ssDOit Posted June 13, 2013 Report Share Posted June 13, 2013 I posted in this blog a couple of months ago about my weight struggles. I still have them. I have actually gained more weight since then. I am 5'7" and 173 lbs. I used to be 5'7" 135 lbs. For some reason, in the beginning of my weight gain, I lied to myself saying that I was not getting bigger. told myself that I still fit into the clothes that I wanted to and still felt good about myself. After 20 lbs later, that was no longer the case. I saw pictures and was really unhappy with myself. I still didn't want to admit it to myself though so I still ate like I still had my metabolism of a high schooler (I'm 23, now). I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately and I realized I ate everytime I was depressed. I ate everytime I thought I was fat which made me depressed. I wanted to not be the fat girl trying to lose weight by not eating that slice of cake or pizza. I was somehow ashamed to admit to myself that I could not have some foods to limit my calories for the day and to be healthier. I used to be the girl that brags about how I can finish an entire pizza and felt great because I was 135 lbs. Now, I would eat the entire pizza because I feel depressed about being fat. I am also trying to reach happiness by having an addiction with shoe shopping because my shoe size hasn't changed. Now I am just tired. I am tired of the lies I tell myself. I am just done. I tell people now I can't eat that huge cupcake because I am trying to lose weight. I am trying to be healthy. I went to the doctor the other day and found out I had high cholesterol and low HDLs. I read the blogs and posts on this site and everyone really inspires me. I am now starting out small but trying to walk everyday and do a quick kettlebell swing or a work out in the morning before I shower. Any tips on motivation or eating or staying on track would be greatly appreciated . Quote Link to comment
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