athousandwords Posted February 14, 2022 Report Share Posted February 14, 2022 credit: Still Stuck with you. by PascalCampion CHAPTER 2: AThousandWords is a Constant Refrain "You didn't even look?" I frown. The door at the train station has been in the back of my mind all day — the missed opportunity, the cost of not peeking through that clouded glass. Your own child crying at the crucial moment when you might have reached out to touch the door handle... until reality snaps back in. Hungry toddlers. A juice box spilled on the pavement. No time for doors or adventure. I shake my head. "We'll walk back up that way again tomorrow. I'll take a peek then and see if it's anything interesting." My husband shrugs, accepting the ordinary solution for an ordinary problem. He wasn't there to feel the light-as-a-dust-mote prickling that made you doubt whether the door was there at all. "It's just weird, " he says after a minute. "We're at that train station all the time. I feel like I would have seen a door like that." "We're always busy, right?" It's the constant refrain of parents everywhere. "We probably just didn't notice it. But," I hesitate, and he raises his eyebrows. I'm debating whether to explain the pull I felt, the sense that something is coming closer. I wonder if I'm just being melodramatic: imaging myself at the precipice of a cliff, unsure of whether it's safer to remain where I am or catapult myself off. It must play out on my face because my husband drops his eyebrows into a concerned look. He can always tell when I'm making myself smaller, sanding myself off at the corners. "Well. It would be nice to go somewhere," I say finally. "Get out of here for a while." He hums in agreement, then smiles at me until I find myself smiling back. But we walk to the train station the next day and the door is gone. This challenge is all about accepting what we can't change, I suppose. Last month was a struggle: between snow and quarantines I think we had a total of 7 full days of daycare out of the entire month. And then last week we we learned that under-5 vaccines won't be submitted for approval until April and the small thread of hope we'd had for travel and normalcy this spring is put on hold again. I'm stretched thin between demanding work and unrelenting parenting, I miss spending time with my husband and friends, and I find myself wishing so badly we could get out of this day to day routine and go adventuring. Instead we're treading water and the best I can do this challenge is just to focus on what I can control. Half-marathon training has become a small lifeline of personal time, and I'm starting to feel ready. I ran 11 miles last weekend and this challenge will be ending the weekend I run the real thing: 13 miles. Inconceivable to the me who started the Couch 2 5k last summer. It also feels like a light at the end of the long tunnel of winter: travel, family, community. So this challenge I'm going to do my best to be ready for it, avoid injury, and picture myself crossing the finish line. You'd think flexibility would be key here, but I'm running the opposite direction. I'm going to try and nail myself to a schedule and let consistency take me through the rest of winter. I'm hoping there will be warmer days ahead with more breathing room and joy, and setting habits in stone now will keep me on track for the rest of the year. Habit 0: Run four times a week I will commit to running all the days and distances in my training plan: Mon, Weds, Thurs, Sat Bonus: Figure out what comes next after I finish training for this Half Marathon Habit 1: Practice Yoga twice a week I will complete a 30 min yoga class from the Peloton app on Tuesdays and Fridays, after daycare drop-off Can switch this to evening practice only if my morning is booked Habit 2: Intermittent Fasting (16/8), six days a week I will only eat during an 8 hour window (usually 12pm - 8pm) for 6/7 days a week Coffee + creamer or water allowed outside this window (I can't give up my morning coffee! 😆 ) Habit 3: Work on home projects for 4 hours a week On Monday morning, I will schedule 4 hours of projects with goals of what to accomplish for during that time Habit 4: Start a new book every Monday I will ensure I have a new book ready to read on Monday nights and spend at least 1 hour reading before bedtime Finishing the previous week's book is obviously preferred, but not required! Tracking will be done here! Live! No habit apps or spreadsheets, just forcing myself to get on to NerdFitness, say hello, and stay aligned with my goals. Cheers, all - to the last challenge of winter and hopefully the start of something new. 6 Quote Level 13 Ravenclaw Rebel "Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants." --Michael Pollan COMPLETED CHALLENGES: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 13.5 2022 CHALLENGES: 14 | 15 Link to comment
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