[MaeradCase]

13 minutes ago, Artemis Prime said:

interesting food for thought. They always say to do things for future you, but you raise a good point. What has Future AP ever done for me? She is notoriously unreliable. On the other hand, I can flip it to be more motivated to do stuff that I have been procrastinating on, because Past AP was counting on me (as Future AP, who is now Present AP) to pick up the slack for her.   Hmmm...we're getting into some wibbly wobbly territory here.

That is actually worth dwelling on. I think it's very easy to make statements that reflect our feelings and sentiments without taking the time to look at what is and isn't being said. 

I am glad I wrote at work so that in the midst and aftermath of my meltdown I didn't have to worry about the quota, but also why didn't I trust myself? In November sometimes I'd do extra writing in the evening to go above and beyond the quota to make future days easier. 🤔

Also, I like your thoughts on the matter - future me may not be doing anything for me yet, but future me is eventually present me, and as present me I can choose to respect the past me's wishes and desires. So wibbly-wobbly. 😂

[Salinger]

Sorry about the loneliness  I get it too

 

sending comforting hugs xx

[Snarkyfishguts]

Y'all are making me realize that the times I'm most content, I'm doing things for Present Me, not Future Me.  Thanks for the reminder that I have worth as I am now. 

 

I definitely pronounce it p'cahn.  If I can squish a word down to a syllable, I'm happy.  

 

I hope you're feeling better today💚

[TimovieMan]

2 hours ago, MaeradCase said:

This debate is exactly why I included my pronunciation. 😂 I'd love to hear everyone's own pronunciations just out of curiosity.

I say "pee-kan". Makes sense if that's the UK pronuncation...

I only just found out today that there's an alternative way of pronouncing it... 😇

 

 

 

Hugs and well-wishes!

[Everstorm]

My sympathies on feeling all the feels.  I hope your day is filled with all the people who love you today.

 

And it's definitely p'cahn.

[Sovalis]

It’s pee-kan for me. Sometimes pee-con. Seems to depend what sentence I am using it in as to which one sounds better. 

 

I am sorry you had the overwhelming feels. I have totally been there. I am glad that Cid was there for you and that you got to cry. I find crying really helpful. 

 

I am also glad that you discovered the massage function at the dentist. That’s a good distraction. 

 

Sending love. ❤️ 

[MaeradCase]

3 hours ago, Salinger said:

Sorry about the loneliness  I get it too

 

sending comforting hugs xx

Thank you. I can't say why it hit so hard, but it packed a punch.

 

3 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

Y'all are making me realize that the times I'm most content, I'm doing things for Present Me, not Future Me.  Thanks for the reminder that I have worth as I am now. 

🌟 Hundred percent! ❤

 

3 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I definitely pronounce it p'cahn.  If I can squish a word down to a syllable, I'm happy.  

 

I hope you're feeling better today💚

An excellent contender for the debate!

And my mouth is less numb just in time for lunch, so it may be a better day than it would be otherwise. 😅

 

2 hours ago, TimovieMan said:

I say "pee-kan". Makes sense if that's the UK pronuncation...

I only just found out today that there's an alternative way of pronouncing it... 😇

 

Hugs and well-wishes!

It's one of the most notorious pronunciations, and I've always felt it should mean a WC, and not a delightful nut. 😂

 

1 hour ago, Everstorm said:

My sympathies on feeling all the feels.  I hope your day is filled with all the people who love you today.

 

And it's definitely p'cahn.

Thank you! I am certainly aided by the strong support on the forums, and I could try reaching out to friends now I'm on my lunch break.

 

1 hour ago, Sovalis said:

It’s pee-kan for me. Sometimes pee-con. Seems to depend what sentence I am using it in as to which one sounds better. 

I'm the same way with "aunt" and I never know for sure if I say it with or without the u affecting the sound. 😂

 

1 hour ago, Sovalis said:

I am sorry you had the overwhelming feels. I have totally been there. I am glad that Cid was there for you and that you got to cry. I find crying really helpful. 

 

I am also glad that you discovered the massage function at the dentist. That’s a good distraction. 

 

Sending love. ❤️ 

Yes to all of this. Thank you. ❤

 

Since I have given myself wiggle room to write at work, I decided to fiddle around with a scene I skipped this morning, and to start off I contrasted it with an earlier scene by letting one scene be quiet and the other noisy (old historians house versus caravan leader's favorite tavern). I also want them to be completely different voices, and since the latter is present through the book I want to convey she's in charge of the caravan for good reason. 😍 Hopefully that plan is met with success. 😅

 

My mouth has feeling again. It's feeling achy. I'll be careful chewing. But lunch is just in time because I'm feeling hungry.

Thank you for all the support.

Sincerely,

Maerad

[shaar]

Massage chairs at the dentist whaaaaat! That’s a huge perk!

 

Hoping the loneliness subsides for you. 💖 

[Salinger]

Morning! How is your mouth today?

 

xx

[MaeradCase]

17 hours ago, shaar said:

Massage chairs at the dentist whaaaaat! That’s a huge perk!

Yeah, they should've told me sooner! I'd have used it the last several visits, too!

17 hours ago, shaar said:

Hoping the loneliness subsides for you. 💖 

I seem to be doing better. Thank you, shaar. 😃

 

4 hours ago, Salinger said:

Morning! How is your mouth today?

 

xx

Morning, Sal!

The mouth is better than last night. The ache was from my jaw to across my forehead. I might take a precautionary ibuprofen so it doesn't resume. I took some last night before bed. 

 

Cid started reading our newest Sanderson book while I played Terra Nil. I have officially completed the game, though I have two more achievements to accomplish before those are also 100%. 😍

Tonight is game night and we're facing a behemoth icky monster in the sewers, with a likelihood of dying if the dice don't roll in our favor. 😅

 

I haven't done stretches or writing today, but I took a shower. My peeled skin has mostly come off, so I'd say my burns are healed. 😃

Zemi is very cutely cuddled up with me, but I must betray them to get breakfast before work. 😧

 

Hope a ray of sunshine catches your eye today.

[Artemis Prime]

21 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

Y'all are making me realize that the times I'm most content, I'm doing things for Present Me, not Future Me.  Thanks for the reminder that I have worth as I am now. 

I was thinking this reading Maerad's reply to me. Past Me was Present Me when I made those plans, and Future Me who was supposed to do it is now Present Me, so really Present Me is the only Me. (That makes sense in my head, but it looks weird when I type it out.)

[MaeradCase]

14 minutes ago, Artemis Prime said:

21 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

Y'all are making me realize that the times I'm most content, I'm doing things for Present Me, not Future Me.  Thanks for the reminder that I have worth as I am now. 

I was thinking this reading Maerad's reply to me. Past Me was Present Me when I made those plans, and Future Me who was supposed to do it is now Present Me, so really Present Me is the only Me. (That makes sense in my head, but it looks weird when I type it out.)

Nah, that makes sense to me. We only ever live in the present, and make choices in the present. How we make our choices is established by our past and influences our future, but in the present we can make the choices or make the changes.

 

Ashley Johnson summed it up best as Fearne Calloway: "time is a weird soup."

[Sovalis]

Time is absolutely a weird soup. Y’all are good chefs though.

 

[Everstorm]

5 hours ago, MaeradCase said:

Zemi is very cutely cuddled up with me, but I must betray them to get breakfast before work. 😧

They have us trained so well, don't they? 😄

 

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[MaeradCase]

Big news update before dinner and game night: I hit my word quota today! I wasn't able to get on this morning, and game night won't let me tonight. I wrote an appendix about moons like a madman. Perfectly 1667 words. 🏆

[shaar]

YESSSS quota hit!! Congrats!!

 

And what Sanderson book is Cid reading? He's one of Ao's favorite authors, he just got a new book in the mail about a month ago too... (it's green with a pretty cover, that's all i can remember, heheh)

[MaeradCase]

1 hour ago, shaar said:

YESSSS quota hit!! Congrats!!

 

And what Sanderson book is Cid reading? He's one of Ao's favorite authors, he just got a new book in the mail about a month ago too... (it's green with a pretty cover, that's all i can remember, heheh)

That's the one - it's "Tress of the Emerald Sea." He got it within the last week. I probably won't be reading it until after April so as not to take away time from my writing objective.

 

Good morning!

I think yesterday's game went far better than anticipated in the horror of the cliffhanger.

Spoiler

As expected, it was a rough fight with the mirelurk queen that ambushed us in the sewers. It was faster than all of us, and it had swarms of hatchlings to try to overwhelm us in addition to its powerful pincher and acid breath attacks. I honestly went into the fight picturing our party dying a very epic death.

Our super-mutant party member (Cid's) had his leg broken by the pincher attack it made on its first turn. In retaliation he smashed his baseball bat so hard into its claw that both the bat and the claw's carapace broke. 

My vault dweller used the V.A.T.S. on her P.I.P. boy to target the fleshy face, and gathered further information that benefited the party - the behemoth filling the sewer tunnel was actually already injured from a previous fight. She tried to sound optimistic, but was still daunted by the size of the monster.

The super-mutant stabbed his fractured bat into its face, and our Mr. Handy robot friend Marvin put a buzz saw down the length of it into the fleshy inner portions of the mirelurk's head where the damage was sufficient to kill the gross thing.

We got a few weapons as we looted the monstrous body, and we took the unbroken pincher with us. It got us a discount from a shop-owner who recognized it and wanted to reward us for avenging his friends that had died injuring it.

We did more shopping, went looking for a relevant NPC, got woken by him in the middle of the night, and he took us to a key location where we were hunting foe the G.E.C.K. and found it just in time for bad folks to show up demanding we hand it over. There's gonna be a fight, and it's bound to be as bad as the mirelurk queen. 😧

 

I did get 2/3 of the food goals yesterday.

I didn't do the warm-up... I didn't today either... But I shouldn't let that stop me from making time for it sometime today. 😤

I managed to grab fruit to pair with lunch today, and refreshed my mixed nuts supply, but still struggling to grab my crunchy veggies because I'm not making time to prep them. 😧 Fortunately, dinner tonight with have extra broccoli, so I'll be hitting that goal despite missing veggies at lunch.

 

I wrote a scene this morning until I was running late. Still haven't hit quota today, but 250 words is doable. 😃

 

Hope your goals are within reach today!

[MaeradCase]

2 hours ago, MaeradCase said:

I wrote a scene this morning until I was running late. Still haven't hit quota today, but 250 words is doable. 😃

Spent my lunch break typing up a scene both to get quota (first day of 2000 words this month!) and to get the show on the road, because as much as I want to make the story feel like it's about Elianor (since it is), I'm also antsy and want her to meet her companions! 😤 So now I'm kicking her out of Heliodor and she's finally locked up the house to get going! 🎉 Let's GOOOOO!!!

[Everstorm]

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[MaeradCase]

1 hour ago, Everstorm said:

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Why would you hide that gem? ❤

[Everstorm]

4 hours ago, MaeradCase said:

Why would you hide that gem? ❤

I got the impression somewhere that it is good etiquette to hide images/gifs on other people's threads to prevent anyone possibly getting in trouble at work?  I guess it's easier to fake a wall of text as being work-related? 🤷‍♀️  

[MaeradCase]

2 hours ago, Everstorm said:

I got the impression somewhere that it is good etiquette to hide images/gifs on other people's threads to prevent anyone possibly getting in trouble at work?  I guess it's easier to fake a wall of text as being work-related? 🤷‍♀️  

🤷‍♀️ That's fair. My work computer won't let me on the forums anyway, so I hadn't considered that.

 

Good afternoon!

I'm not at work today because a friend asked for my company doing bride things. I had breakfast with my mom, writing time at a library, dress shopping, and road trip to lunch and venue. I hit my word quota at the library. I had lots of fruit at breakfast. Will look for veggies when we finally get to our lunch (😭 I am so hungry - we are already two hours past my usual lunch time).

[Sovalis]

I send you a nourishing Care Bear Stare to hold you over until lunch! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

 

Sounds like a really great day so far, mealtime tardiness not withstanding. 

[Everstorm]

Nice job getting your words in on what sounds like a very busy day

[MaeradCase]

15 hours ago, Sovalis said:

I send you a nourishing Care Bear Stare to hold you over until lunch! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Thank you. We sat down for lunch shortly after - I honestly didn't have a lot of time to update, but I wanted to announce word quota success, and the only time I snagged was on the far end of a long car ride.

15 hours ago, Sovalis said:

Sounds like a really great day so far, mealtime tardiness not withstanding. 

I think it was? But I also was so dang exhausted at the end that I fell asleep shortly after getting home. I'm usually feeling invigorated by the company I keep, so that was weird.

 

15 hours ago, Everstorm said:

Nice job getting your words in on what sounds like a very busy day

Thank you! I almost didn't make it because the friend called me while en route, and my book progress waited, but when she took another call I slammed out the last few hundred words before leaving the library. 😅

 

I did have veggies at "lunch", though they were tempura fried, and I nearly got a stomach ache eating them. The tempura chicken was tasty but giving the same problem. I did have a side salad, and the other two were fighting over who should eat the other one because neither of them like lettuce I guess. I threatened to eat it to stop the bickering, but didn't end up eating it, which is fine since I had a rather large meal to try to eat quickly. Guess I got veggies in, though, mostly thanks to the salad. 😅

 

After looking at the venue (a bit more expensive than mine was, and keeps tabs on accruing small costs in a way that bothers me, but isn't unusual for wedding venues 😤), we stopped for cake. It had candied pecans, caramel, cream, and was overall a wonderful cake. I both do and don't want to count the nuts toward food goals. 😂

Do: 3/3 food goals - hurrah

Don't 2/3 food goals because the nuts were a candied garnish, not a snack...

I'm going with do. 😂

 

We drove back to the library where I left my car after the dress shop. I took a couple wrong turns and was going the right way on the wrong street. I ended up having a nice backroad drive toward the highway. I had originally planned to stop by mom's again on the way home, but I called to let her know home needed to be my only destination so I could sleep. 

 

Cid has his bike and his new bike gear (helmet and lock). I have a bike ride with a friend soon. I might bike today if it warms up again. We're flip-flopping with the high/low settings. 😅 By the end of next week, the lows should've gotten above 40 consistently, so I might cast my flower seeds then. I haven't been weeding, but I expected as much thanks to my preference of hitting quota before work. I could take an afternoon to pull the few ones I deem weeds, the taller grass, and the running grass. Maybe that and/or biking can happen when I get home and have an on-time lunch with Cid. 😍

 

That's enough for now. Time for breakfast before my half-shift.

Thanks for your support!

Sincerely,

Maerad