Gemma Posted December 26, 2022 Report Share Posted December 26, 2022 My life, past year or so, has been good. Quiet, calm, predictable, sane, and content. NOTHING WRONG with that, I've really enjoyed and appreciated it. I am beginning to feel a bit restless. My brain itches and my comfort zone is too comfortable. I want to have an adventure. Time to get brave. I have three BigBad goals for 2023. These are loose floaty moving-target sorts of goals and I won't even be mad if I don't hit 'em, but I need to get back in the habit of taking the shot. 1) Audition for community theater things 2) Submit a story to a publisher 3) Shoot in competition Additional long-term goals for the upcoming year (I'll be adding to this all challenge): Consolidate multiple financial thingies left over from various jobs Add regular rings workouts into my week (after the weather warms up some, my rings-hanging spot is outdoors!) Save up for and buy new LR furniture (our very old sofa and loveseat combo have become quite uncomfortable and back pain inducing) Complete round 3 of Elements and at least 1 round of Integral Strength, then re-assess and see what's next For the January challenge the focus is #1, theatrical things. Goal: Weekly voice lessons with the long-term goal of confidence to audition for a musical. Additional goals: Elements 2x/week Literal Immortality 2x week In bed by 9 p.m. every night Long-winded detail stuff that will only be interesting to theater/performing arts enthusiasts behind the wall: Spoiler Theater is how I survived high school. I signed up for drama as a freshman because it sounded like an easy A and the least boring elective available, then by dumb luck I had the world's best drama teacher ever. We did three productions a year, I was in many of them and did set design and/or costumes and makeup for others and I loved every second of it. I am a decently competent actor and dancer. Singing is different. I can sing ... I was in chorus all through middle school and high school, even participated in a few district and state vocal competitions. Didn't win or do particularly well, but participated and didn't embarrass myself. But for some reason since I left high school (nigh on four decades ago) I have not only not sung in public, but developed a near phobia of singing in front of people. In-the-shower-only for this girl, and if it's karaoke night I definitely have to stay home and wash my hair! About 80% of the community theater in my area is musical theater. So this is limiting. I've been going to shows on the regular the past few years, got my husband involved and he is suprisingly enjoying it tremendously - and every time I go, Brain™ whispers at me the whole time "don't you miss this? You miss this. You really need this... etc." But the idea of singing, solo, in an audition, is a surefire ticket to panic attack land. I've already taken two really scary steps for this. 1) actually walk into a music school and inquire about voice lessons (not terrible, but I had to work myself up to it) 2) actually show up for an introductory voice lesson, which involved singing in front of a professional musician (aaaaaauuggghhhhhh!!!!) I did it, I didn't die or even have a full-blown anxiety attack, and she didn't stick her fingers in her ear or make faces or anything like that, she just suggested some breathing exercises. Holy wow that was about a hundred times harder than it should have been but I did it and I'm proud of myself. In January I will start weekly voice lessons. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 Last month we saw Little Shop of Horrors put on by a brand-new-to-our-area troupe of major arts enthusiasts, and it was amazing. Then that same troupe did an end-of-year fundraiser banquet/ball, and the hubs and I went and had an astonishingly social time. I didn't even burn all my spoons doing the socially acceptable introvert thing, because even after all these years theater people are my people. This is my tribe and I've been in self-imposed exile a long long time. These are their plans for the upcoming season: Full disclosure: Shrew is my 100% hands-down least favorite Shakespearean creation ever. Blech. Über-blech. But I know the guy who is directing this, and he truly believes he can present it in a way that minimizes the ICK factors and makes K and P into a properly matched pair of wits that are truly suited to each other. I can't imagine this, but I trust him. Certainly the banter scenes can be wonderful - it's just that final speech that is full on NOPE, and Director Phil is confident that this can be handled without going all Stepford Wives creepy with it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Aaaanddd - he is doing it in a steampunk circus setting. So color me intrigued - I promised him I would read for the part of The Widow, and if they don't get enough male actors to try out I told him I am completely willing to play a male part. There's generally a disproportionate number of females that show up for comm theater auditions, which is a complicating factor for Shakespeare with its 90% or so male roles. I'm lobbying for him to do As You Like It next year. I'm secretly hoping we can work our way up to the Scottish play eventually because reading for Lady M is in bucket-list territory - but there has been an extreme dearth of Shakespeare in our very rural area, so Director Phil wants to 'ease' into it with the comedies . In more terrifying news, I'm working up courage to try out for Ursula in Mermaid. I don't expect to get a role like that, but I have to at least audition to have a chance at any role, and I would be thrilled with a non-singing role - Flounder, Flotsam, Jetsam, one of the servants in the Prince's castle, whatever. Still have to be confident enough to get through the audition process, though. And even though the production won't be until the fall, they are casting it really early in the year because they plan to go over-the-top with costumes so they need to start fitting and design months in advance. Auditions perhaps as soon as February <breathes heavily into paper sack.> 9 3 Quote “To see that your life is a story while you're in the middle of living it may be a help to living it well." -Ursula K. Le Guin 2022 Challenges: Push, Core, Simple, Pooh, Timebox, NaNoWriMo 2023 Challenges: 20SOC, Travel, Battery Link to comment
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