[Athaclena]

18 minutes ago, fleaball said:

Read the instruction manual and there are random grammar errors that make it sound like a non-native speaker wrote it and my anxiety instantly pings that since we bought it from Amazon it's a fake/counterfeit and going to explode as soon as we turn it on.

Bad grammar is in the manual of even high end stuff I've bought from the manufacturer. Recently bought a telescoping gantry for the shop\garage (think something similar to a car lift) and they have a manual for the less fancy version but not the one I got (which has a crank to lift) which is more complex. They even have a note with the URL to get the manual - it just doesn't exist (and reading the comments - they KNOW it doesn't exist). Hubby is mechanically inclined so figured it out - but seriously, we're not talking a $5 item - and it's made in the USA so they can't even go the "we haven't had it translated yet" route.....

 

[RES]

On 1/27/2023 at 11:20 AM, fleaball said:

your friend said it was good then just get that one

It's insane the amount of happy this makes me that I'm recognized as an actual friend  

it really is the little things 

[fleaball]

9 hours ago, Athaclena said:

Bad grammar is in the manual of even high end stuff I've bought from the manufacturer. Recently bought a telescoping gantry for the shop\garage (think something similar to a car lift) and they have a manual for the less fancy version but not the one I got (which has a crank to lift) which is more complex. They even have a note with the URL to get the manual - it just doesn't exist (and reading the comments - they KNOW it doesn't exist). Hubby is mechanically inclined so figured it out - but seriously, we're not talking a $5 item - and it's made in the USA so they can't even go the "we haven't had it translated yet" route.....

 

very true. Just a stupid thing I latched into while already freaking out. But also like, who ever reads the user manual for a microwave anyway?
 

4 hours ago, RES said:

It's insane the amount of happy this makes me that I'm recognized as an actual friend  

it really is the little things 

You've stuck with me for 9 years, you're either "friend" or "saint" ❤️

[fleaball]

So I did none of the things I said I would do Saturday. The Saga of the Microwave just drained everything I had. Like it was so much more complicated than it needed to be, but I guess that's what happens when you live with people who are dumber than the pet rocks I had in kindergarten. And the ongoing saga of getting my brother's meds is also still a thing - I've called CVS so many times for him that they're staring to recognize me. (Yes, I understand there is a nationwide shortage of adderall and that's spilling over to shortages of the alternatives. No, that's not going to make me magically not need or want this prescription filled especially when you keep saying "call back tomorrow to check.") 

 

okay no I did do some dishes. Not all of them. And I forced myself to make overnight oats, which I do enjoy eating but I didn't want to go downstairs. So those are in the fridge. But the rest of the list I ignored. I just fucking hit a wall. Ironically I slept fairly well too. Hopefully I sleep as well again tonight and maybe get a ball rolling somewhere somehow. Maybe. 

plan for Sunday:

- do something batcavey

- do something to make me feel better

- drink all the water

[fleaball]

Aaaaaand I just wrecked my ankle tripping on a scrub brush my father left in the middle of the kitchen floor. I'm so done. I can't even muster up the energy to be mad. He was asleep in his recliner earlier and I was so disappointed that he was still breathing. 

[Bean Sidhe]

Hugs.

 

[Athaclena]

18 hours ago, fleaball said:

just wrecked my ankle tripping on a scrub brush my father left in the middle of the kitchen floor.

I'd say it's like you live in a barn - but you don't do that in a barn either......

 

{{hugs}}

[fleaball]

My brother woke me up to ask which pharmacy I was told on Friday had the medicine he's looking for bc it didn't look like our cvs was getting it. I told him he'd still have to fucking call because it's been several days and they may not have it now. Apparently he did, then messaged his doctor saying please send an rx to this place, so now I get to drive him 20 minutes each way. Except it's 4pm, the doctors office closes at 4:30, and I don't currently see a prescription for it at all. Not the one that was pending at our cvs, not a new one, nothing. I might actually kill this kid. I did text him to say I was pissed he woke me up just for that, but he didn't acknowledge it. I'm going to accidentally grind my teeth out of existence at this rate. 

[fleaball]

Someone fuckin kill me please. Even though it's not my problem I've been checking the cvs app to see if the meds would magically appear. It's not in his med list on the app, but by chance I see it as "in process" elsewhere. Check the status, the location is listed as BOSTON. Not where it should have been. Show my father the map to see if he knows where it is (turns out I know exactly where but couldn't picture it bc the map was from an angle I didn't recognize). He has asked me THREE. FUCKING. TIMES. if that location can send it to the one we wanted. Each fucking time I've said no, because it's controlled it can't be transferred and needs a new Rx from the doctor to do that. I spend half an hour on hold trying to see if this place actually has it or not because I'm not driving fucking downtown where there's less than zero parking unless absolutely have to. When they finally do pick up they say they have it, I say please just cancel it bc it went to the wrong place and I'm an asshole. Text my father and say they're out, he says "is it too late to have them send it to the other place?" Fucking seriously dude?

 

Text my brother that they don't have it. He wakes up and tells me that ten minutes before I spoke to someone on the phone he got a text saying it was ready to pick up. I kept checking the fucking app the whole fucking time I was on hold and it did not reflect that wtf. So now I'm calling again to see if it's actually there ready because if that's the case then I guess we're going on a fucking road trip. 

[fleaball]

welp. tried to make a new thread and got blocked by the website somehow? except I can still react and respond to posts. just no creating a thread of my own. awesome. I filled out the contact us form thing so who knows when my new thread will go up.

 

so anyway. I was fucking dead last week. all the stress. all the other-people's-bullshit. kind of recovered. but then this week has been the week of sub-par sleep. womp. not helping the situation is more mystery itchy skin infections. I'm showering with the super antibacterial soap, I got a bunch of brand new pajamas, still happening. idk. The derm said the itchiness made her think it was more a yeast overgrowth thing than bacteria, which I could believe because I've been eating shitty carbs lately, but it didn't respond to the treatment for that and does respond to the antibacterial stuff. So fuck me I guess? 

 

had my annual eye exam today. got slightly more near-sighted over the past year, and I'm sure it's in no way related to the fact that I haven't been wearing my glasses at all. no sign of any diabetic damage, which I didn't realistically expect but the gremlins were all clamoring about because again, shitty eating lately. tomorrow I get to walk off some of that sugar at least.  my cardiologist ordered a home sleep study apparently under the impression that they mail you the thing and you mail it back, but no. I have to go into Boston for an appointment they said will last maaayyyybe ten minutes while they show me how to use the thing, and then I have to return it in person the next day. The lady who called to scheduled was fairly annoyed when I was like "no, due to other appointments I have every week there's no weekdays where I can pick it up by X in the afternoon and then return it by 11am the next day." So apparently I can return it by 8pm Saturday. Interesting. Trying to convince my father to drive me in and just double park while I return it because I really don't want to deal with the train on the weekend. We'll see what happens. 

 

also last week: had a home energy inspection. discovered that my house has exactly 0 insulation of any kind. gee, no wonder it fucking sucks no matter what the weather is. the guy sent us details on all kinds of free or sharply discounted improvements we can make and now I get to hold my father's hand going through it all and deciding what he wants to do. is any of it my responsibility? no. but if it's going to improve *my* quality of life in this shithole, I'm going to make sure it gets done. 

 

and right now I'm currently seething over fucking pokemon go. in multiple announcements in multiple places they wrote "X is guaranteed to happen." X is not happening for anyone. I messaged support which I knew would be a useless endeavor anyway, and their response is "no actually it's that there's an increased chance of Y happening." cute, but that's literally not what these words say in plain english. basically they keep telling me "well I explained it to you so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ." I get that the chat support people have no control over the game and probably aren't paid enough to care but wtf. and because of my stupid ptsd I am livid over it now, because I fucking hate feeling like I've been wronged and there's no solution/apology/acknowledgement. Like they're not going to retroactively fix things because one annoying bitch keeps complaining, but I feel like I can't let this go even though I just keep getting more angry every time they reply to me. At the end of the day it's not even a huge deal; disappointing because the thing we were promised would have been awesome, but it's fucking pokemon go and I have bigger problems in my life right now. I'm just stuck on it. and also half expecting to get banned if I keep messaging them about it. which is unrealistic but when has that stopped me.

 

i need to get back on the exercise and better eating train. I was barely on it before but anything will be better than what I'm doing now. And also my endocrinologist wants me to hit 250 by the time I see her in may; thaaaaat's like 25 pounds and would require at least 2 pounds a week. theoretically doable? sure. should I have been working on this when she mentioned it in november? absolutely. and beyond that like, I'm not getting off my b meds or blood sugar med or asthma inhaler if I just keep being a fat stationary lump of bullshit and mediocre takeout food. blargh. 

 

flea can has new thread? 🙃

[fleaball]

jesus fucking christ. i was able to post a new thread from my phone, but now I can't edit it OR reply to it on my phone or computer. what the fuck man.

[fleaball]

Still having mixed success with trying to post in the new thread so just going to continue here for now. 
 

I'm unnecessarily anxious about this sleep test. Because of course I am. Mainly because she said sleeping on your back is best for the reading, which is fine with me, that's the most comfy. Except I avoid it because reflux and the whole cardiologist-suspects-I-stop-breathing thing. She did say if I sleep on my side it's okay (and if the results are inconclusive they'll just have me go in person for a test  ) but my whole teacher's pet, has-to-do-things-right thing is wigging out about that too. Arrrrrrrgh. 
 

and even more fun! To return the thing I literally just have to run in and drop it at the front desk tomorrow. It would be fucking stupid for me to drive in and park in the garage just for that, and you can't leave your empty car double parked, and taking an Uber or the weekend schedule train would also be a waste. Asked my father to do the driving and double parking, he's acting like it's some kind of huge imposition. I told him he can pick the time, I have until 8pm to get it back. He continued to grumble. Finally I was like "great, I'll get up at noon and we can leave shortly thereafter, how's that?" Grumble grumble. I told him to say no if he really didn't want to, he never said no. ¯\_(ツ)_/ if you can't use your words I'm not going to fucking try to read your mind. Bite me. 
 

if I get these results back and don't have sleep apnea I'll be relieved, obviously, but also pissed because that will mean the reason I sleep like shit is my house and the assholes that live in it. Meh. 

[fleaball]

Every time my father or brother does something that annoys or triggers me I take a deep breath and slowly let it out. I've only been doing this for about a week and I'm already feeling less reactive. At this rate, by the end of the month I'll probably have conditioned myself to directly go into some zen state every time I hear them.  

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

27 minutes ago, fleaball said:

Every time my father or brother does something that annoys or triggers me I take a deep breath and slowly let it out. I've only been doing this for about a week and I'm already feeling less reactive. At this rate, by the end of the month I'll probably have conditioned myself to directly go into some zen state every time I hear them.  

I hope that becomes a good long term solution.

[RES]

20 hours ago, fleaball said:

if I get these results back and don't have sleep apnea I'll be relieved, obviously, but also pissed because that will mean the reason I sleep like shit is my house and the assholes that live in it. Meh. 

I was shocked to learn I had mild sleep apnea (ie; 9 times an hour) but it's really amazing how much better I sleep once I got used to and using the machine. I hope it's a solution that helps you (and D and I both did at home studies and neither of us sleep on our backs)

[fleaball]

 

 

[Emma]

My very uncomfortable sleep test said I stop breathing 19 times an hour. It took a few weeks to get used to the machine but I am sleeping longer and better these days. I did notice that many of my afib episodes were related to sleep apnea. 

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

2 hours ago, Emma said:

My very uncomfortable sleep test said I stop breathing 19 times an hour. It took a few weeks to get used to the machine but I am sleeping longer and better these days. I did notice that many of my afib episodes were related to sleep apnea. 

My favorite professor in undergrad had absent seizures periodically that were due to sleep apnea.

[Emma]

Interesting.

38 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

My favorite professor in undergrad had absent seizures periodically that were due to sleep apnea.

 

[fleaball]

On 2/11/2023 at 6:55 PM, RES said:

I was shocked to learn I had mild sleep apnea (ie; 9 times an hour) but it's really amazing how much better I sleep once I got used to and using the machine. I hope it's a solution that helps you (and D and I both did at home studies and neither of us sleep on our backs)

 

6 hours ago, Emma said:

My very uncomfortable sleep test said I stop breathing 19 times an hour. It took a few weeks to get used to the machine but I am sleeping longer and better these days. I did notice that many of my afib episodes were related to sleep apnea. 

 

these posts make me feel better, but also meh. I just really don't want another fucking diagnosis of something. I know it's obviously treatable and that doing so will improve other problems I'm having but like... no thank you. I also have no idea if the pre-1986 electrical service in my house would support a cpap machine. getting ahead of things there since I haven't even gotten the results back yet, but still. grumpy flea.