Sovalis Posted May 22 Author Report Share Posted May 22 18 hours ago, Rookie said: I mean it couldn't hurt to do a drive by cheeky lift lol. Like 2 or 3 just to test the waters lol It definitely didn't hurt. 12 hours ago, Salinger said: Hey Sov, how did the BBQ turn out? Hope you enjoyed the rest of your Sunday xx Hi Sal! BBQ was lovely. We will definitely pick up the beef skewers again, they were very good and will make a nice easy future meals. The rest of my Sunday was so deliciously relaxing. Made art in a junk journal for a few hours, rested on the couch. It was great. 57 minutes ago, Heidi said: The smoke is making its way SOutheast, all the way into Virginia. We can smell it and the sky is slightly hazy. I hope you had a lovely day yesterday and that you're enjoying today, too. You deserve excellent days, all strung together like a string of pearls, and support on less-excellent days, like the string that threads through them. I am sorry you are getting our smoke too. That's wild and not good. Yesterday was lovely and today has been good so far. Thank you, Heidi. I appreciate that you are part of my supportive string. Hi Friends! The smoke is much clearer today and I am so grateful for it. The fires are still burning and the Army has been called in, but in what capacity I have no idea. I could go on a long political tear about the current premier and her maliciousness and ineptness, but I don't want to make myself angry. Let's just say we are getting ready for an election later this month and I hope all her pigeons come home to roost and she is ousted. What a nightmare. Our anniversary was low key and lovely. I spend most of the day in my studio, which I have been neglecting, flipping through old sketchbooks and art journals from 2014-2017 which were three of the years of my divorce proceedings. Wow, was I ever a profound person doing a lot of scut work to resolve my emotional damage and baggage. I am so amazed at the insights I was having and the way I was presenting them visually. What great time capsules to have. It made me realize that I haven't kept an art journal in a few years (not since I started doing the fantasy mapping and the Patreon) and I missed it, so I found a journal that had two pages started in it and spent a happy few hours mucking about. I posted the finished pages on my instagram and felt good to be posting art again. Then when I was done I washed my brush and went and flaked out on the couch for a little while and did nothing. Very restful. I feel slightly bad that I didn't do any housework but I was in such a pleasant art afterglow that I can't really fault myself for not wanting to harsh my vibe. Dave picked up kabobs and halloumi as requested and they were delicious. We watched the latest episode of Ted Lasso and it was good. Then Dave decided he wanted a Blizzard, so we drove to Dairy Queen and ordered the tasty ice cream treats. I resisted getting a large and got a medium. I really could have done with a small and I will try to remember that for next time. It was sweet and easy to eat, but not super satisfying? I don't know how to explain it. It was more about sharing a treat with my husband than about eating the actual Blizzard, I think. Which is interesting and also fine. Then we watched a comedy special on Netflix and headed to bed. Mellow night and I really enjoyed that it was so. This morning I woke up at 6:20 when Dave opened the garage door to take the garbage to the curb (our bedroom is above the garage). So I got up. My word the day takes so much longer to move when you're up that early! I had coffee and read the forums, then did some Bujo and my Tarot, dog chores and my workout. I used the new 15 lb weights today and oh yes, that is the difference I was looking for. Much more work to do the dumbbell routine I have chosen and then to add them to the bodyweight routine in places, too. I might need some grip strengthening exercises; my left hand was a little weaker with the heavier weights than I was expecting. My Fitbit registered it as active minutes but not a workout. That's fine. Then I had breakfast and came up to my desk so I could check and update the forums again. One of my dearest friends is driving from Edmonton to see me today and I am very excited. She hasn't seen the house since we moved (just photos on FB) so it will be nice to share the space. And then I work tonight as usual despite the long weekend. I will take my day in lieu when we go to Regina and that will be just fine with me. I am very happy that my workout went so well today and that I had so little mental resistance to doing it. This is excellent. I hope that you are smoothly sailing into whatever the toughest part of your day is and have everything you need to get through it with ease. Thanks for being here. ❤️ 12 2 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 23 Author Report Share Posted May 23 Hi Friends! Work last night was smooth sailing and decent sales. Partway through the night a brief rainstorm blew in. We had a bit of thunder and lightning, some rain, and a momentary loss of power. Thankfully that restored itself almost immediately and the night could conclude as it usually does. Dave was racked right out when I got home so I curled up with him and Saxon and drifted off. I am grateful for our air conditioner making our bedroom cool and comfortable overnight. I slept until almost 8 this morning. I turned my alarm off at 7 and rolled over. That was a mistake, but clearly one I needed to make to feel better. I woke up congested, maybe from the smoke? But the smoke doesn’t seem so bad this morning and the air conditioner has a filter so that doesn’t make sense to me. It passed as I woke up which is good news. I had coffee with Dave, did my Tarot, had breakfast, and then drove Dave to work so I could have the car. My right foot is still bothering me and I didn’t want to walk to work on it. This turned out to be wise as I did walk to the bank to do my deposit after I got to work and I am pretty sore now. More stretching and massage required. I don’t think I can meet my walking goal this challenge now, I have missed too many days. I’d have to check that to be sure, but I am feeling confident. I am disappointed about this, but I know I don’t want this to linger so I need to do what I can to help it pass. And if that is resting, so be it. Thankfully it didn’t interfere too much with yesterday’s workout or I’d be really grumpy. My Amazon order showed up a day early and I am very delighted by it - I got some beautiful watercolour washi stickers in various styles. I am looking forward to doing more Bujo layouts with them and using them in my new junk journal. It is delightful to enjoy the art of others in such a way. I am wondering about investing in some magazine subscriptions so that I have some more collage fodder. The Uppercase Magazine is a particular favourite and I wouldn’t mind getting a few of them again. We don’t have many magazine stands here in town and most of them are things I don’t care much about, so subscriptions might be the way to go. I have also thought about buying a small photo printer so I can print some of my photos that I take for my 365 project to archive in my book. More research required for that. Almost time to open the store. The weather is beautiful today so maybe we will see some people. I don’t have a lot for stock and I sent a message to Ken letting him know I am low. Hopefully he responds. We never know with him. I hope you are getting the responses you need today, from people, yourself, or the Universe. You are loved. Thank you for being here. ❤️ 11 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Harriet Posted May 24 Report Share Posted May 24 Good choice to let the foot heal despite the frustration. And it's lovely that you're doing art and collage. It sounds very cheering. 3 Quote Let cheese and oxen and mead crowd out our secret desires for power and domination - Harriet the Viking Just be bold, fluid and unapologetic, not small, hairy and indecisive - Harriet the Artist You can absorb me! - Harriet the Contextless Guru Link to comment
Elastigirl Posted May 24 Report Share Posted May 24 Are the fires near you, or are you just getting the smoke? I had no idea that Canada was having so many fires already until some of the smoke was in our air. Yay for new stickers! 2 Quote Wisdom 22.5 Dexterity 13 Charisma 15 Strength 21 Constitution-13 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind' Luke 10; 27 Link to comment
Silmarilliane Posted May 24 Report Share Posted May 24 Definitely good to let the foot heal but I hear you on the frustrations - I had a challenge some years ago where my walking exercise was giving me extra calories for eating but injured my foot so couldn't walk. So on top of not being able to enjoy exercising, I could even eat to make myself feel better! Hope the resting up sorts it out soon 2 Quote Level 33 Rogue Ranger Welcome to the Dungeons of Doom; locate the Amulet of Yendor ♀ on Level 26 Challenges: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36 Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 24 Author Report Share Posted May 24 2 hours ago, Harriet said: Good choice to let the foot heal despite the frustration. And it's lovely that you're doing art and collage. It sounds very cheering. Thanks, Harriet. I am not always the most patient, but the art distractions help. 1 hour ago, Elastigirl said: Are the fires near you, or are you just getting the smoke? I had no idea that Canada was having so many fires already until some of the smoke was in our air. Yay for new stickers! The fires are within 300-500 km, I think, so not super close, but the smoke has been intense. We are doing better than most places; there have been some photos of Calgary that make it look post apocalyptic. “Normally” we don’t hit fires until August, but this year there has been no chill. I am worried that things are going to get much worse as the summer goes on. New stickers, woo! 1 hour ago, Silmarilliane said: Definitely good to let the foot heal but I hear you on the frustrations - I had a challenge some years ago where my walking exercise was giving me extra calories for eating but injured my foot so couldn't walk. So on top of not being able to enjoy exercising, I could even eat to make myself feel better! Hope the resting up sorts it out soon Yeah, I am trying to not eat my frustrations as well and so far managing that okay. Hopefully I can hold out! Thanks, Silmarilliane! (By the way, my iPad knows your name as an auto insert now which is kind of amazing!) Hi Friends! I am not having the most fabulous morning today. Feeling a little off, stomach is upset, it’s all a little wonky. My mood is okay, but I feel a bit thin and uninspired. I am hoping it passes soon. I think I know why my stomach is upset and it’s because I ate two things yesterday that weren’t to plan. So I just need to wait for them to process out of my system and then not do them again. It’s a shame because one was Boston Pizza’s boneless chicken bites which I really enjoy. I had two. They have a wheat based crispy coating on them that I suspect is the culprit. And the other thing was ~20 of the small round Tostitos nachos with cheese on them that I shared with Dave last night. I think that they might be majority corn but I suspect there is some wheat in there, too, I’d have to check. Either way, I knew they weren’t the best choices when I had them and I was a little compulsive about both, so lesson learned. I realize that I have some FOMO when it comes to food and Dave and I need to work on that. I didn’t make my soup last night because I forgot Kim and I were scheduled to play Follow Me Down. So I will need to do that tonight. I didn’t make myself breakfast this morning because of the stomach issues, but I packed my veggies and almonds to bring to work for lunch and I will have them with a protein bar because I have no soup. I bought the fixings for tacos for supper. Hopefully I have enough energy to cook two meals tonight. Otherwise I am making Dave barbecue burgers for us for supper and I will make soup. The dishwasher is draining weirdly again (it’s a problem with the sink this time, not the actual dishwasher as far as I can tell) which means I am back to doing dishes by hand. Which of course I am procrastinating on and the kitchen is a mess. Boo. I will have to get into that and get it cleaned up before it really starts to irritate me. It’s getting close already. I had a breakthrough on my Worldbuilding yesterday that felt pretty good. I am hoping for more of that today. My new notebook for “Allegra” arrived yesterday so I am looking forward to transcribing notes from my Bujo into it today and then doing some brainstorming for that story. I did my dumbbells this morning but did not do my Bodyweight workout. I walked more than I should have yesterday between going to the bank and getting groceries after work and my foot is quite sore today. I am really tired of this. I have more stretches and stuff I can be doing so I guess I need to keep that up and just resign myself to this taking even longer. Double Boo. On the plus, a pair of my more constricting leggings fit much more nicely when I put them on this morning. So that is cool. I hope that you hear a joke that makes you smile today. A laugh would be better, but a smile will do. Thanks for being here. ❤️ 12 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Silmarilliane Posted May 25 Report Share Posted May 25 20 hours ago, Sovalis said: By the way, my iPad knows your name as an auto insert now which is kind of amazing! Ahaha, amazing! 20 hours ago, Sovalis said: My mood is okay, but I feel a bit thin and uninspired. This makes me think of Bilbo saying he feels like butter scraped over too much bread 20 hours ago, Sovalis said: Double Boo. I definitely get FOMO with people eating delicious food while I'm calorie counting, but it must particularly suck if it's food that you know tastes good but makes you unwell 😪 3 Quote Level 33 Rogue Ranger Welcome to the Dungeons of Doom; locate the Amulet of Yendor ♀ on Level 26 Challenges: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36 Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 25 Author Report Share Posted May 25 2 hours ago, Silmarilliane said: This makes me think of Bilbo saying he feels like butter scraped over too much bread Very apt. 2 hours ago, Silmarilliane said: I definitely get FOMO with people eating delicious food while I'm calorie counting, but it must particularly suck if it's food that you know tastes good but makes you unwell 😪 Yeah, I am trying to get used to it. The problem is honestly that although I feel bad, it’s not killing me bad, just uncomfortable the next day kind of bad. So there’s not much deterrent in the moment and room for lots of regret the next day. I have to be mindful of future me and I am not always the best at that. Especially when things are delicious. 😅 Hi Friends! Last night did not go to plan but I ended up having a pretty good time anyway. When Dave came to pick me up from work he mentioned that a bunch of people from his work were going out for wings and did we want to join? I felt like not cooking so I said yes. We went and it was pretty fun. I had a lettuce wrapped burger and splurged on some kettle chips. I had super low carb intake yesterday before supper so while I am certain I blew past my 75g benchmark, it could have been worse! I enjoyed my meal immensely and then just listened to all of the conversation around the table. After supper Les and Martin came home with us for Paint Night and I worked on finishing Mar and Enna. That was good. After they left we watched the new episode of Ted Lasso. I cried. It was so good. I decided to skip my Bodyweight workout yesterday because my foot was hurting, but did my dumbbells because they don’t involve me moving my lower body too much. Today was a rest day for workouts so I rested. I got up, did dog chores, coffee, and Tarot and then had time to kill before Dave came to bring me to work. I did not motivate myself to use that time productively and instead scrolled the forums on my phone. I need to get the kitchen clean and make soup tonight for sure. Dave is probably off work at noon today and all day tomorrow so I have asked him to look into the dishwasher issue. Hopefully he does. We also need to get the front lawn mowed this weekend, the dandelions are wild. Otherwise not too much to report! Game prep to do today and then maybe working some more on Allegra. I started reading some writing craft books yesterday that are super useful so continuing with them as well. I hope that you have the information you need to make your difficult tasks easier. Thanks for being here. ❤️ 12 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Heidi Posted May 26 Report Share Posted May 26 8 hours ago, Sovalis said: we watched the new episode of Ted Lasso. I cried. It was so good. It really was. Boo for clogged sinks/hoses/dishwashers! Hope that gets sorted. I think you have a great balance overall on the goals fronts, and I'm especially liking how you are navigating the conviviality with mindfulness. This makes my heart happy. ,❣️ 1 Quote ♥ & ☮, Heidi Spoiler Gypsy Druid Ranger: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 :: Druid: 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |:: 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 |:: 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 |:: 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 |:: 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 | 43 | 44 | 45 | 46 |:: 47 | 48 | 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53| 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 |:: 61 | 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | :: 70 | Paladin: 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | :: 77 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 | Shaman: 82 | 83 | 84 Philosopher-Librarian 85 | Heidi Chronicles NF Character Sheet | @theheidifeed| MySlashdotKarmaIsExcellent Walk to Mordor - (spreadsheet) Let's catch up: https://calendly.com/loveandpeace Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 26 Author Report Share Posted May 26 Hi Friends! I did not, in fact, tackle the kitchen or the making of soup yesterday. I had a very slow day at the shop (no one came in!) so I worked on Allegra and haunted the forums all day. When Dave came to pick me up we went to the store to get a few things and then he said he wanted A&W for supper. I was feeling unmotivated to cook again (or perhaps just overwhelmed with how much work that kitchen is going to be) so I said yes and got my usual lettuce wrapped burger. Dave originally was thinking Dairy Queen but changed his mind to A&W when he realized that DQ doesn’t lettuce wrap burgers. I felt supported that he was willing to change what he wanted so I could at least get something that wasn’t going to mess me up. Then we went home and stared at each other for a while as we ate. He is so tired from MR, Friends. He’s off today. I hope the long weekend helps him find his verve again. I couldn’t bring myself to face the kitchen so I killed time until Candela Obscura started and then curled up on the couch to watch that. I watched until ~10 and then headed to bed. I was enjoying what I was seeing and I’ll definitely watch the rest when the VOD becomes available. This morning I was up at 7, did coffee and Tarot and dog chores, and then did my workout. I did both the Bodyweight and the dumbbells and my foot was only minority annoying, not enough to make me stop what I was doing. Definitely still noticeable though. I had a big win today with the bodyweight workout: I didn’t stop during any of my sets of dead bugs! 🥳 This is the first time I have done all three sets (of ten each side or 20 movements per set) without stopping mid set! That felt super good and empowering! My last three or four movements on the final set were a little shaky, but I know my form will get better as I get stronger. And considering that dead bugs are the absolute final exercise I do, I was pretty happy because getting them done when I am at my most tired is awesome. Then I showered and got ready for work, drove to the shop, got a coffee, and walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. The walk to the pharmacy wasn’t too painful, which was great. Now I am just chilling at the store, catching up on the forums and getting ready to work on my game prep. I need to plan some sailing encounters that will challenge my players now that they don’t have any magic items. Could be interesting. It seems to me that we are all going through some struggles right now. I wanted to say that I am grateful for all of the care and support in this space and proud of each of you for choosing to fight your battles with insight and self-compassion. You’re doing the damned thing and that is amazing. ❤️ Thanks for being here. ❤️ 14 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Harriet Posted May 26 Report Share Posted May 26 Ahhhhh deadbugs are deathly difficult. I admire your bravery. 1 1 Quote Let cheese and oxen and mead crowd out our secret desires for power and domination - Harriet the Viking Just be bold, fluid and unapologetic, not small, hairy and indecisive - Harriet the Artist You can absorb me! - Harriet the Contextless Guru Link to comment
Elastigirl Posted May 27 Report Share Posted May 27 Woot for those awesome deadbugs! They are super hard. 1 1 Quote Wisdom 22.5 Dexterity 13 Charisma 15 Strength 21 Constitution-13 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind' Luke 10; 27 Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 27 Author Report Share Posted May 27 22 hours ago, Harriet said: Ahhhhh deadbugs are deathly difficult. I admire your bravery. Thanks, Harriet! 42 minutes ago, Elastigirl said: Woot for those awesome deadbugs! They are super hard. Thanks, EG! I am pretty thrilled to be able to do them. Hi Friends! Definitely hit a snag last night. I went to Morales to pick up burritos for supper as it was their opening day and on my way back to the car stepped off the curb funny and pulled the arch of my right food really, really badly. This is the worst pain I have had with this since it started and I was not impressed. I managed to drive home and got Dave to bring me my crutches so I could get into the house. Took some anti inflammatories, ate my wonderful burrito, and had Dave help me get ready for game. He ended up running the combat for me which took most of the night but it was a good session. I just hung out, basically, and tried to forget I had a foot. We played until 10 (usually we end 9 or 9:30) and then I headed up to bed. Slept okay and foot is a bit more reasonable this morning, but I can only walk about a half dozen steps before I wish I had my crutches again, so I am using them even though they are annoying. I felt really idle this morning as I was finishing my coffee. Normally on Saturdays I spend a little time doing housework or laundry or something because I don’t have to be at the shop until noon. This morning moving was more difficult so I didn’t do any of that and just sat around scrolling my phone. It didn’t feel good and time took forever to pass. But I eventually got ready for work and Dave drove me to the shop. I am hoping that I am not bobbing up and down out of my seat to deal with customers today on a personal level, but the shop could really use the sales so I won’t be mad if people come in. Trying to not get really bummed out about this whole situation not resolving and actually getting worse. It’s so frustrating. Things do feel a bit better with my sandals on instead of barefoot, though, and that is nice. One of my favourite people might be joining the forums next challenge and I am super excited about it. I am feeling immensely supported and cared for and encouraged by the conversations that we are having about our goals and patterns and I keep glowing up how amazing and supportive this place is so I think that it will be a great fit. ❤️ I’m really looking forward to being off tomorrow. Might have to adapt my workout if my foot is still this bad though. I can spend some time researching that today, I think. I hope that you are encouraged and well supported by the people around you today. Thanks for being here. ❤️ 9 4 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Elastigirl Posted May 27 Report Share Posted May 27 I hope the foot heals soon! 1 1 Quote Wisdom 22.5 Dexterity 13 Charisma 15 Strength 21 Constitution-13 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind' Luke 10; 27 Link to comment
Snarkyfishguts Posted May 28 Report Share Posted May 28 I’m really sorry about your foot. I hope it heals up fast! I hope your favorite person does join the forums and yay for awesome dead bugs!! 1 1 Quote Link to comment
Heidi Posted May 28 Report Share Posted May 28 Sorry about the foot! This can feel so demoralizing! Your good work doesn't get erased even when we have to take a break. I'm having a weekend of MEH about house chores too! (Pay no attention to the basket of unfolded laundry -- I'm telling myself it's a win because it's clean.) Glad to hear you sharing the NF love. Our journeys are lighter when shared. 🙂 2 1 Quote ♥ & ☮, Heidi Spoiler Gypsy Druid Ranger: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 :: Druid: 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |:: 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 |:: 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 |:: 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 |:: 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 | 43 | 44 | 45 | 46 |:: 47 | 48 | 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53| 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 |:: 61 | 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | :: 70 | Paladin: 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | :: 77 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 | Shaman: 82 | 83 | 84 Philosopher-Librarian 85 | Heidi Chronicles NF Character Sheet | @theheidifeed| MySlashdotKarmaIsExcellent Walk to Mordor - (spreadsheet) Let's catch up: https://calendly.com/loveandpeace Link to comment
Snarkyfishguts Posted May 28 Report Share Posted May 28 5 hours ago, Heidi said: Our journeys are lighter when shared. This needs to be embroidered and framed. 1 1 Quote Link to comment
Harriet Posted May 29 Report Share Posted May 29 On 5/27/2023 at 8:20 PM, Sovalis said: One of my favourite people might be joining the forums next challenge and I am super excited about it. I am feeling immensely supported and cared for and encouraged by the conversations that we are having about our goals and patterns and I keep glowing up how amazing and supportive this place is so I think that it will be a great fit. ❤️ This is indeed a rather special place on the internet ❤️ I don't know of anywhere else quite like it. 2 Quote Let cheese and oxen and mead crowd out our secret desires for power and domination - Harriet the Viking Just be bold, fluid and unapologetic, not small, hairy and indecisive - Harriet the Artist You can absorb me! - Harriet the Contextless Guru Link to comment
Everstorm Posted May 29 Report Share Posted May 29 Sorry to hear about the foot pain setback. Hopefully you recover quickly 1 Quote Life before Death Strength before Weakness Journey before Destination Link to comment
Sovalis Posted May 30 Author Report Share Posted May 30 Hi Friends! It’s a Monday Respawn! I definitely did not take the best care of myself that I could have over the weekend between missed meals and a lot of junk food and I was feeling ambivalent about my goals for a bit, but that is not going to continue. I chalk it up to being injured and feeling a little woe is me, being anxious about the election happening today, and playing two games of D&D on the weekend which meant snacks. I *clearly* need to deal with some FOMO when it comes to in-person gaming snacks. Especially gummies. I had a *lot* of gummies during games this weekend. It was equal parts “it was there” and feeling subtle social pressure to eat them because they were brought for me by friends. And also possibly some “I’m hurt and deserve a treat” spam in that messaging, too. I am pretty good about my self control most of the time but Dave wanting something gets around it and feeling like I need to be socially acceptable (ie eat gift food) gets around it. And a lot of both happened this weekend. Ultimately I need to be better about cutting myself off and I am curious about why these particular situations seem to be thwarting my efforts. I was feeling pretty weird about the whole thing last night and couldn’t get my brain around it, which was why I didn’t post yesterday. I think part of me doesn’t want to be seen as a killjoy or feel excluded from the socialization of Game, and shared food is a part of that. Part of it is walking that line between “a little bit is okay” but also not knowing how much is “a little bit” when it comes to PCOS. I know that Nerd Fitness messaging comes back to the 80-20 split between “on track” and “off target” a fair amount, but I think my tolerances need to be tighter than that for things to be effective. I don’t really know how to sound that out, though, when weight loss feels like such an unpredictable crapshoot already and all or nothing thinking is something I am prone to. Part of it is the negative self talk that gets down on me for not already being a master of self-control and self-discipline. That particular strain is insidious. I know it is a liar, but sometimes it seems more credible than it should. I brought my tamari almonds to the table and shared them around, so I had a start on a better habit. But I think I need to set myself up with a treat I can eat in volume over time (and not a whole bag of almonds, there are limits on these things) that meets my goals. *AND* I need to make sure I am having breakfast and/or lunch on SpellJammer days because not eating beforehand sets me up for failure. Now that we are looking to play every week again this is becoming pressing. I need a solution that is as easy as grabbing a bag of candy, because I am not going to want to prep a veggie platter for 6 on my Sunday off. Here’s a thought: I can bring a huge bag of snap peas to the table for game. Even if I eat the whole bag, that isn’t nearly as many carbs as gummies and a whack load of fibre in there as well. I can try that next week. Will report back. Otherwise I am doing alright; my foot was bad Friday and Saturday but I was able to gingerly come off the crutches on Sunday afternoon and I’ve stayed off them today. I just can’t rush. Fast movement is no good. I am getting excited for holidays at the end of this week, too! Hopefully my foot is even better before we leave. *crosses fingers* I made soup today but didn’t do a great job of it due to ingredient issues and a liberal hand with the white wine vinegar, but it’s edible. Hopefully I am less checked out when I make it next. I hope that you have the strength of your convictions as you navigate today. Thanks for being here. ❤️ 10 Quote Past Challenges: #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8, #9 Current Challenge: #10 Link to comment
Jarric Posted May 30 Report Share Posted May 30 Sounds like you've got a good plan for game night eating. I think it's difficult because it's a situation where you can't control your environment. It's easier to not have snacks in the house than it is to have snacks in front of you and not eat them, but you don't have control over what's in front of you in a larger group. Glad the foot is a little better, I hope that continues for you. 2 Quote Level 20 Wood Elf Ranger STR: 15 - CON: 21 - CHA: 6 - SAN: 16 - INT: 17 IAgreeWithTank™ "Shit is going down, but I am not." - iatetheyeti Don't say "I don't have enough time", say instead "that's not a priority right now" and see how that makes you feel. Current Challenge: Jarric vs Mountain External: Epic Quest - Instagram - Strava Spoiler Previous Challenges: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 Old Stuff: Battle Log - My Introduction - 2017 Road Map - 2018 Road Map - 2019 Road Map - 2021 Road Map - 2022 road map/wrap-up Link to comment
Heidi Posted May 30 Report Share Posted May 30 10 hours ago, Sovalis said: Part of it is the negative self talk that gets down on me for not already being a master of self-control and self-discipline. I get this. You are good and doing well, and no amount of "perfection is adequate" self talk is helpful, so I'm here to help shoo that all-too-familiar demon back out of the house. 10 hours ago, Sovalis said: I need a solution that is as easy as grabbing a bag of candy, because I am not going to want to prep a veggie platter for 6 on my Sunday off. Yes, this was key for me, too. I can't go 80/20 on a very long list of things that I love: saltwater taffy and gummy bears, for instance or coffee, or processed food, or processed sugar. What's even harder is that I'm not on some sort of training program, where I care about the calroies or macros or whatever, and the easy yummy goodness of having "just one" or "just one bite" when Vivian wants to share with me is compelling. I have moved toward choosing yummy snack that can work in the 80/20 zone (specific brands of cookies, for instance, and some amazing homemade trail mix that makes a great gaming snack, because gaming snacks are part of gaming). I really like the snap peas option! Sending election love, and watching the results in the wings. 3 Quote ♥ & ☮, Heidi Spoiler Gypsy Druid Ranger: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 :: Druid: 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |:: 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 |:: 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 |:: 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 |:: 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 | 43 | 44 | 45 | 46 |:: 47 | 48 | 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53| 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 |:: 61 | 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | :: 70 | Paladin: 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | :: 77 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 | Shaman: 82 | 83 | 84 Philosopher-Librarian 85 | Heidi Chronicles NF Character Sheet | @theheidifeed| MySlashdotKarmaIsExcellent Walk to Mordor - (spreadsheet) Let's catch up: https://calendly.com/loveandpeace Link to comment
Salinger Posted May 30 Report Share Posted May 30 Hey Sov, how is the foot? xx 1 Quote Link to comment
Silmarilliane Posted May 30 Report Share Posted May 30 Snap peas sounds a good idea, plus tasty! Hope the foot is on the mend also 🤞 1 Quote Level 33 Rogue Ranger Welcome to the Dungeons of Doom; locate the Amulet of Yendor ♀ on Level 26 Challenges: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36 Link to comment
Harriet Posted May 30 Report Share Posted May 30 14 hours ago, Sovalis said: Part of it is walking that line between “a little bit is okay” but also not knowing how much is “a little bit” when it comes to PCOS. I know that Nerd Fitness messaging comes back to the 80-20 split between “on track” and “off target” a fair amount, but I think my tolerances need to be tighter than that for things to be effective. It would be cool if you could get a continuous blood glucose monitor, but they're a little expensive and I'm not sure if they're available everywhere. (My brother, a diabetic, gets his free. But if I wanted one I'd have to pay 150 euros for just one month's worth! It could be worth it to check one's reactions to different foods if insulin resistance were suspected, but I'm pretty sure insulin is not my problem) Anyway, I agree that 80-20 might not be the way to think about it if you're managing an insulin resistance problem: I think the frequency of high carb foods and sugar might matter as much as the amount. 20% could mean a sugar snack every single day, I guess? But once a week might not be so bad, especially if the amount is not too outrageous. And you can limit the blood glucose impact by having protein and fat first, and doing a little exercise to mechanically help glucose into the muscle cells. Not easy when gaming, I guess, but maybe everyone needs a stretch-and-airsquats break halfway through? 14 hours ago, Sovalis said: But I think I need to set myself up with a treat I can eat in volume over time (and not a whole bag of almonds, there are limits on these things) that meets my goals. Is the answer.... HAM? 14 hours ago, Sovalis said: Otherwise I am doing alright; my foot was bad Friday and Saturday but I was able to gingerly come off the crutches on Sunday afternoon and I’ve stayed off them today. I just can’t rush. Fast movement is no good. I am getting excited for holidays at the end of this week, too! Hopefully my foot is even better before we leave. Best wishes for your foot ❤️ 2 Quote Let cheese and oxen and mead crowd out our secret desires for power and domination - Harriet the Viking Just be bold, fluid and unapologetic, not small, hairy and indecisive - Harriet the Artist You can absorb me! - Harriet the Contextless Guru Link to comment
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