Jackdaw Posted January 31, 2023 Report Share Posted January 31, 2023 Sorry to hear that the things haven't been going too well! Hold on, every rebel meets some obstacles on the way. Wish it'll get better soon! 1 Quote Veni, vidi, vici. Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted January 31, 2023 Author Report Share Posted January 31, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 10 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 240.0 lbs Meals: 8:00am - Coffee 10:30am - Coffee, breakfast taco 1:30pm - Breakfast taco 4:30pm - Coffee, cereal 6:30pm - Pot roast, veggies, potatoes, cup cake. Chores: Kids - Bed Time Dishes - 1 Load Trash - N/A Laundry - 1 Load Extra - None Fitness: Endurance Day 3 mile run Weekly Mileage: 3 Meditation: 5 min Language: 0 Spanish Online Lesson Reading: 3 Chapters - Consulting for Dummies Chess: 0 Puzzles 0 Lessons 0 Game - 0W/0L/0D Notes: Had a doozy of a depressive episode over the weekend. Seems to be clearing up thankfully. In the dumps of depression really leaned heavy on the junk food and it’s showing on the scales. Just have to get back to clean eating and exercise. Taking it a day at a time this week. There a pretty severe ice storm over the next couple of days here in north Texas so we are all house bound for a bit. Not able to walk as much so may need to hit the treadmill some more. 1 1 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 1, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 1, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 10 Hrs Water: 6/8 Gallon Weight: 239.4 lbs Meals: 8:00am - Coffee 10:30am - Coffee, cereal 1:30pm - Coffee, eggs, chopped steak, toast, tomato slices, cereal, juice 4:30pm - Coffee, candy bar 6:00pm - Ham, Mac n cheese, peas Chores: Kids - Bed Time Dishes - None Trash - N/A Laundry - None Extra - None Fitness: Nothing Weekly Mileage: 3 Meditation: 5 min Language: 0 Spanish Online Lesson Reading: 0 Chapters - Consulting for Dummies Chess: 0 Puzzles 0 Lessons 0 Game - 0W/0L/0D Notes: Still down in the dumps and can’t see a doctor until Thursday. Going to be rough week but I’ve had it worse. Got assigned a series of last minute updates to a project due tomorrow so all my free time for exercise and chores went out the window today. That and crashed out for a bit for what I affectionately call a depression nap, so time for other things today has been sparse. Trying to focus on sticking to the basics. Just have to make it to Thursday for my doctors appointment and hopefully will get some relief then, if the episode doesn’t already pass before then that is. 2 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 2, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 2, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 10 Hrs Water: 6/8 Gallon Weight: 238.6 lbs Meals: 8:00am - Coffee 9:30am - Coffee, cereal 12:30pm - Bagel pizza, soda 1:30pm - Coffee 4:30pm - Coffee, PB snack bar 6:30pm - Steak quesadillas, lemonade Chores: Kids - Bed Time Dishes - None Trash - No e Laundry - None Extra - None Fitness: Nothing Meditation: 5 min Language: 0 Spanish Online Lesson Reading: 0 Chapters - Consulting for Dummies Chess: 0 Puzzles 0 Lessons 0 Game - 0W/0L/0D Notes: Work presentation ended up going well today but after that had a heart to heart with my boss, he wants to see me improve in my position this year and has some definite suggestions that are very much going to change my work experience. He was pretty straightforward and no-nonsense about it, which he could have delivered with some more polish, but he got his point across and I have my new directives, means less workday flexibility and some more oversight but such is life. 1 Quote Link to comment
RubiksCat Posted February 2, 2023 Report Share Posted February 2, 2023 Sorry to hear about the ice storm up north. Here in San Antonio I think the lowest it's gotten so far is 36 degrees (F). Depression can be a real **tch sometimes, but you're resiliency can beat it. 1 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 7, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 7, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 9 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 238.8 lbs Meals: 6:00am - Coffee 7:30am - Coffee, Bagel 10:30am - Eggs, toast, tomatoes, oj 1:30pm - Sandwich, chips, soda, cookie 2:00pm - Coffee 4:00pm - Coffee, banana 7:00pm - Chicken nachos, apple sauce Chores: Kids - Bed Time Dishes - None Trash - None Laundry - None Extra - None Fitness: Run - 3 miles Meditation: 5 min Notes: Been a couple of days after a pretty bad personal shake up at work with my new boss and my motivation is low to say the least. Really bothered me on top of struggling with this depressive episode. Kind of out of nowhere I was put on an unofficial improvement plan. Really have to dig my way out of a hole I didn’t know I was in and to a place where the new boss wants me to be. Last week was a rough one, hopefully this week will be better. Removing Spanish, reading, and chess goals as I really need to consolidate with the increase in my job work load. It’s a shame because I was enjoying it, but only so many hours in the day. On the depression side, I saw my doctor and got a med increase but it just doesn’t seem to be working. Giving it a week to see if anything changes but if not I have another med he wants me to try. Just putting one foot in front of the other for the time being. On top of all that Mrs. ReturnOfTheDad and Little Miss ReturnOfTheDad are down with the flu, so on Nurse/Dad duty in the morning, afternoon, and night along with work. Just keeping my head above water today but did get a run in and only one soda today, which is an improvement over my normal stress sugar eating/drinking. 1 Quote Link to comment
Jackdaw Posted February 9, 2023 Report Share Posted February 9, 2023 It seems you've got really too much on your plate right now! Keep on, it'll definietely get at least a little bit better when your family recovers and hopefully you'll get used to your new boss. For me it always helps to think that no bad phase lasts foerever when I have a bad time. 1 Quote Veni, vidi, vici. Link to comment
Jupiter Posted February 9, 2023 Report Share Posted February 9, 2023 On 2/7/2023 at 7:22 AM, ReturnOfTheDad said: Kind of out of nowhere I was put on an unofficial improvement plan. Really have to dig my way out of a hole I didn’t know I was in and to a place where the new boss wants me to be. Last week was a rough one, hopefully this week will be better. Yeesh, I feel you on that one, I'm in kind of in a similar boat right now. You'll get there, I believe in you. I'm sorry things have been rough, though, hope they get better soon. 1 Quote New Battle Log, Old Battle Log, Current Challenge 2022 Challenges: Challenge 1, Challenge 2, Challenge 3, Challenge 4 2021 Challenges: Challenge 1, Challenge 2, Challenge 3, Challenge 4, Challenge 5, Challenge 6 2020 Challenges: Challenge 1, Challenge 2, Challenge 3, Challenge 4, Challenge 5, Challenge 6, Challenge 7 Link to comment
Jackdaw Posted February 16, 2023 Report Share Posted February 16, 2023 How is it going? I hope you're doing well! Wish you to have a great day! Quote Veni, vidi, vici. Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 16, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 16, 2023 6 hours ago, XBlackWidowX said: How is it going? I hope you're doing well! Wish you to have a great day! Thanks so much, still battling the medication change. Will post again soon. 1 Quote Link to comment
suzyQlou Posted February 18, 2023 Report Share Posted February 18, 2023 Hey. Just sayin' hi since I'm hanging out a little on the battle log board. Hope your work and medical stuff work out because Spanish, reading, and chess goals sound like so much more fun! I'm hooked on Spanish Duolingo myself, and I work with kids in a library where I'm hoping to start a chess club over the summer. I'm glad I found you! Anyways, good luck with those new meds and responsibilities at work. 1 Quote suzyQlou * Ranger Old Challenges: #1(2015) * #2 * #3(push ups) * #4 * #5(food) * #6 * #7(2016)* #8(nerdiversary) * #9 * 10(animal) * Battle Log * 11(2017) * 12(garden) * 13 * 14(biking) * 15 * 16 * 17 * 18 * 19(2018) * 20(2019) * 21 Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 19, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 19, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 240.0 lbs Meals: 10:30am - Coffee 12:00pm - Coffee, egg white veggie scramble, tortillas 3:00pm - hotdog, chips, soda 4:30pm - Coffee 6:30pm - Hot Dog, veggies, rolls Chores: Kids - Bed Time Dishes - 1 load Trash - N/A Laundry - N/A Extra - None Fitness: Rest Day Meditation: 5 min Notes: Thank you all for the support while I’ve been going through my health issues. It’s a frustrating thing to deal with but I know getting help and sticking with it is the most important thing towards living a normal life. After a week or so dealing with a pretty heavy medication transition I’m working my way back up to a more normal and healthy life balance. 3 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 20, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 20, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 6/8 Gallon Weight: 239.6 lbs Meals: 10:30am - Coffee, cereal 2:30pm - Soda, burger, burrito 6:30pm - Soda, Steak fingers, toast Chores: Kids - None Dishes - None Trash - Took out the trash Laundry - None Extra - None Fitness: 1.5 mile walk Meditation: 5 min Notes: Another day down. Got a walk in and made it to a recovery meeting. It’s a start. 2 Quote Link to comment
Jackdaw Posted February 23, 2023 Report Share Posted February 23, 2023 Be persistent and it'll get better! Keep on fighting! 1 Quote Veni, vidi, vici. Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 23, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 23, 2023 2 hours ago, XBlackWidowX said: Be persistent and it'll get better! Keep on fighting! Thanks, I’m trying. Had a trip to the hospital this week due to a medication reaction. Have a doctors appointment today to figure out what to do next. Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 26, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 240.7 lbs Meals: 10:00am -Coffee 11:30am - Coffee, eggs, tomato, cheese, toast 3:00pm - 1/2 PB Sandwich and SF Monster 6:00pm - Pizza and chips Fitness: Treadmill - 3 miles Meditation: 5 min Notes: Trying to put my thoughts together. Been a rough couple of weeks. Spoiler It looks like my Bipolar may be classified as as Treatment Resistant which leaves me the option of stronger meds with some severe side effects or taking the route of electroshock therapy or intravenous therapy which honestly scares me and I just don’t want to do it. The other option is just to take the bare minimum of meds and deal with the episodes as best I can. Going to try and focus on the basics of healthy living, fitness, and try to be as open about my journey as possible as it may end up helping someone else down the road. Going to also start prioritizing my fitness and health as that is a stabilizing force that I’ve been missing out on for almost a year. Thanks for all the support I’ve received on here. It’s made a big difference and I am incredibly grateful for this community. 3 Quote Link to comment
Jackdaw Posted February 27, 2023 Report Share Posted February 27, 2023 Maybe it would be helpful to talk with someone who was in a similar situation? Do you have a community? I have no idea about electroshock therapy, but maybe it's not as bad as it sounds? I would also talk with at least few doctors. A really good specialist can make a difference and maybe will have better ideas than the other/previous one. It's great fitness is helpful for you and it has power to ground you. Keep on going! It's always hard after a break but once you start, it's become a habit (again). 1 1 Quote Veni, vidi, vici. Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 27, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 27, 2023 4 hours ago, XBlackWidowX said: Maybe it would be helpful to talk with someone who was in a similar situation? Do you have a community? That’s a really good idea. I talked with a friend of mine who has experience with this and he suggested the same thing about talking with some other doctors. Making some appointments today. Thanks! 2 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted February 27, 2023 Author Report Share Posted February 27, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 1/2 Gallon Weight: 240.6 lbs Meals: 11:00am -Coffee 12:30am - Sandwich, soda 2:30pm - Coffee 5:00pm - Coffee, nachos 10:00pm - Burger, fries, shake Fitness: Rest Day Meditation: 5 min Notes: A little sore from my run yesterday so took a rest day. I think I’m going to try for 3 medium paced runs this week to get back in the swing of things and then pick up some resistance training the following week. 1 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 4, 2023 Author Report Share Posted March 4, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 9 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 242.0 lbs Meals: 8:00am -Coffee 10:00am - Eggs, tomato, toast 11:30am - Coffee, Avocado toast, beans 2:00pm - Chicken fried rice 3:00pm - Coffee 7:00pm - Cheeseburger, Pie Fitness: Golf - Driving Range Meditation: 5 min Notes: Got some doctors appointment made, exhausted from filling out paperwork, but it’s a step in the right direction. Got my first consulting opinion from a new doctor and it sounds promising. There is apparently a genetic test that can be done to see what medications I would do well with. Fairly excited to see what that says versus the recent trial and error. 3 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 5, 2023 Author Report Share Posted March 5, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 6/8 Gallon Weight: 243.6 lbs Meals: 11:00am - Coffee, oatmeal, granola 1:30pm - Coffee, bean, cheese tostadas 3:00pm - Coffee 4:30pm - pastry, milk 7:00pm - Chicken wings, veggies, chips, soda Fitness: MMA Conditioning - 20 Minutes Meditation: 5 min Notes: Mrs.ReturnOfTheDad has been cooking up a storm making homemade charro beans and jalapeño oil infused green sauce. The results on some tostadas were outstanding: I also got to help in making some hot crossed buns, which turned out nice: Exercise also happened, wasn’t much but it was something. 3 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 6, 2023 Author Report Share Posted March 6, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 12 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 241.0 lbs Meals: 10:30am - Coffee, pastry 1:30pm - Coffee, Pork fried rice, cookies 3:00pm - Coffee 4:00pm - Pastry, milk 6:30pm - chicken tenders, veggies, mashed potatoes Fitness: Treadmill - 3 miles Meditation: 5 min Notes: Exercise happened. Meds are not in a good place right now but working to have that taken care of in the next couple of days. 2 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 7, 2023 Author Report Share Posted March 7, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 11 Hrs Water: 1 Gallon Weight: 242.2 lbs Meals: 9:00am - Coffee 11:00am - Coffee, egg white omelette, charro beans 2:30pm - Greek yogurt 4:30pm - Coffee, Bean and cheese tostadas 6:30pm - Steak, broccoli, pasta 9:00pm - Cereal Fitness: Rest Day Meditation: 5 min Notes: Another day, another doctors visit. Not as encouraging as the last visit but did get a referral to a local research hospital that may have some answers. One more thing to look into. 2 Quote Link to comment
ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 17, 2023 Author Report Share Posted March 17, 2023 2023 - The Long Game Word of the Year: Balance Sleep: 10 Hrs Water: 3/4 Gallon Weight: 241.2 lbs Meals: 9:00am - Tea, toast, bacon 1:30pm - Gyro, chips, hummus, pita, Diet Coke 6:30pm - Pizza Soda Fitness: Walking - 2 Miles Meditation: 5 min Notes: Been down and out for a while but finally found a new doctor and getting on some new meds. I feel a little better, but can’t have caffeine on this new medication, so detoxing from caffeine for the next week or so, no fun. It’s spring break so busy day of taking kids around to museums and trampoline parks. More of that tomorrow and then hopefully some down time before the next week and change in meds start again. 1 Quote Link to comment
suzyQlou Posted March 17, 2023 Report Share Posted March 17, 2023 I'm sending you some good vibes for the caffeine detox. Anyone who can do this is a super hero in my world! Enjoy your time with the kids, and give my regards to Mrs. ReturnOfTheDad. Her homemade charro beans dinner look delicious. 1 Quote suzyQlou * Ranger Old Challenges: #1(2015) * #2 * #3(push ups) * #4 * #5(food) * #6 * #7(2016)* #8(nerdiversary) * #9 * 10(animal) * Battle Log * 11(2017) * 12(garden) * 13 * 14(biking) * 15 * 16 * 17 * 18 * 19(2018) * 20(2019) * 21 Link to comment
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