Fonzico shakes it off (shake it off)

[Fonzico]

On 1/4/2021 at 8:44 AM, RhiaWolfe said:

Stardew Valley is so much fun! All about gaming! 

 

Sounds like you had a good NYE! Welcome to the new year! We got this!

 

Good for you for finishing your readings! Woot! Let's tackle this week and make it work for us. Here's to getting back to a routine!!!

 

Yes! I'm so ready to shake off the old and embrace the new, and crush my goals!

 

5 hours ago, Emerald Eagle said:

Yay for readings getting done! And also your walk in the sunshine sounds lovely. Despite it being summer here we've had cold over cast days all week. 

Apparently we're in for a brutal deep freeze in February, so I'll take all the "almost not freezing" walks I can get before then! 

 

At least... You're not on fire??

[RhiaWolfe]

56 minutes ago, Fonzico said:

 

Apparently we're in for a brutal deep freeze in February, so I'll take all the "almost not freezing" walks I can get before then! 

 

I walk outside when I can. When I can't I just do laps around the warehouse at work. The concrete floor isn't great for my knees and back though. 

[Fonzico]

Week One Day One and Two:

 

Solid start to the challenge. 

 

Carbs:

D1: 38.9g (okay that was a bit high. Shark week = ravenous. Calories were also insane. But I did track!)

D2: 30.5g much better! 

 

Workout: 

D2: 23 minutes! Did NF yoga Water A again. It sucked less than last time. 

 

Class:

Nothing yet, but I AM going to do some reading tonight. Pinkie swear. 

 

Overall, I'm feeling good. I'm less bloated today (which is actually surprising, considering the quantities of cabbage and cauliflower ingested yesterday) and my body is already feeling better from getting some physical activity in! 

 

I still need to go to physio for my arm (I jammed it against the wall to stop myself from falling down the stairs a couple months ago - see this is what I mean about being injury-prone! Arm, foot and finger are all at least a little messed up. That's too many!) But the yoga is helping it a bit. I can almost raise it above my head when it's straight out to the side. And the first time I did yoga last week, I couldn't hold it level for Warrior, and I could yesterday! So that's cool. 

 

 

Today's "crush it" list: 

Go to post office and mail hat order (or get DH to do it, as he's not working today). 

Read a chapter. 

Walk dogs once more.

Make fajita bowls for supper. Yum. 

[RhiaWolfe]

1 hour ago, Fonzico said:

 

I still need to go to physio for my arm (I jammed it against the wall to stop myself from falling down the stairs a couple months ago - see this is what I mean about being injury-prone! Arm, foot and finger are all at least a little messed up. That's too many!) But the yoga is helping it a bit. I can almost raise it above my head when it's straight out to the side. And the first time I did yoga last week, I couldn't hold it level for Warrior, and I could yesterday! So that's cool. 

 

Ouch! That sucks! It's good that you seem to be seeing improvements on your arm though! 

 

1 hour ago, Fonzico said:

 

Today's "crush it" list: 

Go to post office and mail hat order (or get DH to do it, as he's not working today). 

Read a chapter. 

Walk dogs once more.

Make fajita bowls for supper. Yum. 

 

Sounds like a good list. Also... fajita bowls... mmmm... yummy. 

[Fonzico]

8 hours ago, RhiaWolfe said:

 

Sounds like a good list. Also... fajita bowls... mmmm... yummy. 

[Emerald Eagle]

Oh my gosh that looks AMAZING! 

 

18 hours ago, Fonzico said:

At least... You're not on fire??

 

This is very true! *touch wood* the milder weather means this is much less likely this year. 

[Fonzico]

22 hours ago, Fonzico said:

Today's "crush it" list: 

Go to post office and mail hat order (or get DH to do it, as he's not working today). 

Read a chapter. 

Walk dogs once more.

Make fajita bowls for supper. Yum. 

Quoting myself to say that I DID crush that entire list! (Yes, you heard me, all Four things 😂)

I was tempted to not do items 2 and 3 though, so it really is a victory. I actually came here to check on what I had declared ("did I say I would read a whole chapter? Or just get some reading done? Damn, whole chapter, okay fine") and was like "oh crap, I forgot about the dogs!"

 

So we went for an 8 o'clock, very dark neighborhood wander. It was still pretty nice out, so it was good. And it helped me get my steps up to a reasonable level, so there. 

 

And then I finished my puzzle! Which I am realizing is a genuinely good way to relax. You have to concentrate hard enough that it empties your mind of other nonsense, it's basically meditation. I think I'll return this and get another one! 

 

 

Riding this productivity and healthiness train as far as it will take me! And like I said on @RhiaWolfe 's thread - build some habits so the good stuff will come without thinking about it once the super motivation wears off. 

[Elastigirl]

That's a good point on puzzles. I run out of patience with them though usually.maybe I should try some 100 piece puzzles.. Yay for rocking your day

[RhiaWolfe]

22 hours ago, Fonzico said:

Quoting myself to say that I DID crush that entire list! (Yes, you heard me, all Four things 😂)

I was tempted to not do items 2 and 3 though, so it really is a victory. I actually came here to check on what I had declared ("did I say I would read a whole chapter? Or just get some reading done? Damn, whole chapter, okay fine") and was like "oh crap, I forgot about the dogs!"

 

 

 

 

So proud of you, girl! Hell yeah!!!!!! A+++++++++++++

 

22 hours ago, Fonzico said:

And then I finished my puzzle! Which I am realizing is a genuinely good way to relax. You have to concentrate hard enough that it empties your mind of other nonsense, it's basically meditation. I think I'll return this and get another one! 

 

 

I LOVE jigsaw puzzles. I just don't have a good place to do them at my house. I have a coffee table, but staying haunched over it for hours hurts my back, so I don't work on puzzles too often. I do need to work on a Zelda one and a Harry Potter one I got. 

 

Also, that fajita bowl looks AMAZEBALLS!!!! So much yum!

[Fonzico]

3 hours ago, RhiaWolfe said:

 

 

 

So proud of you, girl! Hell yeah!!!!!! A+++++++++++++

 

 

I LOVE jigsaw puzzles. I just don't have a good place to do them at my house. I have a coffee table, but staying haunched over it for hours hurts my back, so I don't work on puzzles too often. I do need to work on a Zelda one and a Harry Potter one I got. 

 

Also, that fajita bowl looks AMAZEBALLS!!!! So much yum!

Thank you!! It felt so good to check off all those things! 

 

 

True story, my puzzle table is just one of those folding plastic ones, with a table cloth on it! I know what you mean though, even on the table it's a bit hard on my back. 

I was worried my cat would think it was a big toy, but while she does like to walk over it, she hasn't absconded with any pieces yet haha

[Fonzico]

Week One Days Three and Four: 

 

Carbs: 19g and 22g respectively <-- heck yes, go me. 

 

Workout: nothing new to report.

 

Classwork: 1 Chapter read

 

 

Yesterday was pretty chill. I did take the dogs on a 2nd, decently long walk on my lunch break. 

Dinner was shrimp skillet with lots and lots of veggies and a caesar salad: 

 

And then I was super tired so I went to bed at 8 and was out by 830! 

 

 

Plan for today is to do some more yoga on my lunch break. 

Get the dogs out again. 

Supper is still undecided. I might do grilled cheese and tomato soup using some of the keto bread I found the other day. But I'll need some protein at some point too. There's also still some leftovers from dinner yesterday, but not enough for both of us. 

 

I'm caught up on classwork now, so my goal for the weekend is going to be working on our side hustle. The website needs updating, I have year end financial stuff to do, and we really need to do a stock order (but I don't want to spend the money because we just bought a brand new $2700 plotter!! Which is super exciting and is going to make our lives so much better - we bought our current machine when we first started SEVEN years ago, and it's a super cheap Chinese model with zero support or ability to get new parts for. It also is starting to just not work sometimes, and even when it does work, it's imperfect. So the new machine should dramatically cut down our time to complete jobs!)

 

Gah! Anyways. I know this business has the capacity to succeed, but I do need to be more consistent about putting the effort in. 

[Emerald Eagle]

Your dinner looks delicious! And yay for smashing To Do Lists and being productive.

 

I like puzzles when doing them with other people. Growing up over summer we would always have a puzzle on the go in our house that we'd slowly chip away at. It's not the same on your own when you're just staring at the same pieces for ages and don't feel like you're making progress. 

[RhiaWolfe]

I'm glad your cat hasn't taken more of an interest in the puzzle pieces. That could definitely be an issue. 

 

That shrimp skillet looks amazing! YUM! 

 

Good job on catching up with your classwork! That's awesome and can be difficult to do! 

What is your business? What do you use a plotter for? 

[Fonzico]

5 hours ago, RhiaWolfe said:

I'm glad your cat hasn't taken more of an interest in the puzzle pieces. That could definitely be an issue. 

 

That shrimp skillet looks amazing! YUM! 

 

Good job on catching up with your classwork! That's awesome and can be difficult to do! 

What is your business? What do you use a plotter for? 

We have a little t-shirt/sign/decal business, so it's a vinyl cutter. 

Lately we've been focusing on being a disc golf apparel brand, because we love to play disc golf and there's not really too many people doing that kind of thing right now. 

We have a website at www.treelinedga.ca (not self-promoting in any way, as we do not ship outside of Canada! Just if you're interested in seeing what we do!)

 

Like I said, there's capacity for a lot of success, but I have been super inconsistent about putting the effort in. But we've got to pay off this equipment now, so it needs to happen! 

 

 

 

[Fonzico]

So this weekend was basically a write-off. Friday was a stressful day at work, and I was feeling anxious about returning to work (physically) on Monday, and I did not deal with those emotions healthily at all. 

 

= Too much alcohol, off-plan foods, zero productively, hangover protocols on Sunday. 

 

Etc. 

 

Friday's carbs were ok, but Saturday and Sunday were both over. 

 

 

Week One Recap: 

 

Carbs: met my goal (under 30g) 4/7 days. 

Workout: 51 minutes (goal was 25) 

Class work: Read one chapter (met goal)

 

Overall still a decent week. I don't love how I handled myself (and my anxiety over life, the universe and everything) over the weekend, but I'm not letting it derail me. 

 

 

Being back at work today has not been as awful as anticipated (tell that to borderline panic-attack Fonzico on the way in this morning - I almost hit a deer, which shocked me out of it and was the only reason I didn't show up with mascara trails down my face). 

There are way fewer students on campus than we were told to anticipate and we're nice and spaced out within the office. 

 

I have to work at the front counter for service delivery reasons (we have big plexiglass shields up though, with just a little slot to pass papers), but I still HAVE an office, so I have a quiet, private space to go for breaks, which I appreciate - most of my co-workers don't have that, and will have to use the staff room or another semi-pubic area or leave campus I suppose. 

Hey, looks like there was a benefit to my crippling anxiety spells from the fall before last, since it resulted in me getting moved into this space! 

 

 

Today is still just about getting through the day - I won't put too much more on myself. It's been exhausting already.

Tomorrow we'll start thinking about how we'll meet this week's goals. 

[DarK_RaideR]

Ugh, I can relate to a nasty weekend derailing a working week's worth of progress. Good job on being aware on what caused it though, and not letting it derail you.

[Emerald Eagle]

I'm sorry you were stressed an anxious but it sounds like you have some strategies to get through it as best you can. Continue to let us know how you're going. We can (virtually) cheer you on or commiserate with you, whatever you need.

[RhiaWolfe]

18 hours ago, Fonzico said:

We have a little t-shirt/sign/decal business, so it's a vinyl cutter. 

Lately we've been focusing on being a disc golf apparel brand, because we love to play disc golf and there's not really too many people doing that kind of thing right now. 

We have a website at www.treelinedga.ca (not self-promoting in any way, as we do not ship outside of Canada! Just if you're interested in seeing what we do!)

 

Like I said, there's capacity for a lot of success, but I have been super inconsistent about putting the effort in. But we've got to pay off this equipment now, so it needs to happen! 

 

 

Oh, that's cool! I hope your business venture pays off! ❤️

 

17 hours ago, Fonzico said:

 

Overall still a decent week. I don't love how I handled myself (and my anxiety over life, the universe and everything) over the weekend, but I'm not letting it derail me. 

 

 

Oh man, that sounds rough. I'm glad you're self-aware enough to know what happened, what caused the problem, and are not letting it completely derail you. It's time to regroup and carry on. Let us know if there's anything more we can do to help and support you.

 

 

 

Being back at work is stressful, I'm sure. I haven't been able to work from home so I've been at work during the whole pandemic. It's a little nerve wracking if you focus too much on the fear of the pandemic. Just do your best and try to let go of some of that anxiety. Once you fall into a steady routine at work, hopefully it'll be a little less stressful. 

 

 

[Fonzico]

Well, safe to say this hasn't been the best week ever. 

 

My challenge goals have not been met at all so far. 

Work has been okay, but it's still just much more tiring that WFH, and I've been out of energy and willpower by the time I get home. 

 

But I'm really trying to be kind to myself and I AM still trying to make good decisions even if I'm not always succeeding. But I'm not making the worst decisions all the time, and that's a good thing.  If ever I needed a week of low expectations, this is it. 

And that's hard to accept, but it's true. 

 

I really wanted "cutting myself some slack" to mean going out for a non-keto lunch today, but I managed to talk myself down - I've already eaten out for lunch twice this week (chicken strips and salad one day, and a grilled chicken avocado salad yesterday, so not actual the worst). 

But I did bring lunch, even if it was boring, and also my budget can't really handle too much more of that, so instead I'm eating my chicken and veggie soup and string cheese and pouting. 

 

I'm still determined that I'll get a workout in and a chapter read, even if it means doing it on the weekend. I'm strongly hoping that a nice sleep-in on Saturday will make me whole.

[Emerald Eagle]

I have always found walking the line between giving myself grace and not letting myself get away with self-sabotage so I definitely know where you are right now. Well done on eating your prepped lunch! I hope you get the rest this weekend to recharge and achieve the things you want. 

[RhiaWolfe]

Damage control when you're having a rough time is still a win. You're managing not to let yourself slide too far from your goals. You're still fighting and you WILL come out on top. 

 

You got this, Fonz. Way to go on saying no to eating out, even if your lunch is "boring". 

 

Let me know if I can help at all, even if it's just an ear to vent to. Feel free to HMU in DMs anytime. 

[Fonzico]

On 1/14/2021 at 8:47 PM, Emerald Eagle said:

I have always found walking the line between giving myself grace and not letting myself get away with self-sabotage so I definitely know where you are right now. Well done on eating your prepped lunch! I hope you get the rest this weekend to recharge and achieve the things you want. 

Ughhhhh it's SO HARD to walk that line! Hence why I make so much progress when I'm just being insanely strict, but of course it's not sustainable. 

On 1/15/2021 at 8:18 AM, RhiaWolfe said:

Damage control when you're having a rough time is still a win. You're managing not to let yourself slide too far from your goals. You're still fighting and you WILL come out on top. 

 

You got this, Fonz. Way to go on saying no to eating out, even if your lunch is "boring". 

 

Let me know if I can help at all, even if it's just an ear to vent to. Feel free to HMU in DMs anytime. 

Thanks Rhia - it never occurs to me to ask for help in the moment! But I would totally be in for being accountabilibuddies if you're down with that!

[Fonzico]

Well, I made it to the weekend! So that's nice. And I did get a bit of a sleep in this morning (8am instead of 630) and it was lovely. And perhaps even better is nursing my coffee for over an hour! 

 

Yesterday involved sushi for lunch (zero regrets), way too many carbs over all and a fair amount of alcohol. 

And I enjoyed it all, and didn't actually binge, so, you know, still better than it might have been. 

 

 

My to-do list for the weekend is a bit uncomfortably long, but I'll just do my best without exhausting myself and what gets done, gets done. 

 

I do get a long weekend next weekend - I'm writing my mid term on Friday, and I have that whole day off. Obviously it will mostly be taken up by studying and writing, but still, at least it isn't work. 

 

After next week, my extra hours contact ends, so I'm back down to 31.5 hours per week. The good news of that is that we're not going back to the old schedule (which was just slightly shortened days) - starting the first week of February, I'll get every other Wednesday off. So much better!! 

 

To-do's for today are: 

-walk dogs

-clean out fridge

-vacuum

-at least start some laundry

-also get a start on finance stuff for business.

 

If I can manage that, I'll feel good about life. 

[Elastigirl]

Yay for making it to the weekend!

[RhiaWolfe]

On 1/16/2021 at 10:45 AM, Fonzico said:

Thanks Rhia - it never occurs to me to ask for help in the moment! But I would totally be in for being accountabilibuddies if you're down with that!

 

I'm totally down with that. I think I could use an accountabilibuddy right now. Someone to kick me in the ass to reach my goals even when I'm feeling depressed and unmotivated.