TheGreyJedi-Ranger Posted May 5, 2021 Report Share Posted May 5, 2021 “I am worthless and I am nothing, Nesta nearly said. She wasn’t sure why the words bubbled up, pressing on her lips to voice them. I hate everything that I am. And I am so so tired. I am tired of wanting to be anywhere but my own head.” -Nesta Archeron, A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas (I’m trying my best not to spoil anything for those who haven’t yet read ACOSF, but no promises) I’ve been thinking about doing a Nesta themed challenge series for a while. Nesta is a character from ACOTAR that I didn’t really love originally - she comes across as abrupt, selfish, closed off, and uncaring. Over time, however, I’ve come to love Nesta- not only because she’s so much more than that, but because there’s such a core of her that’s so much like me. Nesta doesn’t believe in her own worth, and she holds herself apart from everyone else to prevent herself from being hurt. Even by those who love her the most. She’s self destructive in how she copes with pain, stress, and depression. She emotes with every fiber of her being; love and hate fierce and strong. And she’s intensely lonely. Over the course of the series, a goal of hers is to resurrect a female warrior clan called the Valkyrie. She and her two best friends, one of whom is helping a scholar with research on the Valkyrie, are being trained by two of the most highly ranked warriors in their court (I’m trying to describe this without spoiling anything major so sorry it’s a bit vague!). My next series is going to be focused on the three stages of Valkyre training: Novice, Blade, and Valkyrie. Obviously, I’m starting as a Novice. I’m hoping I can also grow both physically and emotionally - like Nesta does. My last challenge did a great job helping me kick start a new workout routine, as well as a regular cooking routine and the addition of fruits and veggies to my meals. Some of the things I really want to tackle this challenge are mental health related. I definitely need to find better coping mechanisms for life than binge eating, and want to improve my self worth with affirmations and such. But I want to keep being healthy where I can. As I have for the last several challenges, I’ll be doing a point based system. I’ll have healthy behaviors and every time I do them, I get a point. And there are different levels of success based on how many points I get. Because the goal is to work on and improve positive behaviors! Bonus points are things that may come up or may not circumstantially. I’m going to come up with a way to use these, but I can’t count on them or add them to my count for the week. The following are my goals: Daily Affirmations I was doing daily affirmations and was doing a really great job doing them daily but got out of the habit the last time I travelled. So I’m going to focus on writing positive affirmations every morning to start my day off well. They did a great job of helping me change my mindset. The goal is to do this 5-7 days a week, each day I do so will be (1) point! Regular Workouts There are any number of things that will count as a workout. Climbing, Playing Beatsaber, doing Body Project workouts with my mom - or anything else that uses enough energy that I deem hardcore enough to class as a workout. I’ve been fairly good about this recently, but I need to stay on the ball. I’d actually do more, but I’m trying not to overdo it with my ankle still a bit iffy. Right now, staying the course is the goal with workouts. I’ll be hoping to work out 3-5 days a week. Each workout will be (1) point. Healthy Meals & Snacks Since I’ve managed to get back into the habit of having fruits and veggies with my meals, I’m going to just focus on building healthy meals and snacks every day. This opens things up a little so that if I’m out and about I can do healthy options and it still work for me. The average here will be 2 healthy meals in a day, with 3 being ideal (I need to eat more breakfast). While I don’t snack every day, I do most days so that will be something else to improve upon. Each healthy meal is (1) point. Stretch Daily Since I climb quite frequently, flexibility is important. I’ve mostly gotten into the habit of doing basic, bare minimum stretching. So now it’s time to up things a little bit and focus on stretches that will help me with climbing. I found this list of yoga poses that are good for climbers and I can use that to help me build my flexibility. The goal is 5-7 times per week, making sure that I’m actually spending some time stretching and improving flexibility. Each session is (1) point. Bonus: Trying A New Hobby One thing I struggle with a lot is finding things to do. If I’m not working, I end up just.. Cleaning or cooking or otherwise doing things that take energy away from me and don’t give me energy. However, with the amount of time I’ve spent depressed and without ANY energy whatsoever, I have a hard time knowing what hobbies I have that interest me. So I’m going to attempt to try some things outside of my standard set of reading and playing with my phone. Some ideas include: Writing fanfiction or my novel Drawing Crafting Watching Makeup Youtube Videos Trying out makeup looks Each time I try a hobby activity I’ll get (1) bonus point. Bonus 2: Journaling as a Coping Mechanism This is something else that may or may not come up. But I suspect that there’s going to be a lot going on mentally for a while for me. And I’ve found that journaling works well. So my goal is that when I’m feeling upset, angry, frustrated, etc. I’ll sit down and journal my feelings a bit. Hopefully I can do this over time and process my feelings better. I have a lot of unprocessed feelings and things right now and need to deal with them. Each time I journal as a way of processing feelings, I’ll get (1) bonus point. Scoring Good - 150 (5 Days of affirmations weekly, 4 stretch days weekly, 3 workouts weekly, and avg 2-3 healthy meals/snacks a day) Better - 180 (6 Days of affirmations weekly, 5 stretch days weekly, 4 workouts weekly, and avg 3 healthy meals/snacks a day) Best - 215 (7 Days of affirmations weekly, 6 stretch days weekly, 5 workouts weekly, and avg 3-4 healthy meals/snacks a day) So that’s that. My Valkyre Novice 1 challenge. I’m excited to see how this goes and what I can do with it. 3 Quote Grey Jedi Ranger Jedi's Hero Journey Part III: Baby Steps Are Still Forward Movement Jedi Battle Log “Keep Calm, Carry On, and Don't Freeze Up!” - Oboro Shirakumo (Loud Cloud), My Hero Academia Vigilantes Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9, #10, #11, #12. #13, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24, #25, #26, #27, #28, #29, #30, #31, #32, #33, #34, #35, #36, #37, #38, #39, #40, #41, #42, #43, #44, #45, #46, #47, #48, #49, #50, #51, #52, #53, #54, #55, #56 Link to comment
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