[Laghail]

26 minutes ago, fleaball said:

Told my father last night that Wednesday's therapy appointment was rescheduled for today at 3. At 3:15 he knocks on my door and I'm caught off guard so I say "I'm in therapy, go away." Now he's butthurt because I said "go away." Which in turn makes me upset because ptsd and not liking when people are mad at me etc. I didn't apologize and I'm not going to because I'm a petty bitch but uggggggh fucking really? 

 

Big hugs. Setting boundaries is a tough skillset. Sometimes I'll apologize for being tactless when I'm enforcing a boundary, but I'd only do that with someone who I'd trust to not take advantage of the apology and dive into shit that I've said is off-limits. 

 

26 minutes ago, fleaball said:

I still have to post screenshots of my library checkouts like I said I would do two weeks ago but I'm lazy. I also still have to reply to posts here and catch up with people but I'm too pissed off at my father's existence to do so. 

 

This is why god invented escapism - 10/10 you should bury yourself in a book for a hot minute. 

[fleaball]

I killed a big ol' spider that was crawling on my wall. Then a few minutes later, on the other side of the room, I feel like I need to brush something off my arm. 
 

yep. Another big ol' spider. Crawling on my arm. So if anyone needs me I'm just going to light myself on fucking fire because I'm going insane now thinking they're all over me. Jury's out on whether I'll actually be able to fall asleep tonight. ☠️

[fleaball]

As promised, all the books I currently have checked out. There was no easy way on phone, iPad, or laptop to get them all into a reasonable number of screenshots, so the ridiculous number of screenshots is under a cut because they're annoyingly huge. 
 

Spoiler

 

[Whisper]

I like the 10% happier book. It feels like a nice, reasonable goal. Not promising to turn everything around, but who wouldn't like to be just 10% happier?

 

Also, you don't owe your father an apology.  "I'm in therapy, go away" is a perfectly reasonable thing to say. 

[Severine]

On 9/24/2024 at 1:19 PM, fleaball said:

Doing two things a day is happening but true to form I'm not satisfied with just meeting the goal, I'm mad that it hasn't snowballed into totally clearing out my to do list and turning my entire life around.

 

I literally laughed/groaned out loud at how profoundly relatable this is. Like, I can set reasonable, attainable goals, but then there are also SECRET LUDICROUS UNDERLYING GOALS that seem to exist and have power over me without me (consciously?) wanting them to. and like...why, brain, why?

 

Your dad is a TikTok video on the definition of the word "manchild" just waiting to happen. 

[Bean Sidhe]

 

It has been a bit. I am not quite ready to do my own challenge, but I wanted to at least say Hi to my friends.
 

So hows things?

[Whisper]

1 hour ago, Bean Sidhe said:

 

It has been a bit. I am not quite ready to do my own challenge, but I wanted to at least say Hi to my friends.
 

So hows things?

 

 

Really good to see you Bean

[Bean Sidhe]

On 10/2/2024 at 8:38 AM, Whisper said:

 

 

Really good to see you Bean

Thanks Whisper. I am glad someone remembered me. I really did miss you all. I need to hunt down your thread now.