Snarkyfishguts: Good Enough

[Snarkyfishguts]

You tell 'em Stuart!

 

Omigosh Stuart Smalley was one of those amazing characters that was funny and sweet at the same time. I have a lot of feelings about Al Franken, but I'm forever grateful he gave us Stuart. I'll always think of him every time I open a package of Oreos.

 

Damn Straight!

 

So for this challenge the goal is to clap back at my inner critic.  I wasn't always this self-critical. But there was a period where other people were really mean and I internalized those negative messages. I think initially it was self-protective to avoid criticism, but now...I've left those jerks behind me but the critical scripts are still running. I find myself lately saying "Good enough is Good enough"  My mother said "What were those critical people doing anyway? Some people are just good at being critical." and it was like "Oh, that's very true. Why was I trying so hard to please unpleasant people?"

 

The Goal: Journal my inner critic and clap back at her:  I want to practice noticing when those negative thoughts of being a failure, a loser, of "What were you even doing? Why are you even here?". I want to see those thoughts, and clap back with some truth. I am good enough as I am. And good enough is good enough. Then just write about it. Write to myself to solidify that message "I'm okay, and in fact, I'm better than okay."

 

Earn that Dollar!  I'm continuing to earn my dollar. All the conditions for earning dollars remain the same. 30 minutes minimum of exercise, double dollars for 5 days or more, and bonus dollars for long days of hard work like gardening. For this challenge, I'm adding a little more structure in that I'll be strength training 2x a week. I'm going to start off with full body strength training and then as I get stronger, I'll adjust as needed. 

 

Fasting and Furious: I tried intermittent fasting with Mom a while ago, and as much as I HATE, HATE the idea of it....my digestive tract felt so much better on the days we did it. My stomach stopped hurting!  So I'm going to do it for this challenge and fast from 7pm to 10am. 

 

Good enough is good enough. Let's start this challenge!

[deftona]

My life improved immeasurably when I made the decision to stop giving a fuck about what other people thought. 

 

 

I'm looking forward to following this challenge, where you release your fuck-chains of societal pressures and expectations! 

[Snarkyfishguts]

5 minutes ago, deftona said:

My life improved immeasurably when I made the decision to stop giving a fuck about what other people thought. 

 

 

I'm looking forward to following this challenge, where you release your fuck-chains of societal pressures and expectations! 

This gif in addition to your comments is just fantastic!   Yes! It will be good to break past this and move forward, eh?

[Ann of Owlshire]

Here to cheer you on... uncritically

[Emma]

Good enough is great! Why stress about trying to be perfect or pleasing people who don’t like you?

[Lara]

With that title I was expecting a Goonies challenge

 

1 hour ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I tried intermittent fasting with Mom a while ago, and as much as I HATE, HATE the idea of it....my digestive tract felt so much better on the days we did it. My stomach stopped hurting!  So I'm going to do it for this challenge and fast from 7pm to 10am. 

My boyfriend has been experimenting with this for the last weeks and he is quite happy by now. I hope it will do you good, too.

[WolfDreamer]

1 hour ago, zenLara said:

With that title I was expecting a Goonies challenge

 

Ooh, now there's an idea. *stores that one in his mental notes*

 

I'm proud of you @Snarkyfishguts for silencing the critics and learning to embrace who you are inside and not who others think you are. You can do this.

 

If you have questions about intermittent fasting, just let me know. I'm not a nutritionist or a doctor, but I have been fasting intermittently for a few years now. I've not been as disciplined with it lately (since the virus shutdowns), but I can speak for its impact on my body when I was disciplined.

 

Let me know if I can help in any way. It's always great to see you.

[Snarkyfishguts]

3 hours ago, Ann of Vries said:

Here to cheer you on... uncritically

Hahaha! Thank you!

2 hours ago, Emma said:

Good enough is great! Why stress about trying to be perfect or pleasing people who don’t like you?

Thanks! Especially when those people arent in my life anymore!  It just does t make sense to keep going on like this.

2 hours ago, zenLara said:

With that title I was expecting a Goonies challenge

 

My boyfriend has been experimenting with this for the last weeks and he is quite happy by now. I hope it will do you good, too.

OMG GOONIES. Anne Ramsey was such a good villain.
 

yeah a challenge is a good time to really try something out, eh? 

 

15 minutes ago, WolfDreamer said:

Ooh, now there's an idea. *stores that one in his mental notes*

 

I'm proud of you @Snarkyfishguts for silencing the critics and learning to embrace who you are inside and not who others think you are. You can do this.

 

If you have questions about intermittent fasting, just let me know. I'm not a nutritionist or a doctor, but I have been fasting intermittently for a few years now. I've not been as disciplined with it lately (since the virus shutdowns), but I can speak for its impact on my body when I was disciplined.

 

Let me know if I can help in any way. It's always great to see you.

Thanks Wolfie! I’ll just be thrilled if this helps resolve my life long gut issues. I did read for women that it’s important to get enough protein for reproductive health. Not like I want to have babies, But those hormones are so closely linked with other health stuff. 
 

I appreciate the support and confidence! I’m taking that with me today!

[Snarkyfishguts]

I earned my dollar today walking two miles! 
 

i also took an amazing nap. I haven't slept well in a while, and boy did I sleep this afternoon. 
 

 

I feel ready to take on the day! At 4pm! I feel great though, I clearly needed the rest, and now I’ve got energy to tackle the TO DO LIST 🥰

 

mom made Russian teacakes with cinnamon and they are yummazing. We’re gonna need about 100 more, thanks. She’s so much happier since she started baking again. And shes excited because we found out that my brother’s mother-in-laws birthday is fathers day, and we were all getting together for a weenie roast outside. So my mom is baking a cake! shes really happy about it. 
 

we’re all nervous but also really excited because his MiL and her hubs have been strictly social distancing, and so have we. My brother and co are the only ones who are branching out more, but they are being very careful and mindful too. Out of all our family, this is probably the safest gathering. (I would not go to any of my uncles at this point, thats for dang sure.) I think we’ll have fun
 

 

 

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Since it's been alluded to, but not posted:

Here to watch you lean over the balcony and pretend to barf on the inner critic.

[Sciread77]

Following!

[Ann of Owlshire]

Naps are excellent. And hey, if you can take on the world at 4PM and still get much done—does it matter if it’s 9AM or 4PM?

 

Russian teacakes looks delicious. I’m glad you have some friends/family you can safely visit.

[Snarkyfishguts]

12 hours ago, Sciread77 said:

Following!

Howdy!!

3 hours ago, Ann of Vries said:

Naps are excellent. And hey, if you can take on the world at 4PM and still get much done—does it matter if it’s 9AM or 4PM?

 

Russian teacakes looks delicious. I’m glad you have some friends/family you can safely visit.

It really doesn’t matter. The washer doesn’t say “Laundry in the evening? Who ARE you, strange creature?!”  😂

[Snarkyfishguts]

I earned my dollar and my lower body is delightfully sore. 

 

I fasted yesterday, but not today because… gummi bears. Gummy or gummi? I use them interchangeably.

 

My inner critic slipped out a few times yesterday and this morning. I caught myself a couple times saying something aloud and then I would say "No, that's okay. I'm okay"

 And I was fortunate enough to have my mom there once to say "Good enough"

 

I ordered a box of chocolates for my dad but the shipment was delayed and then there was a heat wave and well. the chocolates were ruined. I got a refund, but my dad is so bummed out, and I think next time I go to the store I'll make sure to buy chocolates for him. Non melty ones

[WolfDreamer]

On 6/17/2020 at 2:32 PM, Snarkyfishguts said:

gummi bears. Gummy or gummi? I use them interchangeably

 

Maybe this will help: 

 

"Gummi is a sugary, gelatinous material used to make candies whereas Gummy literally translates to “showing the gums“. If you are spelling Gummy Bears this way you are actually referencing a bear with a gummy grin…"

 

 

Glad you earned your dollar, but I'm sorry to hear about your dad's chocolate.

 

You're doing awesome. Keep it up!

[Snarkyfishguts]

38 minutes ago, WolfDreamer said:

 

Maybe this will help: 

 

"Gummi is a sugary, gelatinous material used to make candies whereas Gummy literally translates to “showing the gums“. If you are spelling Gummy Bears this way you are actually referencing a bear with a gummy grin…"

 

 

Glad you earned your dollar, but I'm sorry to hear about your dad's chocolate.

 

You're doing awesome. Keep it up!

That IS helpful! Gummi it is! because that bear is a little "yikes" for me!  

 

and thanks! 

[Snarkyfishguts]

 

 

Yesterday was a successful fasting day. Tomorrow is not a fasting day because I'm making an amazing breakfast for Father's Day and we're having cake in the evening with my brother and his family. Fasting is interesting because it seems like it amplifies how food affects my system. Maybe because I'm eating less in general, but I find myself noticing "This food really doesn't agree with me." and also "Wow, I feel amazing after eating this."  I've decided to just keep a list during this challenge for my personal use. 

 

Thursday was a day off from exercise, but I earned a dollar yesterday. That's three days off, so no double dollar consistency bonus for week zero but that's okay.  I think I needed a week zero to stumble and mentally prepare for week one. I learn best when I dive in and learn from my mistakes and find the best path for me. 

 

Which is something I am allowing myself to do without shame or guilt anymore. My negative line of thought, or my inner critic, was really overwhelming this week. Confronting negative thoughts with honesty and compassion revealed that behind those thoughts is a lot of emotions that were boxed up. Not just emotions, but also memories of how things were before I was in those unhealthy environments and relationships. It kinda feels like completing a side quest and earning a piece of heart at the end. I feel a little more like me again. 

 

Happy Father's Day to all the dads. I hope you get a restful day with kid-made toast and sprinkles  

[Snarkyfishguts]

Fathers day was a rollercoaster. Dad really loved his breakfast and presents from me in the morning. We were getting ready for my brother and co. To arrive and it was a switch flipped and he got really strange.  He never really got better until everyone arrived and then had a great time again. I understand what happened, and am just happy the day ended well for him. We had a really nice family gathering.  
 

I earned my dollar with a walk. One dollar for week One. 

I didn't fast. Father’s day breakfast trumps fasting. We had a late dessert last night, and I just decided to eat at 10am anyway. But tonight, I begin fasting again.

my inner critic had a moment in the sunshine when I sat on a plastic chair and it cracked a little. It’s an older chair, plastic gets brittle, but my mom looked at me with some concern for a while, which didnt help. Underneath the critical line of thought is an anxious stream of thought that definitely is my parents teaching. I think this challenge I am going to have to address both and develop trust in myself and confidence that I got this. 
 

I’m going to relax for the rest of the day 💚 Then tomorrow everything begins with gusto i’m looking forward to getting started with this workouts. 

[WolfDreamer]

Sounds like it was an okay day Snarky. Hurray for upcoming workouts!

[Snarkyfishguts]

16 minutes ago, WolfDreamer said:

Sounds like it was an okay day Snarky. Hurray for upcoming workouts!

It was an okay day!  Life is good. 💚

[Snarkyfishguts]

We're off to a really good start! I earned my dollar today with Fitness boxing. My mom joined me today to vent some of her frustration, which not only included punching, but lots of swearing at the screen.

 

I also fasted until noon today. I got a late start last night, so I wanted to give myself some extra time this morning. After a weekend of not fasting, my guts appreciate the break. 

 

Clapping back at my inner critic is still a daily thing. This morning, I wrote down everything I want to accomplish during the days and weeks, and then how much time I thought I should be spending on those items. And then I tried plugging that into a schedule, and it was impossible. I don't even know that I really WANT to accomplish all that stuff. Some of it, I just think I should be doing it. Like I feel like "I should be this accomplished person who can juggle knives, bake a perfect pie, and speak six languages."  Is that what a successful person looks like? Reminding myself I get to decide what success means for me, and that I don't really want to do ALL of that. I'm more of a cake person than pie, anyway

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

I AM SO CRABBY 🤬

 

that is all 🤪

[Snarkyfishguts]

Dont be sad, Tank! I felt a lot better after dinner. Turns out I was just hungry. 

[Snarkyfishguts]

I ate breakfast today instead of fasting; I had half a sandwich and black bean and corn salad for dinner and I probably could’ve eaten more but I was listening to my gut. And this morning my gut said “gimme some cheerios!”

 

my recent obsession is birds in my backyard. Specifically the ones that are very loud at 4:30. Like this Carolina Wren! 

 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

dollar earned with ring fit and yoga today.  it’s a good day.
 

 

Another bird The Northern Flicker. I really despise this call after a while. They go on and on and on....