Zaethe: Shieldmaiden's Saga [Ch.01]

[Pherales]

4 hours ago, fitnessgurl said:

What a pretty cane! 

You're making progress & that's a good thing. Remember to count those wins!

 

Thankyou!  I fell in love with it the minute I saw it, absolutely had to have it.

 

I am, for sure.  I'm still paying attention to the losses, but the wins don't get drowned in defeats for sure.

 

3 hours ago, Whisper said:

"I may not be living the best version of my life, but I'm gonna be damn cute regardless."

 

I love that attitude! Nice of the pharmacy to hold onto it for you.

 

It really was, they were originally only holding onto it for a week, so they were super amazing about holding onto it for longer.

 

And thanks   pushing the fake it til you make it on positivity has been pretty useful over the years, for sure

[Pherales]

Positive - I'm up in the actual morning, at a reasonable time, and I got a couple of things done I needed to do months ago.

 

Negative - I'm running on about 5 hours of sleep, and spent the first half hour of being awake talking to the government.  Which took five phone calls to get done what turned out to be a five minute conversation.

 

So I'm pleased with my achievement, but by fuck am I grumpy about it.

[Pherales]

Today's mad adventure brought to you by tiny skinks and their brat behaviour.

 

So I'm chilling, stretching my joints and dozing a little cause I didn't get much sleep, when I see movement out of the corner of my eye. I look up and there's this skinky lizardy boy, about 4" long, just chilling out. Poor boy, so i get a little paper to scoop him up and take him outside where all the tasty bugs are, and he does this weird contortion thing and then vanishes. Never seen an animal move so fast. Now I'm not sure if that was a lizard or a baby snake.

 

Panic mode, I'm reviewing my brain footage in frame by frame detail trying to see if I actually noticed feet. I gear up in thicker clothes, all skin covered, and start taking my room apart to find this guy, cause if it's a snake I need to call someone. I haul every inch of bedding off my mattress, flip the mattress, clean every inch of my floor, pull out the spare mattress and put it in the other room, take out my laundry after a good shake of each item. I'm pouring sweat, panting, everything aches cause no way am I stopping til I find him.

Eventually I say nope, can find it, I'm.gonna have to call my property manager, cause if it's a snake I ain't dying today! So I call, the receptionist hangs up and goes to talk to my actual property manager, i put the phone down, get up to stretch my back...

 

And there the little fucker is, sat on my windowsill nice as you like, on his little tiny matchstick legs, laughing his lizard ass off at me. He's now outside, I've updated the property manager and put most of my room back together.

 

I'm not entirely convinced that skink wasn't mother, back from the aether to tell me to clean my room one more time.

[Pherales]

For the "What's a skink" people : 

 

[fitnessgurl]

5 hours ago, Zaethe said:

Today's mad adventure brought to you by tiny skinks and their brat behaviour.

 

So I'm chilling, stretching my joints and dozing a little cause I didn't get much sleep, when I see movement out of the corner of my eye. I look up and there's this skinky lizardy boy, about 4" long, just chilling out. Poor boy, so i get a little paper to scoop him up and take him outside where all the tasty bugs are, and he does this weird contortion thing and then vanishes. Never seen an animal move so fast. Now I'm not sure if that was a lizard or a baby snake.

 

Panic mode, I'm reviewing my brain footage in frame by frame detail trying to see if I actually noticed feet. I gear up in thicker clothes, all skin covered, and start taking my room apart to find this guy, cause if it's a snake I need to call someone. I haul every inch of bedding off my mattress, flip the mattress, clean every inch of my floor, pull out the spare mattress and put it in the other room, take out my laundry after a good shake of each item. I'm pouring sweat, panting, everything aches cause no way am I stopping til I find him.

Eventually I say nope, can find it, I'm.gonna have to call my property manager, cause if it's a snake I ain't dying today! So I call, the receptionist hangs up and goes to talk to my actual property manager, i put the phone down, get up to stretch my back...

 

And there the little fucker is, sat on my windowsill nice as you like, on his little tiny matchstick legs, laughing his lizard ass off at me. He's now outside, I've updated the property manager and put most of my room back together.

 

I'm not entirely convinced that skink wasn't mother, back from the aether to tell me to clean my room one more time.

Oh my goodness!  What an adventure! I would totally count all that as exercise. Whew!

[Pherales]

Everything hurts, woke up on time, did almost nothing most of the day and then drove an hour to go visit my dad.  Shouldn't have done that, am now not leaving this bed until I stop almost crying whenever I sit up.

[fitnessgurl]

59 minutes ago, Zaethe said:

Everything hurts, woke up on time, did almost nothing most of the day and then drove an hour to go visit my dad.  Shouldn't have done that, am now not leaving this bed until I stop almost crying whenever I sit up.

Not sure if it's physical pain that's making you cry or emotional pain; but you are not alone. *gentle hugs*

[Whisper]

[Pherales]

5 hours ago, fitnessgurl said:

Not sure if it's physical pain that's making you cry or emotional pain; but you are not alone. *gentle hugs*

 

Physical.  I've suffered with chronic pain most of my life.  Originally it was diagnosed as arthritis, but 14 years after that diagnosis my doctor can't find any traces of any arthritis at all, no matter what tests we run.  So I'm jumping through diagnosis hoops at the moment.  Because of that my doc won't prescribe any heavy duty pain relief, because it may interfere with whatever is wrong and potentially make it worse.  So medication wise nothing I have actually works.  It's....fun.  Thanks for hugs

 

4 hours ago, Whisper said:

 

hugshugshugs

[Pherales]

Well I managed to fix my sleep for about two days, and in those two days I overexerted myself to the point that even shifting around brings no relief.  5am and sleep is nowhere in sight, I'm so tired I feel ill but the ache is more than the sleepy.  

 

Doesn't help that a spider ran across my face a couple of hours ago.  Stupid spiders.

[fitnessgurl]

1 hour ago, Zaethe said:

Doesn't help that a spider ran across my face a couple of hours ago.  Stupid spiders.

*shudder*

[Pherales]

So I have a friend who loves to think she's helping, and feeds me all of this information about disability schemes and such in Australia.  And I know all of it, so when she mentions it I say "Yeah, I know about it" and no matter what I say she then proceeds to wax poetic about it for half hour +.

 

I get she's trying to be helpful, but for the love of all things, actually listen to me, you're wasting my time

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

4 hours ago, Zaethe said:

So I have a friend who loves to think she's helping, and feeds me all of this information about disability schemes and such in Australia.  And I know all of it, so when she mentions it I say "Yeah, I know about it" and no matter what I say she then proceeds to wax poetic about it for half hour +.

 

I get she's trying to be helpful, but for the love of all things, actually listen to me, you're wasting my time

 

She needs to learn the phrase, "Don't just do something, Stand There!"

[Pherales]

Met a girl, hit it off, talked for hours long into the night, finally said goodnight and then never heard from her again, no response to messages, nada.  Got me feeling like 

 

 

But regardless, got my own things to be getting on with so I can't let the whole thing drag me under.  I'm realising I haven'tt done much updating on my actual goals.  That's because all of them are fine and simple except for that dang water one.  I'm learning a lot about my body and what it can handle, but I still can't overcome this staying hydrated hurdle.  Not giving up on it though, it has to be tackled.

 

I feel like there was more I was going to talk about but I now can't remember what it was.  I'm sure it'll come to me eventually.

[fleaball]

You've probably been tested for a million things so I'm probably not helping, but has your doctor considered fibromyalgia? My mother had it and I know it was diagnosed by a rheumatologist they eventually sent her to since RA runs in her family. (Crap. I just realized I'm probably fucked too now.)

[Chesire]

On 11/8/2019 at 4:01 PM, Zaethe said:

Doesn't help that a spider ran across my face a couple of hours ago.  Stupid spiders.

And I just realized where my skin-crawling dream about a large spider running up my back came from.  No thanks to both, real or dream.  

[Pherales]

On 11/12/2019 at 8:58 AM, fleaball said:

You've probably been tested for a million things so I'm probably not helping, but has your doctor considered fibromyalgia? My mother had it and I know it was diagnosed by a rheumatologist they eventually sent her to since RA runs in her family. (Crap. I just realized I'm probably fucked too now.)

 

 

We did, but fibro generally comes with specific pain centers that I don't have any of, and my pain isn't muscular in any way, it's highly localised to my joint areas, so doc thinks not.  I'm open to it being literally anything, as long as we find out what it is and get it sorted!

 

On 11/13/2019 at 8:15 PM, Chesire said:

And I just realized where my skin-crawling dream about a large spider running up my back came from.  No thanks to both, real or dream.  

 

Sorry!

[Pherales]

My brother leaves in the morning.  It's been a rough week in terms of actually doing my stuff, and in terms of physical pain too, because I had way too many things to do this week.  

 

Still, the weekend approaches, and beginning again is definitely a thing.

[Whisper]

1 hour ago, Zaethe said:

My brother leaves in the morning.  It's been a rough week in terms of actually doing my stuff, and in terms of physical pain too, because I had way too many things to do this week.  

I hope the time with him was still good, even with the pain.

[Pherales]

6 hours ago, Whisper said:

I hope the time with him was still good, even with the pain.

 

It's a mixed bag.  While he's family, I can only tolerate him in small doses and by day 3 I was very ready to put him back on a plane.  He lacks any form of social courtesy, and any desire to pay attention when asked or told something.  I spent all week babying him to put the toilet seat back down, and having him sat on my couch picking his zits, picking his nose and eating it, or with one hand down his pants.

[Whisper]

Oy! I think my tolerance would be much less than 3 days. 

[fitnessgurl]

15 hours ago, Whisper said:

Oy! I think my tolerance would be much less than 3 days. 

Same.

[Pherales]

On 11/16/2019 at 8:45 PM, Whisper said:

Oy! I think my tolerance would be much less than 3 days. 

 

I don't lose my temper pretty much ever, because it's a really unhealthy thing for me to do.  So I endure a lot, and then spend a day or two recharging in peace once I'm free of the situation.  I've had 30 odd years of dealing with my family, who are all infuriating in their own special way.  My sister is the type of person who's only out for what they can get, and I don't hear from her unless she wants something, and my dad is a first class narcissist who refuses to accept that he could be wrong in any context whatsoever.  And my mother was a special kind of toxic I don't have the time or vodka to go into.  After a while you just kinda adapt.  I have endless patience, it's the big virtue I take away from all the nonsense.

[Pherales]

I've been in recharge mode for the last couple of days, not really doing anything and just trying to recover after the last week.  My joints are really unhappy with me tonight, hence why I'm up so late.  I really have to get some isolation exercises into my daily routine, the muscle strength is supposed to help keep everything in place.  Plus the whole muscle burns more calories per pound than fat.

[Bean Sidhe]

*hugs* Wish I had words that would help. Hopefully you got some sleep. And Don't worry, here you are with people who understand "family" dynamics all too well.