Heidi: Leap of Faith

[mkdutch]

2 hours ago, Heidi said:

Food today: 

2 c brown rice cooked in broth with an extra dollop of  olive oil, then seasoned with rosemary-oregano-salt-pepper and red wine vinegar. Milk of course. And I have a bowl of raw almonds nearby for snacking (it really needs some black mission figs but this is enough for now).

 

I see a kale salad in my future. Edit: probably after a post-meditation nap

That sounds delicious!

[Rurik Harrgath]

6 hours ago, Scaly Freak said:

I don't think it made them utter morons, so much as enhanced blind spots and warped thinking that was already there. People's true nature reveals itself in times of high pressure/stress... someone who is naturally unselfish and generous becomes more so, while an inherently selfish person justifies becoming more selfish.  The pandemic has been going on for so long that these behaviors that normally are brief and temporary, have cemented themselves and people now are more extreme version of themselves. Ora truer version of themselves.

 

That would be me. 

 

You said it way better than I ever could have.  Nailed it in one! 

 

And ditto.

 

6 hours ago, Heidi said:

What ho, does my tribe have a name?

🙂 Have you guys read Name of the Wind? I'm basically the acquisitions librarian from that story.

 

I'm pretty ambiverted usually, but fall on *NTP scales lately .  All of my favorite swashbucklers are regularly typecasted as ENTP.

 

#SwashbucklersAnonymous

 

Having said that little about Rothfuss' universe, I now know you better than I ever could have otherwise 🤣

 

3 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

If there's a verb for paladins the way swashbuckling goes with pirates I'm a [present participle of that verb] Introvert.

 

Definitely smiting, but who says a Paladin can't have some swag?   

[DarK_RaideR]

Already on page 2? Mentions of "people being extreme versions of themselves" and "wrestling with the questions"? I'm almost ashamed it took me this long to show up.

 

Hello friend. Bracing myself for the eventual blasting of the doors.

[darkfoxx]

💯 Swiping that loose recipe. *yoink*

[Heidi]

16 hours ago, Rurik Harrgath said:

Having said that little about Rothfuss' universe, I now know you better than I ever could have otherwise 🤣

One family, Friend.

❣️

8 hours ago, DarK_RaideR said:

Already on page 2? Mentions of "people being extreme versions of themselves" and "wrestling with the questions"? I'm almost ashamed it took me this long to show up.

 

Hello friend. Bracing myself for the eventual blasting of the doors.

Welcome, Dear Ranger.

Grab a seat by the hearth and pour yourself some tea.

33 minutes ago, darkfoxx said:

💯 Swiping that loose recipe. *yoink*

Happy to share! 

All my recipes are very loose these days as I build in the flexibility for the "didn't expect to be flattened by my TBI, but here we are" factor.

[Heidi]

Definitely going to need to re-read Name of the Wind. It's calling me.

[Heidi]

17 hours ago, Rurik Harrgath said:

 

I'm pretty ambiverted usually, but fall on *NTP scales lately .  All of my favorite swashbucklers are regularly typecasted as ENTP.

Well met! I'm an INTP, but I was raised by militant extroverts, so I definitely did the role as needed. Also, I'm pretty great at working a room ("when she swept a room it stayed swept". Pratchett describing Commander Vimes' wife, I forget which book. Though honestly I'm more Susan than any of the other DiscWorld characters.)

 

Already an ice-blue introvert, my social reluctance is deepening, and I'm not certain if this is a good thing.

 

[Heidi]

Today's no-muss no-fuss recipe:

A sweet potato in a small baker in the toaster oven, 425 for 45 minutes (which meant that I needed to reset the timer at 15 minutes, because the max value is 30 minutes). Just a naked sweet potato, pierced for steam to escape. Savory option: put a head of garlic in the baker beside the potato for roasting, and add a rosemary stalk from the garden.

 

I put the kettle to boil before setting up the potato; when I was done with the toaster oven, the kettle was ready to pour. I did Duolingo for fifteen minutes and then reset the toaster oven and poured a mug of tea.

 

Bonus: if I had fallen asleep after tea, the toaster oven shuts off and then the potato can sit in the stoneware baker until I'm a human again.

 

Remove potato from baker to a bowl (it's hot!) and cut open to put butter (I use lots) or Olive oil. Sprinkle with salt-pepper and add rosemary and garlic if desired. Cover the bowl with a tea towel to trap the warmth while the butter melts for a couple minutes while you microwave a some leftover rice.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

38 minutes ago, Heidi said:

Remove potato from baker to a bowl (it's hot!) and cut open to put butter (I use lots)

There are two acceptable measurements for butter. Lots is one of them. The other is "more."

[Rurik Harrgath]

3 hours ago, Heidi said:

Well met! I'm an INTP, but I was raised by militant extroverts, so I definitely did the role as needed. Also, I'm pretty great at working a room ("when she swept a room it stayed swept". Pratchett describing Commander Vimes' wife, I forget which book. Though honestly I'm more Susan than any of the other DiscWorld characters.)

 

Already an ice-blue introvert, my social reluctance is deepening, and I'm not certain if this is a good thing.

 

Militancy is enough to turn one off just about anything and send them hurtling down the opposite direction 🤣 but you're anything but dysfunctional if you're still adept at working a room.  After the year we've had, I can absolutely feel my social reluctance deepening too... when I said I'm something akin to a "swashbuckling introvert," the swashbuckling part refers more to an ability to be outgoing,rather than a desire to be hahaha

[Renate]

On 12/6/2020 at 7:44 PM, Rurik Harrgath said:

Yesterday I found the term "swashbuckling introvert" for folks who can be rowdy and outgoing at times, then retreat into their shell in an instant.  It really resonated.

 

It does. Resonate. Very much so.

 

On 12/6/2020 at 8:42 PM, Heidi said:

 

What ho, does my tribe have a name?

🙂 Have you guys read Name of the Wind? I'm basically the acquisitions librarian from that story.

 

 

No but this sounds intriguing!

 

***

 

IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO FOLLOW.

 

I am here for this. Let's blow open some doors.

[Renate]

12 hours ago, DarK_RaideR said:

I'm almost ashamed it took me this long to show up.

QFT.

 

[Heidi]

4 hours ago, Aθena said:

 

It does. Resonate. Very much so.

 

 

 

No but this sounds intriguing!

 

***

 

IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO FOLLOW.

 

I am here for this. Let's blow open some doors.

Welcome!

I'm probably going to reread Name of the Wind this challenge (I rarely reread books) -- join me if you'd like. 🙂

[Renate]

I am fortunate that I am raised by a nice mix of personalities. I used to fall well within the introvert scale, but it turned out that was because I was just generally tired of people and felt alienated and did not know how to get out of that state.

 

Since I got out of my shell, and see reason to have my voice heard, I score as an almost 50/50 ambivert.

 

I distinctly remember there being a point in my teenage years where I went "Alright. I need to learn how other people express what is in my brain. Surely, my experiences are ultimately human..."

 

Edit: 🧝‍♀️🤖👽??! 

 

I still feel like a big weirdo most of the time IRL, fortunately I can hang out here and learn how to be better at being one

 

[Renate]

10 minutes ago, Aθena said:

still feel like a big weirdo most of the time IRL, fortunately I can hang out here and learn how to be better at being one

 

And by this I am referring to, me being afraid that changing the system from within is impossible, and I am bound to become what I never wanted to be (as my previous extra dramatic phrased it),

 

but it seems that my specific assassiny-druidy qualities are allowing me to do so, well maybe not so ground-breaking as my hero complex wants it to be, but little bits. Here and there. Muahahah

 

EDIT: Did I mention I was in the mood for blowing out doors 💥

 

Ahhh, you got me excited. I am going to look up Name of the Wind now

[Heidi]

4 hours ago, Aθena said:

Ahhh, you got me excited. I am going to look up Name of the Wind now

Yay!

[Heidi]

We had some snow this morning, then rain. It's windy and cold.

 

This afternoon around 1 I was hit by an extreme bout of dizziness with pressure in my head and confusion, but thankfully no pain. I rescheduled the vet appointments for the dog and talked with my neurologist, and then meditated and took a nap, with an alarm set to get up for the monthly session with my ex. I was still dragging, but mostly restored as I out myself together and ventured forth into the dark to meet him at the therapist's office.

I hate these, honestly, but they have to be done. Rescheduling didn't seem wise since it took a dozen emails over the better part of a week to set this time, and my ex was uncooperative.

 

When I got there, the office was dark and the door was locked. I double checked the email about the time and date then sent an email to them both asking what the plan was. I texted the ex who said he was waiting in his car in the parking lot across the street.

 

After 30 minutes waiting in a car in the dark in literally freezing weather, I gave up and went home. What a farce.

 

At home, I set up a loaf of whole wheat bread and added a dollop of molasses -- dark times call for dark foods. 🍞

 

I finished watching "Sharp Objects," and I highly recommend it. Given my upbringing, I had some inklings early on, and that kind of disturbs me in retrospect, but it all helps me make the Memoir better.

 

Rest well, Friends.

May you have warmth and cheer tonight.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

As frustrating as sitting in the cold and dark was I'm glad you didn't have an ex-session after your dizziness bout. 

[Heidi]

1 hour ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

As frustrating as sitting in the cold and dark was I'm glad you didn't have an ex-session after your dizziness bout. 

Agreed.

And -- bonus -- I get all the brownie points for showing up and being the one to communicate.

The universe loves me and wants me to be happy.

[Heidi]

Things got a little exuberant with the molasses Bread 

Still yummy though.

The crust had to come off as part of the extraction process, but that's just the perfect reason to dive into it with butter (lots) and blackcurrant preserves.

 

 

[Scaly Freak]

5 minutes ago, Heidi said:

Agreed.

And -- bonus -- I get all the brownie points for showing up and being the one to communicate.

The universe loves me and wants me to be happy.

 

As proven by the fact it gave you fresh bread with butter, and that beautiful tea mug. 

 

I'm glad you were given a break after the dizzy episode, and didn't have to deal with that appointment on top of everything else.

[Red1263]

Hey hey! I'm here to see the blowing up of doors and to root for you!

[Renate]

💞

 

Good girls may not get the corner offices, but we sure do win at life in other, more important ways. Except if you want a corner office. I don't really care where one is being awesome in a building. Aaand I am overthinking this analogy.

 

Also, I have not read that book and I am not sure whether I agree with what they mean by 'good'.

 

 

[Harriet]

On 12/8/2020 at 12:51 AM, Heidi said:

We had some snow this morning, then rain. It's windy and cold.

 

This afternoon around 1 I was hit by an extreme bout of dizziness with pressure in my head and confusion, but thankfully no pain. I rescheduled the vet appointments for the dog and talked with my neurologist, and then meditated and took a nap, with an alarm set to get up for the monthly session with my ex. I was still dragging, but mostly restored as I out myself together and ventured forth into the dark to meet him at the therapist's office.

I hate these, honestly, but they have to be done. Rescheduling didn't seem wise since it took a dozen emails over the better part of a week to set this time, and my ex was uncooperative.

 

Oh no, you have to have sessions with your ex? That does not sound like fun. Though in fact the scheduling sounds almost worst.

 

On 12/8/2020 at 4:08 AM, Heidi said:

Things got a little exuberant with the molasses Bread 

Still yummy though.

The crust had to come off as part of the extraction process, but that's just the perfect reason to dive into it with butter (lots) and blackcurrant preserves.

 

When scrolling down, upon seeing just the top of the photo of the bread, I thought it was a desert landscape. I am tempted to paint it.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

4 hours ago, Harriet said:

When scrolling down, upon seeing just the top of the photo of the bread, I thought it was a desert landscape. I am tempted to paint it.

Wouldn't painting the bread render it inedible?