Severine's Post-Cancer Comeback Part 2

[fleaball]

My last comment sounded really shitty and I'm sorry. I also wrote something similar to what Countess said but somehow that disappeared? I swear I wasn't trying to be an asshole.

[Severine]

My last comment sounded really shitty and I'm sorry. I also wrote something similar to what Countess said but somehow that disappeared? I swear I wasn't trying to be an asshole.

Oh you totally weren't! I took it in a sympathetic way. No worries whatsoever. It *is* bad and honestly I prefer honest comments to fake positivity where people try to pretend everything will be cool in some easy way.

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[fleaball]

1 minute ago, Severine said:

Oh you totally weren't! I took it in a sympathetic way. No worries whatsoever. It *is* bad and honestly I prefer honest comments to fake positivity where people try to pretend everything will be cool in some easy way.

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Word, I'm glad it didn't come off as bad as it sounded to me. If there's anything I can do to be helpful or if you ever just want to rant about it, you know you can hit me up.

[Severine]

1 hour ago, fleaball said:

Word, I'm glad it didn't come off as bad as it sounded to me. If there's anything I can do to be helpful or if you ever just want to rant about it, you know you can hit me up.

 

It was super awesome when you asked if I wanted to do hangouts that didn't involve food (I thought that was a really good question given my situation and honestly it hadn't even occurred to me, but yeah, I could see that being a thing in some cases) so even though my answer to that was "nah it's cool" (my problem generally is not with social eating with friends) I did appreciate the question. But other than that? It's just stuff I have to deal with and do the therapy for etc. Honestly just having friends who aren't judgmental jerks about it is awesome.

[Butternut]

23 hours ago, Severine said:

judgmental jerks

 

It's nice knowing we don't have those kind around here

[Severine]

Update! I'm kinda stressed out. There's a lot going on...I have two final exams this week, lots of doctor's appointments (they're all followups and hopefully, fingers crossed, everything including the MRI will be uneventful), a tonne of shit to do around the house, family stuff this weekend for D's dad's memorial, etc.

 

And I'm not doing as well as I want on my goal. The weather has been pretty consistently shitty and rainy here in Boston and I haven't wanted to go outside for walks, which was fine for the first couple days when it was absolutely pouring, but it has snowballed into not even going out when there's a light mist and I could totally throw on a jacket and be fine.

 

Food has been...better but still not good? I'm skipping fewer meals but still feeling really unsettled around food. Most of the time when I eat it's because I'm forcing myself, or because I decided I was allowed to eat something really crappy because it was better than skipping a meal. And I've been feeling headachey and tired and kind of weak and I know my crappy nutrition is part of it.

 

I was getting better with sleep but then last night I couldn't fall asleep until 3:30am so now I feel discouraged about that too. 

 

So essentially I am bombing this (very easy) challenge and not feeling great about it. But I'm proud of myself for at least coming to post about the suckitude.

[NeverThatBored]

52 minutes ago, Severine said:

I have two final exams this week

 

What classes are you taking? (Sorry if you already mentioned this somewhere and I just missed it.)

 

53 minutes ago, Severine said:

And I'm not doing as well as I want on my goal. The weather has been pretty consistently shitty and rainy here in Boston and I haven't wanted to go outside for walks, which was fine for the first couple days when it was absolutely pouring, but it has snowballed into not even going out when there's a light mist and I could totally throw on a jacket and be fine.

 

 

Do you think the 5 minute game could help? Instead of thinking of going outside for 20 minutes, which might seem more daunting, could you just aim to go outside for a few minutes to say you did it? That gets you over the hump of going outside. And if it's unpleasant you don't have to stay out, but if you're happy to be outside you can always stay longer.

 

53 minutes ago, Severine said:

So essentially I am bombing this (very easy) challenge and not feeling great about it. But I'm proud of myself for at least coming to post about the suckitude.

 

I feel you! Setting simple goals and still struggling with them has been the name of the game lately. But on the other hand, you chose these goals BECAUSE they're things you need to work on but are struggling to do. So I'm not sure it's fair to yourself to call them easy! 

[Tateman]

Hope everything goes fine with the doctor's appointments. Seems like you have plenty of stressors happening with the appointments and final exams. Hopefully, things will ease up soon.

[Severine]

6 hours ago, NeverThatBored said:

What classes are you taking? (Sorry if you already mentioned this somewhere and I just missed it.)

 

Not sure if I mentioned it or not, actually. I'm taking accounting classes in the evenings through UMass. Right now I'm taking 'Federal Income Taxation' and 'Intermediate Accounting 1'. Working toward the masters degree - the idea is to combine that with my JD and do some kind of auditing/forensic accounting thing. Hopefully with an international company so I can make use of language skillz.

 

6 hours ago, NeverThatBored said:

Do you think the 5 minute game could help? Instead of thinking of going outside for 20 minutes, which might seem more daunting, could you just aim to go outside for a few minutes to say you did it? That gets you over the hump of going outside. And if it's unpleasant you don't have to stay out, but if you're happy to be outside you can always stay longer.

 

This has helped me in the past, so I should try it. I think part of the issue is I'm outside every day for practical reasons (getting to work etc) so it's easier for me to skip the walk even though that's a very different and more beneficial version of being outside. Anyway today I did take an extra walk around a few blocks after a meeting in the afternoon just to stop and smell the proverbial roses in the middle of a busy day, and that was nice, and a good reminder that it doesn't have to be planned to be valuable. I should do more spontaneous things like that.

 

6 hours ago, NeverThatBored said:

I feel you! Setting simple goals and still struggling with them has been the name of the game lately. But on the other hand, you chose these goals BECAUSE they're things you need to work on but are struggling to do. 

 

This is true. It wouldn't be a goal if it weren't hard. I just don't WANT it to be hard  

 

5 hours ago, Tateman said:

Hope everything goes fine with the doctor's appointments. Seems like you have plenty of stressors happening with the appointments and final exams. Hopefully, things will ease up soon.

 

Thanks! Fingers crossed.

[Countess D'If]

OMG, I freaking LOVED my federal tax class! Best class in law school. Didn’t need it, don’t use it. Still my favorite