Rinna Posted December 1, 2021 Report Share Posted December 1, 2021 So. Here I am. Earlier this year I just couldn’t. Couldn’t believe what was being said. Couldn’t believe……..just couldn’t. Peoples attitudes and comments were very distressing and quite unreal. This no longer felt like a safe place. A welcoming place. A tribe. I had to leave. Honestly I don’t know if I’ll stay. I have had a hellacious couple of years. Been very low. Had to admit how dark I really was to someone, while trying to be there for my 18 yr old, who was in just as dark a place. This admission didn’t help. They couldn’t give me what I needed. Im reconciled to the fact that I won’t get it. Because they don’t get it. And I can’t make them understand. I have to save myself. Somehow. I have gained 20 pounds. I’ve not been active. At all. This needs to change. Knitting has been my only…….refuge. I did knit 7 bunnies/bears/unicorns for charity. It gave me a purpose. The plan, subject to change and/or outright abandonment: -keep knitting. Don’t hurt anyone when feeling stabby. (No worries. I just hold it all in until heartburn or a migraine sets in.) -actually start and hopefully complete 30 days of yoga -do something. Maybe aerobics or a workout video. -maybe start tracking calories. I dunno, sorta feels like too much. We’ll see. -start a Christmas advent daily devotional, and invite friends to participate. Onward, to the corner. No lights please. Quote Level -20 Zombie Princess "The only way to lose is to give up." -Tanktimus the Encourager "You can't beat someone that refuses to give up” -Björn Járnhamar Link to comment
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