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Echo level up: The Chase Challenge

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I know I'm super early, but I need to post this in my morning so I can get on with the day. This motivation won't last forever.

 

For anyone that hasn't recognised the middle quote in my signature (and who could blame you if you didn't), I'm a Buffy and Angel fan - despite their many flaws. And one of my absolute favourite characters to ever be on either of those shows is none other than the queen bee herself Cordelia Chase. So I thought it was a great time to do this theme (including gifs).

(do I need a spoiler warning for a forum with Nerd in the title?)

And also, for this challenge I am choosing to ignore the travesty that is Angel season 4, because that was not Cordelia so it doesn't count. *sticks out tongue*

 

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This idea came just before I found this article: Essay: The Assassination of Cordelia Chase. And I personally have always identified with her, even when the writers gave her some questionable lines. She was always the realistic one, and even when she was altruistic and empathetic she never forgot to put herself, if not first, then at the very least second - something I have trouble with. She is allowed to be materialistic, practical, and the hero, and she is blunt and calls people out on their crap. I love her self-confidence (even her fake one) and her inner strength. I like that she doesn't flaunt her intellect but uses it nonetheless, and suffice to say I identify with her acing the SATs but not being able to go to college because of someone else's dumb decisions. She wasn't Buffy, and she didn't try to be Buffy, and I think, in the end she was the only one of the original gang that actually grew up.

 

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And with that, the challenge:

Main challenge goal: Pharmaceutical technician qualifications, aka "ace the SATs" goal- While this will take a lot longer than the 4 weeks this challenge gives me, I am kicking it off on the right foot. I will get in, find the books I need, and study my ass off. And not let the million other things I need to do cause me pressure that leads to me not doing anything.

 

"Angel Investigations, we help the hopeless" - Let's face it, the woman ran the business side of things perfectly. Without her making him a legitimate detective Angel would have creeped out more women than he helped. This is my 'stay on top of trackers' goal, same deal as last time. I also have a quest that might help with this.

 

"The crossbow" goal - 

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Gif says it all. This is my fitness one. I'm switching things up by dedicating to the Athena's Playbook Darebee plan, because, come on, and adding things like running and hiking and extras when I feel like it. It is varied enough that I feel like I can do it and not get bored.

 

The Evolution - Just like much of Cordy's evolution was emotional and mental, I will keep focusing on my mental health path:

 

  • Take breaks when you feel riled up. Breathe, or break the conversation and give yourself space.
  • Calming practises. Work through it. Figure out why you feel the way you feel.
  • People don't need to know your emotions. Project a calm image and find a way to speak clearly even when you don't feel clear. This will stop me feeling even more annoyed when people try and 'help' but their help is saying calm down. And it will help with the bad type of vulnerability I feel when I am not calm.
  • Don't feel responsible for things other people need to do.
  • FEEL. For fuck's sake, just feel your emotions, they are not a bad thing.
  • Phrasing. Use the words 'hate' and 'try' less. The first one in regards to things I just have a general dislike for and the second in regards to things I want to do. It sounds simple but it's one of these things that you catch yourself doing and it changes your worldview.

 

Now, for the part of my challenge that is the Cordy quests - experiments that might be a success and might not, either way I learned something:

 

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  1. Dennis the ghost quest - My chores are hampered by the fact I live with another person. To fix this I will: a) ask the person to not help me when I'm cleaning because we have different methods; b) focus on my mess and the mess that might not be only mine but that I care more about (so I know we won't get our wires crossed); c) work on not feeling odd that I'm cleaning with someone else in the house - chores that I can do alone will take precedent, chores that involve other people will be done when those people cooperate and I will not feel guilty about that.
  2. I think it, I say it, it's my way quest - Speak you mind. Something bothers you? Someone is being an idiot and it affects you? Say it while you're calm and it hasn't ruined your life enough for you to be boiling. Have an opinion about a topic? You know the person appreciates your advice? Say it. You already like saying I told you so.
  3. Well, duh/I'm not a sheep quest - self-confidence. I have it in my head. I don't have it around other people as much as I want to. I'm me. I'm awesome. Other people should know I know that.
  4. You didn't just hurt me, you gave away my clothes quest - Clean out things you don't like, need, or use, and invest in things you do, things you'd miss if someone, oh I don't know, donated all of your shit right after you got kidnapped. This has a counter, that is currently on 0/5 (though one portion is half-way done) for places I need to do the clean out on - so once a week is plenty. One of those places is not solely mine, so I will give myself the point if I try and not get into an argument during it. The second portion of this quest is spending related - I am a stupidly frugal person, to the point where I don't invest in things I need without feeling weird about it. I will work on not feeling weird.

 

And lastly: 

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If I don't do everything I have set out to do this challenge, I can do my best. We take what we can get, and any progress is good progress. Not striving for perfection here, it doesn't exist. We strive to be badass and to rock. Whatever that entails this time.

And with that, we're off! I'll try and update frequently as always.

 

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See ya!

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9 minutes ago, Salinger said:

Great challenge. Love you telling us all you are awesome! Yes you are :) good luck, ill be cheering you on xx

 

It took me a minute, I wrote 'you' first and then then decided that if I'm gonna post this its gotta be an 'I'. :D Glad you like it!

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Great challenge. Will follow!

 

Cordy was one of my favorite Buffy characters. She could have been just the typical high school mean girl but she actually changed and grew as the series went on. One of her best moments was in the episode where Buffy can hear everyone's thoughts. Buff hears Cordy think something like 'this is anything to do with me' and then Cordy says exactly what she just thought! She was always authentic and wasn't afraid to say what she felt. I loved that about her.

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Great Challenge! Buffy is one of my all time favourite TV shows! And like CQ already has said over Buffy and Angel Cordelia must have one of the best character arcs to ever happen on TV with a phenomenal amount of growth from a character that was simply introduced to be the high school mean girl. 

 

 

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1 hour ago, Charlie_Quinn said:

Great challenge. Will follow!

 

Thanks for being here Quinn! And yeah that was definitely one of the scenes that cemented Cordy as a favourite in my book.

 

12 minutes ago, jonfirestar said:

Great Challenge! Buffy is one of my all time favourite TV shows! And like CQ already has said over Buffy and Angel Cordelia must have one of the best character arcs to ever happen on TV with a phenomenal amount of growth from a character that was simply introduced to be the high school mean girl. 

 

Yup, she came a long way from 'Buffy's path not taken' from the first/second season. 

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Following. 

 

Love Buffy and Angel. I'm not sure that Cordy is in one of my favorite categories, but I do rather like her journey and her character story arc. 

 

I never finished Angel. I actually stopped on the season when Cordelia was pregnant. Is that season 4? I can't remember. I just couldn't make it through that season at the time. I've always meant to go back and finish it, I just never have. 

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AUUGGHHH yes I love BtvS; I've never watched the Angel series but I actually just started a Buffy rewatch this weekend and gosh I love Cordy so much, she is a legit badass and full of sass and never-say-die.

 

PS heck yeah you are AWESOME!  Excellent challenge goals~ :DDDD

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56 minutes ago, RhiaWolfe said:

I never finished Angel. I actually stopped on the season when Cordelia was pregnant. Is that season 4? I can't remember. I just couldn't make it through that season at the time. I've always meant to go back and finish it, I just never have. 

 

Yes that is *grits teeth* season 4. Season five is way better in so many ways, including Cordy's send off. But season four is just ugh. And I'm not even a person that hates Connor.

 

14 minutes ago, shaar said:

I've never watched the Angel series

 

Glad to see you here shaar! And thank you ^_^

It's a pretty cool show with some truly horrible decisions in it, but has some really great character arcs. And yeah Cordy was a badass in Buffy. 

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40 minutes ago, Echoceanic said:

 

Yes that is *grits teeth* season 4. Season five is way better in so many ways, including Cordy's send off. But season four is just ugh. And I'm not even a person that hates Connor.

 

 

I am one of the anti-Connor people. I think I made it like halfway through that season and just didn't watch anymore. I DID finish Buffy though. 

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33 minutes ago, RhiaWolfe said:

I am one of the anti-Connor people. I think I made it like halfway through that season and just didn't watch anymore. I DID finish Buffy though. 

 

I mean I got to watch Faith yell at him so I was okay - and I was too mad about Cordy to even register his whiny ass at anything above Dawn levels. The ending of Buffy is awesome. :)) 

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I gotta admit, I always had a TV crush on Cordelia, haha. This is going to be a great challenge! I'm excited about you speaking your mind ;) 

 

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Is it weird that I'm excited about your cleaning goal? It really sounds like you can make a lot of progress on that one by figuring out how to manage the social aspects of sharing space. You have a really good plan there. If you get that one figured out I think it could make a difference in your day-to-day life.

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15 hours ago, Wolfpool said:

I gotta admit, I always had a TV crush on Cordelia, haha. This is going to be a great challenge!

 

Yeah the fact she is played by Charisma Carpenter probably had something to do with why she's one of my favourites. :D 

 

15 hours ago, Wolfpool said:

I'm excited about you speaking your mind ;)

 

Ditto. I am calmer when I do honestly.

 

8 hours ago, Xena said:

Is it weird that I'm excited about your cleaning goal? It really sounds like you can make a lot of progress on that one by figuring out how to manage the social aspects of sharing space. You have a really good plan there. If you get that one figured out I think it could make a difference in your day-to-day life.

 

Not weird, I'm excited about it too! And yeah the world of difference.

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Week ZERO - Oh boy do I have an update for you guys.

 

So this week will be mostly prep week for me because the studies don't happen before the 13th. But I did make some progress: 

 

- I told the person I lived with to not help me, she agreed. Vacuuming will be a problem because I can't do it without touching all of her stuff, but I'll focus on other stuff.

- A friend was trying to get me to talk but I had work and I did not multitask but told him no.

- I sent an email I wouldn't have sent a few weeks ago but I deserve to know a timeline and what to expect. Did it today even before my coffee.

- I cleaned out all my summer clothes (not touching the winter ones because I want to try and wear them first) and I actually caused another person to do the same, so yay. 1/5 

- I didn't do much work yesterday (Monday) but I understand why - I held a huge stress ball for another person (bad news) and was waiting to give it to them and have them blow up at it so the stress killed any productivity I had. I still did a lot though - including a random thing outside of my schedule. Understanding this is new and exciting for me.

 

I might have to set my alarm for later. It sucks and I don't want to, but I woke up really late today and haven't been hitting it at all. And I don't even know if it's going to work because the problem with me isn't that I get too little sleep but too much because I suck at getting up. I did wake up at the alarm I just didn't move out of bed.  For now I have set another alarm for later as well. 

Because of that I have a headache today and half of my day is over. But I'll do what I can today. 

 

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1 hour ago, Echoceanic said:

 

I might have to set my alarm for later. It sucks and I don't want to, but I woke up really late today and haven't been hitting it at all. And I don't even know if it's going to work because the problem with me isn't that I get too little sleep but too much because I suck at getting up. I did wake up at the alarm I just didn't move out of bed.  For now I have set another alarm for later as well. 

Because of that I have a headache today and half of my day is over. But I'll do what I can today. 

 

 

First, I love the awesome progress you made just on your first day. Especially saying 'no' because that can be really hard at times. 

 

Waking up in the morning is hard for me as well. I used to be really good at it in college. I would wake up and get up the first time the alarm went off. now I hit snooze multiple times. It's especially difficult if you don't have a timetable on somewhere you HAVE to be. 

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1 hour ago, RhiaWolfe said:

It's especially difficult if you don't have a timetable on somewhere you HAVE to be. 

 

EXACTLY! I have a lot to do but I have no fixed schedule and it is a thing that helps a lot. 

 

Also I took a look at my planner and I actually did everything I needed to do yesterday, I just did it from my living room couch while watching tv. And it didn't feel like anything. 

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4 hours ago, Echoceanic said:

I told the person I lived with to not help me, she agreed. Vacuuming will be a problem because I can't do it without touching all of her stuff, but I'll focus on other stuff.

- A friend was trying to get me to talk but I had work and I did not multitask but told him no.

- I sent an email I wouldn't have sent a few weeks ago but I deserve to know a timeline and what to expect. Did it today even before my coffee.

- I cleaned out all my summer clothes (not touching the winter ones because I want to try and wear them first) and I actually caused another person to do the same, so yay. 1/5 

 

Congrats on these victories!!  Great job.  Saying no and sending emails are not always as easy as they sound!  Killing it already!

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Week ZERO: Echo's life is getting even more hectic (apparently that is possible):

 

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So while Monday was an awesome example of a day, Tuesday was not that great. I woke up in the afternoon (so I slept for 12 hours), after not getting up immediately because I wanted to stretch. I also didn't exercise. But I did finish a gig, and got some news.

 

- Apparently getting my book to copyedit status is doable by the end of the year but ambitious. Which means I get another huge thing I need to work on besides the schooling. I had a minor oh dear gods am I good enough am I gonna fail, this book will never be out and I will be a failure but managed to get over it, and this time without actually shoving it down under layers of I'm fine. I should work on it today.

- Because of this, these next few weeks I will find an opening to go in vacation mode on freelancing, because even people that have more than one job don't do all of them in the same day, and it's the thing I care about the least right now. I want to make progress I'm proud of by the end of this year, and have something tangible to show for it. It's for my sanity.

- Monday I did day one of Athena's Playbook, and did 7 sets. Now I either got a huge bump in my endurance since the last time I did it, or I just settled that time, cause the first time I did it I only did 3 sets. Tuesday I did nothing and I am planning on doing day 2 today around 6pm because I don't need to go anywhere.

- The chores were hijacked from under me yesterday, so I kinda feel like I need to rush with them today which is not good, the whole point is to feel comfortable doing them on my own and without worrying if there is someone in the house. 

- I didn't get up early today either, but I went to bed super late. I have added a tracker that will help - get up right away - and will focus on it over the time I get up (if I do both awesome, if I do the second over the first I'm fine). Attacking the actual problem with a direct hit.

- Part of why i didn't go to bed early (apart from the whole slept for 12 hours thing) i that I found a new webcomic, and today I'm making a conscious effort to avoid them so I can work right after I get off of this forum.

- I am somehow also finding time to plan on going out this weekend, because I am not going to forget to remind the friend that needs to get everyone together (she knows way more people than me) this time around. I need to socialise this is ridiculous. 

 

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Oh wow, the end of the year!!  EEEE!  That is exciting news!!!!  Lots of work though I'm sure!!!  No panic, you can TOTALLY do this!! :DDDD

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