Heidi: Am I? Write!

[Heidi]

Another round of deep acceptance and simplicity, hallmarked by Writing. I'm being pulled deeper into and along the spiritual path. Lots of archetype moments, insights, tarot cards seem to help focus the message, but it's one of spiritual revelation, not divination.

There will be Bread.

[Heidi]

This round marks a hush-point, a moment after the chaos of court and before the syllabus of the semester. 

 

I'm tired.

I keep applying for editing jobs, of course. Something will materialize or it won't. The process is the point.

 

Also, I need to be more gentle with myself than ever -- despair is close at hand, and I cry sometimes out of the blue. This is a soul expression of grief for so many things: my own sense of agency, this poor country of mine, the many many sick and suffering and dead, the loss of certainty or ability to make plans.

 

So:

Rest.

Bread.

Writing.

Reading.

May there be love.

 

 

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Hugs friend, love from one to another, may the light in me shine on you and bring you peace and comfort.

[Teros]

*hug*

[WhiteGhost]

12 hours ago, Heidi said:

There will be Bread.

This is what I came here for

 

Virtual hugs and good vibes being sent your way for the rest

[Heidi]

13 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Hugs friend, love from one to another, may the light in me shine on you and bring you peace and comfort.

Thank you, @Tanktimus the Encourager. Your presence is a comfort and a blessing.

9 hours ago, Teros said:

*hug*

*Hugs*

3 hours ago, WhiteGhost said:

This is what I came here for

 

Virtual hugs and good vibes being sent your way for the rest

A Bread companion? Proof that the universe loves me and wants me to be happy. Hi, @WhiteGhost! Do you have: a glass jar or container that holds 16+ ounces and some flour? Let's get your starter ready this week

 ❣️

[WhiteGhost]

1 hour ago, Heidi said:

Do you have: a glass jar or container that holds 16+ ounces and some flour?

I do!  This sounds simple enough so far  

[darkfoxx]

Sending you love, my friend. Love and good bread juju 

[Scaly Freak]

I will follow this thread for the sourdough... and when i eventually have my kitchen back, I will join the bread making project  

[Heidi]

24 minutes ago, Scaly Freak said:

I will follow this thread for the sourdough... and when i eventually have my kitchen back, I will join the bread making project  

OO! What happened to the kitchen?

[Heidi]

5 hours ago, darkfoxx said:

Sending you love, my friend. Love and good bread juju 

Thanks.

I can feel the good vibes.  

[Scaly Freak]

3 minutes ago, Heidi said:

OO! What happened to the kitchen?

 

Water damage. There are  details in the spoiler in this post. It's very sad and anxiety inducing.  

[DarK_RaideR]

 

[cd667]

On 7/28/2020 at 6:39 PM, Heidi said:

There will be Bread.

Love and bread. You don't need anything else, really.

[Heidi]

8 hours ago, cd667 said:

Love and bread. You don't need anything else, really.

So true.

[Edigo]

Love that you are on a spiritual revelation journey. And bread. I feel i am in a similar journey. 

 

[Teros]

10 hours ago, cd667 said:

Love and bread. You don't need anything else, really.

 

Celiac. I'll double up on the love, if possible.

[Heidi]

If you're looking to make a sourdough starter, I like this recipe from King Arthur. It takes five days, and you can use whatever flour you have on hand. Rye is traditional; this one calls for whole wheat; I've used pretty much whatever was available and had good results. The trick to starter is that it is a fermentation. Your first loaves using he batch will likely not have that characteristic tangy smell and flavor, since the starter hasn't aged long enough. The good news is that it will still perk the bread along quite nicely. Don't give up; just keep using the starter to make more bread -- giv it away to your neighbors and friends, and you'll be the hit on the block. 

 

My recipe makes two loaves, and now that I live alone I give one loaf away out of every batch. I always smile when people point out that I could freeze the second loaf, which is true, but has nothing to do with why I make bread. Some days I make a second batch the day after "Bread Day," meaning I give away both loaves, since I'm still working on the one from the day before. 

 

Generally, I store my bread in a brown paper bag, cut side down. It lasts about three days (if it's not eaten by then) before it gets overly hard and I cut it into strips to dry out completely for dog treats.

[Heidi]

On 7/29/2020 at 11:47 AM, Scaly Freak said:

I will follow this thread for the sourdough... and when i eventually have my kitchen back, I will join the bread making project  

You can start making the starter now! No need to wait and if you feed it every 24 hours, you won't even need to refrigerate it. No kitchen required.  

❤️ 

[Scaly Freak]

1 hour ago, Heidi said:

You can start making the starter now! No need to wait and if you feed it every 24 hours, you won't even need to refrigerate it. No kitchen required.  

❤️

 

Since the kitchen floors extend through the entire house, the new floor is at some point going to need to be revarnished, along with every other floor in the house. When that happens we need to leave for at least three days, due to the very toxic nature of the fumes in the varnish. While I fully realize that I can still have a sourdough starter through that time period as long as I work around it, the mere thought of adding one more thing I have to do every day makes the anxiety flare up, so I'm holding off until the kitchen situation is entirely behind me. I will bookmark the link though.  

[Teros]

*poke*  Hiya

[Heidi]

Lady week was a lot of disability days in a row.

I'm on the right side of it now, but tired.

 

There has been writing, and resting, and knitting, and bread.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

I'm glad you're better, and hope you get good rest.

[Heidi]

We are not here to fit in, be well balanced, or provide exempla for others. We are here to be eccentric, different, perhaps strange, perhaps merely to add our small piece, our little clunky, chunky selves, to the great mosaic of being. As the gods intended, we are here to become more and more ourselves.
James Hollis, What Matters Most: Living a More Considered Life

 

 

 

[Scaly Freak]

1 hour ago, Heidi said:

We are not here to fit in, be well balanced, or provide exempla for others. We are here to be eccentric, different, perhaps strange, perhaps merely to add our small piece, our little clunky, chunky selves, to the great mosaic of being. As the gods intended, we are here to become more and more ourselves.
James Hollis, What Matters Most: Living a More Considered Life

 

This is a fantastic quote. Love it.