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DaemonCorax becomes less round (incubating pt. 6)

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So this challenge crosses my due date on May 15th. So somewhere in here I get to go from being 1.5 humans to 1 human with a very cute sidekick. Wish me luck!

 

Goals? Hahahahahaha. Make it through. We'll see. I'm still making it to the gym to lift twice a week. I'm trying to sleep and drink water. I'm seeing a therapist for mood disorders to try to get some outside support. I just had a "handoff" meeting at work to make sure things don't fall through the cracks if I disappear. I'm trying to balance getting to my sister's wedding on the 27th with the risk and stress involved in doing so.

 

I lifted yesterday. Copy from my last post in the old challenge:

 

"Oh man. Two nights in a row of vividly deranged nightmares that had me little-kid scared and not wanting to put my feet on the floor. Last night it was so bad I got out my book light and read from 2-4 AM and STILL didn't sleep well afterwards.

 

Got to the gym this morning and then returned home to work on my laptop. A nap may be in order.

 

Front squat 45x5, 75 2x5, 80 x5

Dumbell row/tricep exercise 30 ea hand 3x6

OHP 45x5, 55 2x5, 60x5 (got a spot for that last set)

Curls 25 ea 3x5

BS 135 2x5 150 x5

hangs/negative/shoulder things 3 sets between squats

DL 155 x5, 185x5, 215x5

 

So the DL went up 5 lbs again :)

I felt terrible this morning, but once I got into the swing of things, my body cooperated. The OHP was better today - I got a lot pickier about my range of motion and form at the bottom of the lift."

 

So yeah. Here. We. Go.

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15 minutes ago, DaemonCorax said:

seeing a therapist for mood disorders to try to get some outside support

 

I'm so glad that you're getting support!  Support is very good.

 

You're doing awesome; keep up the good work!

 

Happy Challenge!

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Well Congrats!

looking forward to seeing your new family to get a little bit bigger

 

You've been SO athletic! its very inspirational.  and I think its a great move to reach out for support.  my wife had some pretty big problems with postpartum depression.  its real.

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Thanks for the support :) Getting to the gym 2x a week seems like nothing compared to what my day-to-day life looked like 8 months ago, but it's a huge mental boost. I also have this feeling that, no matter how the whole birth and recovery goes, the stronger I am going into it, the better I will be able to weather the first few weeks. I've heard all sorts of things from people in my generation about how hard recovering from birth is, and then my mother's experience was the exact opposite - she was up and moving around just fine in a couple days. She's a lot tougher than your average bear, but I'm hoping I inherited enough of that.

 

See spoiler for mental health stuff that has nothing to do with deadlifts:

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I'm hoping to lay some groundwork for so coping mechanisms if I DO have problems with PPD. My brain chemistry has clearly NOT been a fan of being pregnant, so I'm hoping the removal of all that stupid progesterone actually makes things better not worse. The timing has been tough too - I was rehashing some past trauma a lot this summer and then got pregnant WAY faster than I thought, so I didn't have time to take a breath and relax in between. MFH and I have talked very frankly about this, and while I tend to take a "that's the way the cookie crumbles" attitude, it has certainly not been the easiest timeline to wrestle with. For the most part he is a wonderfully supportive human (we wouldn't be doing this otherwise), but there are moments where I have been an angry version of myself that neither of us can really deal with. When it comes to the fact that past problems need to get rehashed, I feel like I've gone in a circle too many times. The therapist I saw last week - magical PMD lady we'll call her (for perinatal mood disorders) - flipped that idea and said it was an "upward spiral." It was one of the most positive takes I've ever heard on recurring processing.  Her targeted approach to setting me up for success and for and looking for positive nuggets in all this is much more productive than my previous chats with a professional around this stuff.

 

Other than that: The weather is getting really nice. I borrowed gym shorts from MFH in case I get to lift today - it's too hot for pants in the gym now. I didn't sleep particularly well after 2 am because things just hurt.

 

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Having a little baby often brings up a whole bunch of buried issues (especially if you have/had a difficult relationship with your parents and/or childhood) and you have no time or sleep to process the onslaught. It can be pretty rough. I'm glad you're already seeing someone--I hope it will help keep that to a minimum so you can enjoy your new little sidekick.

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So Friday I didn’t make it to the gym. I went for a 1 mi walk at lunchtime and (1) that was probably a good idea but (2) it’s starting to get kinda hot.

 

Yesterday we walked a lot downtown running a few errands. I am very slow.

 

This morning I made it to the gym. The folks who work at the climbing gym have some adorable whiteboard art, so instead of typing up my workout, here you go:

 

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So cute. I was feeling a little funny, so there were lots of rests between squat sets. Got a good break with DL sets though and the two reps at 225 were comfy. My heart rate said a third wasn’t really worth it. I can’t wait to not be pregnant.

 

 

 

 

 

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Glad you're getting some help...I can't imagine doing all you do when I was pregnant! 

Following for sidekick cuteness!! 

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Well, yesterday evening my mother told me to listen to MFH, and we cancelled our trip to my sister's wedding this coming weekend. It's a big let down for me. Traveling didn't add up as a good idea, but I really wanted to be there for her.

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That's rough.. hopefully you can be there a bit through photos and videos. 

Best of luck with the last couple of days as a pregnant lady :* 

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Morning workout felt better than Sunday - it was pretty cool out. My upper abs and diaphragm have been feeling funny since the baby dropped - they hold things differently now, and there's not much "behind" them. It's weird. But today they felt pretty good. That helps. No cute whiteboard cartoons so:

 

Front Squat 45x5, 75 2x5, 85x5

Butterflies 10 in each hand, 3x8

BBR 85 3x5. I haven't been happy with my form on this lift, so I didn't go back up to 95 where I usually do my last set.

Kettlebell drinking bird thing, 10 kg, 3x5 each foot.

Back squat 135 2x5, 155x5

3 negatives and 2 20-sec (roughly) deadhangs

Deadlift 155x5, 205x5, 225x3

 

 

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1 hour ago, doctorake said:

Nice deadlift numbers!

 

Thanks! Basically these weightlifting workouts are all just a crescendo to the deadlifts at the end. My effort in the front squat is much less, as I use it to warm up and get my joints stabilized and awake. I don't have the energy to do long warm-ups right now, and repetitive motions (think biking, walking on pavement) just result in so much ab and hip tightness that it's not comfortable.

 

There was a guy doing cleans in the rack next to me yesterday. He was probably 15 years older than me and doing a nice job of moving through them after a climbing workout. Kinda made me want to work them into my lifting when I'm not round anymore. I'm beginning to think about what recovery workouts will look like, and then what gym workouts in general will look like a few months after evicting the belly demon. I'm thinking I'll go back to mostly climbing, with 15 minutes of lifting tacked on the end of the workout 2x a week if possible. Climbing cares a lot more about power to weight than powerlifting does. I'm not sure where I will end up weight-wise. I've gained 33 lbs (and just finished week 37 yesterday), but I know some of that is supporting muscle in my lower body and back. My back is the only part of my torso that DOESN'T hurt from carrying the baby. Most of the discomfort has been in my hips and they get rearranged these past two month or so, and in my abs as they get pulled on if he moves a lot while I'm walking or tired at the end of the day. I'm also a little apprehensive about where my shoulders are in pull-up land. They feel WAY more stable and healthy than they were in the first trimester, but I haven't been doing pull-ups because they make something near my diaphragm/sternum hurt. Pull-ups were a big hurdle for me a couple years ago, and my torn left shoulder really doesn't like the bottom of the motion sometimes. The negatives help, but are weakest at that part of the movement.

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Also note: I DID walk a 1 mi loop on Tuesday and it went okay. Today I've done a few laps around the outside of the building, but haven't taken the time for the 1 mi loop yet.

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5 hours ago, DaemonCorax said:

I've gained 33 lbs

That's really not a lot. Whatever is not added muscle will probably be baby + all the baby supporting water/tissues. 

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Yeah it's more than other women in my family gained, but my mother is smaller framed than I am. And, really, there's got to be a couple lbs of back muscle in there :)

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Today. Oof. Did Not feel good when I went to bed last night. Tired. Body temperature being very weird.

 

I had another check-up yesterday and my blood pressure was a little more normal. It's been a little low. Yes. While the medical community collectively freaks out about pregnant ladies with high blood pressure (for good reason), mine was sitting at 102/65 for the past few weeks.

 

Today I took myself for another 1 mi walk. It felt pretty good. I went before noon and took advantage of the last little bit of the day that was in the high 50's and not warmer. But still, I am very tired. The plan for tomorrow is to lift, putter around a bit, and possibly nap.

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I put on about 25lbs during my pregnancy (mind you, I am 5 foot short and was middling BMI), and by 10 days or so after birth, 16 lbs had dropped off of its own accord. Don't underestimate how much of that weight is the baby/waters/placenta/other fluids. (Baby was only 7lbs of that.) The rest is just getting you a start on fuel for your breastmilk. Given your immense fitness routine (compared to mine, which is "I like to take long walks sometimes"), I don't think you'll have too much trouble dropping the baby weight ^_^

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I’m not horrifically worried about it - just super uncomfortable. The weight seems easier to me than getting my core back together.

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On 4/28/2019 at 1:13 PM, KB Girl said:

Do you have a plan for that? 

 

Sort? Of?  I live on the Front Range in Colorado - it's a funny little bubble full of athletes and money and therefore therapists and doctors for EVERYTHING. Including pelvic floor specialists. So if something turns out really badly, there are fancy expensive resources around here. (yes, this is said with some amount of eyerolling. The number of times someone has told me that the secret to making pregnancy better is to go spend money on acupuncture/chiro/massage/skin treatment/therapy/etc etc etc is insane. Obviously I HAVE followed up on seeing a therapist, but the judgement between "I'm uncomfortable" and "I'm really unhappy" is very different.) Anyway. But yes.

 

The plan is to closely monitor my own stubborn tendencies. Which is to say, I could see myself coming out of giving birth, doing something hard, and my recovering body not liking it or getting injured. But my stubborn tendencies have also carried me through pregnancy with good physical strength, and no matter how much I feel dissociated from my body throughout pregnancy, the moments where it performs strongly are moments where I am proud of it for doing such a good job. So I will let myself push and do hard things, but only CERTAIN hard things. Walking->hiking->hiking with a big pack will be gently oozed into. Crunches and other forward folding motions in yoga, strength training, and to some extent climbing will be off the table until I can see my core stitching itself up from wherever it ends up. I am trying to give myself things I am allowed to do - like working in the garden, climbing in the gym, and lifting weights - where I can stop if something doesn't feel right, and keep control of the situation. I have mentally been charting some road rides that should take less than and hour for somewhere after the first couple weeks of recovery. I KNOW I will get out in the sun and want to ride for hours, but my body and the tiny human feeding schedule must be given consideration. Planning like this reminds me that none of this is all or nothing. It's all incremental. MFH has been playing on the crazy roof crack we built in our basement and says he misses debugging climbing moves with me. Getting on that thing (we built after I was too pregnant to climb it) is definitely a goal, but I'm not sure when.

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Huh. Well I just typed in a great weekend summary, and then my web browser ate it. Now for the abbreviated version.

 

Still pregnant. Not surprisingly.

 

Saturday morning I felt really slow at the gym. Pretty sure I got kicked in the side during my last deadlift, which oddly enough cut that set short. I put down the barbell, set up to continue, and things just felt off. I was really locked up and tired for the rest of the day.

 

Sunday MFH took a walk - very tame for us, but I'm very slow. We went 1.5 miles around the lake near our house. It was really really nice out.

 

Today I'm working from home. Every time I have an excuse to go upstairs or down to the basement (we have a little Denver-style house that is basically 3 stacked rectangles), I'm making myself run the stairs 4x. It's cold and grey out. So far today I have done 21 flights of stairs - some of them with wide feet and 2 stairs at a time.

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Tuesday update. I didn't get much past 21 flights of stairs last night, but that's ok. I felt less stir crazy for having done them.

 

I'm at work today for the morning and working from home after my weekly (now they're weekly) check-up. I still think we're not going to be doing this until May 15th though - I actually started losing weight a couple weeks ago. I think that means we're basically done. He's stealing weight, but the support system is getting ready to kick him out so he can experience our crazy Colorado weather (70 Sunday, snow yesterday) for himself.

 

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