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The Comeback Tour - Redux [Endor}

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20 hours ago, zenLara said:

Well, is a start. You learnt a lot from it, from what you say.

Indeed, including how lucky I am in my current role and some things I take for granted that i shouldn't. 

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I had a great lunch with my friend yesterday, he didn't have an agenda, was just delivering on a promise a long time ago to let me drive his 1995 special edition WRX. A long term desire fulfilled, it didn't disappoint. 

 

In the morning I had decided to book an exam I needed to get done by end of next week for today (Saturday). I just passed :) It was much more difficult than I expected but that's it done for another 2 years now thankfully. It's an important milestone for the company, I am the only one who is certified and we need the certs for our partner status and rebates. 

 

A great sense of achievement and now I can relax the rest of the weekend. I'm feeling happy, something that's been missing for a while, hopefully I am turning a corner. 

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I/V company called me, they wanted to progress me to next stage which is a psychometric test. I declined and have withdrawn my application. There were a number of reasons, mostly not technical ones. I'm drifting between relief it's the right decision and concern I've let an opportunity go. I think it will motivate me to progress my cloud training and get my cloud certs, I certainly need to skill up some areas quickly to adapt to the changes in the industry. 

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10 hours ago, Endor said:

I'm drifting between relief it's the right decision and concern I've let an opportunity go

You said you had seen some things you didn't like, aside that you suspected the position was a bit "let's let the new guy do what we don't want to do", so not so much of an opportunity, I'd say? Being your first interview and given that you haven't applied for a job in years, you could focus on the interview going so well that they called you back to continue the recruiting process, which is good in itself.

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On 7/2/2019 at 6:35 PM, zenLara said:

You said you had seen some things you didn't like, aside that you suspected the position was a bit "let's let the new guy do what we don't want to do", so not so much of an opportunity, I'd say? Being your first interview and given that you haven't applied for a job in years, you could focus on the interview going so well that they called you back to continue the recruiting process, which is good in itself.

Thank you for the reminders, I'm self doubting a bit recently so I appreciate it. I met up with my ex-colleague (who referred me) for a coffee, he had txt me asking why i turned it down and I didn't want to put anything in writing. I explained it away as the flexibility being an issue, which it mostly was. In my current role I have full control over my time and hours, as long as the work gets delivered they don't care when it gets done or from where. Sometimes i only go to the city once in a month and work the rest of the time from home. It's a pretty sweet deal. My friend told me this company only allows him to work from home 1 day a fortnight, it just wouldn't work for me. I'm not prepared to commute 3 hours a day for 4 or 5 days a week. I don't think that's good for your health and I also forgot how much I dislike working in air conditioned offices, also pretty unhealthy. Anyway I think it probably was the right decision in the end, even though the technical work would have been interesting. I also found out they rejected 2 other candidates and have re-advertised the job, the boss was disappointed I had turned it down and was already making plans for me. I guess i should be flattered. 

 

 

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After a lot of good days today was terrible, I was really down and ended up going back to bed for a while this morning. I was due to go for a coffee with a friend and then as I was getting ready he txt me and said he was meeting another friend for a beer at the pub. I didn't want to go to the pub, in fact I only wanted to see him on our own so I pulled out. I'll see him tomorrow instead, but it kind of sent me on a downer. 

 

I'm realising that most of my socialising is around alcohol, now that i stopped drinking I look around and there aren't many friends to be seen. I want to get fit and healthy again so i can get back to some of the sport I used to do.

 

I managed to pull myself together and finally did some weight lifting in my garage, it helped a lot so I guess I'll be doing more of that....if I can walk tomorrow! 

 

I'm probably going to book a motorcycle tour tomorrow, need something to look forward to. 

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21 minutes ago, Endor said:

In my current role I have full control over my time and hours, as long as the work gets delivered they don't care when it gets done or from where. Sometimes i only go to the city once in a month and work the rest of the time from home.

Oh, wow. That's a very good deal you have there!

 

15 minutes ago, Endor said:

I'm realising that most of my socialising is around alcohol, now that i stopped drinking I look around and there aren't many friends to be seen.

I see how that can be a problem. But maybe with time you'll be able to see those friends without the urge to drink alcohol.

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I see how that can be a problem. But maybe with time you'll be able to see those friends without the urge to drink alcohol.
I finally went to the pub. I had a coke all the fellas were drinking beers, I used the car as an excuse. My real friend there knows the deal, i think he might have primed them because i didn't cop any shit which is unusual, they like a bit of banter as boys in a pub do.

I enjoyed seeing them. One of them bought me a second coke though which i didn't want but felt obliged to drink. It have me a headache and clenched teeth for half an hour!!





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I'm feeling a lot better but still having some bad patches and mood swings. Trying to focus on positive things as much as possible. Exercise helps.

 

I read an article about an interview with Sinead O'Connor today, really interesting perspective to hear from someone who has been through a shitstorm the last few years. This is it in case you're interested https://www.msn.com/en-au/entertainment/celebrity/back-from-hell-the-return-of-sinead-oconnor/ar-AAE2BdS

 

Goals and such are on point without even that much effort, not drinking makes everything easier to do. I have been craving sugar today though, maybe as a result of having a couple cokes at the pub last night. Fortunately nothing in the house so had to wait it out and eventually the craving passed.

 

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On 7/7/2019 at 12:18 PM, Endor said:

I'm realising that most of my socialising is around alcohol, now that i stopped drinking I look around and there aren't many friends to be seen. I want to get fit and healthy again so i can get back to some of the sport I used to do.

There's your answer: start socializing with people who you share a common passion for sports and fitness with. That motorcycle trip you mentioned is another cool chance.

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On 7/12/2019 at 12:23 AM, DarK_RaideR said:

There's your answer: start socializing with people who you share a common passion for sports and fitness with. That motorcycle trip you mentioned is another cool chance.

Yes, I think you are right and I suspect there will be more of this to come.

 

I've also been considering doing some local volunteer work for a long time and not really known what I would like to do. I was talking to the hairdresser last week while she was cutting my hair about her son who is 14 and going to an as yet unknown foreign country for a year as a cultural experience (applied for countries were Finland, Poland and Mexico). It's being paid for in the main by the local Rotary club. Now that is an idea I could get behind, I got a lot out of spending my summers in France in a small village when i was that age. No one spoke English and I had to eat totally alien food (OMG a cows brain). I think i might investigate what the Rotary is all about. 

 

This is also why i'm thinking of going back to Crossfit, it's just so expensive though but maybe I will at some point. 

 

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I did quite a lot of reading on vitamin D deficiency today. I'm suspecting this might be a contributer to my mood (which is 85% back to normal). I had forgotten i used to suffer with S.A.D. in winter when i lived in the UK (16 yrs ago now) and treated it with UV beds.

 

Went to the pharmacy and started taking vit D and Magnesium supps today, may take a month or 2 to build up but we'll see if it helps...

 

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Just catching up on your thread after a bit of an absence mate, how's things going now?

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On 7/22/2019 at 3:59 AM, Big_Show said:

how's things going now?

Thanks for asking, really, I appreciate it. I am heaps better, maybe it's placebo but I feel like the Vit D and Magnesium have made a big difference. There are still some dark spots but I'm much better at recognizing the thought and crushing it before it takes hold. I've also got handed a boatload of work which has helped keep me occupied and feeling useful. I do need to be more proactive in reaching out to friends to meet up though. As you get older (I'm 44) it's very easy for people to get caught up in the day to day and let weeks or months go by without seeing your friends. It can be especially easy if they have kids (I don't).

 

I'm wanting to set something up so I have an event to look forward to, I had planned a motorbike trip but it's fallen through. On the work front I have a lot of overtime coming up, I'm negotiating with my wife for the extra funds to go into a motorbike fund, it will be a miracle if I pull this one off :lol: 

 

 

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Glad to hear you're doing better mate. I know just what you mean about having to put effort in to meeting up with friends, we keep somehow running out of time too despite best intentions.

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