Grumble investigates a Murder on the Gastroport Limited

[Grumble]

2 hours ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

 

I mean the preference is that we convince everyone to listen to The Adventure Zone so that all of the warrior challenges will on some level contain elite inner circle TAZ inside jokes...

 

We're an inclusive group. So obviously everyone needs to listen to The Adventure Zone.

 

[raptron]

DEADLIFT PR THO

[Grumble]

2 minutes ago, raptron said:

DEADLIFT PR THO

 

Oh, right. Videos. Here's my two successes and my one fail.

 

[JustCallMeAmber]

Can't help but notice the lighting changed right as you were gathering your will for the 1st PR...

[Grumble]

9 minutes ago, JustCallMeAmber said:

Can't help but notice the lighting changed right as you were gathering your will for the 1st PR...

 

I mean, if the shoe siths... er fits.

[Jord]

CONGRATS ON YOUR DEADLIFT PR MY DUDE

[Grumble]

2 hours ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

CONGRATS ON YOUR DEADLIFT PR MY DUDE

I do have to thank all of you guys for being the positive bastion of support. Don't think I could have done this a year or two ago.

 

[Grumble]

I want to drop the challenge. I'm finding myself ambivalent about the whole thing. I've gained weight, more than I would have liked, but everything still fits the same, and a coworker commented on me looking thinner. So it's good. But I'm kinda tied into my weight at the moment, and I'm frustrated. 

 

I did hit a lifetime Squat PR of 325 Sunday, so that is most excellent.

 

Just kind of Bleh. We'll see.

[farflight]

24 minutes ago, Grumble said:

I want to drop the challenge.

 

Keep with it. If for nothing else, the habit of it. Sometimes we don't like the results that we end up with...can provide motivation for the next one...science don't quit when it doesn't like what it sees!

 

[raptron]

It's the last week, my friend! What are you trying to drop? Tracking? 

 

Otherwise, your other goals are cleaning your house and using your commonplace book, two things you've verbally confirmed you've seen benefits from. I can't imagine it would be TOO TERRIBLE to keep doing those for another week.

 

[Grumble]

28 minutes ago, raptron said:

It's the last week, my friend! What are you trying to drop? Tracking? 

 

Otherwise, your other goals are cleaning your house and using your commonplace book, two things you've verbally confirmed you've seen benefits from. I can't imagine it would be TOO TERRIBLE to keep doing those for another week.

 

 

That made me smile a little. You're tumbling, powerlifting font of positivity. Thanks.

[Grumble]

So, a couple quick notes.

 

The cleaning is coming. Mrs G cleaned up some of the guest room while I was at drill this weekend. Good stuff. I'm becoming less annoyed every time I come home. Not at us, but at the damage we are undoing by not being lazy.

 

My reminders are almost completely in my calendar now. i even asked the mrs to set a reminder because I was driving. It's becoming a habit. I think I got this nailed down.

[Mike Wazowski]

35 minutes ago, Grumble said:

So, a couple quick notes.

 

The cleaning is coming. Mrs G cleaned up some of the guest room while I was at drill this weekend. Good stuff. I'm becoming less annoyed every time I come home. Not at us, but at the damage we are undoing by not being lazy.

 

My reminders are almost completely in my calendar now. i even asked the mrs to set a reminder because I was driving. It's becoming a habit. I think I got this nailed down.

Happy for you on both these. Feeling better about things than this morning?

[Grumble]

38 minutes ago, MikeWazowski said:

Happy for you on both these. Feeling better about things than this morning?

 

A little bit. Still a little moody, but I think its part of being success driven. Setbacks cause me all sorts of mental broujah.

[Scaly Freak]

7 hours ago, Grumble said:

I want to drop the challenge. I'm finding myself ambivalent about the whole thing.

 

*deeeeeep breath*

 

PROCRASTINATION! Stay away from my new friends!!! 

 

Ahem.

 

Also, if you do drop it, you have to start a new one soon, so it won't make a difference anyway. Stick with it. You just hit a lifetime squat PR! What on earth are you thinking, trying to stop now?  

[RedStone]

2 hours ago, Grumble said:

 

A little bit. Still a little moody, but I think its part of being success driven. Setbacks cause me all sorts of mental broujah.

 

Yeah, that's a familiar one for sure. Here's a spookily appropriate quote from the episode of Parks and Rec I am currently watching:

 

 

Leave it to Leslie Knope to know exactly what to say. It's... pretty creepy.

 

 

Spoiler

 

 

 

 

 

[Grumble]

16 hours ago, scalyfreak said:

PROCRASTINATION! Stay away from my new friends!!! 

 

Needed that too. I didn't even notice him there. Prick.

 

Also, if you do drop it, you have to start a new one soon, so it won't make a difference anyway. Stick with it. You just hit a lifetime squat PR! What on earth are you thinking, trying to stop now?  

Stupid brain being stupid. Obviously.

[Scaly Freak]

1 hour ago, Grumble said:

 

Needed that too. I didn't even notice him there. Prick.

 

He's a stealthy bastard. And very good at posing as someone who is actually helpful to you....

[JustCallMeAmber]

 

 

Also, 2 lifetime PRs!

 

And a new avi!

 

 

 

 

[CourtnieMarie]

are you tied into your weight mentally? or for something else? like whatever drill is or a competition?

[Grumble]

16 minutes ago, JustCallMeAmber said:

Also, 2 lifetime PRs!

 

They were almost accidental. I mean, I tried for them, but I did not plan for them. They started as a fuckaround day. Go figure.

 

16 minutes ago, JustCallMeAmber said:

And a new avi!

 

Blame @RedStone and @Taddea Zhaan

 

10 minutes ago, CourtnieMarie said:

are you tied into your weight mentally? or for something else? like whatever drill is or a competition?

Out of order: Drill is what we call our Army Reserve weekend. The military has tied me to my weight somewhat as I am supposed to be under 223 lbs or I am considered overweight and have to get taped. So Kind of a yes to both, even though they are the same answer.

 

There's other stuff too, but I don't want to turn this into a therapy session.

[CourtnieMarie]

5 minutes ago, Grumble said:

Out of order: Drill is what we call our Army Reserve weekend. The military has tied me to my weight somewhat as I am supposed to be under 223 lbs or I am considered overweight and have to get taped. So Kind of a yes to both, even though they are the same answer.

 

There's other stuff too, but I don't want to turn this into a therapy session.

well, i'm interested in chatting seperately if you'd like. though i don't think anyone here would mind. i have serious trouble admitting that i'm internalizing problems/issues, which is why i never get in too deep on my own challenges. but what i've found from people's threads who DO open up, is that they're met with nerds who also feel the same way but have never talked about it before.

 

either way, chat or no, i hope you find some peace soon!

[farflight]

On 3/6/2018 at 2:16 PM, CourtnieMarie said:

well, i'm interested in chatting seperately if you'd like.

Second on that offer

 

[miss_marissa]

I mean... there's like 3 days left in the challenge. Finish strong!

[Grumble]

2 hours ago, miss_marissa said:

I mean... there's like 3 days left in the challenge. Finish strong!

You speak truth.

 

I'm refocusing, maybe too late, maybe not. But I'm back into the mid 260's. I'm working on understanding what my body is telling me. Shit's hard, yo. But I'm starting to recognize that a lot of my hunger is a lack of protein. I picked up some frozen buffalo wings, on accident. I meant to get something else but was distracted by preschooler. Either way, The last few days when I've been hungry I've grabbed a few of those and they seem to stave things off til lunch time. I'm drinking plenty of water, so I'm pretty confident it's not that. I did pick up a cleaner frozen chicken tender yesterday, so that's also a bonus.

 

I'm thinking of picking up the intuitive eating book. It's got decent reviews, and I think @Tanktimus the Encourager is reading it currently or has read it. Thoughts are appreciated.

 

I've noticed something interesting. As the reminders become more habit than requirement, I'm finding myself having to set a reminder less. It's by no means perfect, but I'm not reminding myself about every little thing I need to. It's kinda neat being conscious of a habit forming and evolving.

 

Cleaning has backtracked a bit. Our kitchen table is a disaster. I don't know what of it's mine or Mrs g's though. So I need to go through it, maybe a little bit this weekend in between all the events we have planned. This whole thing is happening in fits and starts, and for the most part that's fine by me. 

 

I'm feeling a bit better than I did earlier this week. I think I have an inkling of an idea of what the problem is, but I need more data.