Shello Learns from her Failures and does 2020 Differently

[Shello]

I failed a lot in 2019.  I don't think I completed a single challenge in 2019, let alone complete one successfully.  I simply can not get myself to do it.  My life is completely different than it was before and I feel completely different.  All the changes in my life have been great and I am very happy with where I am now but I still have fitness goals to tackle and challenges just don't fit in my life anymore.  It's time to stop repeating the same failures and try something new.  

 

2020 - The Year of the Battle Log

 

A battle log should suit me much better.  I won't be checking in daily, nor probably routinely in any way.  My goals are long term and I don't put enough energy into breaking them down into challenge worthy goals.  I'm just going to keep trying things and see what sticks on no particular schedule.  I'll report in here but let's assume if I'm not updating that I'm still working on my goal.

 

One thing that feels different is that I am much more relaxed about life in general.  I don't plan as much and I am more laid back.  This helps in that I don't overplan as often and I feel less guilty about not getting so much done all the time.  But it makes things like batch cooking difficult. And Road Maps.  I don't have a Road Map for 2020.  I made one for 2019 and then promptly disregarded all those goals and just did what I wanted.  I do have one very specific goal for 2020 that will be the foundation of this year's Battle Log.  

 

Lose 20 in 2020

I added another 13 pounds during 2019.  I ended the year with high cholesterol and Schrodinger's sleep apnea.  Yes, this is a thing.  Well, I named it but I both do and do not have sleep apnea.  I would rather only not have sleep apnea at all.  Losing 20 would put me at the threshold that I think would eliminate the sleep apnea.  This has come and gone in my life over the past 17 years and it didn't start until I hit this weight threshold and always improves as I approach it.  The steps it takes to lose 20 pounds should also help with the elevated cholesterol and I can avoid whatever medication my doctor is recommending.  

 

Here are the things I am willing to do to achieve the goal.  These things will certainly change as I work towards the goal, but not having something I am willing to do is not an option.  

• IE. I did finally get the Intuitive Eating book over Christmas.  I plan to read through it and at the very least recognize some of the unhealthy eating patterns that I have.
• Freggies.  I started deliberately adding 3 servings of freggies to my days leading up to the holidays and it was working well.  There is just less room for junk that way and I hear it's good for you. 
• Cooking.  I am embracing being more lazy about life and this has increased the amount of processed food in my life.  I can be lazy and still cook some real food.  No focus on macros necessarily though I know I do better with limited grains, but any real food will do.  Maybe pictures will happen.  Maybe they'll be on IG.  
• IF.  Does this go against the IE concept?  I guess I'll figure it out.  But I usually do well with IF and the combination of IF, freggies, and some walking was getting the scale to go in the right direction before the season of cookies.  I am not super strict about it.  I average about 14 hours.  Some days I have no problem making it to 16 and some days it's too big of a battle.  But it keeps me from eating automatically and I eat when I'm actually hungry.  
• Activity.  Maybe I'll make it to the gym some.  Maybe not that much.  But I can at least start with keeping an eye on my daily steps.  Going for walks is a thing.  Maybe rucking will happen in the spring and summer.  Maybe I'll go crazy and get out the sledgehammer or flip a tire or something.  
• Oh, and continue being totally awesome and amazing.  

 

 

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

I hope the BL works better for you. IE was a big help for me, I hope you find it useful.

[Shello]

I hope the BL works better for you. IE was a big help for me, I hope you find it useful.

Tx.


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[deftona]

Here to watch you continue to be awesome and amazing!

[BombshellBanshee]

Awww hun, I'm so sorry 2019 was not a great success. But in a way, must have been, because here you are in 2020 with that goal still a priority. That's still a victory to not give up and show up anyway. Supporting you 110%! You got this! Whatever works best for YOU is right for YOU. And only YOU can know that by listening to your body and practicing this awareness you have daily. 💖💖💖

[NeverThatBored]

Here to follow along on your 2020 journey! 

[Shello]

OK, giving it another go for the Anniversary..

 

[Shello]

Hi folks!  This is proof of life. I hope you are all well.  

 

On the fitness front, my weight continues to MaintainButEverSoSlowlyCreepUp.  I haven't put a lot of any energy into doing anything about it until recently.  I've been sucked into the processed food vortex and I'm slowly climbing my way out.  I'm just starting with trying to make cooking the default again and maybe eat a freggie or three.  I have been thinking about some Shovelglove but it is yet to happen.  It's the thought that counts right?   

 

On the personal front, I have been busy over the summer teaching a couple of online classes that weren't fully prepared ahead of time and taking a class on how to create an online class.  Interestingly, having your online class prepared ahead of time is something they mention.  DDG has been busy with extra hours at his 2nd part time job.  We are both expecting things to calm down in the next couple of weeks (right in time for school to start up).  We had talked about trying to get out and walk more over the summer.  Maybe we can still make that happen. And maybe, you know, relax a little.  I/we are still unaffected by the 'Rona but I am disgraced by the current state of my nation.  

[Sloth the Enduring]

I’m glad you’re still alive.

[deftona]

We made a rule since you've been gone that anyone returning has to post Speedo pics as payment. 

 

Work with me on this, Sloth. 

[Sloth the Enduring]

I’ll show you mine, if you show me yours.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Welcome back.

[Shello]

We made a rule since you've been gone that anyone returning has to post Speedo pics as payment. 
 
Work with me on this, Sloth. 

Here you go..
You asked for it.


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[Shello]

Hi peeps!  I figured I'd check in and see what's going on, maybe even hop onto a challenge.  Of course it looks like the challenge is just about to end.  Maybe I'll hop on the next one.  

 

Not much has changed since my last post.  No Shovelglove happened, no walks happened.  A teeny tiny amount of yoga happened.  Weight is still ever so slightly increasing. I'm up about 10 pounds for the year.  I also had my follow up with my doctor and I'm not on blood pressure meds and high cholesterol meds.  I did finally get motivated to do something.  I tried out Noom for a free trial and ended up paying for it for 8 months.  It's interesting so far but the goal coach's and chat groups just made me miss you guys.  Maybe I'll stick around more this time.  

[deftona]

56 minutes ago, Shello said:

It's interesting so far but the goal coach's and chat groups just made me miss you guys.  Maybe I'll stick around more this time.  

 

They'll never be as cool as us. 

 

Maybe we need to resurrect The Doodlies to keep you coming around.

[Shello]

24 minutes ago, deftona said:

 

They'll never be as cool as us. 

 

Maybe we need to resurrect The Doodlies to keep you coming around.

Ah, the good ol' days.  The forum seems pretty light these days.  Where did everyone go?  

[deftona]

1 hour ago, Shello said:

Ah, the good ol' days.  The forum seems pretty light these days.  Where did everyone go?  

 

 

Same place you did I guess! 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

4 hours ago, Shello said:

Ah, the good ol' days.  The forum seems pretty light these days.  Where did everyone go?  

Some of us never left.

[Shello]

On 11/25/2020 at 4:14 PM, deftona said:

 

 

Same place you did I guess! 

Touche.  But I didn't see anyone else where I was at.  

 

On 11/25/2020 at 7:09 PM, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Some of us never left.

Tanktimus the Reliable. 

[Shello]

and a challenge is on the board!

 

 

[Shello]

I'm not ready to close up 2020 (actually I'm very ready) .  But the 2021 Road map is live!

 

 

[Shello]

2020 has finally come to a close.  As it has been for many people and for many reasons, it was not a good year.   I started the year with high cholesterol and aiming to lose 20 pounds in 2020.  To be fair, I didn't stick with any of tools to lose the 20 pounds, and I barely stuck with any challenges.  Not  only did I not lose 20 pounds but I did not beat high cholesterol and ended up getting on meds for both that and high blood pressure.  Official Jan 1 weigh in is done and I gained 6 pounds.  There is some good news.  It's the least amount I've gained in any year that I've gained and there are officially now more years I've gained than lost since joining the rebellion.  I'm also half a pound less than my highest year (excluding my weight when I started).  

 

I'm not claiming 2021 as my year.  Nobody wants to jinx anything.  But I am least set up with new tools and I'm hopefully sticking around more.  That's got to help!

[deftona]

I have also gained a lot of weight but I keep telling myself the higher I start on the graph the further I can drop so 

 

LET'S FREAKING DO THIS

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

I've been bouncing between 290 and 300 for the last nine months. I consider that a win as in March I got as high as 315.

[Shello]

On 1/3/2021 at 2:57 AM, deftona said:

I have also gained a lot of weight but I keep telling myself the higher I start on the graph the further I can drop so 

 

LET'S FREAKING DO THIS

I like how you think!  Game ON!

 

23 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

I've been bouncing between 290 and 300 for the last nine months. I consider that a win as in March I got as high as 315.

That is a win and a quarantine used well.