RES: Needs to FEeL

[RES]

 

So the end of the last challenge I fell into some bad habits again...I stopped updating as much and stopped hitting my goals...From my prior challenge

 

"I used to spend a lot more time on here...it seems like goals were easier to reach then when I held myself more accountable (aka not wanting to post that I hadn't reached my goals) somewhere along the way I started doing weekly instead of almost daily updates...I think it was around the time I started working for an MiLB team, I still work there but life in general has calmed down a bit. I won't make this an actual 'goal' but may in the future if I find myself falling into recent patterns."

Okay, so life got crazy again but I still need to not lose sight of what I want to achieve, this is now an actual 'goal' as of this challenge. New plan!

 

The Plan....

Food: Make 24 hour plan, eat on plan when hungry, stop when full.

Exercise: 3 days a week

extra: Accomplishing anything I don't have planned at least once a week

Life: Get 7 hours of sleep a night, post at least 3 times a week in my thread. Take time to read, crochet, or journal.

 

5/16 - Blacklight Run (rescheduled for?)

 

Did my first OCR last challenge! Once things even out I'll definitely do more of these! Bought my first motorcycle in 30 years last weekend so pretty sure one of the 'extra' things will be ridding as much as possible.

For the next two weeks (or more) I am working from home, this should all be easy to accomplish during that time, lets hope it sets enough in place to continue when life gets crazy when they 'let us out' of the dugout...life will be nuts then and I can't wait! It's day one and I'm already getting a bit stir crazy...

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Following along with a reciprocal first follow. 

[RES]

Well I'm glad I didn't put that intervals had to be done in a gym...those are closed as of 8pm tonight throughout the state. They had already had no more than 50 people allowed inside including staff. I've been meaning to look into more outdoor runs at the trail I went to before, no time like the present!

[Xena]

what's the blacklight run?

[RES]

39 minutes ago, Xena said:

what's the blacklight run?

it's a color run done at night with glow in the dark colors...and it's apparently been postponed, nice of them to inform us

 

https://blacklightrun.com/locations/jacksonville-2020/

 

[Xena]

2 hours ago, RES said:

it's a color run done at night with glow in the dark colors...and it's apparently been postponed, nice of them to inform us

 

https://blacklightrun.com/locations/jacksonville-2020/

 

 

ahhh. Makes sense. Sorry it was cancelled, but not too surprised.

[RES]

15 hours ago, Xena said:

 

ahhh. Makes sense. Sorry it was cancelled, but not too surprised.

I'm not either, honestly I expected it but would have been nice to be informed without going to the website

[Echoceanic]

I'm glad to see you again here.  

[DarK_RaideR]

RES after lockdown be in the garage like

[RES]

5 hours ago, Echoceanic said:

I'm glad to see you again here.  

I'm glad to see you as well!!

 

3 hours ago, DarK_RaideR said:

RES after lockdown be in the garage like

Dude, I went for a ride yesterday  not too far because the neck/shoulder/arm is still mad at me after the 100+ miles last weekend...but damn it feels good 

[TGP]

yeah,

stir crazy Def seems plausable with life all interrupted like this; still from https://www.today.com/health/coronavirus-outbreak-how-avoid-going-stir-crazy-during-self-isolation-t176155

 

"In other words, don’t sit in pajamas all day and overeat or drink alcohol excessively"

 

which I think would be really hard if I was working from home

[RES]

8 hours ago, TGP said:

"In other words, don’t sit in pajamas all day and overeat or drink alcohol excessively"

 

I make myself shower and get dressed before my 'work day' begins at 9am, I work in MiLB so drinking alcohol excessively is almost a job requirement LOL

[fleaball]

[RES]

Well week 0 was less than stellar, full week of working from home and trying to figure out the challenges that come from that. The more I hear on the news the more worried I get about what's going to happen in my line of work...I know they assure us we're all okay and I know my company personally is okay but the not knowing is tough, and if it goes into June that's a whole nother ballgame (pardon the pun). 

 

Food: Make 24 hour plan, eat on plan when hungry, stop when full. 7/7

Exercise: Intervals/Stretching S/T/Th, Body-weight M/W/F 3/6

extra: Accomplishing anything I don't have planned at least once a week We went for an evening ride Saturday

Life: Get 7 hours of sleep a night, post at least 3 times a week in my thread. Take time to read, crochet, or journal 3/3 on life, 4/7 on sleep

 

Good conversations have happened over the weekend, I guess that's a positive side effect of my working from home, the bad part is it's too easy to make excuses or get a case of the "i'll do it later-s" when it comes to getting in workouts. This needs to be the focus this week, right now we're still planning a cruse for my birthday and I want to have the image in my head match reality a little better by then!  

[Mistr]

Following!

 

I hear you on putting off exercising at home. Getting away from work to exercise is a whole different story from getting away from the couch. I'm okay if I exercise first thing in the morning. Later in the day is harder.

[Thom Stépan]

Found you. 

[RES]

On 3/30/2020 at 6:34 PM, Mistr said:

Following!

 

I hear you on putting off exercising at home. Getting away from work to exercise is a whole different story from getting away from the couch. I'm okay if I exercise first thing in the morning. Later in the day is harder.

When I would get up, put on workout clothes, and go to the gym it was much easier. Now I find it's a struggle to change from my nightshirt to workout clothes in time to workout at home before I need to get a shower and start work/working

 

On 3/30/2020 at 7:16 PM, Thom Stépan said:

Found you. 

Yay! (I wasn't hiding very well I'm afraid)  

 

Food: Make 24 hour plan, eat on plan when hungry, stop when full. 7/7

Exercise: Something every day: 3/6 had a weird pain in my lower left abdomen that made movement painful for a couple days

extra: Accomplishing anything I don't have planned at least once a week We went for an evening ride Sunday, got my nails done Wednesday before the shops shut down

Life: Get 7 hours of sleep a night, post at least 3 times a week in my thread. Take time to read, crochet, or journal 1/3 on posting, 6/7 on sleep, did get some reading in this week as well

 

Thoughts...

Trying to focus on things I can control, stressing over if my job will be there or not is not going to help at all.

Working on getting myself back into the mindset of why I want to workout/eat right/lose weight...even if they are completely selfish reasons I'm allowed to have and feel them. If it's because I want to look totally hot in a swimsuit when I go on that cruse for my birthday (as long as this insanity is over by then) then that's completely allowed! 

Getting frustrated with D because she doesn't do things as quickly as I would like solves nothing...

 

[Xena]

9 hours ago, RES said:

3/6 had a weird pain in my lower left abdomen that made movement painful for a couple days

 

Better now?

[RES]

17 hours ago, Xena said:

 

Better now?

Yes, not sure what was causing it tbh but D went and got me some cranberry juice and that seemed to help...was very localized so might have been a stone, though I'm not sure since I don't think I've ever had one before

[Mistr]

On 4/5/2020 at 12:40 PM, RES said:

When I would get up, put on workout clothes, and go to the gym it was much easier. Now I find it's a struggle to change from my nightshirt to workout clothes in time to workout at home before I need to get a shower and start work/working

 

I started sleeping in workout leggings. They don't bunch up around my knees like my pajama pants do. In theory I can just put on an exercise top and workout. That would involve me actually getting up when my alarm went off. Hopefully tomorrow.

 

On 4/5/2020 at 12:40 PM, RES said:

Trying to focus on things I can control, stressing over if my job will be there or not is not going to help at all.

 

I noticed that I want things put away more than usual. Not just because I'm home and I see it more, but as a control thing. I tidied up the laundry room. Really, no one but me cares if the mesh bag for line dry items is out on the washer. Normally I don't care either. Right now it is something I can do to make my environment better.

 

On 4/5/2020 at 12:40 PM, RES said:

Working on getting myself back into the mindset of why I want to workout/eat right/lose weight...even if they are completely selfish reasons I'm allowed to have and feel them. If it's because I want to look totally hot in a swimsuit when I go on that cruse for my birthday (as long as this insanity is over by then) then that's completely allowed! 

Getting frustrated with D because she doesn't do things as quickly as I would like solves nothing...

 

Absolutely. Your reasons are valid. Period.

 

I'm also having to let go of expectations of my family. Both Elf and Dumbledore have volunteered to help since I'm working full time and work has been busy. I wrote them a list of things I'd like them to do. A couple things got checked off last week. Nothing else has happened since then. I'm just doing the things that I care about. For example, the toilets are clean because they were disgusting and it bugged me. Dumbledore has promised to vacuum for a week. He got as far as getting out the vacuum cleaner. The floors are bad too, but I can ignore that longer. I'm not stressing about the state of the house because no one will see it but us. Clearly Elf and Dumbledore don't care, or they would do something. I get to pick how much I care. Right now must things can wait until the weekend.  

[RES]

2 hours ago, Mistr said:

I started sleeping in workout leggings. They don't bunch up around my knees like my pajama pants do. In theory I can just put on an exercise top and workout. That would involve me actually getting up when my alarm went off. Hopefully tomorrow.

That would work if I could actually sleep in clothes...night sweats are an issue and I just cannot get comfortable if I'm wearing something...I'm seriously considering trying Tanks approach of doing something every day...today I was going to get on the treadmill again and made excuses and didn't, so I texted D and asked if she wanted to go for a walk this evening instead...we'll see...if not I'll do something else

 

2 hours ago, Mistr said:

I noticed that I want things put away more than usual. Not just because I'm home and I see it more, but as a control thing. I tidied up the laundry room. Really, no one but me cares if the mesh bag for line dry items is out on the washer. Normally I don't care either. Right now it is something I can do to make my environment better.

 

This is exactly me since all of this WFH started...I'm about ready to redo cabinets not because I need to or even want to...just to make it better since I have the time to and it's something I can control

 

The only thing I asked for was if we had sandpaper and paint, I have wanted to do my bathroom vanity since we replaced it (the original drawers were missing when we moved in) I wanted to work on it since I was home...she got testy and asked that I let her get the stuff and made a comment about us not having agreed on a color for it yet (mind you, she's not been in this room for almost a year and doesn't use this bathroom except in the middle of the night now) two weeks and not another word has been mentioned...because it's a project I want.

Now suddenly the yard is now the most important thing on her to-do list. This is the third project this year that has consumed all her attention...then hardly another word about it after about a month to six weeks. Granted it's likely because now she will have to mow it regularly but before that was never an issue, now she wants maintenance free landscaping 

 

On to other topics....

It's no secret I read a lot...I read these this morning and they resonated with me...the relationship one I even shared with D

https://www.goalcast.com/2020/04/06/codependency-signs-low-self-esteem-overcome-it/

https://www.goalcast.com/2020/01/30/relationship-over-or-need-work/

Thought they might speak to others too

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

1 hour ago, RES said:

The only thing I asked for was if we had sandpaper and paint, I have wanted to do my bathroom vanity since we replaced it (the original drawers were missing when we moved in) I wanted to work on it since I was home...she got testy and asked that I let her get the stuff and made a comment about us not having agreed on a color for it yet (mind you, she's not been in this room for almost a year and doesn't use this bathroom except in the middle of the night now) two weeks and not another word has been mentioned...because it's a project I want.

Oh man, the flashbacks to my own toxic relationship...

[Mistr]

I'm sorry that things with D are frustrating again.

 

Thank you for sharing the link on relationships. That is a more mature analysis than I've seen before. I hope it helps. 

[DarK_RaideR]

@RES just wants to FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELL....

 

Sorry, comes up in my head every time this thread's title pops up in my unread

[Thom Stépan]

Feel whatever emotions come your way. Spend some time reveling in the depth of those emotions. Be in the emotion, be that emotion. Then find your center again and be at one with yourself. That is what I did with the grief I experienced with the loss of my heart sister recently. I expressed my grief fully that night, now I am more balanced, centered and can act and move forward again. 

 

Do things for selfish reasons, if looking hot in that swim suit is what is motivating you, use it. I think we can in turn be both selfish and selfless when we motivate ourselves to take action. Especially when it comes to improving our health and fitness.