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Whisper Grows Up, Cuts the Crap and Learns to Sleep!

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This is going to be my second full challenge and I'm really excited for it!

 

Whisper Grows Up

I've been stalled out for a while now on the My Big Why part of the Nerd Fitness Academy, trying to look at what I'm really aiming for and trying to get it into words.

There's all the standard stuff: I want to look better, I want to fit into place that I currently don't, I don't want to worry about whether or not something can hold my enormous weight. There are the health concerns with obesity; I'm not suffering them yet, but I know things like diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart attack are just a matter of time if I don't get it under control, and I'm sure I'm damaging my feet/knees/back dragging all of this around with me. I'm also sure that I would sleep better, have more energy and just feel better with out the fat!

 

But that isn't why I'm doing this. I was talking to a friend recently and told her "I've never actually felt like an adult". Adults take ownership of their lives and I've spent most of mine drifting.  The result has been a messy chaos.  An adult needs to come in, clean things up, teach me the skills and habits I need to be a fully functional adult. In a nutshell, I need a Parent, and its MY job to do it. I know better than to think that I can just do it on my own, or through a feat of willpower make myself an Adult, but I can take steps, seek advice and support and gradually grow.

 

I'm not on a weight loss journey, I'm on a journey of growth and personal development. Weight loss is going to happen, and indeed make up some of my major milestones, but I see the tools and philosophy of Nerd Fitness being powerful tools to use in all aspects of my life.

 

For this Challenge:

I'm going to continue to maintain the habits I've already started and continue working through the Mindset part of the Nerd Fitness Academy, particularly focusing on Hack Your Sleep and Customize Your Batcave. The first two weeks will also have a major push to finish up the storage unit, then working more on my living space. 

 

Cut the Crap!

I'm not happy with the amount of crap that I am still eating, so for this challenge I'm going to go hardcore or eliminating mindless and unsatisfying eating.  I've been cutting back on them, so this isn't going from 0 to 60, more like 30 to 60... The rules?

  • No candy (this includes "fruit snacks" I don't care that their in the cereal isle not the candy isle)
  • No popcorn / chips
  • No desserts
  • No non-keto friendly drinks
  • Continue to log all foods to the best of my ability (suppers are hard 'cause I often eat with the folks I live with)

If I find myself really craving things, allowed items do include diet soda, and Lily's Dark Chocolate Chips.

 

Learn to Sleep

I've never been good at sleep, it has been seriously broken for as long as I can remember and there is a real medical problem with it; but it CAN be better! I have a medication that works fairly well, but I need to maintain a habit and routine that helps it work right. I need to press forward with this, finding what works, changing things as necessary. The starting rules:

  • The laptop does not go into the bedroom EVER. If I break this rule, the laptop doesn't even go downstairs.
  • Phone powered off by 7:30 and stays off until morning. If I have trouble with this, I'll start charging it in another room.
  • Maintain same sleep schedule all week. 8 pm to 4 am. If I need more sleep, I can go to bed early.

Current bedtime routine:7:30, kill phone, take sleep meds, brush/floss, read evening prayers, read known, relaxing book. 8:00 find stopping point, lights out.

 

Look at the time! I need to post this and do that stuff I just typed.

 

Good night, and good challenge.

 

(Don't have time to proof read right now, so I might come back and make edits) 

 

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Looks like a good challenge. For drinks, I have mostly stuck to Zevia brand sodas, Powerade zero, and Gatorade zero. I was always more of a water only type for a long time, but a soda or flavored drink is nice to have from time to time. :)

 

Good luck!

 

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Get it, Whisper! I hope you went straight to bed after posting and are now a few hours into your day, refreshed and well-rested! Jk, unfortunately I know as well as you do it doesn't happen overnight. But one thing that does happen is the first link in a chain of habit-building, so keep at it! 

 

Regarding snacking, when I was struggling with crap grazing, I found that fatty and fiberous snacks were easier to use as a replacement than reduced-sweet options. I am a huge milk chocolate hound, but having dark chocolate around is no temptation at all: apparently I'd rather not eat than eat dark chocolate. (Seriously, craving-brain? Are you seriously THAT picky??) I ate a lot of string cheese, almonds, and cashews in those days. But that's not to pressure you into changing your snack choices for the challenge! You should go for it with the rules that make the most sense to you. 

 

Best of luck! I'll be cheering for you! 

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11 hours ago, Whisper said:

But that isn't why I'm doing this. I was talking to a friend recently and told her "I've never actually felt like an adult". Adults take ownership of their lives and I've spent most of mine drifting.  The result has been a messy chaos.  An adult needs to come in, clean things up, teach me the skills and habits I need to be a fully functional adult. In a nutshell, I need a Parent, and its MY job to do it. I know better than to think that I can just do it on my own, or through a feat of willpower make myself an Adult, but I can take steps, seek advice and support and gradually grow.

 

 

I love this! And I feel the same. I need to parent myself. I went through a long phase of childing ("but I need/want/deserve this") and now, like you say, it's time to give myself boundaries and consequences. Good luck!

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6 hours ago, Tateman said:

For drinks, I have mostly stuck to Zevia brand sodas, Powerade zero, and Gatorade zero.

I've been working on drink more water, but also will drink flavored fizzy water and add heavy cream to my morning coffee or tea. I'll have to give Zevia a try.

 

43 minutes ago, Wobbegong said:

I hope you went straight to bed after posting and are now a few hours into your day, refreshed and well-rested!

Almost! I tried going straight to bed and discovered that I had forgotten to make it and still had stuff all over it! Schedule got shift back about a half hour to cover that, and the first half of the night was really restless, but the second half was good and I'm feeling good at work today.

 

8 minutes ago, StillStar said:

I love this! And I feel the same. I need to parent myself. I went through a long phase of childing ("but I need/want/deserve this") and now, like you say, it's time to give myself boundaries and consequences. Good luck!

Thank you. I've been struggling to get the idea into words and wasn't sure how clear I had been; looking at your response I think it's safe to say that I was clear enough!

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Hey Whisper! I've missed seeing you here 'round the challenges! Glad to see you back. I'll be cheering you on. Adulting is hard! If you figure it out, let me know, yeah? 

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1 minute ago, NicTheRugger said:

Hey Whisper! I've missed seeing you here 'round the challenges! Glad to see you back. I'll be cheering you on. Adulting is hard! If you figure it out, let me know, yeah? 

Hi Nic!

Life fell apart after my first Challenge, but I jumped back in about halfway through the last challenge and I'm excited for my 2nd full one! 

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Monday:

Whisper Grows Up

Not much direct progress here. Worked a 10 hour shift and had two hours of music after that. Not a bad day, just not much time for sorting and such. I did check off all habits.

 

Cut the Crap!

2,200 cals, 69% fat, 22% pro, 9% carbs. No junk at all!

 

Learn to Sleep

Laptop left at work, phone powered off at 7:30 and in bed on time. Fitbit says sleep was 8:15 to 4:12, 6 hr 51 min of sleep 1hr 6 min awake.

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After a long day at work and a miserable drive home, what is the first thing I see?

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I stood strong! Stayed on my goals as I worked around the snacks to get my dinner ready and lunch put together for tomorrow and I did exactly zero grazing!

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Tuesday:

Whisper Grows Up

Checked off all habits and got a bit of sorting done.

 

Cut the Crap!

2,718 cals, 64% fat, 20% pro, 16% carbs. Traffic was crazy bad so I ended up on surface streets feeling really hungry. Got a chicken kabob on pita from a drive through, but didn't get a soda or fries and resisted the treat layout at home!

 

Learn to Sleep

Hit bedtime routine perfectly! Fitbit logs sleep as 8:00 to 4:03 6 hr 50 min asleep, 73 min awake. Last two nights I was awake for around half an hour starting at 1:30. I'll need to see how to fix that.

 

 

Update is late today because I left my laptop at home! Downside of not letting it in my room, I need a place to put it where I'll grab it in the morning. Thinking I'll put it next to my lunchbox tonight.

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18 hours ago, Whisper said:

Update is late today because I left my laptop at home! Downside of not letting it in my room, I need a place to put it where I'll grab it in the morning. Thinking I'll put it next to my lunchbox tonight.

 

Alternatively, you can keep your keys on top of your laptop. Can't leave without those!

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Wednesday:

Whisper Grows Up

Checked off all habits but no sorting. I'm finding it hard to get much done after a 10 hour work day, but I really don't have enough time to slack off :angry:

Bright side, I'm only working 50 hours this week and should get a 3 day Weekend, so that'll help some. 

 

Cut the Crap!

2,410 cals, 58% fat, 20% pro, 22% carbs. I had a cookie :shame: It wasn't really tempting, more of trying to be polite. The granddaughter of the couple I'm renting from had made a batch of cookies and I didn't want to be rude. 

 

Learn to Sleep

Bedtime routine shifted back a half hour. Still waking up at 1:30ish. Turned on my phone (dumb) and lost a bunch of sleep to it. Sleep 8:29 to 4:15. Asleep 5 hr 47 min. Awake 2 hours.

 

I think I'll move my phone charger to the basement living room and see if that helps with wanting to mess with it when waking up in the middle of the night. Gonna leave the laptop at work and hope it boosts home productivity a bit, but feeling really tired right now (Thursday afternoon).

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Thursday:

Whisper Grows Up

Checked off non-sleep habits. Went through a big stack of boxes sorting into "Don't need to deal with now" "Old roommate's" and "Sort of sale/keep/trash" and wrote a label on top of each. About 5 boxes were in the last two categories and I got them sorted out. Today (Friday) I'll finish what i have at home now, and Sat/Sun/Mon I'll take the same approach out at the storage unit.

 

I am starting to entertain the seditious and sacrilegious thought that maybe (just maybe) I don't need to continue owning all of my books forever. I don't think a parking-lot sale is the way to handle that, but it is bubbling in the back of my mind as something I might look into after next week.

 

Cut the Crap!

2,276 cals, 58% fat,  24% pro,  18% carbs. I'm happy with what I ate, but I'm not happy with how much guess work is going into dinner. Pork chop and mashed potato with a green salad. I need to get comfortable with the idea of weighing the food so I have a better idea of the real totals, but it feels odd to weigh what someone else has made for you. I'll have to talk to Dianne and see if she's ok with it.

 

Learn to Sleep

The sorting got my brain going right before sleep. I didn't turn my phone off until 9:00, but did go to sleep right after that. I woke up again at 1:40, but just went to the restroom and right back to sleep, so that was better. Sleep: 9:06-4:02, 6hr 1 min asleep, 55 min awake.

 

I like the point system that some people are using and I'll think I'll add that in when the challenge get's going. I think I know what I want to do with points for food and sleep, less sure on the Grow Up points, I'll have to think about that this weekend. 

 

Have a happy Friday everyone!

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16 hours ago, Whisper said:

I had a cookie :shame: It wasn't really tempting, more of trying to be polite. The granddaughter of the couple I'm renting from had made a batch of cookies and I didn't want to be rude. 

Oh nooo, the politeness cookie. That's the greatest downfall. I think you made the right choice though. No point in alienating your landlords or offending them. 

 

Making good progress! Looking forward to seeing you tackle the challenge. 

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1 hour ago, NicTheRugger said:

Oh nooo, the politeness cookie. That's the greatest downfall.

Oh the ignominy! How can I possibly bare it?

 

I was actually good with eating it. I wasn't giving in to something, I was making a decision, I logged it, and I was still fairly happy with how my macros broke down. I had one, declined more and other dessert items and feel like I'm getting better in this area. Cutting this stuff fully out is mostly about getting away from mindless eating, so I'm still counting that day as a win; even with a politeness cookie :friendly_wink:

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Tonight/tomorrow morning is going to be a big challenge for me. I know that I'll do and feel better when I stick to the same sleep schedule all the time, but it is really damn hard to convince myself of that when the alarm goes off at 4am and I don't have anywhere to be for hours! Saturday, Sunday and Monday are all going to be hard for that, but I know I need to do this. My plan for tomorrow morning is to get my feet on the floor before I can talk myself back into sleep, and then to head out for a walk. I haven't yet listened to Issac Arthur's last two updates, so I'll look forward to that during my walk. Got my headphones charging now.

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Tonight/tomorrow morning is going to be a big challenge for me. I know that I'll do and feel better when I stick to the same sleep schedule all the time, but it is really damn hard to convince myself of that when the alarm goes off at 4am and I don't have anywhere to be for hours! Saturday, Sunday and Monday are all going to be hard for that, but I know I need to do this. My plan for tomorrow morning is to get my feet on the floor before I can talk myself back into sleep, and then to head out for a walk. I haven't yet listened to Issac Arthur's last two updates, so I'll look forward to that during my walk. Got my headphones charging now.
Ugh, 4 am! That is so early! Tell me again, why do you have to wake up then?
Is it related to your working schedule?
It is brilliant that you can stick with it during the weekend! It will help your sleep tons
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5 hours ago, Diadhuit said:

Ugh, 4 am! That is so early! Tell me again, why do you have to wake up then?
Is it related to your working schedule?

Work starts at 5am and is a half hour drive away. My morning routine is as minimal as possible, but it generally takes a chunk of time to convince myself to move. 

 

5 hours ago, Diadhuit said:

It is brilliant that you can stick with it during the weekend! It will help your sleep tons

That is my hope! I'm really thinking that by sticking to it, it'll become easier during the week, and also easier for me to convince myself to go to bed early when I feel like I need a little extra sleep.

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:star:Great is the victory(s) I o're this morn' hath won!:star:

 

The time was 3:47 and I was really damn tired, but I knew that trying to sleep for 13 more minutes wasn't going to make things any easier. I would like to say that I sprung out of bed at that point, but I didn't. I kept laying there debating the merits of 13... 12... 11... more minutes of sleep until I needed to turn off the alarm at 4 am and turned my phone back on. I would like to tell you that I sprang (damn I think I just changed tenses) out of bed at that point, but I didn't. I sat there, wrapt in my blanket and started to doze back off. Then the 4:15 GET YOUR ASS MOVING OR BE LATE FOR WORK alarm went off on my phone, and I got my ass moving! This was my first victory.

 

We've been unseasonable cold and wet here, and I was worried about being caught in a shower, so decided to grab my heavier winter jacket, with its hood and better waterproofing. I haven't worn it in a while, and when I zipped it up, I had my 2nd victory; it was noticeably looser! I haven't noticed a change in any of my other clothes yet, but before the jacket had stretched over my gut when zipped, and this morning it didn't!

 

I was out the door my 4:30 and decided to walk to my church to see if that is something worth trying Sunday morning's if I feel ok carrying my violin and can find someone else to give rides to the people I normally bring. The church is 2 miles away, mostly down hill, and took about 40 minutes to walk there. Of course by that point I was 2 miles, mostly uphill away from home... The return trip took about 50 minutes. I did not go into the 7-11 either of the times I passed it, meaning I did not get any of the 2 for $2 candy that I love. I did not stop by the Del Taco to get something to eat, instead I went home and had some bacon and full fat yogurt with (previously frozen) berry medley. 

 

All in all, I'm feeling really happy with my day thus far. I'm gonna write up yesterday's summary, take a shower, and head over to my storage unit.

 

Oh, and I weighed myself when I woke up at 1. Current weight down to 331.4 lbs, 3.5 lbs over the last week! and 30 lbs so far this year! If I keep things up, I should be solidly under 330 by next week and ordering myself another pair of earrings!

 

Edited by Whisper
forgot to add weight progress
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Friday:

Whisper Grows Up

Checked off all habits and finished separating worry about now/later stuff at home.

 

Cut the Crap!

2,365 cals, 66% fat,  18% pro,  16% carbs. Talked with Dianne a little bit about my food logging and she was understanding.

 

Learn to Sleep

Perfect execution of night routine! Sleep was 8:04 to 3:47,  6hr 57min asleep, 46min awake. I did wake up again around 1, but just went to the restroom and weighed myself while I was in there and went back to sleep. I have to wake up around 11:30 to take the 2nd dose of my sleep meds, so I'll try to remember to use the restroom then and see if that helps with the 1/1:30 wake up, but I'm kind of dumb at that time, so don't know if that'll happen...

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Fair warning, even older adults in my life have told me they feel like they need an adult... cause none of us have it figured out ;) Good luck this challenge, and good job avoiding the tempting sugar and grabbing food around it - I won't lie I probably wouldn't have done so well at that 

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