Snarky tries again

[Snarkyfishguts]

The steroids are in full effect! I woke up a LOT last night scratching invisible itches, sweating, and just NEEDING TO MOVE. Yup. Gotta love steroids. SUPER FUN.

 

my mouth is still a little tender but feels a lot better. Back to the challenge today. 
 

 

Dad is awake and singing over his coffee. This is a good sign.

[Snarkyfishguts]

I have two more days of steroids. I think I will return officially after I am done taking them./be safe! 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

6 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I have two more days of steroids. I think I will return officially after I am done taking them./be safe! 

See you again when the 'roid rage wears off.

[Terah]

On 9/17/2020 at 1:34 PM, Snarkyfishguts said:

The steroids are in full effect! I woke up a LOT last night scratching invisible itches, sweating, and just NEEDING TO MOVE. Yup. Gotta love steroids. SUPER FUN.

 

my mouth is still a little tender but feels a lot better. Back to the challenge today. 
 

 

Dad is awake and singing over his coffee. This is a good sign.

Oh no! Sending more ((hugs)) 

 

That is a good sign. Hoping he'll continues to be cheerful today ❤️ 

 

On 9/17/2020 at 2:06 PM, Snarkyfishguts said:

I have two more days of steroids. I think I will return officially after I am done taking them./be safe! 

Good call. Just take care of yourself, and allow yourself to ease back. You're body is going through a lot right now, it needs TLC ❤️ 

[Snarkyfishguts]

On 9/17/2020 at 2:48 PM, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

See you again when the 'roid rage wears off.

grrrrrr 😂

6 hours ago, Terah said:

 

Good call. Just take care of yourself, and allow yourself to ease back. You're body is going through a lot right now, it needs TLC ❤️ 

I didn’t think it was a big deal until I called and asked if it was normal for it to still hurt, and the woman laughed and said “oh yeah! You had a bad infection” 
 

I had a bad reaction to the steroids so I stopped them and will be starting new steroids tomorrow. These ones usually work really well for me so I’m happy with that.. I will be isolated from friends and family while on steroids because of the lowered immunity response, and need to rest and just heal up.

 

Dad is great now. He and mom are talking a lot, and today they went for a drive with the sun roof open and bought beer. He also cooked an omelet and it was delicious. So it’s all good for now, and I just wanted you to know because sometimes I forget to talk about how things end well after troubles 💙💙

 

 

 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

Have an amazing weekend💚

[echoesofwonder]

On 9/18/2020 at 7:38 PM, Snarkyfishguts said:

Have an amazing weekend💚

This has to be the most feel good cartoon series that I never knew existed.  
 

I hope your new steroids are working out well.  
 

And, just for good measure:

[Snarkyfishguts]

19 hours ago, echoesofwonder said:

This has to be the most feel good cartoon series that I never knew existed.  
 

 

i wrote to him last week and told him just how comforting his work has been. He was really touched, and is truly like his characters. 💚💚

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I hope your new steroids are working out well.  
 

And, just for good measure:

so far so good! Thanks for the lucky magic!  I feel better, but I dont sleep much, and every so often my mom just turns to my dad and says “whoa steroids” and I’m like “ ROOOOAAAAAAAAAR WHAT DO YOU MEEAAAAAAN?”   And then I pick up a couch and throw it. Not that last part. 

[Snarkyfishguts]

I saw this thread on Twitter and found it comforting. Its about ten or eleven tweets long, but it talks about hitting this wall that so many of us have seemed to hit this month. It was nice to have someone say “this is normal, and you will feel better again one day”

 

 

[Emma]

Thanks for the thread. I hit that wall a few weeks ago, I think. It did get better.

[Snarkyfishguts]

3 hours ago, Emma said:

Thanks for the thread. I hit that wall a few weeks ago, I think. It did get better.

I’m in the middle. I felt it around the time the challenge began. I’m glad you are feeling better! It’s More data to support the idea! 

[Snarkyfishguts]

 

Y'all...

 

This challenge has unraveled and I'm okay with that? I feel like I started out tripping and never really got my feet under me. And it's been a good personal growth experience to just have everything go wrong and not be able to put a positive spin on it.  No one was mean to me. The world is still turning. Nothing went according to plan and yet nothing horrible has happened as a result. 

 

 

That's not so bad. 

 

 

 

 

 

[WolfDreamer]

On 9/10/2020 at 9:29 AM, Snarkyfishguts said:

I'm not okay right now. I need to do more in my life, and the idea of actually doing any of it makes me want to cry and go back to bed. I'm sad, it's fogging up my worldview, and I need some time (and glitter) to work through it.

 

 

I'm so proud of you for working through this. Let me know if I can help in any way.

[Snarkyfishguts]

1 hour ago, WolfDreamer said:

 

 

I'm so proud of you for working through this. Let me know if I can help in any way.

LOOK AT THESE SQUISHY GHOSTS!

 

I'm feeling better, thanks! I appreciate the squishy ghost love. 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

It's 4am, and I haven't slept for a couple hours because steroids. 

 

 

Also, I'm turning 40 in november. Which is awesome. I love cake. But I keep thinking "When I turn 60, what will I wish I had done in the twenty years between now and then?"  I used to know, I totally had a plan. But now, I'm kinda just unsure and in this uncomfortable transition state. And you think in a transition state, you want to know where your foot is going to land, but I don't know, and I think I need to decide soon before I fall over.

 

I'm going to go work on this right now. I'm not sleeping anyway, and I think I'll feel better after I write it out.  

[deftona]

I'm excited to see what directions you come up with  

[Teros]

For the roid rage

 

11 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

"When I turn 60, what will I wish I had done in the twenty years between now and then?"  I used to know, I totally had a plan. But now, I'm kinda just unsure and in this uncomfortable transition state.

This happens to me at *every* birthday which is why I get super depressed.  Just remember that people follow plans, even if they are horrible and end up screwing up regardless so although there is an unknown factor, it doesn't *really* make much of a difference.  You can have the best laid plans and things can still get massively derailed.

 

 

*hugs*

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Snarkyfishguts]

8 minutes ago, Teros said:

You can have the best laid plans and things can still get massively derailed.

That was the LAST twenty years. The next twenty are going to be awesome. 

 

 

or ELSE (makes punching motions) I'll just deal with those setbacks. Having lived life with a plan and having things go to shit, vs not having plans and things going to shit, it is so much better to have plans.   That's my opinion!

[Snarkyfishguts]

I'm completely done with all medications related to the endodontic procedure from the 15th! 

 

YAY!!!!!!!

 

Mom and I got flu shots today. I was a little concerned about getting a flu shot right after finishing steroids, but I checked online and a lot of health pages were like "You totally can get a flu shot" It's good to get it out of the way. 

 

I haven't made any major life decisions or plans by the way. I have some ideas, but frankly, I'm really tired from not sleeping a lot, and I also wonder if I need a major change in my life, or I just feel like I do because the world is sad and my dad is blind and I'm looking for a distraction.  And then I think "I haven't slept, I can't get too deep in this without wanting to cry face first into a pint of ice cream. 

 

So I will just leave it.... over there... just for a few more days. 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

1 hour ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I have some ideas, but frankly, I'm really tired from not sleeping a lot, and I also wonder if I need a major change in my life, or I just feel like I do because the world is sad and my dad is blind and I'm looking for a distraction.

It's entirely possible both are true and the former is exacerbated by the latter, which is what I suspect.

[Terah]

9 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I'm completely done with all medications related to the endodontic procedure from the 15th! 

Yes!

 

9 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

So I will just leave it.... over there... just for a few more days. 

Good idea. I think your first priority should be getting tons of sleep ❤️ 

[Snarkyfishguts]

10 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

It's entirely possible both are true and the former is exacerbated by the latter, which is what I suspect.

That feels accurate. 💙

 

2 hours ago, Terah said:

Yes!

 

Good idea. I think your first priority should be getting tons of sleep ❤️ 

I slept from 9:45 last night to 7:30 this morning and it was really wonderful. I woke up a couple times “ with a feeling of “is everything okay?” And yes it was okay and I went right back to sleep. ❤️ I am so excited about bedtime tonight. Lol

[Snarkyfishguts]

Weigh day was 254.8. I lost five pounds last week. Part of it was steroids and part of it was a major change in my eating habits. I’m really happy with this. Glitter for everyone!
 

[Terah]

22 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

part of it was a major change in my eating habits

What change dit you make?

[Snarkyfishguts]

31 minutes ago, Terah said:

What change dit you make?

Habit-wise,  I eat sitting down at the table and I eat a LOT slower. I had to eat slow with the tooth pain, and now I just do it. This was a big change for me. I eat a lot less this way, and feel really satisfied at the end of a meal because I wasn’t distracted or just rushing through it. 
 

In regards to what I eat, I am drinking probably twice the water I used to, I was definitely not drinking enough before.  I eat more eggs and dairy because they were soft proteins but now I like them because they are less salty and more filling than eating a sandwich. Half of my diet is fruits and vegetables now.

things I eat less of are cold cuts, sandwiches, and pasta, candy.  and salty snacks. I also have less caffeine and alcohol, just because it didn’t react well with the steroids. I still eat cookies and bread, because I’m not dead  

I figured steroids are an anti-inflammatory and my body reacted pretty well to the second set, so maybe I should be eating in a way that supports reducing inflammation.  But the test is, will I keep losing weight now that I’m not taking steroids? I think so. We’ll find out next Friday!