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Leaving the Forest Valley Academy for Druids, to enter my own next quest... I started to notice the relief of no longer having a grade. However, noticing the viciousness in my last trials That instead of just a grade, my name of Bouncer could be harmed.  Sharp blows I could barely handle with criticims in a place full of magic. The old ways back in the darkness, especially with the Golden-Eyed Curse of cravings is not the correct way to go.  Where placing good habits was difficult on top of quieting down the old ones. 

I was out of the darkness, but the strong feeling I should do more but tired.

 

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Professor Jade came forward,  reminding me of my celebrations. Not just a man being my professor, but also a mentor who keeps an eye on me with check ins. 

 

He saw my puzzlement through a conversation, where I finally asked him for guidance. 

"If you are willing Bouncer, it is time for you to go to the Regal Woodland. Just being able to enter can be a challenge, no less find your way back out. I believe that will help get you to where you need to go". 

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I felt the magic coursing through me with  confidence. I  believed that it would be easy to get into the Regal Woodland, however surviving it would be something else. 

 

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So a story to hopefully make the challenge a little easier. 

Little about me: 

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Age 27 

5'' 11 with 280 lbs (Keeping 20 lbs off since January)

Just finishing my Undergrad in Rec and Park  (Minor American Indigenous Studies) 

Working at County Park level Campground and Park stuff for an Internship. 

While now currently looking for a full-time job, while my family is in the process of marriage and moving into my Stepdad's home... (I have an attic room in his cozy home). 

 

Upside no more classes, downside terrified of finding a job (upside everyone is hiring). 

And found out I have a liking to being in an office if I have a view of trees... interesting. 

 

 

Self-reflect I finally feel like I can do more, but man I'm my worst enemy. 

What has helped me say goodbye to depression, my classes and chronic stress pains?

Mindfulness... yup sounds stupid to me also. 

 

So before I can hit my goals of weightloss, no less finding a job I can live off of (and actually enjoy). I need to lean into the "magic". 

Have to write this out to remind myself when I hate this tomorrow. 

 

So challenge GOALS:

Meditation

Journaling

Budgeting

Gut Health

 

I find all of these to be stupid a bit difficult but needed, and there is a "good feel" along with "crazy amount of anxiety" with these. 

Upside all of these are to help curb the anxiety if I do it long enough! And whatever 

 

Meditation and Journaling -- I see someone weekly that helps give me guidance. Been told for years to practice, now leaning in. 

Budgeting -- Using YNAB, I have anxiety to work through feeling "but I want to SPEND!!!" Plus I tend to eat healthier when I'm intentional about my budget. 

Gut Health- I'm seeing a Naturopath and am SUPER behind on the next step for gut health. Plus helps with my side effect of my hormones and birth control stuff. 

 

To add some fun, I'm adding a daily pic. I always love seeing people's posts, helps make people. Love to share with my favorite community. 

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Just now, Sloth the Enduring said:

It must be a huge relief to be done with school.  

It really is... 

Seeing the August colors (when the smokey haze lifts). 

Has been crazy to remind myself I have a job two weeks after labor day. Instead of worrying about getting ready for school. 

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Also fun fact I live (continuing to move everying) in Colombia Heights now.

May stay in Anoka County a bit longer since I have loved my job despite Bunker Beach being on the news for how chaotic it is... 

 

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How will I find the entrance to the Forest: 

-3 pages of journals (I mind map most of the time, won't take long)

-3 sessions of meditation

-Writing out everything my Naturopath wrote to me/and told me during appointments

-Finishing my Powerpoint/ Turn in for Graduation. 

(And a daily pic to track how long it takes me to finish...)

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31 minutes ago, Fairly_Bouncer said:

Self-reflect I finally feel like I can do more, but man I'm my worst enemy. 

What has helped me say goodbye to depression, my classes and chronic stress pains?

Mindfulness... yup sounds stupid to me also. 

 

What is this "also" you are adding there...? Mindfulness doesn't sound stupid to me at all.

 

Mindfulness is how I manage and calm my anxiety. It's how I deal with stress. It's how I help my mind slow down so I can go to sleep. Mindfulness is a real-life Jedi technique. Embrace it, and it will make life less painful. :) 

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Congrats with finishing school!!

 

And I'm with @Scaly Freak - mindfulness is one of your most effective tools.  Decide and choose and act --- instead of reacting.  

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On 7/31/2021 at 8:46 PM, Scaly Freak said:

 

What is this "also" you are adding there...? Mindfulness doesn't sound stupid to me at all.

 

Mindfulness is how I manage and calm my anxiety. It's how I deal with stress. It's how I help my mind slow down so I can go to sleep. Mindfulness is a real-life Jedi technique. Embrace it, and it will make life less painful. :) 

 

On 8/2/2021 at 7:23 AM, Chris-Tien Jinn said:

Congrats with finishing school!!

 

And I'm with @Scaly Freak - mindfulness is one of your most effective tools.  Decide and choose and act --- instead of reacting.  

Thank you both for reminding me to surrender, might change up the wording on the first post.

 

 

A pic to remember:

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A bad pic of a road I saw walking at work. Hope he was okay, never seen one walk. I was intrigued. 

 

I have started meditating. 

This last week I impulsively bought a new gaming computer that I view to be a great deal (my graduation gift to myself...). And NF Prime... 

I felt lost on just trying to feed myself. So going to try it out this month for Nutrition and Mindfulness. See if it just relaxes my brain that needs to feed me. 

 

Also found a budget accountability group. 

 

Root Canal tomorrow right away in the morning, Adios Amigos!

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7 minutes ago, Fairly_Bouncer said:

Root Canal tomorrow right away in the morning, Adios Amigos!

 

Good luck!

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On 8/3/2021 at 9:40 PM, Scaly Freak said:

 

Good luck!

Thanks, the Specialist was on the fence for actually doing the root canal... oh fun. 

From my understanding it was heavily decayed (it was cracked for awhile...) and most likely would have been pushed for a pull with the specialist looking into it. He said he was willing to try, and that's all I needed for thumbs up. He was able to do the root canal. 

 

Had the worst shakes from the numbing, but the tooth was dealt with and he found the infection to bad and heavily inflamed. (It was so bad my nerve was on fire when they cleaned, never had it where everything was number but pain). 

So more antibiotics, some pain killers and a saved tooth. Date for the crown is Sept. 1st. Will be sticking to softer foods (unless I'm mindfully eating something). As the pressure on that side just wants me to chew hard. Meh...

 

Decided to take another work day off to get the antibiotics to kick in and rest. The pain is luckily not bad just feel off...  Yippee. Back to work tomorrow, and I have a Symposium on Sunday for mindfulness day (haven't done one like this, but this one was suggested by multiple people I respect. Nice to be around people also). 

 

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Goals Meditation is good, Journaling is up there. Not filling out pages but am picking up a notebook since Tuesday. Bullet Journal is even out to help keep track of things. 

Finished some old paperwork yesterday to help get paper work processed to help my crown be cheaper (nearly halved in price).  So got rid of something on my to do list. 

 

Today am working on my Powerpoint, and my gut health list. 

Have my new computer so no excuses on my powerpoint as I work on the couch! Fresh new computer feel!

 

Picture of the day, me and numbed smile.  Will have a better pic for tomorrow. 

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27 minutes ago, Fairly_Bouncer said:

Have my new computer so no excuses on my powerpoint as I work on the couch! Fresh new computer feel!

 

New computer feel is the only one that ever comes close to the new book feel!

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On 7/31/2021 at 9:13 PM, Fairly_Bouncer said:

I find all of these to be stupid but needed, and there is a "good feel" along with "crazy amount of anxiety" with these. 

 

I can't find the exact quote, but I feel like there was a general somewhere who once said "if it's a stupid idea, but it works, then it ain't a stupid idea."

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3 hours ago, KeysMcGee said:

 

I can't find the exact quote, but I feel like there was a general somewhere who once said "if it's a stupid idea, but it works, then it ain't a stupid idea."

 

Based on the sentiment, it could just as well have been either Bruce Lee or Machiavelli.

 

And it's a completely accurate statement.

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“I've always believed that failure is non-existent. What is failure? You go to the end of the season, then you lose the Super Bowl. Is that failing? To most people, maybe. But when you're picking apart why you failed, and now you're learning from that, then is that really failing? I don't think so." - Kobe Bryant, 1978-2020. Rest in peace, great warrior.

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On 8/5/2021 at 6:25 PM, Scaly Freak said:

 

New computer feel is the only one that ever comes close to the new book feel!

Yes it really is, haven't run a game yet but did a video chat while finishing a powerpoint. Pure bliss on zero lag, except a zoom chat where I think it was the other person. 

 

On 8/5/2021 at 6:33 PM, KeysMcGee said:

 

I can't find the exact quote, but I feel like there was a general somewhere who once said "if it's a stupid idea, but it works, then it ain't a stupid idea."

 

21 hours ago, Scaly Freak said:

 

Based on the sentiment, it could just as well have been either Bruce Lee or Machiavelli.

 

And it's a completely accurate statement.

Interesting, realized I have never been in this part of my life of "oh this is working, so I shouldn't stop...". 

 

Whelp Forest Entrance Progress (more fun for my challenge): I finished the POWERPOINT!!! Whoot!!!

 

Did a 1/2 day off work because my head just hurt... need to stay on top of pain relievers tonight. Realized my powerpoint was due today... so that's in!

 

Can't take the "harder" pain relief due at work due to it making me groggy, but good for sleep. 

It's hard to explain the pain, except my brain going "why we not in bed?" Will be going back to work tomorrow... 

 

Meditations were done, but need to work on them. My weekly meeting brought up I still am "holding" onto things instead of allowing. So have specific meditation to hopefully allow grace (and maybe help me feel better too). 

Journaling is alright also. 

 

Next on the list is gathering the Naturopath info! Will do that this weekend. I found one sheet when finishing paperwork, going to make a few pages in BUJO and finishing Lesson 1 for NF Prim Nutrition today!

Have meals made up for the weekend, figuring out good healthy foods despite my chewing issue. And breaking out an old Protein Shake (bought new shake mix) to have in the morning so I can skip coffee (coffee and nerve pain I don't think will end well). 

 

 

Picture of my Watermelon I ate up this week: It was delish... 

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Today doing better, feeling I'm getting on the other side of the infection.  Easily calmed down with pain relief and antibiotics have a schedule. 

 

Just curious if I lose weight when I keep following the "no eating 2 hours before the pill and wait an hour after". Been interesting. 

 

For the search of the Forest Entrance!

Meditation and Journaling are doing better, the Mindful Conference was just good to talk to other people I've only seen on zoom for over a year. 

Need to write out my gut plan which I will do tomorrow, and see what small changes can get me started. 

 

Had a chat about my restlessness about my careers, I realized that I just didn't want to work for the places that "I thought I wanted to be at". I'm going to instead just look for jobs that help pay the bills, and then work on connecting with organizations as a volunteer. Idk where yet, but will be meditating on opportunities that come up. 

I have time to play around which jobs I want to do, and will need more experience to learn where. 

 

 

Whelp survived week 1, did more in some ways and had to rest up in others. Today is "opening mind's eye" day for me that sees what I need to work on to take care of myself. Along  with my own goals. 

 

Another picture, trying on my Bridesmaid dress (will be altered later this month). The back  is bare, and has me wondering on starting a fitness adventure soon to tone it up. 

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When Bouncer finally saw the entrance of the trail, a small slip just big enough to shuffle in between the foggy trees. She entered to find more FOG. Some paths here and there, and shuffling of noises within the Forest. It wasn't clear where to go, she needed a moment to self reflect to listen to whatever chaos was coming forward now. Or could she find the calmer path? 

 

 

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List completed need to meditate once, journal once, and ynab once. 

Was planning to jump into Konmari (bought the book finally)... however an application jumped out be done. 

While also realizing working on my Linkedin might not be a bad idea. 

I want to get done with Marie Kondoing up my room (as we haven't moved everything).

 

So just being pulled into different ideas... 

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Just here to say meditation is on spot right now, going to face the Budget Trolls tomorrow morning. 

Meditation then journaling, along with hitting nutrition goals with Prime. 

 

With the daily goals I also been bullet journaling like crazy and doing morning bed yoga to wake up my body.... that's actually helping with hip pain I get from lack of exercise. 

 

Have a story idea soon as I get YNAB setup tomorrow! My Friday whoot!

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On 8/8/2021 at 10:52 PM, Fairly_Bouncer said:

Had a chat about my restlessness about my careers, I realized that I just didn't want to work for the places that "I thought I wanted to be at". I'm going to instead just look for jobs that help pay the bills, and then work on connecting with organizations as a volunteer. Idk where yet, but will be meditating on opportunities that come up. 

I have time to play around which jobs I want to do, and will need more experience to learn where. 

Realizing that the field you studied for and thought you wanted to work in isn't quite what you thought is sadly very common. There is nothing wrong with wanting to try different things. It is a good thing! I will also throw out there that getting a job just to pay the bills and then finding your meaning and purpose elsewhere is also perfectly fine. Society pushes us all into chasing promotions and money and meaning through work by implying that that is what we are "supposed to" do. But when it comes to life goals, there is no one "supposed to" that works for everyone. You do you. :)

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1 hour ago, juliebarkley said:

Realizing that the field you studied for and thought you wanted to work in isn't quite what you thought is sadly very common. There is nothing wrong with wanting to try different things. It is a good thing! I will also throw out there that getting a job just to pay the bills and then finding your meaning and purpose elsewhere is also perfectly fine. Society pushes us all into chasing promotions and money and meaning through work by implying that that is what we are "supposed to" do. But when it comes to life goals, there is no one "supposed to" that works for everyone. You do you. :)

Thank you for your advice and I have been reminded of this in the last week by different people... It's just interesting. 

 

Ironically this week I also figured out I have 3 projects I want to to get done and figuring out to put in my portfolio.  I don't think any of these 3 the county I work for is going to care in big picture, except my nearby coworkers.  And portfolio meaning I could put into a file to use or show myself project management ability (even though I have a long way to go). 

 

Finally have the confidence I wish I could have had when I was working at the small museum, basically where I could grow... 

 

So just praying as I attempt to keep working, but have motivation to be diligent on the time I have left. 

 

 

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Had my first "ready to punch a wall day" yesterday, and I can't even be specific. Luckily no bad customers just dealing with people who also have lost patience with me... I found myself to be stupid and ungrounded. I however turned to getting Fast Food and eating all my snacks while watching The Nanny. 

Still angry but working on letting go and knowing how I attack it, the anger ended up stopping me from working and I was just VERY tired. Honestly happy with my living situation right now,  and was wise enough to not talk to anyone online. I knew parts of my thinking were just stuck instead of working through a problem. 

 

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So entering the Forest Goals... I have story ideas. And finding I love how I'm writing this out like how I used to daydream as  a kid. Going to save the whole story for later, as I know I have to work on my writing skill in the future for it to make sense. 

Feeling confident to share my first draft has been fun!

 

Okay goals Journaling and Meditation are going GREAT!

Even if I skip a day I"m not hard on myself, because I may have had another day where I wrote more than 1 large page of notebook paper. Along with  being mindful in many other areas. 

 

Budgeting though... I'm having some anxiety I can't seem to write the fears out. This week I'm just going to write down the transactions I have control over.  There's a fear just looking at my bank account, something I'm having difficulty journaling what it is. Instead of pushing this off I'm doing BUJO "let's just write it out", Maybe something will pop up. 

 

Only allowing the basics: Food (am trying out Imperfect Foods again), Gas, Bills and Medicine.

Everything else I can't really buy until I start YNAB again.... 

 

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Also doing Konmari again, ALL the way through. Bought the book this last week.  We are moving stuff in and DAMN there's no room! Or an idea of organization so hoping to just finish this challenge going all in every night will help!

 

Also get time to work on those job applications I'm finding also... 

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Finding A Safe Place

 I felt anxiety creeping along the back of my neck as I stood in the Fog, where I knew many probably had been stuck just at this spot. Not sure where to step or knowing the next beginning. I took a deep breath and let myself feel the Forest, pulling my arms around myself underneath my heavy robes. 


I had a strong feeling of being alone and being surrounded by others all at the same time. I knew I was being watched by an unknown friend and foe. Another heavy breath though I could see before me a part of the Fog clear a path. I followed it softly, feeling the spongy grass underneath me. 


A strike of cold fear ran through me. I felt as if something was following me. I had been discovered. 


Unable to see any other areas around me that are open, I ran. I ran to wherever the Fog started to lift. I started questioning if I should follow the Fog's lead until I saw a door. 
At the end of my path was a solid wooden door with a heavy metal handled; I pulled with my might. Nearly tripping as it swung open with only slight resistance. I flew into the unknown room, holding onto the metal handle tightly as I closed the door behind me using my total weight.  


Still feeling the fear behind me, I begged the wooden door and the whole structure I stood in to protect me. But, unfortunately, I couldn't think of any spells or knowledge on making a safe home within an unknown location so quickly. 


A feeling of acceptance ran through me, as I felt underneath my hands as the door sunk into the door frame, sealing me in. A wave of relief calmed down my fears. The building had agreed to keep me safe and let me stay.  
Sighing in relief, feeling slightly like a failure. I opened my hands in front of me with a minor spell. A ball of light appeared in my hands, showing the dusty abandoned cottage around me. I couldn't help but feel, "this is home now." 

 

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There's more but having some anxiety, tomorrow will right more about the cabin. 

 

 

 

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On 8/13/2021 at 2:50 PM, Fairly_Bouncer said:

Budgeting though... I'm having some anxiety I can't seem to write the fears out. This week I'm just going to write down the transactions I have control over.  There's a fear just looking at my bank account, something I'm having difficulty journaling what it is. Instead of pushing this off I'm doing BUJO "let's just write it out", Maybe something will pop up. 

 

I have a bit of experience with this...I love being able to see exactly what I have when it comes to finances, it causes me no end of anxiety if I don't actually.

One thing that helps me is listing everything that needs to be paid, even variable things like gas and groceries (I use a spreadsheet, ymmv) I put the date they're due, and the amount next to it. For example, I usually fill up my car on the way home from work on Friday, it generally costs $30, whatever amount it ends up being after I fill up I change it to that. My mortgage and car payments are the same every month so I put those are easy...I look at when I get paid and what comes due during that time, add up and subtract from what I make to see what's left, and if I need to borrow from another pay period. I estimate high for the items that I don't know how much they will be, if you have a job where it's not a salaried position you may need to estimate how much you'll be earning.  

I realize you're probably aware of all of this, but sometimes it helps to hear it from an observer :) 

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6 hours ago, RES said:

I have a bit of experience with this...I love being able to see exactly what I have when it comes to finances, it causes me no end of anxiety if I don't actually.

One thing that helps me is listing everything that needs to be paid, even variable things like gas and groceries (I use a spreadsheet, ymmv) I put the date they're due, and the amount next to it. For example, I usually fill up my car on the way home from work on Friday, it generally costs $30, whatever amount it ends up being after I fill up I change it to that. My mortgage and car payments are the same every month so I put those are easy...I look at when I get paid and what comes due during that time, add up and subtract from what I make to see what's left, and if I need to borrow from another pay period. I estimate high for the items that I don't know how much they will be, if you have a job where it's not a salaried position you may need to estimate how much you'll be earning.  

I realize you're probably aware of all of this, but sometimes it helps to hear it from an observer :) 

Thank you for reminding me to go back to the basics to see what I need. 

I need to remember budgeting is like weightloss, it  is small habits that merge together to create the big wins. Like having savings and paying off student loan debt. Especially when I am dealing with variable income. 

 

For once I am less scared of my journaling! So I should make a page of all my needs. I know most of my bills but need to write them down. Get my "must pay Necessities" into my brain. 

 

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As we talk about money... My manager let me know I can freely use paid time to work on applying to jobs. Aka need to job search as I will not be offered a job here (short term internship). Jobs are starting to open up, and looking for something to give me new experience with a paycheck. 

 

A coworker asked me if I had plans after this Summer, I was actually working on applications... Told her I had no idea and my views of job searching. She asked if  I could see myself as a Security guard at one of the main stadiums (her husband works for the security company). My confidence levels on going "full Bouncer" has leveled significantly, so YES. 

 

So tomorrow I have a screening call for as needed "security job" that pays really well with also  my coworker recommending me. 

 

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For story writing I think I'm going to focus on adding to it once a week. A few hundred words seems to be at my max level to share a story in my head to keep at these habits. Going to make a doc to have them on one place, so I can keep up. 

 

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Marie Kondoing room has been GREAT! Getting rid of the rest of my books except a couple. And my ps2 and Wii. Realized too many memories of the dark times or I have a PS4 now. And do I want to play a lot? Idk where to get rid of the two. 

 

Also getting rid of board games also that no on else really wants to play with me right now. I can buy them easily when I have a friend to play with in the future! 

 

I fell in love with my local Half-Priced Books recently and going to plan next weekend on bringing my stuff to get any cash back. Was planning to just donate, but I've spent over $30 there this week for Marie Kondo books, a Wonder Woman desk pad, and books learning how to draw....  I have some unopened or barely touched stuff that might give me some cash back if I try!

 

I have more to share but good night ya'll!

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On 8/15/2021 at 11:17 PM, Fairly_Bouncer said:

So tomorrow I have a screening call for as needed "security job" that pays really well with also  my coworker recommending me. 

Awesome news!! Good luck!

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On 8/17/2021 at 7:54 PM, RES said:

Awesome news!! Good luck!

Back in for a bit! 

 

So I ended up achieving a job lined up for after my internship. It's a Security Guard job that pays REALLY well! 

Will see how it goes! I'm honestly looking for a brain break, since many parts of my internship I'm seeing my weaknesses. Idk will have to see how it goes in the end. 

 

A few more weeks of the season, as I get my paper work lined up for the next job. 

 

Waiting on the finishing up my school paper work to be done also!

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Congratulations on the job!

 

Enjoy the new challenge of sticking to a budget when you suddenly have a lot more money than you are used to having. It's not as easy as it sounds ;)  

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