Salinger's thirty sixth challenge!

[Salinger]

Hey all 4.30pm. UGH what a crappy day so far. 

 

Anxiety about the bike which i know is silly but ive just felt on edge in case i miss delivery again. 

 

So ive slept/dozed on and off all day. Waiting for the knock on the door which never came *sigh*

 

i feel groggy as anything, headache, sad, stressed...

 

I know its still relatively 'early' - but because its pitch black out, it feels like ive wasted the full day. and i hate myself for that. (ooops no self hate talk sorry) 

 

Anyway. I have so much tidying to do, ive literally done zero of my list. Maybe i could do some cleaning. I dont know how to get out of this funk. SO annoying and frustrating. 

 

xx

[Artemis Prime]

Best way I've found to get myself out of that type of funk is to just get up and do something. It's especially hard when you've had a sluggish day and it's dark out, but pick one thing to go do right now. Knowing I've given myself permission to go curl back up on the couch as soon as that thing is done makes it easier for me to get up, but once I'm up and moving I often keep going and get other things done too. And if I don't, at least I got one thing done. It's not a foolproof method, but more often than not it works for me.

[Harriet]

9 minutes ago, Salinger said:

i feel groggy as anything, headache, sad, stressed...

 

Sorry you're going through this. Do you have enough energy for a walk? I've found it to offer pretty good mental health returns on a fairly low energy investment.

[Salinger]

16 minutes ago, Artemis Prime said:

Best way I've found to get myself out of that type of funk is to just get up and do something. It's especially hard when you've had a sluggish day and it's dark out, but pick one thing to go do right now. Knowing I've given myself permission to go curl back up on the couch as soon as that thing is done makes it easier for me to get up, but once I'm up and moving I often keep going and get other things done too. And if I don't, at least I got one thing done. It's not a foolproof method, but more often than not it works for me.

 

Yes, i will try to clean the kitchen. Its good advice, thank you xx

 

12 minutes ago, Harriet said:

 

Sorry you're going through this. Do you have enough energy for a walk? I've found it to offer pretty good mental health returns on a fairly low energy investment.

 

Its dark out now and not the safest area to be walking alone xx

[Rhovaniel]

Hey Sal. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. *hugs* 

[Salinger]

7 minutes ago, Rhovaniel said:

Hey Sal. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. *hugs* 

thank you Rho. Love you. Xx

 

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hey well I fell asleep again. I duno what’s wrong with me!? 
 

am I not sleeping enough at night? 
 

am I lacking in a vitamin?

 

is it my medication?

 

lack of good food?

 

lack of exercise?

 

im exhausted most days and some days I can’t fight it and sleep sleep sleep (like today) 

 

I’ve not done anything so will have to do it tomorrow morning before working. Jeeeeeez 

 

sorry for moaning so much xx

[Rhovaniel]

Some depression/anxiety meds make you drowsy, so it could well be your medication. But it may also be worth a chat to your doctor. Especially if it's been going on for a while. 

[Salinger]

44 minutes ago, Rhovaniel said:

Some depression/anxiety meds make you drowsy, so it could well be your medication. But it may also be worth a chat to your doctor. Especially if it's been going on for a while. 

 

Im scared. I also have some issues (female so will spoiler incase people arent bothered to read HAHA) 

 

Spoiler

Ive always had irregular periods, but the past year or so, Ive pretty much been on my period for the majority of the time.....

 

Some days heavy, some days not, some days nothing at all. 

 

But maybe constant blood loss is having an affect on my exhaustion too.!??

 

Im really scared, because ive convinced myself i have cancer 😢

 

I know thats stupid and i need to go to the doctor. Im building up to it ...

 

Thanks Rho xx

[Rhovaniel]

16 minutes ago, Salinger said:

 

Im scared. I also have some issues (female so will spoiler incase people arent bothered to read HAHA) 

 

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Ive always had irregular periods, but the past year or so, Ive pretty much been on my period for the majority of the time.....

 

Some days heavy, some days not, some days nothing at all. 

 

But maybe constant blood loss is having an affect on my exhaustion too.!??

 

Im really scared, because ive convinced myself i have cancer 😢

 

I know thats stupid and i need to go to the doctor. Im building up to it ...

 

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Sal. Seriously, similar thing happened to me, but usually other way round. I would go months without then an absolute F5, Oh God kill me now, painful red tornado descended for... however long it designed to stay. A week, a month, who knew? Go. To. The. Doctor. Please. May be nothing. Mine was nothing serious, and I'm now more or less regular. But sustained blood loss is a lot more concerning than no blood loss. I will hound you on this. The big C is scary. But you could be scaring yourself over something minor, or an easy fix. Go. 

[Salinger]

5 minutes ago, Rhovaniel said:

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Sal. Seriously, similar thing happened to me, but usually other way round. I would go months without then an absolute F5, Oh God kill me now, painful red tornado descended for... however long it designed to stay. A week, a month, who knew? Go. To. The. Doctor. Please. May be nothing. Mine was nothing serious, and I'm now more or less regular. But sustained blood loss is a lot more concerning than no blood loss. I will hound you on this. The big C is scary. But you could be scaring yourself over something minor, or an easy fix. Go. 

 

I will do, I will contact them tomorrow ❤️ thanks Rho xx

[Rinna]

3 hours ago, Salinger said:

 

I will do, I will contact them tomorrow ❤️ thanks Rho xx

My mom instead of 1 week on, 4 weeks off, would be the opposite, 4 on 1 off (if lucky). Unfortunate splooging episodes out of nowhere.  When they finally offered her a hysterectomy they found that her uterus was inverted/retroverted (something like that) basically folded in half backwards.  My point is, it wasn’t  the giant badness she was afraid of

[Salinger]

Hey morning guys. 5.30am here FRIDAY.... still raining away!

 

Slept quite well last night, even after sleeping most of the day  

 

I NEED to get things done today - mainly as my friend will come over tmoro and I dont want the flat to be a mess...!

 

- Take medication

- Pick up new meds

- Shop for milk, cat food, candles, mince pies (!) 

- Send zine for edits

- Tidy flat (make bed, hoover, sort all the clothes everywhere!)

- Put laundry on!!

- Clean the kitchen (wash dishes, bins out, surfaces)

- 2pm meeting with arts consultant about funding

- Wait in for bike arriving (hopefully) 

- Adjust bike to fit me

- If bike arrives before dark, then go for short ride

- Watch football, relax, read, listen to music. 

 

Mainly stuff i had planned yesterday!! With a meeting added in! 

 

I may go to the studio...in the evening. If i feel like it. Will just see, most of my plans are decided on what time the stupid bike arrives haha i am hoping so much, that it comes this morning, then i can just get on with things for the rest of the day. 

 

Tomorrow, like i mentioned, my friend will arrive. Around 3pm i think, then we have lots of football to watch

 

I am looking forward to chilling out with him, and not doing any work !! 

 

xx

[fearless 2.0]

not doing any work sounds fabulous! YAY!

hope your day goes smoothly!

[Harriet]

11 hours ago, Salinger said:

hey well I fell asleep again. I duno what’s wrong with me!? 
 

am I not sleeping enough at night? 
 

am I lacking in a vitamin?

 

is it my medication?

 

lack of good food?

 

lack of exercise?

 

im exhausted most days and some days I can’t fight it and sleep sleep sleep (like today) 

 

 

There are so many things that cause fatigue. It's a pain going through them all, I know.

 

10 hours ago, Salinger said:

 

Im scared. I also have some issues (female so will spoiler incase people arent bothered to read HAHA) 

 

 

Oh damn, you definitely have to see someone. What if that's what's making you tired and there's a simple fix? You deserve to feel better sooner, not later.

[Salinger]

5 hours ago, fearless 2.0 said:

not doing any work sounds fabulous! YAY!

hope your day goes smoothly!

 

 looking forward to tomorrow for sure xx

 

5 hours ago, Harriet said:

 

There are so many things that cause fatigue. It's a pain going through them all, I know.

 

 

Oh damn, you definitely have to see someone. What if that's what's making you tired and there's a simple fix? You deserve to feel better sooner, not later.

 

Yes you are right, thank you Harriet ❤️ xx

[Salinger]

Hey all.... my bike has arrived!!

 

FINALLY. 

 

The guy was a scouser, and asked if the car outside my house was mine.... i said yes and he said, ' are you an Everton fan?' ( i have a scarf and a dangly Everton thing from the mirror)

 

I laughed and said yes...he said ' nice one!' so i asked if he was too.... he said, ' Yes, if we are from Liverpool, we are either Everton fans, or knobheads' HAHAHAHAHAH

 

Amazing. 

 

I laughed a lot, still chuckling now. 

 

Anyway. Its here. Looks like i need some tools though...to sort the seat and handlebars. My friend Ste has some so ill prob go there on Sunday to sort it. Shame cos it would have been nice to go out on it today but need it to be safe. 

 

Its lovely guys....

 

 

Ignore the boxes behind it, i need to go to the tip, desperately. TODAY. 

 

So now this is here, i can actually do some fucking cleaning. Its 12.45pm, I have a meeting at 2pm - i think ill go to the tip first, get these boxes out of the way...then i can hoover and tidy before the meeting. Then do some more cleaning afterwards. I have another last minute meeting at 5.30 about an exhibition planning thing. Might do that at the studio. but will see how much i manage to get done. Also need to go to the shops and eat something aaaaaghhhhh. 

 

 *Breathe* 

 

Ok better go xx

[Artemis Prime]

Nice looking bike!

[sarakingdom]

7 hours ago, Harriet said:

What if that's what's making you tired

 

It really might be. Women lose a lot of iron under normal circumstances, and I think tiredness is a big symptom of low iron.

[fearless 2.0]

good looking bike! ❤️

[SkyGirl]

16 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

 

It really might be. Women lose a lot of iron under normal circumstances, and I think tiredness is a big symptom of low iron.

 

I was thinking the same thing - mild anemia can make you very tired "for no reason." Always in support of asking a doctor!

 

I LOVE your bike!!  ❤️❤️❤️  I hope you have so many wonderful adventures with it!!

[18ck]

Nice bike. Shiny! You and it will have many adventures together. Thursday sounds pretty grim, so it's good that you got a treat the following day. How did the end of Friday go with the meeting and the eating?

 

I enjoyed reading your description of the delivery. I'm always conscious on here about whether American nerds will understand the British terms (eg the thing about "fags" on Fearless's thread the other day was probably a bit confusing) so I liked that you went full-Anglo there. I wonder what US readers made of all scousers being either Everton fans or knobheads. I bet they don't know that means that all left-handed people are either fans of a certain kind of cheese or they have bad acne. 

 

By the way, I second (or third or fourth) the idea that you definitely need to see a GP.  I can imagine it's a bit daunting but it's best to go. Please, please put that on the list for Monday. 

[Rhovaniel]

Hey Sal.... Have you booked that doctor's appointment yet?

 

If not, WHY NOT?

[Salinger]

Hey guys, you are all great!! Thanks so much for the messages. 

Last night was fine but i had a couple of beers which is silly as I am doing that this eve with my friend...two nights drinking is not good. 

 

Anyway...i have SO MUCH tidying to do  i did nothing yesterday. 

 

My friend will arrive in 3 hours eeeek ...

 

Better get on with it. Be here with more stuff tmoro

 

Rho .... eeeek not yet, and closed the weekend, its on my list to do on Monday ❤️ xx

[shaar]

On 12/11/2020 at 9:42 AM, sarakingdom said:

It really might be. Women lose a lot of iron under normal circumstances, and I think tiredness is a big symptom of low iron.

 

9 hours ago, SkyGirl said:

I was thinking the same thing - mild anemia can make you very tired "for no reason." Always in support of asking a doctor!

 

 

Can confirm - as someone that toes the line of anemia a lot, it can definitely make a difference. My periods are also SUPER heavy since having a copper IUD installed (installed? like a computer part maybe?) and 90% of the time while I literally have the energy of 10 people and am a real life hype master, when all THAT is going on, I notice a definite downturn in my energy reserves...

 

So throwing my rec into the ring of, doctor please. ❤️ 

 

(ALSO your new bike is SO SICK!!!!!)

[Maggie-Miau]

first off *hugs* second off, about the issue for the doctor- that's something somebody in my family deals with too. she hasn't seen a doctor about it, but probably should. chiming in with everyone else to say, please do go get checked out. I know it's scary and unpleasant, but this could be causing your fatigue and, even if it isn't, then the stress from not knowing could contribute just as much. ❤️

 

I hope you have fun with your friend! ❤️