedStone said: I mean... depends... TOMATOES ARE FRUUUUIIITS NOT VEGGIEEEESS! AAAARRRGH! ...sorry. Pedantry for life (hashtag, yolo, and whatever else the kids say these days). 4 Quote My band -- My acoustic stuff -- Blog -- Instagram Link to comment
Grumble Posted January 25, 2018 Report Share Posted January 25, 2018 31 minutes ago, calanthrophy said: TOMATOES ARE FRUUUUIIITS NOT VEGGIEEEESS! AAAARRRGH! 3 3 Quote "You're going to be amazing." Fantasy Football league 2019 The Grumble Battle Log Spoiler Books: Shows: Games: God of War, Kingdom Hearts 3, Destiny 2 Level 15 Wookie Warrior Link to comment
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