Scaly Freak Posted April 23, 2018 Report Share Posted April 23, 2018 The drawback to staying hidden underneath branches and leaves for several hours, is that there is nothing to do but think. Think, and remember, and reflect on the past. On the early stages of the game, when it was so much more fun than it is now. Even boss fights used to be fun! They used to be something fun to look forward to… something to anticipate eagerly. Careful preparation for the battle was a goal in itself, and even the grinding was enjoyable, because it had a bigger purpose. And afterwards… After the boss fight, there was celebration and pride. There was genuine joy and a sense of accomplishing something great. There was none of this exhaustion and sense of dread that the next boss fight will be here far too soon. Scalyfreak frowns in the dark, and wonders what why this changed. What happened to make the game a chore and a hardship? What went wrong? What corrupted the game so thoroughly that it simply isn’t fun anymore? Scalyfreak thinks hard on this. And thinks, and thinks, but no matter how many time she tries, she keeps coming to the same conclusion… the game itself has changed. It is forcing her to go in directions she doesn’t want, in ways she does not enjoy. And this is not making sense to her. The advantage to staying hidden underneath branches and leaves for several hours, is that there is nothing to do but think… So this is the big challenge where I make next to no changes at all to anything while I try to figure out where to go from here. My goals are to successfully continue what worked in previous challenges, and to essentially turn those things into (hopefully) lasting habits. 1. Gym three days a week. Between injuries and illness I lost the habit of working out three evenings every week, and I need to get back to that. I’ll never get back to Stronglifts until I do, and it’s better for me in every way to visit the gym and commune with the weights on a regular basis. 2. Keep up with the other challenges I’ve joined. I’m currently in three additional challenges, Walk to Mordor, Read Harder, and the guild mini challenges. I already walk every day, I enjoy reading already, so the one that might actually be difficult is the mini, since I don’t know what the upcoming challenges will be about. This will be my one attempt to push myself this challenge period. (In theory, at least.) 3. Do at least one thing every day just because it makes me happy. This can be play or walk with the Happy Sidekick, or meditating, or writing in the gratitude journal, or taking a bath, or eating my favorite dairy-free ice cream, or playing a new game, or watching one of my favorite shows on Netflix, or bake something, or snuggling with Husband, or whatever else I want. And that is it. Basically continue doing what I was doing towards the end of the last challenge, to try and get some stability and to give myself time to figure out what I need to do to make future challenges work better. 4 Quote The Great Reading Thread of 2023 “I've always believed that failure is non-existent. What is failure? You go to the end of the season, then you lose the Super Bowl. Is that failing? To most people, maybe. But when you're picking apart why you failed, and now you're learning from that, then is that really failing? I don't think so." - Kobe Bryant, 1978-2020. Rest in peace, great warrior. Personal Challenges, a.k.a.The Saga of Scalyfreak: Tutorial; Ch 1; Ch 2; Ch 3; Ch 4; Ch 5; Ch 6; Intermission; Intermission II; Ch 7; Ch 8; Ch 9; Ch 10; Ch 11; Ch 12 ; Ch 13; Ch 14; Ch 15; Ch 16; Ch 17; Intermission III; Ch 18; Ch 19; Ch 20; Ch 21; Ch 22; Ch 23; Ch 24; Ch 25; Intermission IV; Ch 26; Ch 27; Ch 28; Ch 29; Ch 30; Ch 31; Ch 32; Ch 33; Ch 34; Ch 35; Ch 36; Ch 37; Ch 38; Ch 39; Ch 40; Intermission V; Ch 41; Ch 42 Link to comment
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