TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted November 30, 2020 Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 Happy Sunday and happy zero week everyone! This challenge is only barely themed and it's not even Star Wars (I know, I'm shocked too). It's named from a quote from a book called "Throne of Glass" by Sarah J. Maas. It really resonates with me because it's such a truth of me. I'm afraid of so many things, so afraid to stand up and be the person I was born to be. But I've slowly started to grow and make choices that are important to me and who I am. During this challenge, I'll be doing This time, I'm going to do the same format as I did for last challenge. A list of "Good Things" that count for a point and a certain amount of points that can be earned. Cooking a Meal - I'm still tired all the time so cooking isn't something I want to do- but it needs doing. Stretching - My back hurts me a lot and also I want to improve my flexibility for dance class. I started getting on this but it's not as good as I'd hope Dance class - I'm going to continue doing this as often as I possibly can! BeatSaber- I absolutely love this game. it's great movement and I need to be ready to beat my friend in January! Eating Mindfully - This one is hard, particularly with all the anxiety. Drinking Water - ya girl hasn't been drinking enough water. Just drink the water! Here are my scores: Good - 84 pts - Average 1 meal cooked a week, 3 stretch days, 2 dance classes a week, 1 mindful meal or snack a day, 1 tall glass of water a day, 1 game of BeatSaber a week Better - 152 pts - Average 2 meals cooked a week, 4 stretch days, 2 dance classes a week, 2 mindful meals or snacks a day, 2 tall glasses of water a day, 2 games of BeatSaber a week Best - 214pts - Average 2-3 meals cooked a week, 5 stretch days, 2 dance classes a week, 3 mindful meals or snacks a day, 3 tall glasses of water a day, 2 games of BeatSaber a week 6 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted November 30, 2020 Author Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 Points Tracking Week 0: 33 Week 1: 40 Week 2: 29 Week 3: 29 Total: 131 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
Tanktimus the Encourager Posted November 30, 2020 Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 Starrattler could totally be a Star Wars character though. 4 Quote Current Challenge "By the Most-Righteous-and-Blessed Beard of Sir Tanktimus the Encourager!" - Jarl Rurik Harrgath Link to comment
SkyGirl Posted November 30, 2020 Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 I'm so down for this!! It's hard to stand up and keep pushing when your body and mind are weary - but I totally believe in you and all the greatness you can unleash!! ❤️ 1 Quote SKY ELVENWORD NOBLEHEART The Silver Archer, Ranger Level 53 Jesus-follower | Writer | Encourager | Resident Myers-Briggs and Enneagram Geek "Knowing that we can be loved exactly as we are gives us all the best opportunity for growing into the healthiest of people." - Fred Rogers Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted November 30, 2020 Author Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 11 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said: Starrattler could totally be a Star Wars character though. You're not wrong haha 10 hours ago, SkyGirl said: I'm so down for this!! It's hard to stand up and keep pushing when your body and mind are weary - but I totally believe in you and all the greatness you can unleash!! ❤️ Thanks friend! I believe in you too ❤️❤️ 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
shaar Posted November 30, 2020 Report Share Posted November 30, 2020 BEATSABER IT'S TIME TO BATTLE!! Heheheh enjoy leveling up and here to see you smash all your goals!! 1 Quote i am not waiting for a hero. i saved myself long ago. Level 58 Bard & Monk of the Furious Heart STR.55 DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65 "Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't. You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair... ...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours." Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 1, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 1, 2020 20 hours ago, shaar said: BEATSABER IT'S TIME TO BATTLE!! Heheheh enjoy leveling up and here to see you smash all your goals!! YESSSSSSSSS Thanks! I love this format, hopefully it will be good to me moving forward! 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
Rurik Harrgath Posted December 1, 2020 Report Share Posted December 1, 2020 I am suddenly a huge fan of this quote. 2 Quote [Level ??] Rurik, the Wayfinder Class: Gloomfall Gunslinger (Artificer/Gunslinger) BRUTALITY 11 | FINESSE 10 | VIGOR 11 | INSIGHT 14 | WILL 13 Equipment: The Alchemist greatcoat armor, Longshot adventuring rifle, Slicer & Dicer dual blades, with adventurer's pack containing an alchemist's kit. "Rangers have to at least give up on pants. It's a special rule we enacted after Rurik became a Guild Leader.” – DarK_RaideR "Did I just get my ass kicked by a member of Metallica meets History Channel's Vikings?" - Wild Wolf "By the Well-Oiled-and-Meticulously-Groomed Beard of Rurik!" - Tanktimus the Encourager Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 2, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 19 hours ago, Rurik Harrgath said: I am suddenly a huge fan of this quote. The book series it's linked to is absolutely amazing if you don't hate fantasy or young adult lit or magic or Fae Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 2, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 Oooooof send help I'm tired. Not a worked out too long tired or a 3 hours of sleep tired. More like a worn down kind of tired that you get from missing just a little bit of sleep a night without catching up, like the kind of tired that happens when your body is constantly on edge looking for danger when there's none to be found. A slow, wearing kind of tired. I'm eating okay, though I'm trying to keep an eye on myself. A lot of my appetite problems are gone so I don't need to go crazy. Sleep is fine, I'm just not going to bed early enough because Mr. Right isn't getting home at reasonable times and I want to at least be in his vicinity for a little while before I have to go to bed. I've even been drinking water. Crazy, huh? And, because I'm slightly dumb, I'm checking with the lady who runs my dance studio to see if she could slide me in tonight 😅 However, ya girl is gonna be going to bed super early tonight because I've gotta get up earlier than normal so I can be ready for a meeting. Ugh. Send help. Even though I've been doing this getting up early thing for a couple of months now, I still haven't gotten beyond almost 3 years of running on my own schedule. So yeah, that's me this zero week. Send help and possibly another cup of coffee. 3 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
Elastigirl Posted December 2, 2020 Report Share Posted December 2, 2020 The dance class may be a good thing even if you are tired. 1 Quote Wisdom 22.5 Dexterity 13 Charisma 15 Strength 21 Constitution-13 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind' Luke 10; 27 Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 3, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 3, 2020 23 hours ago, Elastigirl said: The dance class may be a good thing even if you are tired. Usually, I would agree with you. However I've made mistakes with long term tired where I almost passed out in class and I don't want to repeat that. Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 3, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 3, 2020 Oh ugh what a rough time it's been since my last update. I did not go to dance class, instead I showered and went to bed basically right after Mr. Right got home with the thought that I'd sleep a bit extra and catch up. Oh how wrong I was. I was tired all day, and binged pretty badly around dinner so my stomach was upset. I woke up a couple hours after going to bed to find myself coughing and couldn't stop... so I ended up hurling at 12:30am. For a good fifteen minutes. Along with more random crap that happened around hurling. After hurling and being done there, I brushed my teeth, took a tum, and drank some water to try to get the gross taste out of my mouth. And finally went back to sleep. I woke up a ton in the night too. Like.. I'd dream, wake up, roll over, and then go back to sleep. All night, off and on. Then the dog woke me up an hour or so before my alarm barking. I'm thinking she got herself stuck in a room somewhere - annoying but understandable. No - she just wanted attention. I was NOT HAPPY. But I went back to bed. When I finally got up, the back of my throat still did (and does) burn from puking last night, I'm still mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted, and I had serious anxiety before the meeting I had today. And after tbh. I don't want to eat right now, but I probably need to. I'm so tired of not being able to get my health straight.... 3 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
Elastigirl Posted December 3, 2020 Report Share Posted December 3, 2020 1 hour ago, TheGreyJedi-Ranger said: Usually, I would agree with you. However I've made mistakes with long term tired where I almost passed out in class and I don't want to repeat that. Yeah, that would be bad. I was thinking of the sort of tired where you just want to hibernate, and not go out, but once you do, you feel better 1 Quote Wisdom 22.5 Dexterity 13 Charisma 15 Strength 21 Constitution-13 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind' Luke 10; 27 Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 4, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 4, 2020 21 hours ago, Elastigirl said: Yeah, that would be bad. I was thinking of the sort of tired where you just want to hibernate, and not go out, but once you do, you feel better I miss that kind of tired tbh. I just feel wrecked all the time between allergies and anxiety 2 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 6, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 6, 2020 On 11/29/2020 at 7:43 PM, TheGreyJedi-Ranger said: Points Tracking Week 0: 33 Week 1: Week 2: Week 3: Total: 33 This week was.. tricky. I spent half the week exhausted, I couldn't go to my fitness classes because nothing opened up, and I accidentally forgot to cancel the one Friday when we went to hang out with friends. But yeah, my mental health this week hasn't been ideal. My anxiety has been at a moderate buzz in the back of my mind all week so there was only one day this week where eating wasn't a struggle. This has been super weird for me honestly... Usually one of my bad coping skills for stress and anxiety is binging/overeating. But honestly, I'm struggling to so much as eat 3 small meals. It's even more frustrating because I get moody, cranky, and hangry when I haven't eaten but I just... can't. It also impacts my work performance, though that's gotten better recently in general. I haven't had a lot of extra energy so I haven't been stretching like I should be either. I'm going to make a goal to get back on that this week. However, I did give myself an extra exercise point because I was Christmas shopping for like 6 or 7 hours yesterday. I got almost everything I need for gifts, and I'm figuring out what other things I want/need to grab. I'm so excited, I love Christmas I love decorating my home and having christmassy candles and finding the perfect gifts for someone. If possible, I'm going to start decorating my house today. If not, then tomorrow. 3 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
shaar Posted December 6, 2020 Report Share Posted December 6, 2020 Sorry you haven't been feeling well!! One week at a time, and yes, CHRISTMASTIIIIIME Quote i am not waiting for a hero. i saved myself long ago. Level 58 Bard & Monk of the Furious Heart STR.55 DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65 "Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't. You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair... ...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours." Link to comment
mkdutch Posted December 6, 2020 Report Share Posted December 6, 2020 I definitely feel you on the low energy/mental health front, but keep up the awesome work. Also kudos on 6-7 hours of christmas shopping. I hope marking things off your list has eased some anxiety. Quote Race: Tiefling Class: Assassin [Level: 2 | STR 3 | DEX 2 | STA 2 | CON 2 | WIS 1 | CHA 2 ] I don't want to be skinny. I want to be dangerous. Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 7, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 7, 2020 20 hours ago, shaar said: Sorry you haven't been feeling well!! One week at a time, and yes, CHRISTMASTIIIIIME It is what it is. I have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday so I'm really ready for that. Hopefully there will be answers or some form of help for everything. I love it I need to tidy up my front room to be able to get my christmas tree in there so that'll be this evening's task I think. 18 hours ago, mkdutch said: I definitely feel you on the low energy/mental health front, but keep up the awesome work. Also kudos on 6-7 hours of christmas shopping. I hope marking things off your list has eased some anxiety. It's been rough recently. IDK if it's the weather or the stuff I've got going on at home or what. It was just a fun time I enjoyed marking folks off my list, but I extra enjoyed the Christmas decor everywhere and the fun of picking out gifts that I thought people would like 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 7, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 7, 2020 Ooooof It's been a rough day and a half. Lots of drama and stress that kick started my anxiety again, and it made it hard to sleep last night. So I'm running on half dead with the added challenge of a very grey day that adds to lethargy. Luckily most of my 'todos' are work related and once work is done in.... 2.5 hours I don't have much else to do. The only things I'm planning to do tonight are get my workout in with the online dance class I have access to for 24 hours, and clean out the upper room in my house where I'm going to put the Christmas tree. Maybe I'll put up my non-tree decorations if I get a burst of energy or excitement from somewhere. I'm also planning on going to bed somewhat early today. But I've got today, tomorrow, and half of Wednesday and then my doctor's appointment happens! Fingers crossed we can come up with a plan to help both my severe allergies and the anxiety 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 8, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 8, 2020 Tired, lethargic, and blah today. Ready for doc appt tomorrow. Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 8, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 8, 2020 Okay, it's been a bit. I've gotten some coffee in my system, and I can now process my life. First off, I threw my back out a little bit yesterday >_> I don't do much moving (though I'm working on that) and I haven't been able to go to a cardio heavy dance fitness class in quite a few weeks (because booked schedules both for me and for the studio). So I did a standard hour long class online, which she does most days and the link lasts 24 hours (so I didn't have to get up to dance at 6am). Then I cleaned up the room in my house where my Christmas Tree will live. It's a bit of a catch all room. Stuff we haven't unpacked in the year or more we've lived here, stuff that needs to go to goodwill, stuff for the attic, my keyboard, a cedar chest, a dresser with two snake terrariums on it.... plus the Christmas stuff that never got put up last year >_> So all that within a couple of hours kinda wrecked me. That wasn't ideal but whatever. I feel better today. Sleeping was much better, though I did wake up exhausted again, as well as feeling gross. I elected to sleep for another hour to try and feel a little bit better. It helped somewhat, though nowhere near as much as I'd hoped. I'm trying to figure out if the doctor I'm supposed to visit tomorrow is in network. Since I'm not the policy owner (and neither is my husband), I'm reliant on my dad to check all of this. And he only just did so today, which isn't ideal. We're not 100% sure if the doctor is in network, so my dad and I are going back and forth with trying to 1) figure out the tool and 2) make sure we're finding the right location. It's mild chaos and moderately terrifying. I can't afford to go to the doc if I'm paying out of pocket but I absolutely have to get to the doctor. My anxiety and allergies mixed together are debilitating at this point. As stupid as that sounds >_> Between being so congested my stomach is upset, not being able to smell or half breathe, coughing and sneezing everywhere, incessant exhaustion, randomly triggered panic attacks of all kinds, severely impaired appetite, and just in general feeling like a guitar string tuned waaaaaaay too high. (update, there was a small error made with the distance from my zip code. crisis averted) I'm extremely ready for this appointment though. I need to do something. This isn't sustainable. I'm barely functional. I think it's only working because it's the holidays and everyone is more chill right now. I probably won't update tomorrow, if I do it'll be late in the evening with info about my appointment. Otherwise I'll just wait until Thursday. 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 10, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 10, 2020 Yesterday was an interesting day. Work was a bit of a dumpster fire, but I got to leave early. However, the consequence of leaving in the middle of the dumpster fire was HELLA anxiety when I got home from my doctor's appointment and outing. I was stressed a lot about leaving in the middle of a mess thinking I was coming back into a mess. But it doesn't seem to have been too bad so far. Not sure. I'm tuned really tight still so everything is messing with me. I am back on my anti-anxiety/depression meds. Unfortunately it'll take a while for everything to start to build up in my body, so I'm continuing to wing it until that starts to help. And fighting the anxiety trying to tell me that the meds aren't going to help. So far, today has not been ideal. But hopefully things will get better as the day goes on. 1 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted December 11, 2020 Author Report Share Posted December 11, 2020 GUYS GUYS GUYS. My body managed to subconsciously throw off a panic attack today???? Like holy cow. I think my meds are finally starting to work. Though I dunno what it says about my serotonin levels that two doses of an SSRI has enough accumulation for it to actually make a difference >_> I don't care though, I feel like a person!! I have motivation!! I want to live my life instead of curl up in a ball!! 2 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi Becomes A Hero Vol VII: Jedi Keeps Pushing Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56, #57, #58, #59, #60, Link to comment
Tanktimus the Encourager Posted December 12, 2020 Report Share Posted December 12, 2020 That sounds awesome! So glad the meds are starting to work! 1 Quote Current Challenge "By the Most-Righteous-and-Blessed Beard of Sir Tanktimus the Encourager!" - Jarl Rurik Harrgath Link to comment
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