Whisper’s Reboot!

[Whisper]

Ok, feeling a bit better. As soon as I started drinking the sports drink my nausea went away. By the time it was done the headache was mostly gone. Sadly, the fatigue is still there, and just about any activity is setting my heart racing. I needed a sit-down break after rinsing off and drying from the shower before I could fix my hair and by the time I got my watch back on my heart rate was up to 124!

 

Looking at my sleep log for the last few days... yeah, the fatigue is gonna need more than just a sports drink to fix. Hopefully the drink'll help my sleep too.  If I don't sleep better tonight than I did last night, I will break the diet and try coming up with another plan.

 

Only 939 cals today. Even with the nausea gone I had to force myself to eat lunch, and didn't feel like forcing dinner. Did drank 96oz of drinks with no no calories from sweetener; which is the standard I'm using for water consumption. Coffee with heavy cream and liquid stevia counts, sports drinks count, sugar and HFCS don't count.

 

Anyway, as soon as I post this I am killing all tech (to eliminate distractions) and heading to bed. If you feel so inclined, please say a prayer for me.

 

[WhiteGhost]

8 hours ago, Whisper said:

they either have no idea what it is, or remember comically exaggerated media depictions.

Yeah, I was somewhere inbetween, but had no idea about now it really affects people.  Sounds like you are playing life on super hardcore mode, so props to you!  I hope the doc figures out what;s going on with the meds and you find a suitable solution

 

11 hours ago, Whisper said:

C02 [is there a way to make that 2 subscript?]

I believe the code for it is CO[ sub ]2[ /sub ] without the spaces between the brackets.  Thus it should come out looking like this CO₂ 

[Whisper]

14 hours ago, WhiteGhost said:

 

I believe the code for it is CO[ sub ]2[ /sub ] without the spaces between the brackets.  Thus it should come out looking like this CO₂ 

 

Th_anks!

[Whisper]

So last night got really bad... I was debating between emergency room now and urgent care in the morning. I decided to see if chex mix could solve the problem instead... Chex Mix just saved me a huge co-pay. 

 

The takeaway from pre-challenge week:

Keto is really good at making me lose weight, but it is also really not good for me. So, I need to a new plan, and I don't have time and cognitive function (noticed a large decline that is still persisting). I had limited time to get food today, and no time to prep or cook today and tomorrow, so I went to the grocery store to get what food to last until Tuesday afternoon.

 

The plan for now:

1. Eat what I want but don't be stupid about it. I got nuts instead of chips, I got some bananas and yogurt, I got a few microwave meals, 'cause yeah, cooking isn't going to happen before Tuesday afternoon, and I need to be eating.
2. Keep tracking what I am eating. I think under 2,000 was way to little, but am going to try and stay under 3,000. I'll see how that works and adjust as necessary.
3. Email my doctor today and let her know how this went...
4. Come up with a longer term plan to start Tuesday. Did I mention that I'm not thinking great right now? I've got some ideas, but really don't want to try and work on it until the synapse are talking to each other again.

 

To be clear:  THIS WAS NOT A FAILURE!    I don't really think any of you are going to think that, I just want you to know that I don't feel that way even a little bit. I'm actually kind of proud of myself. I committed to giving Keto a fair try, and I did that. Trying to press any further with it would have been dangerously stupid.

 

[Whisper]

15 hours ago, WhiteGhost said:

Sounds like you are playing life on super hardcore mode, so props to you! 

 

I might be doing life on hardcore, but I can still be grateful for a whole lot of things, and sadly, there are people running this life on nightmare and insanity. I don't wish it on anyone, but knowing that it really can be worse, makes bearing what I've got a bit easier in comparison. 

[Jean]

29 minutes ago, Whisper said:

To be clear:  THIS WAS NOT A FAILURE!

 

 

I was going to quote point 1. of your plan to say how awesome it is but then I read point 2., and point 3., and point 4. ... and they are all really great so keep up and keep tackling it the smart and strong way, you are indeed doing great.

[RES]

Same thing happened to me several years ago when I did a version of Keto...for my body I was not getting enough carbs, Adding in some sweet potatoes or other higher carb veggies may help.

1 hour ago, Whisper said:

THIS WAS NOT A FAILURE! 

So correct, it absolutely was not!

 

[NicTheRugger]

This was absolutely not a failure! It only would have been one if you decided to give up completely. Instead, you're living your best rebel life by adapting to your actual circumstances, and overcoming! Go you!

[Whisper]

Day 0

 

Thank you everyone for the encouragement, support and feedback. This is what I was missing in my last several attempts at losing weight, and I know it is a huge part of why I'm still in this thing now!

 

2,343 cals. 67% carb, 22% fat, 11% protein. I have no idea what I'm going to want those numbers to look like, but today I am happy with them. I still have no appetite for food, but find myself in the rare position today of finding "empty" calories better than no calories. Hopefully I'll feel more up to eating my food tomorrow. Fortunately, drinking isn't a problem, so focused on staying hydrated and replenishing electrolytes. 

 

I have been feeling increasingly better as the day has gone on. I'm still really tired, but that just makes me hopeful of a good night's sleep tonight. Even the "brain fog" has gotten better. I'll try to nail down a longer term plan tomorrow, thinking I might try something closer to Paleo than Keto, but want to see if there are any other diets recommended for Narcolepsy.

[karinajean]

I'm glad you're feeling better!

[Whisper]

1 hour ago, karinajean said:

I'm glad you're feeling better!

Thank you.

 

So, how does one get Diplomatic Immunity?

[WhiteGhost]

You got this!

 

5 hours ago, Whisper said:

So, how does one get Diplomatic Immunity?

Haha   This is a joke I started on my thread.  I was recently made an Ambassador for the Assassins and so I made a joke about that granting me diplomatic immunity when visiting other Guilds.  KJ was apparently enthusiastically supportive about it enough to merit a title change  

[Whisper]

Challenge Day 1: 

 

In which I spent an instructive two hours at my doctor's office talking about things like hypoglycemia and catecholamine rush, and I got to try valium for the first time... It has been an amazingly long three days. Oh, I also might not have narcolepsy; I might have something else disrupting my sleep badly enough that it looks like narcolepsy. So I get to go to another sleep specialist. 

 

I only lasted three hours at work today. As soon as I started, I knew I was in worse shape than I had been on Sunday, even with adding back carbs and focusing on hydrations and electrolytes. Got worse as I was there, and left to be at my doc's office when she opened. Fortunately, there were able to squeeze me in fairly quickly. Didn't get as bad as Saturday, but i was getting really not good.

 

Doc wants me to try a variation on Keto with a higher carb count, around 100g instead of under 20, but focused mainly to a single meal. There are some places that suggest doing the carb meal at dinner, but she thinks I'll respond better to doing it at lunch. So, Keto breakfast, "normal" lunch, Keto dinner. So, that will be the general plan. I'll need to work out the fine details over the next few days and put it into action.

 

Today's activity was about 4,800 steps. Fitbit is showing 3,500 cals out thus far.

Food was 2,610 cals in. 50% Carb, 37% Fat and 13% Protein.

 

With the valium, I was able to get some sleep this afternoon, bringing the total sleep for today to about 4 and a half hours.

 

Getting ready to go to bed now, and am feeling hopeful that I might finally get a full night's sleep in.

[The budgie smuggler]

Keep up the good work, and remember the only true failure is giving up completely.

[WhiteGhost]

I hope they figure out what is messing with your sleep soon, so you can get that properly addressed.  

[Whisper]

5 hours ago, WhiteGhost said:

I hope they figure out what is messing with your sleep soon, so you can get that properly addressed.  

 

That would be nice, but I'm not gonna hold my breath. Been dealing with sleep problems for at least twenty years, and actively looking for answers for the last 7. I haven't found anything that fits better than Narcolepsy, but there are some critical areas where that doesn't fit either. It's just been a long, crazy mess. But I got a good 6.5 hours of sleep last night, and today I feel pretty good, so that is something.

[Whisper]

Challenge Day 2

 

Activity: 4,446 cals out. 11,514 steps.

Food: 2,620 cals in. 44% carb, 36% fat, 20% protein.

[Whisper]

Spoiler

This is a test, this is only a test...

[Whisper]

So, I'm thinking about starting a separate "battle log" type thread to keep track of all of my Academy quests.

 

My questions are:

1. Should I do that, or just post that stuff here too?

2. Should I upload my before pictures?

 

I've been debating the second question for a while. I wasn't going to do it if they just showed up, because it seems really damn mean to make people look at them; but I've just satisfied myself that I can indeed upload images, but keep them from displaying without active choice by the viewer.  There is a part of me that thinks it could be an important part of "owning" where I am now, and my Big WHY of why I am trying to change, but I'm not sure if it is a good idea or not.

[WhiteGhost]

Ultimately, these are both personal choices so there is no right or wrong answer to either.  My thoughts:

 

1. A lot of people who keep both battle logs and challenge threads will use the battle log for posting the details of their workouts/food consumption/habits/whatever, so they can keep a long term record without having to go back and check old challenges to compare progress, and use the challenges to talk about their thoughts and feeling about the workouts, because the challenges are where most of the interaction happens (they just get more traffic).  That said, not everyone does that and there are no strict rules, so the best thing you can do is whatever works for you.

2. This is completely dependent on your desire to have a 'public' record or commitment compared to your desire for privacy, and that balance is going to be different for everyone.  What I will say, is that NF is a very positive and supportive place and I have never, ever seen anyone get any kind of negative feedback posting before pictures.  If your concerns are mostly with how the community here will react, I think you can rest assured that no one here is going to mind  

[RES]

Echoing what WhiteGhost said, it's completely a personal choice. Some people prefer battle logs for more 'long term' things, and use the challenges for shorter term goals. Some only do one or the other, I do both depending on what it's for, YMMV.

[Whisper]

On 1/9/2019 at 8:29 AM, WhiteGhost said:

Ultimately, these are both personal choices so there is no right or wrong answer to either

 

17 minutes ago, RES said:

Echoing what WhiteGhost said, it's completely a personal choice. Some people prefer battle logs for more 'long term' things, and use the challenges for shorter term goals. Some only do one or the other, I do both depending on what it's for, YMMV.

 

Thank you both for you inputs. I think I do like the idea of a more long term place to keep track of my quest stuff and personal stats over time; easier to reference things like old measurements that way. I want to spend time working on the Academy stuff this weekend, so I'll probably make one then.

[jenkofb]

Glad you are feeling better. Not every eating plan is right for every person. Just gotta find one that is right for you and that you can live with. 

[Whisper]

Challenge Day 3 (posted a day late)

 

Activity: 12,258 steps, 5,535 cals out.

 

Food: Logged 1,963 cals in. Then I had a really stressful time after a really long day at work and ended up bending some and not measureing what I was eating. Remember how I didn't buy chips? Binged on almonds, pumpkin seeds and pistachios. 

 

My takeaway? Need to pre-portion the stuff so that next time I go off stress eating, I can account for it afterwards. 

[Whisper]

Challenge day 4

 

Activity: 12,980 steps and 4,428 cals out.

 

Food: 1,734 cals in. 44% fat, 39% carb and 17% protein. A bit lower than I was aiming for, but not feeling hungry for anything else. Still not really on a plan, hopefully I can use time this weekend to get that together, but just the mindfulness of logging food is helping.

 

On a fun note, I got to spend an hour and a half with my church's music director this afternoon. Our organist is out for a bit, so she and I are doing all the music for the "Traditional" service this Sunday. I'm going to be doing a medley of the hymn "This is Our Father's World" and "In Dreams" (Lord of the Rings) for the Offertory song, and she and I are going to play "O Cara Mia" (Portal 2 Turret Opera) for the postlude. She's also going to have me do "Sad Romance" (Final Fantasy X) during Lent, and I'll be working on "Concerning Hobbits" for sometime this summer.