RedStone Posted February 10, 2020 Report Share Posted February 10, 2020 Looking back on my NF history recently was really interesting. My very first challenges were always Minecraft themed, so I'm going to pay homage to them this round in honor of the 10 year anniversary! I chose the name RedStone because of how useful it is in the game, but how difficult it is to obtain. This seems like a solid metaphor for my relationship to health and fitness - particularly my believing that I am deserving of such things. Looking back to my challenges, it's easy now to see the patterns of when I relapsed with my eating disorders, when I made some real break throughs, and of course the connections I've made along the way. Even writing out this challenge right now, I feel like I'm helping myself to understand where I'm at and where I want to go. I'm happy that I took a break from challenging (smaller than I realized), because I'm coming back to it with fresh intent and perspective. #grateful _____ So. Back to the present! Last challenge I had some real trouble surrounding my writing project, and the whole thing devolved into some massive anxiety and eventually depression. I made some really good strides talking it out with Mr Red over the past few days, and I'm ready to attack with new perspective on my emotions and how it relates to my productivity and how I spend my time. The long and short of it is that I've had some crippling anxiety surrounding imposter syndrome, and surprise surprise, after talking it out I realize it has happened every time I've tried to level up my work. It hapenned when I first moved into fitness as a PT (I'm now calling this Level 1), it hapenned again when I decided to go off on my own (Level 2), and it's been hapenning again surrounding this book and thinking about what the next move will be. Now that I have identified Level 3 and the fear I have surrounding it, I have a clear goal that has nothing to do with I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH, and everything to do with HOW WILL I GET THERE. I feel relieved, but there's work to be done. _____ FIGHT THE IMPOSTER - STUDY AND WORK! I often feel that I'm not educated enough to do what I do, but there is an easy fix for that - STUDY! In order to stay certified I have to do continuing education, and I have a live class open now that I need to finish. I've also been in the application process for a new certification. The process of studying keeps me focused on work, especially between actual clients, and gives me confidence that I'm doing my best for everyone. _____ ESCAPE THE ZOMBIES - RUN! Running has been the most consistent activity and physical stress release I've had since spraining my wrist. The light and slight strength experiments I did recently were a no go - if I wear my splint for a good portion of the day and don't push too hard my wrist feels better. I'm not going to try weights again until I've had a solid full week pain free, and when I do, it starts with gentle wrist rehab before anything else. So, running it is. As difficult as the timing is, I'd like to get to a 3x a week habit, which I will attempt to build up to this challenge. I've been using the Zombies, Run! app for a long time, it's fun and narrative and I enjoy it. I will continue doing the body weight work that I can manage. _____ FUEL FOR SURVIVAL I'll be continuing with the same nutrition oriented challenges, as it seems to be going well and coalescing. Mindful eating and holding back on drinking. The alcohol in particular has been extremely beneficial and I can feel the difference it makes in my life. Its really quite easy once I get into the swing of things. I will continue to observe my eating cravings and mindful practices surrounding food. _______ So here's the breakdown FITNESS Run 2X a week for 2 weeks Run 3X a week on the third week, see how this goes BW strength 2X per week NUTRITION No drinking a minimum 2X per week Continue mindful practices LIFE Study 2X per week for 1 hour Work on book minimum of 2X per week Finish work with editor (we have one more session before this period ends, after that I will be going on my own) And as a bonus I'll be participating in the Zero Week Special Thing and try a screenless block the first week, soft commitment to continue it throughout the challenge! 17 Quote ~Peace Be The Journey~ one - two - three - four - five - six - seven- eight - nine - ten - eleven - twelve - thirteen - fourteen - fifteen - sixteen - seventeen - eighteen - nineteen - twenty - twenty one - twenty two - twenty three - twenty four - twenty five - twenty six - twenty seven - twenty eight - twenty nine - thirty - thirty one - thirty two - thirty three - thirty four - thirty five - thirty six Link to comment
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