fearless: The "what do I want?" challenge

[fearless 2.0]

 

I sat down today to brainstorm my next challenge and couldnt do it.  I was unable to tell what my priorities are. I want to get into Cross Fit again, I want to write book #2 and I want to spend time with my dog in nature. I want to recover from back surgery, I want to get to 99,0kg, I want to prep keto meals, I want to stay away from addictive behavior, I want to be financially stable ( teach more)....

 

 

 

 

 

I don't see how I can get all of those things done at once since I have mental health issues that make me feel overwhelmed easily, and I am unsure about priorities. So I will use this challenge to try out different versions of a regular week and hopefully at the end I will know what I want a regular week to look like.

 

So this might happen ( or not )

 

 

1. being keto and reaching 99 kilos are non negotiable. I will reach this goal ( if I don't fuck up!!!! ) during this challenge after working on it since June.  After that its maintenance for a while. The energy then can go towards other goals.
2. dog walks are also non negotiable and I will do a short walk 5 times a week and a long one 2 times a week.. I have a garden for her to play and pee in, but still, this is the minimum to be a good dog mum! ( weekly steps will be counted towards Walk to Mordor ) If Cross Fit doesn't work out I will probably add to my walking goal and try more hiking with the pup.
3. the bodyweight stuff was hard to do by myself and I suspect I need a group setting to kick ass. So Crossfit ( with scaled down movements!!!! ) it is. I texted my coach and asked him if I can go to class tomorrow and Friday early morning and to make up for it, clean the box for two hours on Wednesday morning. (He had the same deal with me when I first trained there years ago. Its because I cant afford the fee)  He hasn't seen my text yet but I hope to be able to start tomorrow and experiment for a week or two or three what a life with Cross Fit on top of all the other stuff would feel like. If I cant do it this week I will do it next week. Am scared shitless about this decision but cant wrap my mind around the question if I can manage this  - unless I actually try it out.
4. recovery is also not optional and I will have to develop a stretching routine and include some PT stuff. Maybe: Minimum 1/ week( plus after workouts) To be determined later. 
5. concerning smoking and drinking I will repeat my goals from last challenge and a) track my alcohol, b) have a goal to smoke not more than 24 cigarettes / day. I wasn't consistent enough to lower the number last challenge and will stick to 24 until I do it regularly.
6. finances are looking better since I took on more students. Goal now: Be consistent. Also budget wisely and don't order crap! If Im overwhelmed Im allowed to scale down here though... mental health is most important.
7. writing is probably optional although I really really really want to do it. Will try out some writing goal later this challenge. Maybe find some regular writing times??? 

 

 

I will adjust my goals every week and see how I feel experimenting with the different priorities. Maybe I even surprise myself and manage to do all at once in a reasonable sustainable way??

 

Its  great to start from zero. Hopefully its gonna be as fun as I think it will be!

 

 

 

 

 

[Elastigirl]

Great challenge! I've found that one of the most helpful things about challenges is that writing goals helps me to focus  on what the most important goals and to tame my Ranger brain (somewhat)

[fearless 2.0]

3 minutes ago, Elastigirl said:

Great challenge! I've found that one of the most helpful things about challenges is that writing goals helps me to focus  on what the most important goals and to tame my Ranger brain (somewhat)

thanks, I wish I was clearer right now but am sure that I will be at the end of this ride!

[Salinger]

Hey FL, great to see your new challenge, all of it looks brilliant, im excited to see you work on your goals.  xx

[fearless 2.0]

1 minute ago, Salinger said:

Hey FL, great to see your new challenge, all of it looks brilliant, im excited to see you work on your goals.  xx

thank god that you are around!!!!  

 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Following.

[iatetheyeti]

Following along, of course!

 

Sometimes the only thing we can do is just jump in, keep our eyes and minds open, and figure out what works by doing the thing. Here's hoping for a clearer picture for you by the end of this challenge, and I'm looking forward to seeing you progress along the way  

 

[fearless 2.0]

33 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Following.

[fearless 2.0]

33 minutes ago, iatetheyeti said:

Following along, of course!

 

Sometimes the only thing we can do is just jump in, keep our eyes and minds open, and figure out what works by doing the thing. Here's hoping for a clearer picture for you by the end of this challenge, and I'm looking forward to seeing you progress along the way  

 

[deftona]

Looking forward to seeing you kick that ass! 

[Silkie]

[RES]

Back because I love a good list  

[fearless 2.0]

3 hours ago, RES said:

Back because I love a good list  

it should work like this...

 

 

[fearless 2.0]

4 hours ago, Silkie said:

 

 

    WELCOME!!!!!!

[fearless 2.0]

Because Im crazy like that I got up at 6 and will go to Crossfit class at 8:30. I didnt hear back from the trainer yet, I just know theyre open now. Will get the information I need and I just wanted to practice getting up early and leaving the house. Right now drinking my first coffee... am a bit nervous....

 

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[fearless 2.0]

8 hours ago, deftona said:

Looking forward to seeing you kick that ass! 

like that?

[iatetheyeti]

I'm sure you'll be fine at crossfit, everyone will be used to having different fitness and ability levels in the classes. Enjoy the coffee, then go kick ass

 

[fearless 2.0]

I was there but found the door closed, little did I know that they have changed halls. Texted with my trainer and will go back there tonight. What I learned already: don't go to crossfit with only coffee in your stomach , you will feel like throwing up. So eggs for breakfast now, then teaching and tonight I get to join the class! All very exiting!

 

[iatetheyeti]

4 hours ago, fearless 2.0 said:

What I learned already: don't go to crossfit with only coffee in your stomach , you will feel like throwing up.

 

Heh, I'm the exact opposite there, I can only work out on an empty/coffee filled stomach or else I'll feel like throwing up!

 

[RES]

16 hours ago, fearless 2.0 said:

it should work like this...

 

 

I agree, my wife and I often say the dog should earn her keep a bit better!

 

8 hours ago, iatetheyeti said:

 

Heh, I'm the exact opposite there, I can only work out on an empty/coffee filled stomach or else I'll feel like throwing up!

 

I'm the same way...and actually did when I was doing kickboxing (not my finest hour lol) 

[fearless 2.0]

You guys, Im officially a cross fitter again. Went to class and got special scaled down routines that made it possible for me to attend for a full hour without collapsing. The music was blasting and all the other people were young. I had so much fun! I signed a contract for six months and will clean  the box 4 hours a month so I only have to pay 40 Euro /month. The original price for the box is 150 Euro. So I signed right away. We did a lot of shoulder stuff and also some weightlifting. I thought I wasn't able to lift the bar but the trainer assured me it was fine, and it was! Am super tired and hurting already but my body felt good during class and I know if I move more I will feel better. 

My fitness app went crazy with all the steps done and all the activity. am very happy!

 

I trained at 7:30 without having eaten dinner, my last meal was at 2. Keto worked fine and I had enough energy! I was worried about that because sometimes keto can make you weak if you are not adapted well. I had no problems and still don't feel hungry.

 

wine: 1,5 glasses

cigarettes: on plan

dog walk done

earned enough money today to put something into my savings account

 

will go to bed now, Im dead!

 

but Im a cross fitter again!

 

 

[Xena]

I'm so excited for you!!

[fearless 2.0]

7 am here,

coffee and some thoughts: I hope it was a good decision to already sign the 6 month contract with my crossfit box. Initially I had wanted a test phase but felt so sure about things that I took their great offer right away. My body seems to like it. The soreness is bearable and I feel physically and mentally alive. I hope I get used to 3 more appointments (plus commute) in my week. ( 2x class / 1x cleaning).

 

today I have to

 

vacuum the whole place

teach 2 students

buy a new dog harness

clip dogs nails with the help of a neighbor ( she is frightened and moves a lot )

cook food for 3 days

 

I only slept 5 hours, maybe a nap around noon ???

 

have a great day!  Im off to make coffee nr.2

 

[Salinger]

I think you listened to your instincts... which is great! I cant wait to see your body and mind get stronger. 

 

Busy day for you! Hope it is great, and you get to nap xx

[fearless 2.0]

2 minutes ago, Salinger said:

I think you listened to your instincts... which is great! I cant wait to see your body and mind get stronger. 

 

Busy day for you! Hope it is great, and you get to nap xx

thanks, that helps!