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Sat recap:
Walking 5/6km/d - yay!
Exercising every day - yay! Both running and dancing
Go further with MBSR course - in progress
Remove things from bullet journal - N/A
 
Food:
Organise the lunch in the journal - yes!
Schedule shopping in calendar - yes: either wed eve or thu.
Prepare breakfast - nope
Prepare lunch weekly - N/A: this work week (3d) will be leftovers
Always have 15g of nuts at work - N/A
Eat seated at a table. - nope, didn't eat much.
Intuitive eating - I ate for socialising, and I mostly respected my fullness.

One off: organise Easter lunch - wip - I have set a menu and have a partial grocery list
 
Exercise:
Daily dare each day - yep, with EC, and by mistake made 10 more
PT each day (cat-cow, plank, warrior pose) - nope!
One off: balfolk workshow - yes!
 
Mindfulness:
mbsr formal meditation every day - yes!
One off: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/hwansan-sunim/how-to-meditate-at-work_b_6630652.html - still pending
 
Prayer:
Examen - nope!
One off: easter retreat - wip, will be next Friday


I know that Easter is busier for him (my parish priest) than me, and that managing a both conservative and liberal parish is a work of balance and that it is taking the toll on him in the form of strong migraines. At the same time the term 'something has changed in the air' is something I hear over and over, and we used to be friends, but he is keeping distance (ah, men, difficult times, not showing vulnerability,... the stereotype fits perfectly here!)
I know that I am blaming him because I struggle in finding my place in the Catholic Church (female, single and no nun here) and I know I 'should' have gone to the liturgy group, but beside time, that is something I am not driven to by God, so I really need to keep apart. I can't hear one more person not listening to me because of my gender or I'll explode! Sorry, rant over

Ok, that rant was unjustified. At lunch I received a call and he apologised. Business is the problem, trying to hold all together is not easy.
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Sun recap:
Walking 5/6km/d - yay! Walked 15km
Exercising every day - yay! Walking was the exercise
Go further with MBSR course - in progress, this week replaying last one.
Remove things from bullet journal - N/A
 
Food:
Organise the lunch in the journal - N/A
Schedule shopping in calendar - yes: either wed eve or thu.
Prepare breakfast - yep!
Prepare lunch weekly - N/A: this work week (3d) will be leftovers
Always have 15g of nuts at work - N/A
Eat seated at a table. - mostly, but I also had biscuits while walking.
Intuitive eating - I mostly respected my fullness and hunger, but I also ate because I had food around

One off: organise Easter lunch - wip - I have set a menu and have a partial grocery list
 
Exercise:
Daily dare each day - yep, with EC
PT each day (cat-cow, plank, warrior pose) - yep!
 
Mindfulness:
mbsr formal meditation every day - yes (lectio)!
One off: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/hwansan-sunim/how-to-meditate-at-work_b_6630652.html - still pending
 
Prayer:
Examen - yep, finally!
One off: easter retreat - wip

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Mon recap:
Walking 5/6km/d - yay!
Exercising every day - nope, too tired
Go further with MBSR course - in progress, this week replaying last one.
Remove things from bullet journal - N/A
 
Food:
Organise the lunch in the journal - N/A
Schedule shopping in calendar - N/A
Prepare breakfast - yep!
Prepare lunch weekly - N/A this week should have been leftovers, but work provides lunch twice and today (tue) I ate out anyway.
Always have 15g of nuts at work - nope!
Eat seated at a table. - lunch only
Intuitive eating - not much, but can't really pinpoint anything

One off: organise Easter lunch - wip - I have a final list of people (14-16)
 
Exercise:
Daily dare each day - nope!
PT each day (cat-cow, plank, warrior pose) - nope!
 
Mindfulness:
mbsr formal meditation every day - yes (dance reflection)!
One off: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/hwansan-sunim/how-to-meditate-at-work_b_6630652.html - still pending
 
Prayer:
Examen - yep, finally!
One off: easter retreat - wip

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Ok, I had an overwhelming week, many things went well, some very less so.
I met a person that would be all I am seeking in a partner and obviously I am crushing hard, but he is in a serious relationship and he is going to leave the country soon. He sees me as a mate, confiding me who he finds cute (yeah, not me) and asking me for help for his big decisions.
Work didn't go bad, but I was overwhelmed by my mind.

Challenge wise, I walked but not reached Rivendell yet (was supposed to be yesterday), exercising and PT didn't happen, prayer and meditation a bit (but not the examen, and that's ok)
I discovered that I can't continue with intermittend fasting as my brain is depleted, and in the evenings I was tiread and I started crying hard and it was probably just hunger. I need to reintroduce dinner because at lunch I have not enough proteins.


Thu recap (I was home sick):
Walking 5/6km/d - nope!
Exercising every day - nope
Go further with MBSR course - in progress, this week replaying last one.
Remove things from bullet journal - N/A
 
Food:
Organise the lunch in the journal - N/A
Schedule shopping in calendar - N/A
Prepare breakfast - yep!
Prepare lunch weekly - yep!
Always have 15g of nuts at work - nope!
Eat seated at a table. - yep!
Intuitive eating - I managed to meditate when I was crying instead of eating! Who-hoo!

One off: organise Easter lunch - yep! And went well!
 
Exercise:
Daily dare each day - nope!
PT each day (cat-cow, plank, warrior pose) - nope!
 
Mindfulness:
mbsr formal meditation every day - yep!
One off: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/hwansan-sunim/how-to-meditate-at-work_b_6630652.html - still pending
 
Prayer:
Examen - nope!
One off: easter retreat - yep!

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OKay, so I am sorry I disappeared. I just have 0 energy and even signing into the forums was too much work. I am so sorry if I let you down.

 

That being said, you are closer to Rivendell than I am. This month long always tired always sick has thrown my numbers off hard. You are almost there, maybe you cna get an extra walk in today to help make sure you make it.

*hugs* I hope there is less overwhelming you now

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OKay, so I am sorry I disappeared. I just have 0 energy and even signing into the forums was too much work. I am so sorry if I let you down.
 
That being said, you are closer to Rivendell than I am. This month long always tired always sick has thrown my numbers off hard. You are almost there, maybe you cna get an extra walk in today to help make sure you make it.

*hugs* I hope there is less overwhelming you now


OKay, so I am sorry I disappeared. I just have 0 energy and even signing into the forums was too much work. I am so sorry if I let you down.
 
That being said, you are closer to Rivendell than I am. This month long always tired always sick has thrown my numbers off hard. You are almost there, maybe you cna get an extra walk in today to help make sure you make it.

*hugs* I hope there is less overwhelming you now


You didn't let me down, but I missed you :) I too was too tired to check in here!
I run on empty for long and yesterday I was off work sick (or more accurately exhausted). That and the call with my current crush (yeah, he might be in a relationship, but I appreciate his friendship) gave me perspective and refuelled.
Today weather is good, I'm about to hulahoop on the rooftop!
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17 minutes ago, Diadhuit said:

You didn't let me down, but I missed you :) I too was too tired to check in here!
I run on empty for long and yesterday I was off work sick (or more accurately exhausted). That and the call with my current crush (yeah, he might be in a relationship, but I appreciate his friendship) gave me perspective and refuelled.
Today weather is good, I'm about to hulahoop on the rooftop!

 

 

 

 

I missed you all too, I was just in a "I can't even attempt to focus on more than school" and I get the running empty. I have been doing it too and I think it might be why my body has been getting sick so easy. I normaly never get sick and well, this month has been all sick.

Glad your feeling better nad that the crush helped you to recharge. have fun hulahooping. As much as I would love to join  you, me and roofs don't get along.  I am glad the weather has cleared up for you.

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I missed you all too, I was just in a "I can't even attempt to focus on more than school" and I get the running empty. I have been doing it too and I think it might be why my body has been getting sick so easy. I normaly never get sick and well, this month has been all sick.

Glad your feeling better nad that the crush helped you to recharge. have fun hulahooping. As much as I would love to join  you, me and roofs don't get along.  I am glad the weather has cleared up for you.
Couldn't selfie, but here the view :)
When (and not if!) you'll come visit we'll hoop in the park, deal?6d6c550fa9bd1db4b75ecb301c8ccbb7.jpg
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I won't say its not pretty up there, but all I can think is Falling is bad.

 

Hula hooping on the ground sounds like a great idea, and I would love to visit sometime.

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Ok, here an update: I am not ok. I might be losing weight (or not), doing lots of amazing stuff, enjoing life, feeling great but I sometimes start crying. Reason is that in the last three weeks I developed two very strong friendships (one was the guy I had/still kind of have a crush on) and both people will leave tomorrow. One will come back for a week every month, one might or not come back ever. I am pre-emptively sad, I miss them before they are gone. I have already set up to meet a group of friends tomorrow so I can get distracted, but I am crying hard today.
I will see one tonight, maybe both. I will have to be strong and not make it about my feelings, but it's hard not to be crushed.
I discovered that I am a people connector, but more of an in-person being. This means that it crushes me hard.
Also, work is stagnant and I am seeking to move if I get an interesting opportunity, and that will postpone my house buying (that I don't even want to think about).
I also would like to have a boyfriend and all the ones I have a slight interest are either no good or taken.
Now all is out of my chest and I am better :)

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It might be strange, but since my friends have left, I feel better.
I miss them, but we are in contact. And they are still close to my heart. I spent yesterday with other friends playing catan, and I won!
I am seeing other friends tonight, and will have to see many others this week.
I took a half a day rest in bed and organise house viewings and other stuff. Will see what comes out.
Some should have been good but actually is bad news at work that I will have to face tomorrow. Will see how things will go, I am also seeing someone for lunch to see if I want to apply to the company he works for.
I arrived to Rivendell today, and nearly mid-way through Zombie!Run C25K.
Next week will go try Ceili and Blues dancing. Will see what comes out of it.
In other words many balls are in the air, and I'm juggling a lot. This moment I am juggling well, let's hope they won't drop!

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I am sorry your friends left, but I am glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it is the act that they are leaving that is the hardest. Good luck at work and at the lunch. Hopefully you get the results you want on both.

I think your doing great considering everything you have going on. Juggling is hard, but your doing a good job of keeping it all in motion.


 

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I am sorry your friends left, but I am glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it is the act that they are leaving that is the hardest. Good luck at work and at the lunch. Hopefully you get the results you want on both.

I think your doing great considering everything you have going on. Juggling is hard, but your doing a good job of keeping it all in motion.

 


I am sorry your friends left, but I am glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it is the act that they are leaving that is the hardest. Good luck at work and at the lunch. Hopefully you get the results you want on both.

I think your doing great considering everything you have going on. Juggling is hard, but your doing a good job of keeping it all in motion.

 


Aaand I jinxed myself!
My day started well, with a lucid chat with my 98y old grandpa who is out of his mind. I don't think this will happen again before he dies.
Then things crippled apart: I worked hard to create the position to get a promotion and it went to another colleague (who deserves it) without even a selection.
I had to tell my manager (who was not aware) and he basically said that I am better and I had to defend my colleague's promotion. I had to explicitly say 'please don't put that thought in my mind' as my colleague will possibly be my line manager.
The team I pushed to create (I threathened to quit to push people to create it) will not include me, because I will be in a team with a bully.
I will have to search for a new job, so carreer advancement and househunting should be postponed because of it.
My mentor is out from work for depression and his wife is very very sick. I started swearing and crying at work when I read his text. I still haven't replied.
With all this I was so out of my mind that I spoiled a colleague early pregnancy in front of another one. And I relied on the other one that had a big presentation today to mommy me.
I asked a friend to have a call and then bailed on her.
And to finish it all I went out to a meetup with a friend (with whom I flirted with) and he brought to a pub after to listen to Jazz. I was barely talking, replying with one word, saying I needed to go and not leaving. And suddenly becoming friendly and happy. Or talking about his flatmate. And I didn't even explain to him what was going on with me.
He had to take initiative to leave, I followed. And when we separated, he brushed my arm and I walked away and waved at a distance. Facepalm!
So, tomorrow can't be anything but better.
I don't think this challenge has been a success, but also it's not a failure as I am maintaining weight and the built habits are still in place. I couldn't build new ones, but it's ok.
I don't know if I will create a new challenge or not. I don't want to lose momentum or this community, but I don't feel like it right now. Will see if this week brings brightness and goals.
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@Diadhuit

I am so sorry you had a rough week. I wish I had those perfect words to make it all better, and I don't, adn I know that I am sorry about your Aunt, about your day, isn't going to do much.

It sounds like you just had the perfect storm of moments which would make me a not so great companion in the evening. I am sure if you talk to the friend you hung out with later, and explain that you had a really bad day, they will understand, same with the other friend you didn't actually get a chance to call. 

Hopefully today will be better. Know that we are here if you need us to vent to are talk to.

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