RES: It's just a number

[RES]

 

So I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about numbers (go figure, I'm an accountant)...my birthday falls right in the middle of this challenge (October 31st, i will be 49 for those wondering  ) so of course i hear all the "it's just a number" stuff...which is true to a point. People say that about weight too, doesn't matter to who you are as a person. also true...but it's more than a number as well. With the number of years that add up to my age also comes a lot of experiences, some wisdom I would have to say, along with heartbreak, pain, joy, and definitely lessons learned. One of those lessons is if I knew it was this difficult to change the number that adds up to my weight, I would have made better choices, maybe learned better self control, and refuse to let someone else derail me from what I need to do.

But I digress, I'm trying not to let the lack of support I have at home derail me any longer.

I have a goal of getting where I want to be by my 50th birthday. I want to be able to run (yes run) a 5k, I want to complete a 10k, and I want to start looking to do a 1/2 Marathon.

I want to lose about 45 lbs, or fit in the size I could wear when I weighed that just 7 short years ago. 

I want to be well on my way of having our debt paid off, by this time next year I want to only have the house, cars, and the big CC left, and the CC should be over 1/2 way there, oh, and the student loans...I'll work on those after I get the rest done.

So, in order to meet these goals this is what I'm going to do:

- Continue eating as I have been, down 18 lbs so far! I want to get under 200 this challenge, even if its only 1 lb

- Start working out again. I want this to be habit and second nature. Also, get to the gym!

- Pay off 'one more' thing...I 'snowball' our debt to try to get it eliminated. I had this done for the most part then we bought the house, and everything we needed for it, etc...happened and it got a bit out of control,  just need to continue working it till it's gone.

 

In true RES fashion these are my upcoming 5k's  

Sunday 10/28 - Evergreen Pumpkin Run 5k

Saturday 11/3 - Florida Brain Tumor Walk

Saturday 11/3 - First Coast AIDS Walk

Thursday 11/8 - GOTR Practice 5k

Saturday 12/1 - Girls on the Run 5k

Saturday 1/12 - Best Damn Race 5k

Various other 'want to do's' that I will add if I sign up to do them!

 

 

 

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

First!

[RES]

This is interesting...after posting here I get a call from Bailey's asking if I wanted to schedule my fitness assessment! I figured no time like the present so I'm going in at 6:30 today!

 

[fleaball]

[DarK_RaideR]

10 hours ago, fleaball said:

This^

[RES]

So nothing I didn't know about the assessment, I have a lot of work to do...I've also officially signed up to be a running buddy with Girls on the Run for my bosses daughter...no way in hell am I letting a 10 year old show me up so I've got to get busy!!

 

[DarK_RaideR]

 

[Mistr]

Good for you for taking charge of your life in spite of the lack of support at home. You are well on your way with 18 pounds lost and walking regular 5Ks. There are lots of programs to move from walking to running. I hope you find one you enjoy.

 

I hear you on the "it's just a number". That is what my friends told me when I turned 50. The round numbers have a lot of emotional baggage tied to them. I'm feeling less tied to the numbers as I get older and in better shape. The last five years here on NF have made a huge difference. I'm now at the same weight I was in my 30s and in much better shape. You can do the same thing over the next year.

[DaemonCorax]

Following

 

Kudos to you for setting solid long term goals for the next year. My brain leaks out my ears trying to do that right now.

[Teirin]

Excellent plans!  Following.

[RES]

So I realize I have lost a LOT of flexibility...I know my neck has been getting harder and harder to deal with but I did the intro to Piyo yesterday and I think I lost everything I had gained from NF Yoga...and I just realized it's been over two years since I've done that, maybe I should start there first and work up to Piyo?

Have had a lot of issues making time to go to the gym after work, realized it wasn't gonna happen so I got up and went this morning...my card didn't work  and of course no one was there so I'll stop in after work today to see what's going on with it. I have some friends that go that time of the morning so it helps with the needed encouragement to get my lazy ass out of bed!

On 10/23/2018 at 1:28 PM, Mistr said:

I hope you find one you enjoy.

My biggest challenge is not the enjoyment, it's the trying not to do it all at once and hurting myself....I had shin splints last time I tried that!

The lack of support at home is not limited to this, but I'm not going to let it stop me!

 

On 10/23/2018 at 6:21 PM, DaemonCorax said:

Kudos to you for setting solid long term goals for the next year. My brain leaks out my ears trying to do that right now.

I don't have enough left to let it do that...I also had a goal of having my entire back piece done by the time I hit 45, lets hope this one goes better!

 

On 10/23/2018 at 10:38 PM, Teirin said:

Excellent plans!  Following.

YAY, where have you been? I've missed you!

 

Off to play catch up during working hours now  

[RES]

[DarK_RaideR]

Happy birthday RES!!!

[Salinger]

Hope you had a great birthday x

[RES]

On 11/1/2018 at 3:19 AM, DarK_RaideR said:

Happy birthday RES!!!

Thank you!!

Many poor food and drink choices were made, I regret nothing!

 

On 11/3/2018 at 1:45 AM, Salinger said:

Hope you had a great birthday x

I did...spoke to each one of my offspring and did not have to speak to any family members I don't care for  

(mother in law and spouse don't count...I care, they just annoy me)

[RES]

Wrap up...going to keep this short since not much to tell

 

So, in order to meet these goals this is what I'm going to do:

- Continue eating as I have been, down 18 lbs so far! I want to get under 200 this challenge, even if its only 1 lb

Ended up gaining...this is tough when you have no support, going to have to do something different

- Start working out again. I want this to be habit and second nature. Also, get to the gym!

I did make it to the gym several times, not as much as I'd like...will continue to work on this

- Pay off 'one more' thing...I 'snowball' our debt to try to get it eliminated. I had this done for the most part then we bought the house, and everything we needed for it, etc...happened and it got a bit out of control,  just need to continue working it till it's gone.

Got three 'things' paid off! Thank you annual bonus!

 

In true RES fashion these are my upcoming 5k's  

Sunday 10/28 - Evergreen Pumpkin Run 5k Skipped

Saturday 11/3 - Florida Brain Tumor Walk Skipped

Saturday 11/3 - First Coast AIDS Walk yay! Done!

Thursday 11/8 - GOTR Practice 5k Skipped (work related)

 

So yeah, not only is my other half not encouraging when it comes to eating, and helping out anymore. Now I get guilt trips when I go to the gym, and she skipped 5k's were on days she had off and for whatever reason isn't able to participate in them (I stopped signing her up when she was working all the time, now she claims her knee bothers her too much to try them) so just wanted to "spend time with me" and so I caved and didn't, because it's so much more entertaining to watch her sleep in the recliner while binge watching netflix /sarcasm.

So...will be adjustments and further plans/commitments next challenge. Signature will be updated!

 

[Sylvaa]

51 minutes ago, RES said:

So yeah, not only is my other half not encouraging when it comes to eating, and helping out anymore. Now I get guilt trips when I go to the gym, and she skipped 5k's were on days she had off and for whatever reason isn't able to participate in them (I stopped signing her up when she was working all the time, now she claims her knee bothers her too much to try them) so just wanted to "spend time with me" and so I caved and didn't, because it's so much more entertaining to watch her sleep in the recliner while binge watching netflix /sarcasm.

So...will be adjustments and further plans/commitments next challenge. Signature will be updated!

 

I get this SO MUCH!

 

If you ever want an online accountability buddy, let me know! Because this ends up being my life too. So, solidarity.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

56 minutes ago, RES said:

So yeah, not only is my other half not encouraging when it comes to eating, and helping out anymore. Now I get guilt trips when I go to the gym, and she skipped 5k's were on days she had off and for whatever reason isn't able to participate in them (I stopped signing her up when she was working all the time, now she claims her knee bothers her too much to try them) so just wanted to "spend time with me" and so I caved and didn't, because it's so much more entertaining to watch her sleep in the recliner while binge watching netflix /sarcasm.

*cough* Fear of abandonment. *cough*

[RES]

26 minutes ago, Sylvaa said:

 

I get this SO MUCH!

 

If you ever want an online accountability buddy, let me know! Because this ends up being my life too. So, solidarity.

Absolutely! It truly sucks anyone has to go through this...normally I would have walked away by now but there is a lot wrapped up in this that in retrospect wasn't very smart of me...but I didn't want to explain it at the time...

 

19 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

*cough* Fear of abandonment. *cough*

[DarK_RaideR]

14 hours ago, Sylvaa said:

I get this SO MUCH!

 

If you ever want an online accountability buddy, let me know! Because this ends up being my life too. So, solidarity.

+1

 

13 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

*cough* Fear of abandonment. *cough*

Something like that. It's sad really, how people who can't keep up try to drag you down to their level instead of encouraging you to keep going or even be inspired by it. Being an awesome, interesting, sexy badass should never be a guilt trip.

[RES]

3 hours ago, DarK_RaideR said:

Something like that. It's sad really, how people who can't keep up try to drag you down to their level instead of encouraging you to keep going or even be inspired by it. Being an awesome, interesting, sexy badass should never be a guilt trip.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

6 hours ago, DarK_RaideR said:

+1

 

Something like that. It's sad really, how people who can't keep up try to drag you down to their level instead of encouraging you to keep going or even be inspired by it. Being an awesome, interesting, sexy badass should never be a guilt trip.

Aside from not wanting to be left alone, there's the idea that if the other partner gets fit, that makes them more attractive, and more likely to be stolen away by a third party. There's a reason phobias are called irrational fears.

[RES]

10 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Aside from not wanting to be left alone, there's the idea that if the other partner gets fit, that makes them more attractive, and more likely to be stolen away by a third party. There's a reason phobias are called irrational fears.

 

If there aren't cracks in a relationship, there's no way for someone to slip in a split it apart. 

If she knew me at all she would know I don't cheat, I leave...fact is there's nothing to leave, I give, she takes (advantage most of all). There hasn't been any effort for this to be a real partnership for years, in any aspect (yes, including that) so any insecurities she has she brought on herself. We are no more than roommates that sleep in the same bed and have a joint bank account.

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

That sounds like my first marriage.