Snarkyfishguts: Good Enough

[oromendur]

Birdsong! I think I'd overall I'd rather be able to hear it too much than never hear it at all -- but it can really get old. Especially if it's loud and persistent. The pre-dawn mockingbird alarm clock common at my house has occasionally brought guests to tears

 

(This is a random drive-by posting because I took your message in my thread to indicate you don't mind that sort of thing. Hi!)

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

[Snarkyfishguts]

3 hours ago, oromendur said:

Birdsong! I think I'd overall I'd rather be able to hear it too much than never hear it at all -- but it can really get old. Especially if it's loud and persistent. The pre-dawn mockingbird alarm clock common at my house has occasionally brought guests to tears

 

(This is a random drive-by posting because I took your message in my thread to indicate you don't mind that sort of thing. Hi!)

I love random messages! HI!!!!

 

 

Yeah, overall, birdsong is preferable to traffic and sirens. Honestly, looking up some of these birds and learning what birds are waking me up makes it a lot better in general to say “Ah that’s a carolina wren” but the flicker is just annoying right now. But NOT as annoying as THE BLUE JAY.  

[Snarkyfishguts]

1 hour ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Took me a moment, honestly. Took me a long moment to look for the joke, and then once I got it, belly laughs !!!!

[Snarkyfishguts]

A dollar earned today! Four dollars so far. (proud pose) I went for a walk with my mom this morning.

 

The ceiling is leaking again. Dad called a plumber who will call Monday to schedule an appointment.  We think it's coming from the bathroom, and I'm just happy we have another bathroom downstairs. We are ALSO hoping it's not the ductwork. 

 

I made mujadara for dinner tonight. It was really good. I used a different recipe this time, and we all loved it so much better than the last recipe I tried. I put in cumin, salt, a lot of pepper, 4 cloves of garlic and a bay leaf in 5 cups of water. I added a cup of barley and brought it all to a boil then let it simmer for 20 minutes. Then I added brown lentils and let that simmer for 25 more minutes. 

Then I caramelized some onions and by the time they were done, the lentils and barley were done. I took out the bay leaf, crushed the garlic with a fork and stirred that in with the onions. I also set aside some of my onions on a papertowel to get nice and crispy/chewy to top it off. It was really good and made SO MUCH FOOD. 

Mom had previously cooked a delicious sauce and pulled pork so we combined those and had that as well, because a meal without meat makes my dad very sad. I've made vegetarian meals for us before, and he usually ends up quietly making a sandwich afterwards, so this time we just gave in

 

Fasting was a success today! I seem to be managing every other day this week, which is good enough. I feel like my relationship with food is changing in a way that is healthier for me.  I still get grouchy when I'm very hungry, so I need to plan out some quick and healthy meals that I can get ready quickly. Yogurt and fruit topped with granola works really well.   What are your favorite healthy "I'm so hungry I might bite YOU" meals?

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

1 hour ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

because a meal without meat makes my dad very sad.

I agree with your father. 

[Snarkyfishguts]

9 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

I agree with your father. 

Hahahha! I’m SO surprised! 😂

my dad is such a nice man, it just feels mean not to add meat. And when he looks sad, he looks soooo sad. To him fish and chicken is vegetarian lol

[Stronkey Kong]

RE: Birdsong

 

spoiler'd... this might offend some people

 

Birding is a kinda fun hobby tho. It's hiking with nature nerding.

[Snarkyfishguts]

11 hours ago, Chris Tarly said:

RE: Birdsong

 

spoiler'd... this might offend some people

 

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Birding is a kinda fun hobby tho. It's hiking with nature nerding.

I love and hate birds. like, I never want to own a bird. And I hate how noisy they are at 5am. And they shit everywhere, and build nests in totally inconvenient places. But they are also kinda fascinating, I like learning about the different types of birds.  But they are totally jerks.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

3 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I love and hate birds. like, I never want to own a bird. And I hate how noisy they are at 5am. And they shit everywhere, and build nests in totally inconvenient places. But they are also kinda fascinating, I like learning about the different types of birds.  But they are totally jerks.

[Snarkyfishguts]

 

 

2 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

BIG BIRD IS ALWAYS THE EXCEPTION 💛

[Snarkyfishguts]

Hey all!

 

Quick update with last week: 

$4 earned

4 days of fasting

clapping back at inner critic remains a work in progress  

2 pounds lost! WOO!

 

 

This week: 

Today is my Dad's birthday! My brother and co. are coming over for grilled meats. 

We're in the part of summer where it's TOO MUCH FAMILY TIME.  But after the 4th of July, we should be able to just exist in peace for a while again. My brother doesn't bother me, but I'm just not really  into getting together with the extended relatives right now. Covid hasn't hit our area too hard, so we're safe right now, but I don't trust my family not to be idiots, and based on some of the conversations from our gathering last weekend, some of them are just idiots. Also, my horrible uncle is visiting this weekend. HE SWEARS he doesn't have cockroaches. Really? Really? We're trusting this idiot? Whatever. I need to adjust my expectations of them, and work on reclaiming my time.

 

I've earned my dollar today with strength training, and it felt SO good. I bought two books: one about stretching and one about strong backs. It covers everything from stretches, exercises, to gardening. It seems really practical. My brother injured his back last month, and is having a slow recovery. I'm completely aware that this purchase is my warding off any back pain for myself.   I'm going to exercise through my stress. The sticky summer weather has hit here, so I am back to working out primarily inside, but that gravel pit still needs work. I may do that this weekend when the Uncle is here. 😇

 

 

So far this week:

1 dollar earned

1 day of fasting

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

there is a hole in the ceiling and a pipe that is leaking and its getting fixed today!

 

so much excitement today! Woo! Woo!

 

the leak from back in March came back. It wasn't the toilet, but the pipe, and at this point, we’re all just happy its a quickish fix.

 

The plumbers text ring tone is R2D2 and hes only gone to the grocery store and the park with his wife. He said “I’m an introvert”. So far so good. And my dad’s handyman will repair the ceiling. So not too bad, all around. 

 

 

 I mean, its not great, but in the realm of bad news, this pretty good!
 

[Snarkyfishguts]

 

I lost two more pounds this week! I'm really happy about this progress. Fasting seems to be the breakthrough I needed on so many levels. I feel in control of my eating, I feel like I'm less obsessive about food, and physically I feel good. 

 

"Enough" is a weird word if you look at it too long. 

 

My Uncle from New Jersey is staying home instead of visiting us. Let's just call him Uncle NJ. that makes it easier. My other uncles are not social distancing; one is going to large outdoor events, shaking hands and hugging people, and another was at a large funeral this week and said his children are bringing their families to the 4th BBQ which doubles the size of our group. Also my cousins are from larger cities out of state. So the local uncles are like "Covid isn't really here." but my mom is like "Yeah it is, and I don't want it." and Uncle NJ is super supportive and agrees with my mom. Not only did he validate her feelings, he called the local uncles to cancel and said "I just got back from a long trip, and work has been nuts. I'm tired and need to catch up on my house stuff." So the pandemic didn't come up, and no one could blame my mom or say she was over reacting.. He's still annoying, but I won't forget how he stood up when my mom needed him. 

 

I earned one dollar this week. I slacked off big time. I definitely got distracted by the plumber, by stressing out over the weekend, by hormones.. Basically, I worried, lost sleep, and just wasn't my best this week. But lets talk about how organized my bathroom closet is while I was avoiding working out. 

 

Well, I'm super tired and going back to bed. I slept about 4 hours last night, and it's catching up to me. Good night?

[Snarkyfishguts]

Is this really the end of week 2? Time is weird. 

[Snarkyfishguts]

Well, starting off Week 3 right. 

 

I earned my dollar today. It was leg day in RingFit Adventure and I increased the difficulty to challenge myself more. I'm not going to lie, my legs are worn OUT. But I'm really proud. I'm starting to get stronger. I can do really good squats, and baby lunges. Eventually as I lose weight and gain strength the lunges will happen, but I'm just damn happy. 

 

The grocery shopping has been done, and we're staying put for a couple weeks. It's time to hide at home and wait a couple weeks to see if there's going to be a spike in Covid19 numbers after all the big events that happened over the last week or so. But this time we have plenty of vodka, so bring on the quarantine. 

 

Fasting is going really well, although today I didn't eat enough and now I'm hungry. But I've already brushed my teeth. I might just have breakfast tomorrow. Peanut butter toast and vodka. Yup. THAT's nutrition.

 

I'm in a weird mood, so I'll say goodnight. I hope y'all are safe and sound

 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

No fasting today because toast is delicious. 
dollar earned with an upper body workout. I am sleepy now  

JKRowling is doubling down on her TERFdom and I’m so over her right now. I just wish she’d stop. 

@Tanktimus the Encourager Can you remove my title? I really want nothing to do with HP right now. She really just makes me sad. And mad. Sad-mad.  
 

Mom is teaching me how to crochet! I am also taking a class online. But it’s cool, I like doing it with her, it’s this nice experience. I like seeing her deft movements that create these tidy stitches against my clumsy movements and messy stitches. It’s like, one day I’m gonna be that good. 

Time to cook dinner. I think we’re gonna have spaghetti and meatballs. What is everyone else eating today?

💚
 

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

I set it back to default. Do you want anything else for your title?

[deftona]

Might I suggest "Resident Ray of Sunshine"

[Snarkyfishguts]

16 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

I set it back to default. Do you want anything else for your title?

Thank you! I cant think of anything else, but I just feel better now. Thank you  thank you thank you! 💚

16 hours ago, deftona said:

Might I suggest "Resident Ray of Sunshine"

Aw shucks,  this made my freckles blush 💚 thanks

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

17 hours ago, deftona said:

Might I suggest "Resident Ray of Sunshine"

 

1 hour ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

Thank you! I cant think of anything else, but I just feel better now. Thank you  thank you thank you! 💚

Aw shucks,  this made my freckles blush 💚 thanks

 

I am inspired.

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

15 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

 

 

I am inspired.

 

Omg, this made me blush AND grin when I saw the title! Thank you Tank and Deffy. Man. I am feeling full of gratitude. Y’all are the best💚💚💚💙💙💙💜💜💜♥️♥️💛💛💛

[Snarkyfishguts]

I earned my dollar today. Worked on my core muscles, and did a lot of stretching and stationary bike for my sore muscles. It was hard today, but I felt extra motivation at MY NEW AMAZING TITLE

 

😍🥰😍

 

I mean, how can a day get better than THAT?!

 

 

I didn't fast again. I went to bed too hungry, so I got up and ate some nuts. I still love fasting, and how good it's been for my emotional health as well as my gut health. My guts get a break, which is why I started fasting in the first place, but my brain gets a break too. When it's time to stop eating, I brush my teeth, get a big glass of water, and then all my food choices are easy. Don't eat until 10am. Unless I can't sleep. Or mom makes cinnamon rolls. I'm not a robot!  

 

And I mean, inner critic who? DID YOU SEE MY TITLE? 😍 Seriously, though I recognized my negative thoughts pretty quickly in the last day and could say "That's not true." I find myself feeling like I'm talking to a kid who ate too much cotton candy, or candy floss. That delicious stuff of sugary clouds. But it's like this firm, loud thought in my head that says "No, That's Not True. Settle Down or we'll have to go back to the car and you won't have ANY candy."   Because that inner critic, that negative voice is definitely a self-defense mechanism that has uncontrolled energy. Today it was the "Your legs still are sore. You screwed up. Now everyone is gonna think you are a slug monster. Why did you push yourself so hard the other day? UGH STAIRS. DID YOU FORGET WE HAVE STAIRS?"

 

And my response is "I'm still really proud of that workout. I did push a little too far this time, but I've learned something for the next time. One day, that "too hard" will feel pretty easy. No one thinks I'm a slug monster. Slugs are slimy. I am shiny. But you are right, I TOTALLY forgot about stairs. I'll never forget THAT again! "

 

 

 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

I earned my dollar with some Fitness Boxing on the switch. The weather has been in the mid 90's lately which feels about 10 degrees too hot. or for international friends, it's been about 33-34C lately.  TOO HOT.  it hasn't rained either, so the grass is brown and burned and it's just weird weather for here.  I haven't finished the gravel pit yet, and I just want it to cool off so I can be outside and not melt into a puddle of Snarky. But I can exercise indoors, which WAS THE POINT I WAS MAKING IN THE FIRST PLACE

 

I earned my dollar with some Fitness Boxing. My body is very tired right now. Throwing punches and weaving felt like I was carrying 30 pound weights on my limbs. But it also felt good to warm up some of the sore muscles from the last few days. Tomorrow might just be a rest day. Yes. that's a good idea. 

 

I didnt make my fasting time last night into this morning. I ate some cheerios at 9am. No regrets. It really doesn't bother me if I miss it by an hour. It's good enough. 

 

OOOOH, Good news! I tried on some clothes today in my closet and several too-small pants now fit me really well! I'm so excited! I made up some outfits, organized my closet, and put some clothes that I hate or that are way too big in the donation bag. I still have a lot of clothes to go through, but it's a good start. My minimalist wardrobe just doubled in size! I feel so fancy.  I can't wait to get dressed now, even though I'm going NOWHERE  (dramatic victory pose)

 

My nephew may be staying over tomorrow night. I would love that. This is the youngest one who is a bit crazy energetic. he's gonna wear us out. But I love him, and I love his crazy energy. We're already planning a lot of stuff to do because CRAZY ENERGY   To me, this is a reward for social distancing. We've been so careful and so is my brother and his family. So we get nephew time and my brother gets a short break from CRAZY ENERGY.  

 

CRAZY ENERGY TIME!!!!! 

 

 

 

 

 

[deftona]

29 minutes ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

OOOOH, Good news! I tried on some clothes today in my closet and several too-small pants now fit me really well! I'm so excited! I made up some outfits, organized my closet, and put some clothes that I hate or that are way too big in the donation bag. I still have a lot of clothes to go through, but it's a good start. My minimalist wardrobe just doubled in size! I feel so fancy.  I can't wait to get dressed now, even though I'm going NOWHERE  (dramatic victory pose)

 

YAAAAAAY! You're so awesome!