Kishi Posted October 4, 2022 Author Report Share Posted October 4, 2022 On 10/1/2022 at 12:09 AM, sarakingdom said: Bodies are so strange. I've been eating more lately, trying to hit what is supposedly maintenance for me (I'd been maintaining and flirting with gaining on half that), and my weight dropped to the lowest thing I'd seen for months. Sure, calorie surplus for weight loss, whatever, man. 🙄 Right? I've been scaling my calories up and instead of sitting at 180-something and drifting to 200, I've seen these massive swings in weight. Woke up this morning at 170, which, like. What? 9 hours ago, KB Girl said: When is the tournament? Gaining weight can be harder than losing it, depending on the person. You don't mind having to eat more? Tournament is on 10/30. And I don't mind having to eat more; having more energy in the system is a nice change of pace from chronic cutting. And my thought is, if I eat my way to the top of my weight class, then I have more energy to train with, and if I go over at that point, it's easier to cut down and get back under. So in theory, while some cut days would happen, they would be isolated and corrective vs having to be going all the time. Of course, this was when I thought my walking weight was 85-87kg and that I'd have to eat my way up to ~91 or so, but then you have mornings like today where I wake up at 77.6 and it's like, "Damn this thyroid of mine!" * GOAL: 15/24 It's been a pretty emotionally draining few days. Got word Friday that one of my family's friends' grandparents died, and while I wasn't asked to go to the funeral, I would have felt bad not going, so that made my plans for the weekend. Saturday was a long day; BJJ was great, but I had overtime to work, so I did that. Afterward, figured I needed to text with brother over Dad's concern with his casual profanity around Mom; Dad says that Mom's bothered, but Mom hasn't said anything about it, and it's not actually clear that she has a problem so much as she may have made an offhand comment that Dad took and ran with on account of 1) his own lack of emotional health and 2) his recent phase of religiosity, which tends to bring out a lot of his more conservative, authoritarian tendencies. Brother wasn't too pleased about this. It's not the issue of language itself so much as what he sees as an inappropriate reassertion of the parent-child relationship by way of Churchy concerns over the form of speech versus its substance. Also, he felt disrespected by that; he sees it as a problem for the parents as adults to talk to him about as a fellow adult rather than working through me, which I was surprised and disappointed to learn about as I thought Dad would take the lead on this since he'd told me that "We need to do something about your brother's language." So that was fun. We'll see what comes of it. Don't know if they're going to sort this out or not, but I apparently did more than anyone else to solve this supposed problem, so I don't really care how it shakes out from here. Sunday I made it out to Open Mat, hung around for a little while before going to the funeral. Brother was part of the service; the rest of us were observed to have been there but we really didn't accomplish more than that. My best friend from high school called that night and said he's having a kid, which is awesome and definitely got me in a "energy out, energy in" frame of mind for the rest of the evening. It was the kind of weekend I could have used a weekend from. But, my caseload doesn't care about how tired I am, so I was back to work Monday morning. Had too much going on to skip out for mat time, so I just worked all day and went to hang with friends for sci fi night. Lower Decks is getting better, although it's still relatively hit or miss at this point. Speaking as a relative outsider, I'd say it's at its best when it's a hopeful Rick and Morty clone, although I'm able to pick up some references here or there which I'm sure would have tickled me pink if I were more of a fan. Anyway, brings us to today. Plan's to get mat time tonight. I think it'll carry off, although it definitely won't if I don't hustle back and get to work, so. 3 Quote Work like a farmer, train like an athlete, fight like a soldier. 2 Tim. 2:3-6 BATTLE! Link to comment
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