Sciread77 Posted June 15, 2020 Report Share Posted June 15, 2020 I’m feeling a little stuck, mostly with feeling cranky and angry. Work is much, much better now that the market is not (currently) crashing or acting like it smoked a truckload of crack and now that we’re closer to fully staffed. I’m still struggling to find my place in some ways. And to adjust to things that are new or have been brought to my attention or to deal with injustice that is really being highlighted. The protests, which I support. JK Rowling’s comments and essay that has been such a devastating blow to my trans friends. The announcement of rights rollbacks and rallies tied to racism and homophobia (which is a crap term for being too obsessed strangers have sex with other consenting adults). JK Rowling is particularly unsettling. Some people are renouncing the whole Harry Potter series, which I’m not ready to do. It’s had too big of an effect on my life, for the better. For all of its flaws. But I’m also not ready to let her off the hook for the hurtful things she’s said and done. And while my initial instinct is to see the best in people, she’s continued to double down when the people she has hurt have expressed this to her. I haven’t read thoroughly on the situation or her essay, which I am probably going to have to tackle before I really resolve this. But it’s been a huge blow to a lot of people I care about, people who have relied on her stories for courage and inspiration and who feel betrayed and let down. It sort of paints a lot of parts of the stories in an ugly light and highlights a lot of the negative for me. That is a sad part of being an adult. The Narnia stories, too, have a lot of troubling themes on race that are basically undercurrents. I don’t think any of it was meant to oppress people, but reading them to my kids I imagine how different they might land to a kid who only really heard dark-skinned people and creatures described as bad guys or the good guys who were relatively cruel, heartless, and had to be reigned in. Some parts of me miss childhood. But others regret that I did not know what I do now back in childhood. Goals: 1. Sleep. Bo Peep hasn’t been asleep before 10:30 for over a week and it’s a nightmare of hysterical crying. Yay! I’m hoping it’s another sleep regression that we can get through. I suspect the extended daylight hours are bringing this fresh hell upon us. I hate long summer days. Give me the medium days of autumn. Or the short days of winter with a good sun lamp! 2. Manage anxiety and mental health. This has been getting a little better and work appears to be sloping downward. I have limits in place. More than anything, I’m exhausted and burned out with work and searching for something meaningful to do in life. While actually being a better person to be around. 3. Stay home and social distance but work outside on my suburban homestead developing my orchard trees and bushes, the veggie plots, and the flower corner. 4. Make working from home look good to my company; maybe they will still let us work remotely after all this is over- >Continue this. They recently noted that we’ve done a fantastic job. Now I just want to fall off their radar until I get somewhere else or can really accomplish something. 5. Enjoy quality time with the kids and with Jessie, including figuring out a way to have us time without grandparent help or the ability to go somewhere. 6. Keep exercising. I’ve been having the calf and mobility issues again so I’m back to Alfredson protocol style lower body stuff and deep squats, with a push-up and pull-up focus on upper body for now. I’d like to get back into yoga and 21-day fix style workouts once this 7. Help educate and play with the kiddos. Summer break is upon us. 8. Ensure the passing of up-to-date and accurate information online. 5 Quote Adventurer, Half-Dwarf Chaotic-Good Paladin Ne me dites jamais les chances! ¡Nunca me digas las probabilidades! Character Sheet Training Logs Challenges Prepping for Adventure Prep, Adventure Prep Fall Baby, When Are We Again, Anyway?, Whirlwind, The Leaf's Locus, Harnessing Hamingja New Roots More Beginnings, More Roots Cleaning Up Facing The Hailstorm Yo Ho Yo The... Keto Life For Me? Taming the Beast Another Step Towards the Future Baking, Suburban Homesteading, and Health, The Adventurers of the Lucky Vale I, II, III, IV, V, VI, VII VIII, IX Spoiler Perennial goals: Sleep 7+ hours a night, retain (and continue to learn) French and Spanish as a family, increase Spanish Proficiency for work and play, read like a maniac on my own and with my kids, carry heavy stuff Long term goals: Cut to 13-15% bodyfat, And now that I'm grown I eat five dozen eggs, so I'm roughly the size of a baaaaarge! -> Someday I'll challenge a Disney world Gaston to a push up contest and win Link to comment
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