Weirdquark has fun and takes it easy

[weirdquark]

What is this alien notation?

Waldo's.

see this post:

http://nerdfitnessrebellion.com/index.php?/topic/29066-waldo-n-teh-abz-pt-2/?p=531567

** see the workout log key

 

Yeah, it's not all the same, but I'm using the same scale of rate of perceived effort and form. The "c" in mine mean that I did the reps consecutively (i.e. no more than a quick breath before going to the next one) rather than clusters -- I put my cluster sets in square brackets. And if I try for a rep and fail, then I tack on a "f" and whatever rep it would have been to distinguish these sets from the ones where I stopped because I could tell I'd fail on the next one without trying for it.

[jdanger]

Gotcha.

[concretecavewoman]

This is what I have deemed my body mullet: abs in the front, cellulite in the back.

 

On a related note, for Mir, re: my freakouts or lack thereof about my cellulite -- after my initial body assessment and weigh-in, I was in different lighting and noticed some dimpling in a place I had never seen it. And my first thought was, 'huh, weird' and wondered if something had changed or if I had just not been at the right angle before.

Thanks for posting these various articles on body image.  Given the saturation of messages in the -other- direction (you're not good enough, ermahgerd berly fat!) it's good to have all of this content aggregated here

[Strawberry Squatcake]

I agree! The body image stuff is great. I feel like at every turn we're taught to be ashamed (three of my FB friends in the past week (the past week!)) posted crap about women dressing for their size, and not a size they wish they were (meaning cover up), or "gross people" wearing stuff that's too revealing, or other summer-related stuff. I find myself wearing long pants and sleeves on my arms b/c I don't want people judging me. (I was even riding my bike in 100+ degree weather with a tshirt and capris to avoid shorts and a tank - stupid!!). But if they're going to, they're going to regardless, I guess. Just gotta love me for who I am now! That's the only way I'll ge healthier. Certainly covering up and hiding don't make me more active.  

[Strawberry Squatcake]

I finally read your long post! I put it off to the side before and wanted to be able to focus on reading it. I love that your takeaway to your past self is to eat more, and lift more, and to stop worrying. I'm so there. My goal is to "heal" my metabolism (if that's even possible), and be able to eat as much as I can and get to a healthy weight. I realized that if the only way I lost weight was by staying under 1100 or 1200 calories (which was short term when I drastically changed diet - maybe because willpower was at an all-time high, and I struggled to find foods to eat, then I adapted, and revert back to eating normal calories?). Anyway, I think it's so hard to see the difference between health and weight. And it's hard for people to think, "Why do I care what she's doing? Or why's she making such a big deal of it when it's obviously not working." Because "working" is defined by weight loss.

 

I'm on a buy/sell/trade group (mostly for entertainment) and there is this cycle of women with the Body By Vi shakes. One woman posts, "Hey, I've got ten of these I never used. Anyone want them!?" And then like fifteen women fight over them. It never occurs to them that woman 1 is selling them because either they didn't work or weren't sustainable. But I watch it. 4-5 times a week, someone's trying to dump the stuff, I assume at a discount. And these other women fight over it! I want to post, "Hey, for that same $50 you could buy some tasty protein, fruits and veggies! And enjoy eating." But, well, their goal is to lose and I'm not losing. I think society's so obsessed with the outside, we don't consider what's going on on the inside. And it's hard to get over that shallow mentality! Ugh. So frustrating.

 

Oh, and for me with weight gain, I swear my last 15-20 pound gain (which is now closer to 7-12) came on over night. I got back from Hawaii and I was down a few pounds. Then in the weeks following my weight suddenly went up like 5 pounds, then it steadily climbed over the next month. It was maddening! And I was like, "AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!! I'm trying to stop it and it won't stop!" I considered some very unhealthy things during those few weeks. I'm sure I probably gained about 5lbs on my trip since I ate pretty much what I wanted. And I was probably dehydrated when I got back, so that's why weight was down then rebounded back up. But the rest of that weight that kept coming? I still don't know. And now when I ge ton the scale and see +2lbs, I freak out. I was never that way before. But I definitely go into panic mode. And I shouldn't. 

[weirdquark]

Glad people are liking it!

 

I kind of think I should have named the challenge "Weirdquark passive-aggressively posts lots of stuff about how obsessing about your body image and diet can destroy your health, yes, even if you think you're eating healthy, if you're hungry and tired all the time something is wrong, stop it, please" instead though. Probably would have been over the character limit.

 

It's hard with weight gain drifting up because there's nothing wrong with wanting to look good, but it needs to not come at the expense of your health, but there's also a point where you want to not keep adding weight for health reasons too. And I have no idea if my current weight is problematic for my health; it's certainly well above what BMI says it should be but I'm not super muscular even if I'm reasonably strong, so it's not like I can say BMI is definitely not a good measure of health for me. But at my lowest weight, I wasn't anywhere near the low end of what BMI considers to be healthy -- I got down to around 120-125 depending on fluctuations, and BMI says I'm not underweight at 5'2" unless I'm under 100lbs. But clearly 125 was not a good weight for me because my periods stopped and I started to gain weight as soon as I stopped tracking and restricting calories and I still wasn't eating lots of carbs and I wasn't eating any sugar except for fruit with the exception of a bite here or there because eating more than that gave me a headache. So like a lot of the people who wrote posts that I linked to, I was eating 'healthy' and it wasn't working because something was wrong. Lucky for me, I decided not to become even more restrictive and cut more carbs and calories because that seems to make everything worse, so I'm hoping that all of my weird stuff is back to normal; my periods are, and have been for the past six months, and weight is still drifting up very slowly, so I don't know if it just needs to settle or if I'm overeating or if things are still a little bit messed up metabolism-wise, but I'm just going to try to eat when I'm hungry and if I want pizza and gelato I will eat it and I will continue to vaguely try to eat a lot of protein but otherwise not worry about it.

[Morrigainz]

I like your sensible approach.

 

And I guess I haven't seen a lot of pics of you, but I cannot stop thinking about your arms when you did a DL in that dress. So maybe you are not SUPER muscular, but it's not like you're not muscular at all either.

[weirdquark]

I like your sensible approach.

 

And I guess I haven't seen a lot of pics of you, but I cannot stop thinking about your arms when you did a DL in that dress. So maybe you are not SUPER muscular, but it's not like you're not muscular at all either.

 

Oh yeah, I definitely do have muscle, and you can see my biceps when I flex and all that. But while I'm pretty sure some of the weight I've added is muscle, my LBM is not what is making me be overweight; if my estimation of my LBM is correct, then if my BF% was 25%, I'd be a little over 135lbs, just under what BMI considers to be the high end of acceptable weights for my height. I could be totally wrong and my current BF% might be lower than I think it is -- I do have a couple of calculations that say it's in the mid twenties and it's all of the other calculations that say it's in the mid thirties that gives me the average use and maybe my actual body fat percentage is on the low end of the range and the higher numbers are all full of crap. Or it could be the other way around, I have no idea. But I think the average sounds about right, so that's fifteen pounds or so of fat that I would like to get rid of eventually and if that means I weigh 135, cool, and if that means I put on an equal amount of muscle and never lose a pound, that's actually even more awesome. I like messing with people's expectations; I like androgyny, so if I did cause gender confusion, I'd find that awesome (but I fear that my child bearing hips will always give me away) and I'd find it fun to go to a fair and confound the Guess Your Weight guy. 

[Morrigainz]

Haha - I would go see that! That would be awesome.

 

I bet you could do androgyny - as long as you dressed right. You definitely have some awesome hips on you but clothed properly you could disguise them.

[weirdquark]

I have the day off tomorrow, so I decided to sleep in today and lift tomorrow when I have more time to do ALL the volume instead. Mmm, sleep.

 

Body image: lookin' good (improving posture to look leaner? Still works.)

Weight: up a bit.

Lunch: downstairs

[nightlight]

i don't have anything to contribute. however, just wanted to say i love reading.

[Melaynah]

I have the day off tomorrow, so I decided to sleep in today and lift tomorrow when I have more time to do ALL the volume instead. Mmm, sleep.

 

 

 

 

Yup, made the same decision this morning.  Tomorrow is all about the volume, today, all about sleep and food!

[weirdquark]

Does "flattering" always have to mean skinny?

[weirdquark]

No work today, so long lifting session!

 

Body image: My hair looked really good when I got up. Like, there was this thing my bangs were doing where most of them were swept away from my face but there was this one lock that fanned out in a way I would never be able to do on purpose. My hair almost always looks better when I get out of bed -- is bed-tousled hair even still fashionable? I can never make it do that any other time.

Weight: up a bit.

 

Squats

65x5ec+

85x5ec+

105x5xc+

125x5y+

135x4y+f5

 

Volume: 2440

 

I haven't done back squats for a while except for the squat volume day where I figured it would be good to practice form while I was doing all of those reps. These felt better than they did the last time especially since 135 was usually my morning 1RM.

 

Squats(Hypertrophy Clusters)

95x[5xc+ 5yc+ 5xc+ 5yc+ 5xc+]

95x[5xc+ 5xc+ 5yc+ 5yc+ 5xc+]

 

Volume: 4750

 

Effort was on the easier side of "y" for these when I ranked them "y" - I suspect that my 10RM is higher than 95 since I was able to do ten reps at this weight a while ago but since I haven't done back squats much I thought it would be better to not push it too much, especially after the previous sets.

 

Bench Press

65x5ec+

85x3ec+

105x2xc+

115x1x+

125xF

125xF

120x1y+

120xF

 

Volume: 1025

 

125: still not an everyday 1RM.

 

Bench Press (Hypertrophy Clusters)

95x[5yc+ 5yc+ 5yc+ 5zc+ 4zc+]

95x[5yc+ 4yc+f5 4yc+ 4zc+ 3zc+]

 

Volume: 4180

 

I am amused that I used the same weight for these (because on bench volume day I was able to get ten reps at 95) though these were much harder than the squats at the same weight. Even if I had been able to get five reps on all of my sets these "y"s were closer to "z."

 

Deadlifts

115x5xc+

155x3xc+

175x1y+

185xF

 

Volume: 1215

 

Yeah, tired. Didn't feel like doing high volume DLs on top of these.

 

Rows

65x5ec+

85xec+

95x5xc+

95x5xc+

95x5xc+

95x5xc+

95x5xc+

 

Volume: 3125

 

I could have gotten way more volume if I had done 1-arm three point rows instead since I can do sets of five at around 60lbs with each arm, so that would be 120*5 per set, but I wanted to do this style.

 

1-arm DB swings

42.5x[5xc+ 5xc+ 5xc+ 5xc+ 5xc+]

42.5x[5xc+ 5yc+ 5xc+ 5xc+ 5xc+]

 

Volume: 4250

 

I noticed that these are kind of like the hypertrophy clusters.I normally only do one 'cluster' -- five reps per arm, put down the weight to write down the effort stats, do another set, five sets, fifty reps total for my butt. But since I did two sets of clusters for the other things I did two here as well.

 

Total Volume: 20985

 

Squat 1RM: 145

Bench 1RM: 125

Deadlift 1RM: 212.5

Total: 482.5

 

Multiplier: 43.49

[Cruella T'Kill]

 

Total Volume: 20985

 

Squat 1RM: 145

Bench 1RM: 125

Deadlift 1RM: 212.5

Total: 482.5

 

Multiplier: 43.49

 

 

[weirdquark]

My body the battle ground.

[weirdquark]

Body image: looking okay

Weight: about the same

Lunch: downstairs

 

I'm a bit tired from the volume yesterday -- not really sore anywhere, but tired. I may skip climbing tonight; I brought my gear so I can decide later. No sleeping in tomorrow for me either; there are errands that I can only run in the early morning, whee.

[cline]

Rest day rest day rest day

[weirdquark]

Rest day rest day rest day

 

Probably. I didn't bring snacks so I don't think I have enough food to last me until post-climbing. We'll see how I feel when it comes time to leave work.

[weirdquark]

Also, I have awesome bruises on my wrists due to being too tired to hold the DB off of them all the time when I was doing my swings yesterday.

[CourtnieMarie]

Haha - I would go see that! That would be awesome.

 

I bet you could do androgyny - as long as you dressed right. You definitely have some awesome hips on you but clothed properly you could disguise them.

I agree! My girlfriend has these great hips that are often described as "child-bearing" However the way she dresses has confused people more than once - in the bathroom, grocery store, lol anywhere! Just go with what feels comfortable to you

[weirdquark]

Decided against climbing. Kind of sad, but still probably a good idea. Came home and cooked up some pasta and dumped an egg and some cheese on it to make lazy carbonara (real carbonara has pancetta) and it was pretty awesome.

[cline]

Rest day rest day rest day. FTW

[weirdquark]

Though the best thing is that the errand that I was going to have to do tomorrow (involving leaving the house at 7:30) can't be done tomorrow so I don't have to get up at 6am to get my lifting in. Woo!

[Melaynah]

 

This.