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My two main burnout response issues are introspection issues. First, I think I can identify the effects of burnout, but I'm lousy at identifying the cause. I can make some logical guesses, but I really don't know, and that makes it hard to know what to address. The other thing is  listening to the Nagoskis talk about burnout and the stress cycle makes a lot of sense, and I think the way their model runs partly counter to the prevailing "just be gentle with yourself" winds probably contains some wisdom, because we have some very old brain programming in play, but it's hard to translate the theory to a concrete set of actions.

 

IRL socialising does seem like a wise and useful thing, though, and that's hard enough even outside a lingering pandemic.

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10 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

the idea of a sabbatical popped up. I looked over retreat options later in the day.

 

Good!!  I was going to suggest a retreat.  You know what to DO .... the challenge is the find the NOT DO space to allow the mug to be refilled.  

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Not too much more I can offer here except hugs and a listening ear (metaphorically.  My eyes do the listening in this virtual world). 

 

Finding IRL friends is a difficult one, but it can make such a difference. I'm very fortunate that I hang out with some good people at work. Also, a retreat sounds wonderful. It's sorta what I did when I went travelling at the start of 2020. I definitely came back stronger. 

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11 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

A part of my issues in the past have been that my faith started out very cognitive, a common criticism of the flavor of Christianity in which I grew up (Baptist). Over the last few years my emotional intelligence has grown and I've become more emotionally connected to my faith. Here I think we see the next big learning for me, how to take my spiritual formation (receiving the pouring in from God) beyond the cognitive into the emotional and spiritual. The next important thing to consider is, by design, I CAN'T figure this out on my own. I need help, and that's not only ok, its required. Prerequisite to that is a growth in humility on my part. I've spent quite a bit of time too satisfied with my knowledge and my perception of wisdom, now I can humble myself and ask for help from another. Along with that is the idea of placing myself under the direction of another, which is a physical world manifestation of a core principle of believing in God the way I do, that with all our freedom, we are to live in obedience to God. Asking for help from others is the part that engenders the most resistance in my heart, which means it's likely the most important thing on which to focus.

 

Another struggle is my tendency to stay on cruise control. I don't like being intentional about things, preferring to move intuitively and also to follow the path of least resistance. This is gonna take some intent on my part, and discipline to follow through. Also, I need more IRL friends. I have the whole rebellion in my heart and that rebellion has my back, and at the same time I need IRL relationships in addition to my wife. My work schedule makes that difficult, but not impossible. I am introverted, and a homebody. That's not wrong, it simply means being intentional about IRL friendships are more challenging. I've known and realized this for some time (the last couple of years at least). It seems we've come to the end of my ability to let excuses prevent me from making time for local people with whom I want to hang out.

 

Another issue is I like to be the helper. I like being the one dispensing wisdom. That means I tend to gravitate toward people I can help, but that also means I'm giving without receiving. I don't want to stop helping people, I do know its helpful to foster mentoring relationships and friendships that are just about hanging out. Being vulnerable here is a good step, it lets me receive kind and helpful comments from all of you like you have done so far, and helps deconstruct the self-image of the helper who needs no help that pops up from time to time and causes me harm.

This is very wise.  You have a lot of self awareness that really helps set you up for the right path.  I'm hoping, and very confident that you will, find some opportunities to find the right support.  

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13 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

 Another issue is I like to be the helper. 

 

Can I quote this 11000 times?  Me too, friend.

 

I excel when I’m supporting others (bard status represent) but I find I often overextend without even being aware and end up heavy in burnout-ville.  I have never done a retreat but I like the idea of it - getting away from the day to day things that can block your mind from really digging into your personal concerns (hard to really diagnose your thoughts when dishes laundry groceries cooking work errands family etc are always present)  and really having the opportunity to still yourself and begin brainstorming towards a solution.

 

Stepping away is great for clarity. I hope you can find some peace of mind in the meantime! You are doing great. ❤️ 

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14 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Another issue is I like to be the helper. I like being the one dispensing wisdom. That means I tend to gravitate toward people I can help, but that also means I'm giving without receiving. I don't want to stop helping people, I do know its helpful to foster mentoring relationships and friendships that are just about hanging out. Being vulnerable here is a good step, it lets me receive kind and helpful comments from all of you like you have done so far, and helps deconstruct the self-image of the helper who needs no help that pops up from time to time and causes me harm.

 

Happy to help. :)

 

But, yeah, man, you're right. You can't keep helping people without getting help when you need it, and you may be too close to the problem to know when that's necessary.

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9 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

Asking for help, IRL friends, and not always being the helper is awesome. Also taking a break is awesome. 
 

I love that you are empathetic and that your first move is to help people. But I am really thrilled you are talking about opening up to receiving the friendship, caring, and help from the people outside your NF life. We are awesome, but it’s not the same as hanging out in person. 

Thanks, and yes, its fully time to ACT on the idea I need people. I have a great track record of making realizations then not doing anything with them. Now it's time to generate a great track record of acting on them.

7 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

My two main burnout response issues are introspection issues. First, I think I can identify the effects of burnout, but I'm lousy at identifying the cause. I can make some logical guesses, but I really don't know, and that makes it hard to know what to address. The other thing is  listening to the Nagoskis talk about burnout and the stress cycle makes a lot of sense, and I think the way their model runs partly counter to the prevailing "just be gentle with yourself" winds probably contains some wisdom, because we have some very old brain programming in play, but it's hard to translate the theory to a concrete set of actions.

 

IRL socialising does seem like a wise and useful thing, though, and that's hard enough even outside a lingering pandemic.

Just be gentle with yourself might be fine as a preventative, but we're past that. Thank you for the resource. Too many Compassion Fatigue/Burnout resources simply define the problem over and over again. Some give some preventative tips, but very few go into how to heal from burnout.

6 hours ago, Chris-Tien Jinn said:

 

Good!!  I was going to suggest a retreat.  You know what to DO .... the challenge is the find the NOT DO space to allow the mug to be refilled.  

Yes, I agree. I need the purposeful NOT DO, as opposed to the lounging around NOT DO, which I have no problem "doing."

5 hours ago, Rhovaniel said:

Not too much more I can offer here except hugs and a listening ear (metaphorically.  My eyes do the listening in this virtual world). 

 

Finding IRL friends is a difficult one, but it can make such a difference. I'm very fortunate that I hang out with some good people at work. Also, a retreat sounds wonderful. It's sorta what I did when I went travelling at the start of 2020. I definitely came back stronger. 

Thanks. I won't get to go run around Hobbiton, but a focused time of healing is going to be helpful.

5 hours ago, Shello said:

This is very wise.  You have a lot of self awareness that really helps set you up for the right path.  I'm hoping, and very confident that you will, find some opportunities to find the right support.  

Thank you.

3 hours ago, shaar said:

 

Can I quote this 11000 times?  Me too, friend.

 

I excel when I’m supporting others (bard status represent) but I find I often overextend without even being aware and end up heavy in burnout-ville.  I have never done a retreat but I like the idea of it - getting away from the day to day things that can block your mind from really digging into your personal concerns (hard to really diagnose your thoughts when dishes laundry groceries cooking work errands family etc are always present)  and really having the opportunity to still yourself and begin brainstorming towards a solution.

 

Stepping away is great for clarity. I hope you can find some peace of mind in the meantime! You are doing great. ❤️ 

Sra. Tanque has been supportive of the idea of a retreat, which is super helpful, because just being at not-work is not itself what I need for this level of healing.

2 hours ago, Kishi said:

 

Happy to help. :)

 

But, yeah, man, you're right. You can't keep helping people without getting help when you need it, and you may be too close to the problem to know when that's necessary.

Agreed. I need help from people not-me.

1 hour ago, Starpuck said:

Shepard Tank,

 

Thank you for giving so much of yourself always.  You make us feel loved and looked after and we appreciate you so much for it.     Now do all you need to do, to look after yourself.  We'll be okay.    Promise.    Growing pains are hard no matter where that growth comes from (physically, emotionally, spiritually).  But you've got a 100% success rate going  on what you've tackled in life thus far.   Thanks for being so open and sharing what this growth looks like for you.   You're right.  Team NF has your back.  Always.     I'll keep you in my prayers, that you get doused with some refill.  Like, mega refill!   

 

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Thank you for those kind words. More than taking care of myself, I need to ask others to take care of me. This is wisdom.

 

 

Today is a good day. Still super sleepy (Little Bit was up in the night) and napped in the morning. Did some stretches to avoid doing nothing. Lunch was awesome.

I made couscous by melting 2 tbsp butter (I could have used three) in a pot then adding some dried shallots, 2 cups water, Greek Seasoning, and white wine vinegar. I brought that to a boil then added 2 cups couscous (the small kind) and a handful of dried cranberries. I stirred then put the lid on. Next I took some salmon filets and seasoned the flesh side with olive oil, Himalayan Pink Salt, Pepper, Garlic Powder, Onion Powder, and Smoked Paprika. I put it on my grill  on high in grill baskets for 7-8 minutes on the skin side, then two minutes on the flesh side. 

Next I cooked some broccolini in olive oil with sea salt, pepper, and white wine vinegar for a couple minutes. It was amazing. It was the best Salmon I've made in a long time.

 

Feeling a little better today.

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1 hour ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Just be gentle with yourself might be fine as a preventative, but we're past that. Thank you for the resource. Too many Compassion Fatigue/Burnout resources simply define the problem over and over again. Some give some preventative tips, but very few go into how to heal from burnout.

 

Scaly recommended the Nagoski book to me. I haven't finished it, but plan to give it a more thorough read when I bet it back from the library. It rings of practicality in some ways, and is very much about healing burnout, even when one can't fully escape the stressor.

 

(It's aimed at women in some parts, but I won't hesitate to recommend it, on the general principle that we can all benefit from translating this stuff for ourselves and our experiences, and who knows, maybe the patriarchy is kicking your ass, too. It's not much kinder to men than to women, it just gives them better door prizes. And I'm sure the patriarchy's got some messages about caregivers that don't help, which I'm suddenly recalling may be addressed in the book to a degree. The expectations placed on caregivers probably hold true for male caregivers in many cases.)

 

The bits I'm recalling from what they call "completing the stress cycle" are that, when your brain thinks the lion is coming for you, first you've got to run from the lion (use exercise to burn off the stress hormones), and next you've got to make it home and tell people all about your run-in with the lion around the campfire (making those IRL friends very handy).

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1 hour ago, sarakingdom said:

It's not much kinder to men than to women, it just gives them better door prizes.

 Wow .... so very well said.  And so very true.  

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Does your faith community have a Walk to Emmaus group or analog? I went on one and it sounds like a very helpful thing for where you are right now — spirituality, letting others lead, being in the emotional lane, cultivating that relationship with God, then also with other real people. I know with the Pandemic Era that we are doing everything as virtually as possible, but this is one of the few things that I would advocate for an in-person event. If you have something like this, I highly recommend it. Also, the Walk is a three day event, and that might be something that fits well into a real-life family schedule without causing as much worry-baggage that a longer trip might bring with it. When I left the Walk, I was plugged pretty closely into a real community, and that made a difference, too.

 

I am sending you a ton of good vibes. You are enough, and God loves you beyond your imagining. You deserve some time to heal.

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3 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

And I'm sure the patriarchy's got some messages about caregivers that don't help, which I'm suddenly recalling may be addressed in the book to a degree.

 

I'm pretty sure it is, in the section that talks about Human Giver Syndrome.

 

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4 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

 

Scaly recommended the Nagoski book to me. I haven't finished it, but plan to give it a more thorough read when I bet it back from the library. It rings of practicality in some ways, and is very much about healing burnout, even when one can't fully escape the stressor.

 

(It's aimed at women in some parts, but I won't hesitate to recommend it, on the general principle that we can all benefit from translating this stuff for ourselves and our experiences, and who knows, maybe the patriarchy is kicking your ass, too. It's not much kinder to men than to women, it just gives them better door prizes. And I'm sure the patriarchy's got some messages about caregivers that don't help, which I'm suddenly recalling may be addressed in the book to a degree. The expectations placed on caregivers probably hold true for male caregivers in many cases.)

 

The bits I'm recalling from what they call "completing the stress cycle" are that, when your brain thinks the lion is coming for you, first you've got to run from the lion (use exercise to burn off the stress hormones), and next you've got to make it home and tell people all about your run-in with the lion around the campfire (making those IRL friends very handy).

Agreed about the door prizes, and again, thanks for the reccomendation.

3 hours ago, Chris-Tien Jinn said:

 Wow .... so very well said.  And so very true.  

Yes.

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Does your faith community have a Walk to Emmaus group or analog? I went on one and it sounds like a very helpful thing for where you are right now — spirituality, letting others lead, being in the emotional lane, cultivating that relationship with God, then also with other real people. I know with the Pandemic Era that we are doing everything as virtually as possible, but this is one of the few things that I would advocate for an in-person event. If you have something like this, I highly recommend it. Also, the Walk is a three day event, and that might be something that fits well into a real-life family schedule without causing as much worry-baggage that a longer trip might bring with it. When I left the Walk, I was plugged pretty closely into a real community, and that made a difference, too.

 

I am sending you a ton of good vibes. You are enough, and God loves you beyond your imagining. You deserve some time to heal.

They aren't hard to find, and in this town ACTS retreats (the Catholic version) are even easier to find. The retreat I'm looking at is this https://stpeteruponthewater.org/ Specifically, the Individually directed Ignatian retreat, probably the three day one. That with some counseling will probably be a big help. Thank you for the kind words, and I agree with the last paragraph :) 

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I'm pretty sure it is, in the section that talks about Human Giver Syndrome.

 

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I'm a big Brene Brown fan. I just bought the book.

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2 hours ago, Scaly Freak said:

I'm pretty sure it is, in the section that talks about Human Giver Syndrome.

 

That's the one. The podcast points out that while the book speaks about women, there are other social relationships that place people in different "human being vs human giver" relationships, like race, etc, and we're able to be in both roles depending on which social hierarchy role is playing out at the time - women can be human givers when their role as women is dominant, but human beings in situations where race is dominant, and are no less harmed by the human giver expectations they can't walk away from. I'd expect that, professionally or calling-wise, a great deal of the human giver problems and expectations apply to Tank, and likewise to many medical personnel in first responder or crisis response positions, the very ones burning out in droves lately.

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Another struggle is my tendency to stay on cruise control. I don't like being intentional about things, preferring to move intuitively and also to follow the path of least resistance. This is gonna take some intent on my part, and discipline to follow through. Also, I need more IRL friends. I have the whole rebellion in my heart and that rebellion has my back, and at the same time I need IRL relationships in addition to my wife. My work schedule makes that difficult, but not impossible. I am introverted, and a homebody. That's not wrong, it simply means being intentional about IRL friendships are more challenging. I've known and realized this for some time (the last couple of years at least). It seems we've come to the end of my ability to let excuses prevent me from making time for local people with whom I want to hang out.

 

Another issue is I like to be the helper. I like being the one dispensing wisdom. That means I tend to gravitate toward people I can help, but that also means I'm giving without receiving. I don't want to stop helping people, I do know its helpful to foster mentoring relationships and friendships that are just about hanging out. Being vulnerable here is a good step, it lets me receive kind and helpful comments from all of you like you have done so far, and helps deconstruct the self-image of the helper who needs no help that pops up from time to time and causes me harm.

I don't think I can be of much help here, but at least I'll say that anytime I've felt a strong resistance about a path, that is where I needed to go.

And I hear you about IRL friends. It's not easy, but I'm sure you'll find a way to beat your excuses.

That said, thank you very much for your candor and openness. And I'm glad that you are feeling better.

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11 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

I'm a big Brene Brown fan. I just bought the book.

 

I hope it helps in any way at all, and that you enjoy reading it. :) 

 

8 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

 

That's the one. The podcast points out that while the book speaks about women, there are other social relationships that place people in different "human being vs human giver" relationships, like race, etc, and we're able to be in both roles depending on which social hierarchy role is playing out at the time - women can be human givers when their role as women is dominant, but human beings in situations where race is dominant, and are no less harmed by the human giver expectations they can't walk away from. I'd expect that, professionally or calling-wise, a great deal of the human giver problems and expectations apply to Tank, and likewise to many medical personnel in first responder or crisis response positions, the very ones burning out in droves lately.

 

Honestly, it's mind-boggling, and proof of how resilient we are as a species, that the burn-out didn't happen sooner and in larger numbers.

 

@Tanktimus the Encourager, you are a incredible and beyond-words tough  for making it this far without falling apart. Let's try to keep it that way. ;) 

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I'm a big Brene Brown fan.

Same. Please let us know what you think of it when you have a chance.

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14 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

 

That's the one. The podcast points out that while the book speaks about women, there are other social relationships that place people in different "human being vs human giver" relationships, like race, etc, and we're able to be in both roles depending on which social hierarchy role is playing out at the time - women can be human givers when their role as women is dominant, but human beings in situations where race is dominant, and are no less harmed by the human giver expectations they can't walk away from. I'd expect that, professionally or calling-wise, a great deal of the human giver problems and expectations apply to Tank, and likewise to many medical personnel in first responder or crisis response positions, the very ones burning out in droves lately.

I'm glad I'm past the point where I would have dismissed the book out of hand as being "written for women."

6 hours ago, Lara said:

I don't think I can be of much help here, but at least I'll say that anytime I've felt a strong resistance about a path, that is where I needed to go.

And I hear you about IRL friends. It's not easy, but I'm sure you'll find a way to beat your excuses.

That said, thank you very much for your candor and openness. And I'm glad that you are feeling better.

I appreciate your kind words.

5 hours ago, Scaly Freak said:

 

I hope it helps in any way at all, and that you enjoy reading it. :) 

 

 

Honestly, it's mind-boggling, and proof of how resilient we are as a species, that the burn-out didn't happen sooner and in larger numbers.

 

@Tanktimus the Encourager, you are a incredible and beyond-words tough  for making it this far without falling apart. Let's try to keep it that way. ;) 

You are very helpful. I'm grateful I was able to identify the problem before the point of no return. As I have often said lately, I'm grateful for and quite ready to do things the easy way rather than the hard way. Doing something now is far easier than waiting till things blow up.

2 hours ago, Heidi said:

Same. Please let us know what you think of it when you have a chance.

I will. It should be here in a couple of days.

 

I caught up on Star Trek Discovery. A B-Plot in one of the episodes was the ship's counselor having a hard time taking care of himself because helping people was a crutch to avoid his own issues. Remind you of anyone? I will say this too. DSC has had it's detractors, and the first season was very rough. It has come into it's own in season 4 and is both good Television and very helpful to me. 

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Wish I was as good with words as you are Tank, then I'd do a better job of expressing this feeling I'm having- it's a mix of that I think you are very great and very wise and burnout or needing help does not detract from that in any way- and that I wish I could come over (regularly) and sit by the fire with you or cook a meal together or anything like that, as it does sound like part of what you need and it would be so nice to be able to do that. Oh and a great big hug if you'd have it. 

 

From my own recent experience I'd say this burnout thing comes in waves, waves of realisations and bits of help and bits of changes and.. This sounds like it's a big wave for you. And each wave bring you closer to feeling sand under your feet again. Though perhaps as you're on the ball with this thing you're constantly feeling sand under your toes at least and you just need to get back to having some surer footing. 

 

Lastly, for concreteness- any ideas on how to go about making IRL friends? I love how you're acting on this idea of a retreat and how you just went ahead and bought the book that was recommended :)

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1 hour ago, KB Girl said:

Wish I was as good with words as you are Tank, then I'd do a better job of expressing this feeling I'm having- it's a mix of that I think you are very great and very wise and burnout or needing help does not detract from that in any way- and that I wish I could come over (regularly) and sit by the fire with you or cook a meal together or anything like that, as it does sound like part of what you need and it would be so nice to be able to do that. Oh and a great big hug if you'd have it. 

 

That would be so amazing, and you are right about needing help and healing not detracting from who I am, but rather confirming that who I am is human. I'd love to have NF friends over more often. The thought of you coming over and sitting by a fire is very comforting.

1 hour ago, KB Girl said:

From my own recent experience I'd say this burnout thing comes in waves, waves of realisations and bits of help and bits of changes and.. This sounds like it's a big wave for you. And each wave bring you closer to feeling sand under your feet again. Though perhaps as you're on the ball with this thing you're constantly feeling sand under your toes at least and you just need to get back to having some surer footing. 

 

I agree. To me it feels like as one thing heals the thing beneath it becomes ready for healing.

1 hour ago, KB Girl said:

Lastly, for concreteness- any ideas on how to go about making IRL friends? I love how you're acting on this idea of a retreat and how you just went ahead and bought the book that was recommended :)

This one's relatively easy. I have friends I've lost contact with, and Church has people I can hang out with and enjoy their company, provided I prioritize that and make the time. 

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Today is a good day. I got up, helped get Sra. Tanque and Little Bit off to school, tried to do things, and went back to bed. I needed a nap. I got up at 11, ate something, then watched Discovery as I mentioned above. When I caught up I had enough time to workout, empty and reload the dishwasher, and print something off. I didn't want to do anything, but I ended up meditating (I even used the mynoise website @sarakingdom talks about) for about five minutes. I then did KBs, and got the other stuff done in time to get Little Bit from school. Dinner was good. I cooked a five grain mix, and mixed it in with onion and garlic I cooked in olive oil before wilting in a baby kale/baby spinach mix. That pilaf was the base for the chicken. I cooked some chopped chicken thighs in olive oil with salt and pepper, then removed it from the pan. I added two tbsp butter and melted it, then added in enough flour to absorb it. I then added 1 cup chicken broth and half a cup of chardonnay along with mustard and fresh chopped rosemary. I let that cook a bit, then added the chicken back in, then served it over the pilaf. It was good.

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5 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

(I even used the mynoise website @sarakingdom talks about)

 

Please say you used RPG Dungeon.

I felt like I could run forever, like I could smell the wind and feel the grass under my feet, and just run forever.

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18 hours ago, sarakingdom said:

 

Please say you used RPG Dungeon.

Sorry, it was Japanese Garden. In your honor, however, I turned on RPG Dungeon to write this post.

 

Today is a DAY. While nursing in the morning, Little Bit coughed so hard she threw up. That meant we had to keep her home from day care, and that threw off all my plans for today. I kept her home, set my grocery list to a pickup order for the evening, and adapted. I was sleepy all morning, barely making it through till I put her down for a nap and got mine. I was much better in the afternoon, though I did still conk out on my recliner for a bit while Daniel Tiger was entertaining us. After I woke up from the nap and before Daniel Tiger, however, I got a message from the school that someone who was in Little Bit's class yesterday tested positive for COVID, and they were going to quarantine the class till next week (with a negative test) or the week after (with no test) and could everyone please pick up their children ASAP. So even if she had gone to school I still would have had to adapt everything and go get her. Sra. Tanque and I coordinated our days off so we could be home with her for the week, and Sra. Tanque got food on the way home. We're going to be ok, and all the sick-child school-closed ness of the day helped me forget about the burnout stuff for a while. Little Bit did have her temp go up to 99 a couple of times, both controlled with tylenol, and I've given her some child-friendly cough syrup, but she's been otherwise ok.

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On 1/12/2022 at 12:25 AM, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

will say this too. DSC has had it's detractors, and the first season was very rough. It has come into it's own in season 4 and is both good Television and very helpful to me. 

 

I very much want to like Discovery (and may yet, I haven't seen it), because it looks awesome. (Michelle Yeoh, Jason Isaacs, Tig Notaro, etc? I want it to be awesome.) But, just... they took a character who was very interesting, somewhat nuanced, and very sympathetic, and kind of made him the asshole who actively messed up everyone around him, especially the small children? It's the Enterprise problem on a small scale, trying to Up The Drama by increasing conflict with all the aliens, which is both a weirdly anti-Trek sentiment and not necessary, because the smaller, more ambiguous father-son drama was actually more interesting and realistic, and more relatable, than upping the stakes to neglect and borderline child abuse, or whatever.

 

Anyway. I have feelings.

 

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5 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Sorry, it was Japanese Garden. In your honor, however, I turned on RPG Dungeon to write this post.

 

Japanese Garden is also a great one. I am required as a monk to endorse it.

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