[Maggie-Miau]

Grandparents inserted themselves obnoxiously into the recent car situation and i'm not getting into what they've done but i will have officially no qualms with not visiting anymore like. Easter is off. No plans to show up for Thanksgiving or Christmas. Yeehaw.

 

Didn't get any sleep for real today, going in to work a 12 having gotten maybe 3  hours XD It'll be okay. This is my only overtime day, and it'll be a short week. I've had my protein shake today.

[Salinger]

Oh no Mia 

 

I hope it wasn’t too upsetting whatever it was

 

good for you being strong and assertive 

 

love you xx

[Rhovaniel]

Ugh, I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this Mia. Just remember, whatever they have done, you are worth so much more. I'm sorry, having crappy family members gets old, quickly. 

[Maggie-Miau]

On 3/23/2023 at 2:40 AM, Salinger said:

Oh no Mia 

 

I hope it wasn’t too upsetting whatever it was

 

good for you being strong and assertive 

 

love you xx

 

It wasn't so much upsetting as just typical and hypocritical and self-righteous and etc etc. I'm okay ❤️ Momsauce is irritated with them too so it won't be a fight to not go visit for Easter, and i've already told her i don't plan on visiting for Thanksgiving or Christmas either. I'll find somewhere else to be and they can just be mad if they want to.

[Maggie-Miau]

On 3/23/2023 at 9:59 AM, Rhovaniel said:

Ugh, I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this Mia. Just remember, whatever they have done, you are worth so much more. I'm sorry, having crappy family members gets old, quickly. 

 

Thanks Rho! It does get old. I hope to have minimal contact going forward.

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

13 minutes ago, Maggie-Miau said:

 

It wasn't so much upsetting as just typical and hypocritical and self-righteous and etc etc. I'm okay ❤️ Momsauce is irritated with them too so it won't be a fight to not go visit for Easter, and i've already told her i don't plan on visiting for Thanksgiving or Christmas either. I'll find somewhere else to be and they can just be mad if they want to.

This is the path to freedom.

[Maggie-Miau]

Upset

[Maggie-Miau]

Guess its my seemingly regularly scheduled crisis but I'm. Goin through it. I need that insurance to kick in

[Salinger]

how can we support you Mia? xx

[Maggie-Miau]

12 hours ago, Salinger said:

how can we support you Mia? xx

 

*hugs* i appreciate it Sal ❤️ love you :3

[Maggie-Miau]

apparently ive given myself hives or something. hit a breaking point today after accidentally clocking out one minute early, which Hyundai considers an affront to God and will take fifteen minutes out of your Personal Hours for, and if you reach fewer than 20 Personal Hours you get fired. I'm not at imminent risk but it just upset me today because how freakin inhuman is that. You make people come in to work on a Saturday, then hold them extra on Sunday, then when they come back less than 24 hours later to fill in on 1st shift you're gonna penalize them for clocking out a single minute early?  I think that's gross. 

 

It's also Been A Day and i wound up having a full sobbing panic attack- made it to my car first -and finally just texted both of my supervisors to let them know i am Struggling  Horribly because a coworker went on maternity leave and that's left me by myself with not one but two trainees to babysit and check behind and my braincells are already at their limit just paying attention to my work. Plus the car stuff last week and it's hit me that i'm now properly stuck since ive got Rent and a car note [broski is contributing to the car note but it's still a pile of debt] and the stuff with the grandparents, and now after the wreck broski has a phobia around driving/wont be getting his own vehicle anytime soon. 

 

i've been having a hard time eating. even the protein shakes it's like. ew. eating sucks drinking sucks consuming things sucks i don't like doing it. 

Scheduled for 12 hours on this shift then no more ot til thursday-into-friday. I don't think we're working Saturday. After Good Friday we're supposed to switch to working Sunday-through-Thursday. 

[SkyGirl]

You are going through A Lot right now and I'm so proud of you. And everything is Very Unfair and Not Right and I would like to administer some percussive justice in several of these situations.  😡

 

All of the feelings you're having make perfect sense with how much you're carrying in each of these situations. I don't know how much flex you have to actually take time off work or anything, but it's also okay to take a little break from the "I need to eat, I need to work, I need to sleep, I need to ..." self-talk as well. If it would help you feel better to zone out on your phone for an hour, that's also okay. You're working so hard and doing so great.  ❤️  

 

Love you, mellon nin!

[Maggie-Miau]

3 hours ago, SkyGirl said:

I don't know how much flex you have to actually take time off work

 

Very little for now tbh, we have vacation days and personal hours and I have ti have the vacation days to cover summer shutdown, getting to less than 20 personal hours leads to getting written up, and you only start with/can only have up to 64. I'm already down to like 44 personal hours due to the car situation, and will be out for two days in July since I already got tickets for that show. They kinda trap you for real. 

[Rhovaniel]

That is a crappy work system and I hate it for you, Mia. You are going through ALOT right now, as others have said. Is there anything in your budget or wiggle room for you to put something aside with each pay day. Even if it's a small amount you don't think will make a difference, building up a small buffer for Emergencies can be a real help, mentally as well as physically. For me, having some money aside as a safety net takes such a mental weight off. 

[Maggie-Miau]

8 hours ago, Rhovaniel said:

That is a crappy work system and I hate it for you, Mia. You are going through ALOT right now, as others have said. Is there anything in your budget or wiggle room for you to put something aside with each pay day. Even if it's a small amount you don't think will make a difference, building up a small buffer for Emergencies can be a real help, mentally as well as physically. For me, having some money aside as a safety net takes such a mental weight off. 

 

That's one of the main things i've been working on, is saving/budgeting. I try to put away no less than a hundred dollars per check

[Maggie-Miau]

Supervisors never actually talked to me yesterday like they had said they would. 2nd Shift had left an unmitigated disaster and i managed to catch us up and get us ahead pretty much by myself- the other coworker was resigned to be behind all night but i didn't want to be behind and have first shift come in and think i was why it was behind so, naaaaaaw fam i worked like a beast XD And then for my four overtime hours i kept working like a beast and had no errors/stayed ahead. Nobody had anything to say. Which is fine, i knew i did a good job.  

 

I think part of why i've been upset is that i feel like irk people are really nice to me at first but then after a while they get irritated and start to dislike me/find me annoying. People get tired of me or something, and it's because i don't meet expectations. 

 

Not on for OT in the morning so i get to come straight home and sleep and i am really looking forward to that. 

[Rhovaniel]

14 hours ago, Maggie-Miau said:

 

That's one of the main things i've been working on, is saving/budgeting. I try to put away no less than a hundred dollars per check

That is awesome if you can do that. See, you are crushing it!

 

5 hours ago, Maggie-Miau said:

Supervisors never actually talked to me yesterday like they had said they would. 2nd Shift had left an unmitigated disaster and i managed to catch us up and get us ahead pretty much by myself- the other coworker was resigned to be behind all night but i didn't want to be behind and have first shift come in and think i was why it was behind so, naaaaaaw fam i worked like a beast XD And then for my four overtime hours i kept working like a beast and had no errors/stayed ahead. Nobody had anything to say. Which is fine, i knew i did a good job.  

 

I think part of why i've been upset is that i feel like irk people are really nice to me at first but then after a while they get irritated and start to dislike me/find me annoying. People get tired of me or something, and it's because i don't meet expectations. 

 

Not on for OT in the morning so i get to come straight home and sleep and i am really looking forward to that. 

UUUUUGGGGGH That sucks. 

 

 

5 hours ago, Maggie-Miau said:

I think part of why i've been upset is that i feel like irk people are really nice to me at first but then after a while they get irritated and start to dislike me/find me annoying. People get tired of me or something, and it's because i don't meet expectations. 

Sadly, this is true of many people. Nice at first, until the 'Just Met You' facade lowers and their true personality becomes more evident. Just remember, that has nothing to do with you. Remember, in a work place, many bosses, particularly supervisors, will expect so much more of their workers than is ever going to be realistic. I had it in retail. You could bust your butt for them all day long, take all the extra shifts and crappy hours, but the only time they wanted to talk was if you made the smallest error. Not saying that's entirely accurate of your situation, but just remember, their opinion of you is unlikely to be anything to do with you as a person. Some places get annoyed we're not all robots (yet).

[Maggie-Miau]

I GOT MY INSURANCE

[Rhovaniel]

1 hour ago, Maggie-Miau said:

I GOT MY INSURANCE

HECK YES!!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Heck yeah! Make that insurance pay!

[Maggie-Miau]

NEXT STEP FINDING A DOCTOR

[Maggie-Miau]

STILL WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM DR BUT I AM ALSO DEBATING WHETHER TO BE REALLY BRAVE AND GO TO A DENTIST? i don't have any tooth problems and i do HATE going to dentists but i'm kinda like 👀 maybe with insurance i can get my teeth straightened....not sure if it's worth it or not. 

[Rhovaniel]

28 minutes ago, Maggie-Miau said:

STILL WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM DR BUT I AM ALSO DEBATING WHETHER TO BE REALLY BRAVE AND GO TO A DENTIST? i don't have any tooth problems and i do HATE going to dentists but i'm kinda like 👀 maybe with insurance i can get my teeth straightened....not sure if it's worth it or not. 

Dental health is important. A check up is almost certainly worth it. The insurance might cover a hygienist appointment, too?

 

 

Fingers crossed for speedy acceptance from the Dr (if that is a thing. I am not entirely sure how health insurance and seeing doctors and all that works on your side of the pond)

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

29 minutes ago, Maggie-Miau said:

STILL WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM DR BUT I AM ALSO DEBATING WHETHER TO BE REALLY BRAVE AND GO TO A DENTIST? i don't have any tooth problems and i do HATE going to dentists but i'm kinda like 👀 maybe with insurance i can get my teeth straightened....not sure if it's worth it or not. 

Straightening depends on how good the orthodontia coverage is on your dental plan. Also I'm not sure but I seem to remember sensory issues on your part, and getting teeth straightened involves Things in Your Mouth so that's a consideration as well. Once the process is done it's generally beneficial for oral health.

As for Dental checkups, they are always beneficial, and a good way to prevent problems. If you're nervous about the dentist, check to see if any dentists cover Nursing Homes. They often have to take care of patients with Dementia who DO NOT LIKE people putting things in their mouth, and learn to be really gentle. If they also cover regular patients, that might be someone to take care of you.

[Maggie-Miau]

Got a call back from a doctor, for some reason getting in as a new patient is a whole Thing instead of one phonecard. They're supposed to get back to me Monday to finish registration. 

 

Idk if I said but my supervisors never did actually talk to me. I haven't seen team lead since last week and the main supervisor who said he'd talk to me has been around but not said anything XD things have calmed down but I'm still out here babysitting this trainee who doesn't want to do anything. She's real sweet but she only wants to do one part of the work, complains if we don't get off early, makes less effort the further along the night goes (meaning I have to check her work more as the night progresses bc she starts leaving errors) and tries to tell me to slow down and not work so hard even though I'm the one it comes down on if there are errors left behind for first shift to deal with XP like ma'am I will stab u with these tin snips don't talk to me 😅