mitch_dee Posted February 12, 2020 Report Share Posted February 12, 2020 Holy hell, it has been 7 years since I first found this place......how has it been that long?!? I took a moment last night to look back at all my challenges that I have started over the years and have come to 3 conclusions: I have yet to actually complete a full challenge...wtf Mitch....I think this makes me the most experienced first timer and that technically means I should be posting in the 1st timer's forum...lol This place is still as amazing as it was when I first found it, due to all you outstanding folks Damn I used alot of gifs.... Spoiler (Post review edit: had to add this spoiler in as I just started rambling) This place has always felt like a sanctuary for me, it is one of the few places where I have been able to say things that I cannot say in my daily life to due the issues it may cause or feelings it might hurt. Even though this is a semi-faceless group I have been able to voice things that I have not even told loved ones, the reason I feel safe enough to do this is because of the community itself and the fact that never, not once, have I ever felt judged or looked down on. My biggest disappointment with NF comes in the fact that I withdrew from it when I backed myself into a corner, instead of throwing myself into it more to be able to vent the things that were troubling me (it's a reaction I have to everything when in that place). Though I have not been to Camp NF, and only watched 4T through social media and have only met one NFer irl, I had at one point spent more time chatting and conversing with NFers on this sight than I spent talking to friends and family. I had a tear come to my eye once or twice after seeing post from people that I wish I was smart enough to keep touch with. I just hope of the years and during the times I was here (no matter how short a time) that everyone has known how much I appreciate and admire them. This truly is a place of REAL heroes! On to the challenge....and maybe a few gifs..... With my lack of consistency and my natural drive to just throw in the towel when something goes wrong, lets Keep it Stupidly Simple Goal 1: Finish a fuggin' Challenge Requirement: Post at least 2 updates in a week, AND a summary on Saturday. Goal 2: Put the damn Fitbit back on Requirement: Wear the stupid FitBit and get at least 8000 steps in a day. Goal 3: Stop poisoning myself Requirements: Stop eating any of the foods that I am not suppose to, aka off my food sensitivity test. They are bad and cause major issues so knock it off. Meal prep at least 3 days worth of meals, share pictures as proof and accountability. Goal 4: Attitude adjustment Requirements: Take you damn pills EVERY day....imagine, mood drugs might work better if you took them consistently. Keep motivated, either by posting to myself or posting and following the badass heroes on this site. Mini Goal: Try to let myself of the hook for my past and believe in myself: listen to the words that others say about me, if I have such faith in there words when they talk about themselves or other NFers, then I need to have at least half that faith in the words when they say them to me. Mini Goal part 2: Stop comparing my progress with others...their chapter 20 is not my chapter 1 or however that saying goes Goal 5: Find happiness again Requirement: for 30 mins each day do something creative, it does not matter what it is, writing, drawing, coloring, etc. But whatever it is, do it freely and for 30 mins try not to judge every word or line made, just let go. That's it for now....I should probably get back to work. More to come!........I hope...lol 5 Quote “It’s the sensible, logical thing to do, of course, which is why we don’t do it.” -Tanis, Dragons of Autumn Twilight "Hope is the denial of reality. It is the carrot dangled before the draft horse to keep him plodding along in a vain attempt to reach it." - Raistlin - Dragons of Autumn Twilight Current Challenge Link to comment
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