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It's halfway through the challenge, but I read through everything and seems like it's totally fine to just jump right in, so that's what I'm going to do!

 

So, hi!  I'm Ono, I'm 31 and weigh in at about 175kg.  Which is not good, in any way.  I have a chronic joint pain condition, and carrying around that much weight on my joints just adds to the pain.  It got to  a breaking point at 190kg, and I've been working at my nutrition and seem some progress.  Now it's time for me to buckle in and start getting serious about the grind.

 

Main Goal: Be a multiclass master

 

If it exists, I want to do it.  I'm an almost obsessive completionist, I always gun for the achievements not many people have.  I can put in the time and dedication on a video game, it's time to start translating that to my health.  It's going to take a good long time, made longer by the fact I have to make sure I don't overdo it and run out of spoons for everything else.  But I'm determined to be the best version of me I can be before I turn 40.

 

Support Quest 1: Calorie tracking

 

I use lifesum to track my calorie intake.  I love the app, it's intuitive and useful and I like the aesthetic of it.  I'm just not the best at being consistent with it.  So I'm going to start tracking everything, every day.  

 

Support Quest 2: Cut out soda

 

I only drink diet soda, mostly pepsi max, but I've found that it's becoming a bit of a problem in that it's all that I'm drinking.  And when I'm drinking soda, I'm not hydrating properly, I end up drinking maybe half of what I should be drinking to stay hydrated.  I learned when I quit smoking a few years back (after many failed attempts) that the best way for me to get something out of my life is to just go cold turkey and stubborn my way through the withdrawal.  If I can do cigarettes, I can do soda.

 

Support Quest 3: Unpack the house

 

I moved into a new place a few months ago, and I've been putting off unpacking a lot of things, using the aches of my joints as an excuse.  And it is an excuse, because I could reasonably get everything in order quite easily if I tackle it sensibly and over the course of a couple of weeks.  My brother is coming to visit next month, and I need to set up the spare room for him.  On top of that, it'll be his first time here, and I don't want a mess of a house to be his first impression of how his big sister is living.

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9 hours ago, Harriet said:

Welcome! These seem like sensible goals and a two week mini challenge is a fine way to get started. 

 

Thankyou!  Better late than never!

 

9 hours ago, Quirky Quinn said:

Well done for committing and congratulations on your brilliant start!

 

Looking forward to seeing how you get on.

 

Thanks!

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Good morning from the southern hemisphere!  It's a bit of a gloomy, rainy day today, which always makes it a bit tougher for me to get moving.  Mornings with chronic pain are pretty slow going, it takes a while for the engine to heat up.

 

Today's to do list is pretty simple.  Finish the dishes.  I've got some things I need to put back in their respective cupboards as well, but as long as the dishes get done I'll count it as a win.

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Operation: Dishes Done is complete!  Well, two sinks full of dishes are washed, and the slow cooker is soaking in the sink because I left it alone so long it was a hairsbreadth from gaining sentience.  So that one will get done tomorrow and I will be free and clear of a mountain of dishes.  

 

I also got the things put away in the kitchen, and the trash taken out.  Overall, very productive!  Definitely taking a well-earned rest.  Standing at the sink shows me just how bad of a shape my core is in.  I've got a lot of work to do!

 

All my calories have been tracked.  I'm a couple of hundred over my limit, but I'll take it today.  It's not the end of the world and I can make up the difference later in the week.

 

I did, however, have soda today.  I knew this was going to be a challenging one for me, but I didn't expect to fall off the wagon so quickly.  I've prepared for the next few days though, I've got some good fruit teas and some cordial, and I'm going to kick this habit right in the ass!

 

As an old rock legend said, two out of three ain't bad!

 

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My Dad just called, he's coming by tomorrow with his old microwave since he just bought a new one.  I'm both pleased and displeased by this.  I really didn't want a microwave, because I tend to get really lazy with my nutrition when I have an easier option of cooking things.  But at the same time, my knees, hips, and my hands are getting noticeably worse.  This is one of those things where I really didn't want to accept my limitations, but I know that I need to.  It means I'm going to have to be more mindful of what I'm eating, instead of simply removing the temptation of being able to buy quick junk meals.  Which long term isn't a bad thing, a better relationship with all food is definitely ideal.

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Also, I just realised, I can get him to give me a hand with some full body photos for my "before", because the ones I have are taken in front of a cheap mirror that no matter what I do I can't get the streaky smudges off of it.  Added bonus to having visitors!

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9 hours ago, Onorexis said:

My Dad just called, he's coming by tomorrow with his old microwave since he just bought a new one.  I'm both pleased and displeased by this.  I really didn't want a microwave, because I tend to get really lazy with my nutrition when I have an easier option of cooking things.  But at the same time, my knees, hips, and my hands are getting noticeably worse.  This is one of those things where I really didn't want to accept my limitations, but I know that I need to.  It means I'm going to have to be more mindful of what I'm eating, instead of simply removing the temptation of being able to buy quick junk meals.  Which long term isn't a bad thing, a better relationship with all food is definitely ideal.


Not all microwave cooking is bad. It's how I cook beans and sweet potatoes to go with meat dishes, for example. You can also cook traditional rolled oats in the microwave, as long as you rest them every minute or so, so the milk doesn't explode.

Sounds like the chronic pain is a real burden for you. I really hope things get easier, though I know it takes a long time. I also used to find everyday things like standing and climbing stairs tiring. I mean, climbing stairs is still tiring, but standing and walking are better than they used to be.  

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7 hours ago, Harriet said:


Not all microwave cooking is bad. It's how I cook beans and sweet potatoes to go with meat dishes, for example. You can also cook traditional rolled oats in the microwave, as long as you rest them every minute or so, so the milk doesn't explode.

Sounds like the chronic pain is a real burden for you. I really hope things get easier, though I know it takes a long time. I also used to find everyday things like standing and climbing stairs tiring. I mean, climbing stairs is still tiring, but standing and walking are better than they used to be.  

 

Oh yeah, I know there's a ton of healthy options I can make with a microwave.  My aversion to them is because when presented with that kind of convenience, I historically don't make those healthy options, I'll buy microwave cheeseburgers over veggie portions, sort of thing.  It's a willpower issue, and it's easier to ignore with temptation removed.  Having a microwave just means I'll have to deal with my rubbish choices full force.

 

It's funny how my instinct is to brush it off and say it's not a burden at all, but I'm trying to accept my limitations.  I'm not bed ridden, and I can push myself a lot harder than I do most days, where I just lie in bed and watch youtube.  But I've had to take a break from typing this for a few minutes to rub my fingers because the pressure of hitting the keys hurts.  And how bad it is in load bearing joints is partially my fault, because I've let things get out of hand with my weight and that's not helping in the slightest.  The choices I've made mean things are going to get harder before they get easier, but I've accepted that I've paved this road for myself and now I'm going to walk it :) 

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Good morning sunshiney people!

 

Dad will be here in less than an hour, so a lot of my day will be spent playing hostess.  That doesn't mean I get away with no to-do list!  Today I need to: 

 

- Get microwave installed

- Finish dishes (put away what's on the side, wash the slow cooker)

- Clear trash out of my bedroom

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Today has been a bit of a wash, the only thing I've actually managed to accomplish is getting the microwave installed.  It happens, no point beating myself up about it, just do better moving forward.

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Bad pain night.  4am and still haven't found sleep because I can't stay in one position for more than a few minutes before my hips feel like they're going to pop their joints.  And there's very little I can do about it except hope the specialist comes through with an appointment soon.  This is the part that sucks.

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22 hours ago, Onorexis said:

The choices I've made mean things are going to get harder before they get easier, but I've accepted that I've paved this road for myself and now I'm going to walk it :) 

 

Your valour is bright and glowing, I love it. And I know things can change, because they did for me (still working on it, though). It can take ages. But the time will pass whether or not you work on it, so... yeah. Keep chipping away at it. 
 

4 hours ago, Onorexis said:

Bad pain night.  4am and still haven't found sleep because I can't stay in one position for more than a few minutes before my hips feel like they're going to pop their joints.  And there's very little I can do about it except hope the specialist comes through with an appointment soon.  This is the part that sucks.

 

Ah, that sucks. I hope things ease up soon.

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1 hour ago, Harriet said:

 

Your valour is bright and glowing, I love it. And I know things can change, because they did for me (still working on it, though). It can take ages. But the time will pass whether or not you work on it, so... yeah. Keep chipping away at it. 

 

Thankyou for the encouragement, it's really appreciated!  It's definitely going to be a long road, but it's definitely worth putting the work in to, for sure.

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Gooooooood morning!

 

I managed a grand total of three hours of sleep, mostly because I have to be up because Dad is coming back briefly this morning and bringing some laundry he did for me.

 

So, bearing in mind my lack of sleep, and knowing that fatigue often makes me feel worse, my to do list is really short today, and can work around any impromtu naps that may occur.

 

- Vacuum the living room floor

- Clear the trash out of the bedroom

- Move all laundry to the bathroom

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Success all round!  To do list is done and all challenge quests as well.  The only real downsides of today are that my feet are cold, and I took a five hour nap, so now sleep tonight is going to be a challenge!

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Welcome! I like your challenge a lot. You're doing a really good job of breaking things into reasonable pieces each day.

 

Do you have any tips for sleepless nights? One that helps me is to try telling myself that lying and resting is helpful too. Otherwise I get anxious about not sleeping, and that's even worse. The other thing that sometimes helps me is writing in a journal for a little while.

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2 hours ago, Xena said:

Welcome! I like your challenge a lot. You're doing a really good job of breaking things into reasonable pieces each day.

 

Do you have any tips for sleepless nights? One that helps me is to try telling myself that lying and resting is helpful too. Otherwise I get anxious about not sleeping, and that's even worse. The other thing that sometimes helps me is writing in a journal for a little while.

 

Thanks!  I've got a habit of biting off more than I can chew, so I'm making a conscious effort to keep things manageable.

 

On restless nights where I just can't sleep I used to get really frustrated and annoyed at myself.  I found the best thing that really helped me was to settle down with my eyes closed and just think "It's okay to let myself sleep."  Really seems to help!  Because usually if I'm restless, the underlying cause is that I'm stressing about or overthinking something, and I subconsciously won't let myself stop going over it until I've solved whatever is on my mind.

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Good morning!

 

I've got a couple of appointments today that usually really take the wind out of my sails, so I'm not setting a to-do list for the day except to get through those.  After that I can see what energy I have and decide what I can do.

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I'm really learning that I'm very much a grazer.  I'm not a big fan of huge meals, or even medium sized meals, but I'll nibble all day quite happily.  And I definitely boredom eat.  It's worth considering this moving forward, it may be a worthwhile exercise to invest more of my shopping budget in things like carrots and rice cakes, things relatively low in calorie and good for nibbling on.

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Made it back from my appointments in one piece, nothing much eventful.  I'd like to see some progress with my doctor but we're still just waiting on the specialist referral to bear fruit.  It's tedious and frustrating to be stuck in limbo, for sure.  But trying to stick it out with a little good grace.

 

Trying to spend the afternoon on the couch.  They're pretty cheap couches and as such they're very much not comfortable.  After a while it starts getting painful if I'm in the wrong position.  Not sure if I'll make it more than a couple of hours, but it's still a couple more hours than I would have done.  I hate having this living room I never use, the sunshine in here is great and I really want to be in here more.

 

Ankles are being troublesome today, got a couple of old injuries there that are acting up.  So lots of flexing and rotations, trying to keep them moving without putting weight on them constantly.  Even more incentive to get the weight off.

 

Going to make a valiant attempt at cooking a meal later today.  I enjoy cooking a lot, it's the standing there that can be too much for me some days.  But I feel like I've got enough spoons to make something, even if it's something simple.  If that changes then I've now got a microwave, a whole lot of oats, and a bag of frozen mango in the freezer!

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11 hours ago, Xena said:

Do you have any tips for sleepless nights? One that helps me is to try telling myself that lying and resting is helpful too. Otherwise I get anxious about not sleeping, and that's even worse. The other thing that sometimes helps me is writing in a journal for a little while.

 

Reading a novel is always a great way to help with sleep.

 

Recently, I've been gamifying the process of falling asleep. I count my breaths (which has the added bonus of relaxing me and making my breathing more regular) for as long as I think about neither the past nor the future. I'm only allowed to think about either this moment or let my mind drift to something completely imaginary. This generally requires that I start off by clearing my mind and thinking about nothing (and, yes, that's difficult). If I do think about either the past or the future then I have to start from zero and try to beat my score. I can't honestly tell you my high score because I fell asleep...

 

I spend a lot of time worrying about both the past and the future, and that's generally what keeps me awake at night.

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